Chapter 22

Fallout part 2

It had been over a month since Kate had heard from Clint, as her fingers dialed his number from memory. She was just wanting to hear his voice, someone who not that long ago was her best and only friend.

The phone rand and rand 'probably out saving the world' she thought

"Hello" Clint picked up, he seemed like he had run for the phone. Kate could hear someone in the background, probably Phil.

She felt a weight, something was telling her not to say anything and just hang up.

"Uh…Hello?" he repeated.

"Hi" Kate practically whispered "Agent Barton its Kate….Kate Bishop" she felt like he had probably forgotten her, as it was clear her number was no longer in his phone.

"Oh uh hi" he responded as the voice in the background urged him to hang up "look I was just about to head out for breakfast, can I call you back?"

"Sure" she said back disappointed as she hung up, she couldn't help but start crying as she knew he wouldn't call back.

As Phil and Clint headed out for breakfast, Clint's mind kept drifting to other places. When they finally ordered his mind hit a jackpot, maybe Kate calling was fate, maybe he could use her to get over Loki.

"Babe?" Phil's voice brought Clint back in the room "Getting lost in there?"

"What? Oh yea sorry" he smiled "Don't worry its me at the drivers wheel" he grabbed Phil's hand "I'm here…so why were you so adamant on us going out for breakfast?"

"Just thought it would be a nice escape" Phil smiled

Clint smiled back as he slipped his phone out of his pocket and texted Kate:

"Working tonight? If not wanna meet up?"

as he hit send the food arrived.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Kate felt stupid for calling him but dammit she missed him so much. Her phone buzzed on the table, she was happy to see Clint's name and hit reply:

"Free all night, any plan? K xxx"

Once she hit sent she felt butterflies in her stomach, he was finally willing to see her!

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

The food went down a treat, the waitress even comped their meals because 'Hero's should never pay' , Clint kissed her on the cheek "Thanks Mama" he said as they walked out.

Phil giggled "I forgot the perks of dating a hero" he smiled as he ran his hand up the inside of Clint's shirt, feeling goose bumps form where he touched "We don't have to go straight home you know" Phil grabbed Clint's hand and dragged him towards Central park.

"Central park?" Clint said as he looked around his SHIELD training kicking in

Phil noticed him surveying the area and grabbed his face "Babe this is supposed to be us relaxing" he kissed him "I mean look, I'm not even in a suit!"

Clint took a moment to take in the view of his lover, wearing an old pair of Clint's jeans and his tattered purple rolling stones hoodie. "Babe do you even own your own clothes" he smiled "I bet you were even born in a suit!"

Phil found a empty patch of grass and sat down patting the grass next to him for Clint to join him. "Maybe I just enjoy your clothes more!" he smiled as he kissed Clint "then again I would prefer them on our bedroom floor" he winked at Clint.

Clint just smiled as his mind allowed the memories of Loki flash back. He lay down on the grass to try and hide the wince on his face. Phil just put his head on Clint's chest and laid against him.

"See Clint" he smiled "Relaxing isn't so hard!" his hand moved up and down Clint's chest, making the archer take a deep breath.

Clint felt his phone buzz in his pocket, as he shifted to get it out of his front pocket, Phil sat up "Mr. popular, I didn't realize I was dating a celebrity" he joked as he laid back down.

He finally saw Kate's reply and his head took him back to the kiss they had months back and how she was so desperate to be loved by him. He finally wrote a response:

"No plan, Your place? 6pm?"

As he hit send he realized that he was planning to actually cheat on Phil, the love of his life, but if it would make Loki go away…it was worth it…Right?

"Babe" Clint finally spoke up "As much as I love this relaxing thing we are doing, I should really be training and doing all my amazing Loki related paperwork that you get to read".

Phil sighed because he knew Clint was right, the pile of work on his desk wasn't getting any smaller. He sat up on his elbows and kissed Clint, not wanting to face the real world. Letting all his want and passion be known through his kiss hoping Clint would give in and let him forget the world for a little longer.

Clint's groin responded to Phil's kiss, even though in the back of his mind he felt Loki watching everything making him pull back suddenly.

