"What would you do without me?" Jay asked Emma as he drove.

Emma laughed looking down to hide her blush, and noticed her hands shaking and then shoved them into her coat. It was the rain, just the rain.

They pulled into her driveway and she frowned, wishing she didn't live so close to the Dot.

Jay didn't even ask her why she was just sitting there with him, it was just a comfortable silence.

"How about I give you my number?" Jay asked Emma out of nowhere she even gave him a wierd look, "For when you do need a ride...anywhere.. any..time." he clenched his jaw and rolled his eyes as Emma looked off, nodding.

"Ok." she shrugged, no harm right?

Jay raised an eyebrow, really? She simply pulled her phone out of her pocket and waited for him to take it until he smirked and grabbed it, putting his number in.

"Rick going to get mad?" Jay slowly asked, Emma could just hear the smirk even sometimes..

"If he does I'll give you a warning so you can run and hide." Emma joked back giving him a look.

Jay laughed, "Thanks." he handed her back her phone, "Cause that guy really knows how to protect his girl from wondering eyes."

Emma felt her heart skip and tried to ignore it.

Jay coughed, noticing her uncomfortable, maybe his flirting disgusted her? He awkwardly looked away, "So I'll see you tomorrow?" she probably wanted to go, run actually, away from him. And he just wouldn't shut up.

Emma oh'd, looking at him, she could take a hint.. she opened the door and muttered, "Thanks."

Jay tapped the steering wheel and couldn't help but add, "Call me, if you need a ride." he confirms.

Emma smiled, feeling a bit better and nodded, shutting the door. It was getting dark but still raining and she ran to her house as Jay pulled away.

Emma went into her house calling out to her mom, then Snake...no one was home. She went to turn on a light but nothing worked. OH shit. She hated the dark, let alone being alone in a house that was usually full.

Jay was just a block away when he heard his phone go off...a text.

Could u come bak? Powers out..little scared

Jay shook his head smiling, happily rolling his car around and back from where he came.

"Thought you were all save the earth?" Jay asked Emma as she let him in, "Isn't no electricity part of that?"

They stood in the dark after Emma shut the door, "Shut up."

"Good one." he taunted back, hearing her moving around but barely seeing her until she lit a match and set a tall candle on fire.

The way it glowed off her... Jay felt his breath get shakey and he looked away as she lit another.

They sat on the ground leaning on her couch in the dark with few candles, enough to really see another but just dim.

"First pets name you had.." Emma went on asking questions.

Jay smirked, "Rufio."

Emma nodded entertainingly, "Dog?"

"Fish."

She laughed.

"My turn for questions." Jay confirmed.

Emma lifted her hands like she had nothin' to hide.

"Your first party?" he teased, wondering about her less talked about ways.

Emma rolled her eyes, "8th grade.. Sean ruined that though." even Emma noticed the way Jay looked away at the mention of Sean and she stopped breathing.

Oh god, she shouldn't of brought him up. Wait.. why not? She wasn' t on some date and Jay, the hottest guy in school, did NOT like her.

"He screwed you up huh?" Jay asked, finally looked at her.

Emma watched the candle and the wax drowning at the top because of the fire and then shrugged.

Jay corrected himself, "With trusting people.." he pressed on.

Emma finally looked at him, "I trust people."

"Manny and your family doesn't count." Jay said, giving her a 'I know what youre thinking' look.

Emma tugged her hair behind her ears and Jay admired her against the dim light.

silence.

"First friend you had?" Emma changed the subject.

Jay licked his lips and slowly gave a nod, so that answered his question, but he wouldn't pressure her.. "Towerz." he admitted and Emma giggled.

"You and Towerz in diapers playing..fun to imagine." Emma teased.

Jay smirked giving her a playful glare, "We were 5. My mom kept me in the house a lot, she uh.." he drifts off, not believing he was saying this, "She had some mental depression illness. I met Towerz through foster care."

Emma softened, watching Jay. Her heart skipped again and she bit her lip, taking a deep breath.

More silence in the dark...

Emma spoke up, "Sean and I dated 3 years, did you know that?" she asked Jay who actually looked a bit taken back. She nodded, "On and off."

Jay gave a wierd look... Sean didn't actually tell him it was that long..

She went on, "When I think about the year we started dating.. and I try to think about things other than Sean? I Can't. I was too young." she tried to explain, "It's like when you try to remember so far back but you can't, but i do know I had him...so.. how am I suppose to go back to normal? To JUST me.. when it was never just me." Emma's eyes looked up, trying to think, "and I can't remember who I was before him. I think thats the worse part."

Jay's eyes watched Emma with sadness.. He didn't even know what to say.

"So yes." Emma looked back at him, answering, "It is hard trusting people after he left me alone, wondering who I am, YES, it screwed me up."

Jay looked down, feeling bad he used that word.. he just meant it was an issue now trusting people with her. Other than that, she was pretty fucking amazing.

"Sorry." she whispered, looking down.

"Don't be." Jay admitted, "I could win a metal with my trust issues too." he said and she smiled sadly, nodding.

He didn't say anything, but Emma felt deep down not even Sean knew about Jay's mother or her illness or he was in foster homes..

She was starting to trust Jay now..and hopefully her too.

Jay tried to change the subject for a better mood, "I should take a picture of us in the dark with thse candles and send it to your boyfriend." he smirked dangerously, "Make him think you're a little heart breaker yourself."

Emma laughed shaking her head and shoved him lightly, "Not my boyfriend." she muttered.

Jay smiled, but not over what he said, but what she answered with

What if I was good to you, what if you were good to me
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me
What if it was paradise, what if we were symphonies
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you

I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more
But you know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't want to be lonely anymore