Emma was at her locker near the end of another failing day. For going to the dance with Rick? He barely spoke to her..
She hadn't even told Manny about Rick finally asking her.. why not? Shouldn't she be thrilled? She wasn't embarressed or anything
"Em?"
Emma turned wondering who the speaker could of been and turned to see the one and only Sean Cameron.
Meanwhile, Jay was walking towards detention as usual when he bumped hard into a body and went to glare, but stopped.
"I-I'm rather s-sorry Jay. Please don't kill me." Rick stuttered.
Jay eyed him closely, almost like he was sizing him up. It made Rick shiver. Jay then snickered and looked around, "I don't see it."
"S-see what?" Rick didn't understand
"Emma." Jay bluntly said, rolling his eyes like Rick was the stupid one for not just knowing, "What does she see in you?" hes been non stop thinking of her since the other night happened..
Rick tried not to be insulted, but put his chin up, "I'm a very kind man, and it's not a secret my brain is my charm."
"Right, brain." Jay said boredly.
Rick just nodded, yet was still scared so went to leave but Jay grabbed him and he gasped.
"So what?.." Jay drifts, "I gotta dress nerdy or something to catch her attention?"
Even though still in Jay's grip, Rick had to softly laugh, "My ... are we smitten with Miss Nelson now?"
Jay let go of him roughly, glaring. Rick brushed the wrinkles Jay made in his mothers favorite plaid button up shirt and glared but didn't look into Jays eyes, "I know some girls don't think bullying is attractive, or smoking."
Jay rolled his eyes laughing, "It's Emma, she's known for not liking bullying or smoking." he went around Rick and began turning the corner to enter the lockers hall and abruptly stopped.
There she was, and talking quietly with Sean Cameron who Jay noticed looked way to close for his liking..
Meanwhile, Emma could barely look Sean in the eyes as he spoke to her, telling her he, Sean Cameron, was worried about her. Go to hell!
"Well, I'm fine." Emma snapped back at him, going back into her locker and trying to seem busy.
Sean leaned on the locker beside hers, "We can talk..whenever you want. You know that."
"Oh I do?" Emma shot daggers at him and replied, "Because I was sure we were on a mutual hatred base."
Sean looked down, but then slowly and softly put his hand on Emma's hip and softly whispered, "You know I can never hate you."
All that Emma tried to hide away just crawled right back up in her.. the pain, and loss she felt when Sean left her..and at the worse timing when Snake had cancer and Spike just had a baby that Emma felt only she watched over..
How could he hurt her like that?
Sean let go, and took a deep breath, "I'll see you around." he told her and left. As he walked away he got near the end of the hall when he lifted his gaze from the floor and up to Jay.
Jay stood there, glaring madly and even swallowed the jealousy and hurt down in his throat, he knew he shouldn't of been so obvious but he just couldn't hide it. THere was something about Emma he could never shake off, and he had finally come to the relization that girl did infact, have him smitten and falling.
"What?" snapped Sean, glaring back but really not knowing what the look was about
Jay just clenched his jaw and shrugged, looking past Sean and watching Emma not notice them and shut her locker, walking off.
"Dance is soon.. you get asked yet?" Manny stood with Emma inside a store for dresses.
Manny was outside the changeroom infront of the mirror wearing a yellow dress as Emma sat in a chair, waiting for her and playing judge.
Too much like a banana, Emma noticed, taking in Manny's pick of a dress then answered, "No." wait, yes you did. Emma looked down at her feet.
Manny raised an eyebrow, "Em it's in a week! You gotta start moving." she teased, smiling wide until she frowned and went serious while walking over to Emma, "Heather Sinclaire is telling people she saw you and Sean talking the other day?"
Emma stared blankly and tried to blink to shrug, "He just came up to me." she said, mono tone.
Manny sadly watched Emma, damn Sean for breaking this poor sweet girl.. "Em, talk to me." she begged her best friend
Emma wouldn't even look at Manny until she swallowed a lump in her throat and sadly looked back at Manny, "I hate that I still hurt over him." she finally broke into tears.
Manny gasped and pulled Emma into a tight loving hug, "Boys do this, they hurt us because they think they have that power.. Em you are so strong.. you will get over this when you realise you really were better than him and he never deserved you."