"Clint!? Sorry is this too much? Please don't shut me out" Phil was quick with the apology

Clint's face dropped at the reaction from his lover, he ran his hand down his face "Sorry my mind is still a little dodgy, lets get back to Stark tower"

Phil nodded knowing he rushed into it, he stood up putting out a hand to Clint.

They walked back to Stark tower in silence, Clint slipped his hand into Phil's watching him smile from the simple interaction. Before long they were back in the real world, they made it to Phil's office when Clint finally spoke "Thank you for an amazing morning babe, now don't work to hard" he smiled at him as he released his hand and watched him sulk behind his desk.

Clint headed straight for the gym to hopefully work of some of this confusion.

Kate saw the text from Clint and had started a manic house clean, her mind racing, why did he want to suddenly talk? She looked in the mirror automatically hating how she looked and jumped in the shower.

As he worked out his mind ran to dangerous places, his mind open and allowing him to get lost in a world of Loki and Phil. He snapped back to reality when Natasha walked in the door.

"Hey Clint" She smiled as she started stretching

"So my mind is making me want to sleep with Kate" he blurted out

Natasha practically fell over "Uh what! Why?"

"I honestly think it may help me forget everything Loki did" he was hoping she would see his plan.

"That Clint Francis Barton, is the stupidest idea I think I have ever heard" She placed her hands on her hips, showing her anger "You think cheating on the man you love with a woman who has told you she has feelings for you will help you get over what a Asgardian wannabe god did to you? Are you fucking high?" She started tapping her foot in anger " Look I have been your friend for years and I get you don't want to tell me what happened with Loki, but when you talk like this you make me want to knock you out again!"

Clint sighed mainly because he knew she was right, but his head kept pushing it as a good idea. "Nat there isn't much to tell, he took over my mind and saw all my secrets and took advantage of me making me question everything. Now when Phil kisses me all I can think about is Loki" he took a breath trying to read her face. "His touch was so cold it was like ice and electricity entering your body at the same time, I feel like an addict to that feeling, almost like I will always be searching for his touch" he looked at Natasha who just shifted.

"Clint how did you think sleeping with Kate would help in anyway?" She snapped "Phil has been through so much shit for you and yet your willing to throw it all away so fucking easy" she threw down her towel " you walk around like your un fucking touchable, but Clint you're a fucking mess and we are all here picking up your pieces constantly, Grow up Clint" her face was red from yelling, when she finally took a breath and looked at Clint who was clearly shocked by her outburst. "Sorry Clint, you know I don't bullshit you. I have already watched you practically die twice this year, and I'm tired of preparing my goodbyes and watching Phil fall apart.

Clint was in shock but he understood her anger, he never thought how the team had also suffered from his injuries and his disappearing acts. "Nat I…I'm sorry, I guess I never thought about the entire picture. I was selfish" he picked up her towel and handed it back to her "That's why I need you Nat! you can always ground me" he dragged her into a hug.

"Don't got see her Clint, that will kill Phil" she said mid hug, knowing he would listen to her.

Kate looked at the clock, 5:30pm her stomach was already in knots when she decided to go outside for a cigarette, That's when she saw him, he was across the road a bit further down. She couldn't help but stare at him, his arm muscles showing through his shirt like they were trying to escape and the way his jeans hung off his hips as he walked. By the time he reached her she was already hot and bothered.

"That's a dirty habit Doc!" he said as he walked up to her and smiled.

She felt the butterflies going crazy in her stomach "Blame the stress, its not easy being me" she smiled as she put her cigarette out in the ashtray. "How are you, I've missed you" she started "and I am really sorry for everything, I totally overstepped the line there"

Clint hushed her "Lets go inside, a little more private" he smiled

"Phil doesn't know you're here does he?" she asked "Are you trying to make him hate me even more? Why are you even here Clint!" she was getting annoyed as she looked at his blank face, getting hurt by his lies.

'Can I really do this, it could be our secret' he thought 'Do it, it's the right thing Clint'

"Because Kate I'm here to give you something you want" he said as he went in to kiss her.

Kate was shocked by what was happening, was this a joke, she pulled back

"Don't you want me Kate? Well here is your chance, I'm yours to have" he said looking at her straight in the eyes.

"What! But…Phil! And plus last time I checked we bat for the same team" Kate couldn't believe what was going on "Are you having a early midlife crisis?"

Clint let a devilish smile sweep across his face as he pulled her close "Play doctor with me Kate, see me as the man you want, forget everything else" he started kissing down her neck feeling her heart begin to race as his hands moved down to her belt.

'This is wrong' Clint thought, his mind seemed to respond back 'it's the right thing Clint, do it'

"Clint this isn't right!' her breathing fastened "This isn't fair!" she let out a moan as he pushed her back on the bed, and with that she gave in.

Clint felt strange, he knew what he was doing was wrong but something kept pushing him forward. He helped Kate shimmy out of her jeans and then took off his shirt and joined her on the bed leaning on top of her to kiss her.

Kate was going crazy everything she wanted was being laid out in front of her. Her hands were enjoying there chance to discover the muscles on his body. With every touch and every kiss she was getting closer to the edge. She moved her hands down to his belt watching him sit up allowing her to fully remove it from its loops. She took her time undoing his pants as she was expecting to wake up from this dream.

Clint felt a fire in his belly feeding off the passion in the room, he looked down at Loki, he shook his head hoping to make him go away, when a hand touched Clint's chest and that icy feel made his heart race. "Come on Clint isn't this what you want?" Loki said as he removed his top. Clint brushed off his confusion, happy to see the man in front of him, he jumped up practically ripping the rest of his clothes off and preparing himself to fill Loki.

Kate was shocked by Clint's sudden change of pace, but who was she to complain as he jumped back on top of her placing his hand on her clit and moving it in a sensual pattern, Kate couldn't help but moan, clawing at his shoulders as he began kissing down her body towards her vagina.

Clint wanted in everyway to please Loki and when he felt the gods nails dig into his shoulders he moaned "God why can you turn me on so much" he blurted out "Some thing so wrong shouldn't feel this good"

Kate grabbed on to the quilt on the bed as Clint's tongue worked his magic, she wanted to scream his name until her voice was hoarse, when she heard him talking. She opened her eyes as she saw a light blue flash in his eyes. "Clint?" she asked as she watched him ease his throbbing cock into her.

"Oh Fuck!" Kate practically screamed, she had imagined this way to many times; as Clint filled her she already felt so close to orgasm.

Clint held the gods hands down as he felt his cock engulf the mans hole, he began moving faster wanting to hear the god scream his name out of pleasure, the moans pushing him closer and closer to the edge.

"Fuck Clint, Faster, Harder"

The plea's made Clint go insane, pushing himself deeper and harder until he heard his lovers release and joined not long after.

"I knew you were always the slut Hawkeye" Loki laughed " I mean hell you just fucked woman thinking it was me! How sad and pathetic" and with that Loki disappeared and Kate was lying beneath Clint with her eyes closed panting drenched in sweat.

All Clint could do was roll over, his head was killing him, 'what the fuck was that' he thought yet again his mind had pushed him to do the wrong thing thanks to the trickster.

"Clint….I…Uh" Kate panted "uh….wow that's a fuck I hope I get bruises from", she felt him sit up , she looked over at him "Clint? You okay?"

He wanted more than anything to just run out of there, why would he ever think this was a good idea. He grabbed his underwear and jeans and headed for the bathroom, where he spent about 20 minutes staring at himself in the mirror. 'FUCK! What the fuck did I just do!' he thought as he checked his phone, two text messages were on the screen:

Phil 3

'Hey Babe, All my work is done! Can we play now ;)

Love you xxxxx P'

Nat

'Where are you Clint? If you are with her! SO HELP ME GOD!'

'Crap Crap Crap' he threw on his clothes running back into the bedroom searching the room for his top. " Kate I…uh…I have to go…Uh….Thanks for the fuck" he grabbed his shirt off the floor and practically ran to Stark tower dressing on the way, trying to plan his excuse.

Kate didn't even have time to respond, as the door slammed behind Clint. "Thanks for the fuck?" she grabbed her shirt and headed for the bathroom. 'Way to go Kate, used again' she thought as she turned on the shower.