Emma shut her eyes hugging Manny tighter and shook her head, "Its messed me up so much." she cracked. She made such an ass out of herself with Jay,she shouldnt of brought Sean up to him but I dont know..talking to Jay made her feel so much better..happier
And where was he today?
She really wanted to see him..
Manny's heart broke for Emma, she knew what she meant! "Em, Craig messed me up times two since I had a bun in the oven." joked Manny, letting a tear drop herself as she pulled away from the blonde, "It took me a year.. and I still make bad choices.. but I know I'm going to be okay, I know I have to kiss some toads before I find my prince."
Emma whiped her tears as she laughed, shaking her head, "You're so stupid." she teased, laughing harder and Manny joined in and hugged her once.
"Course I am..look at the dress I just picked out." she joked and they laughed again.
Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
The next day Emma sat in class and as the teacher was doing a lesson, she chewed on the top of her pencil while in thought.
Mrs Kwan the english teacher was going on about the book they were reading, "I think the best argument as to why Romeo and Juliet might be in love is probably that each would want to die, rather than live without another." she went up and down the isle as she spoke, "Sometimes when people fall for another, the perfect way to test yourself is thinking of your daily routine without them in it, think of how it would affect you."
Emma listened in and out of this lesson and she couldn't help but look around until she slowly and sneakily turned her head to look over her shoulder. Sean and Jay were in the back where she looked, and Emma thought about what the teacher had just said.. she smirked, seeing Jay talking during the lesson as always, not even caring and Kwan giving him a look but not suprized by it. Emma then looked at Sean.
..thinking of her daily routine and not ever seeing Sean.. it'd feel good. Emma stared off.. it'd feel real good to never see or be reminded of him again. Emma glanced at Rick.. Rick wasn't even really part of her life nor normal routine.
Her routine of life? Wake up, call Manny, meet Manny and Liberty at school, have her usual teasing with Jay, go to classes, meet her enviromental club, then meet the girls for lunch- Emma stopped thinking. Jay. Jay was in her normal routine.
She glanced at him again and bit her lip. When you had such a close enemy of the opposite sex, it could be dangerous.. you bond through out the process, I mean.. the person REALLY finds out what does and doesn't crawl under your skin. They know you..and then, they aren't your enemy anymore..then you might start to get along, then they know you even better..
Why did Emma go into such denial when she thought about what Jay was to her now?
Emma jumped when the bell rang and quickly gathered her books up.
"Meet you at lunch?" Manny asked Emma who nodded and went to walk to the only class she didn't have Manny in.
When Emma was in the hall she noticed Jay go to his locker and grab his hat and keys, she rolled her eyes but smiled and walked over.. he must be skipping next class!
"Classic Jay." Emma taunted, going to him..she's noticed he hadn't all day nor did he the other day...it really...bothered her. Yeah, just bothered. But now she smiled adorably and happily infront of him.
Jay didn't even look over, knowing her voice to well, "What's so classic?" he asked dully, pretending not to be effected by her presents. Seeing her with Sean again...he wasn't use to feeling jealous...he's never felt..possesive..or hurt. So yeah, he was a bit hurt right now from her.
Emma frowned a bit, looking down and then went to explain-
"Hey stud, come see-" the one and only Amy bounced over to them and stopped talking when she saw Emma and her shoulders dropped, unamused by this.
Jay noticed Amy and coughed awkwardly, looking to Emma and shrugged, "Ditching 4th period." he simply stated and Emma nodded slowly, she knew already.. because she knew him.
Jay tilted his head a bit concerned when Emma seemed to stare off into space before she blinked and looked at him, "Have fun."
Amy snorted, "Aren't you suppose to give us a speech right now about education?" she taunted.
Emma just looked at Jay, who for some reason had nothing to say either nor even looked at her. Jay's always teased her but he's never insulted her, and the names he called her like Greenpeace and polka dot if she wore that pattern to school, was cute. . I don't know, maybe she just thought Jay would stand up for her or something.. kinda like 'only I can tease her' kinda thing, because that was their thing.
Jay's mouth fell a bit when Emma just walked away and he watched her go and tried to stop watching her but he couldn't...and he felt like such a shit head. Sean and Emma were only talking, could of been much worse!
"As I was saying." Amy put her hands on his chest, "You should come see my new car." she purred, "Maybe you'll like the back seat." she whispered in his ear, "You haven't been back there for months."
She gasped a bit when he just walked off, leaving her hanging and her mouth dropped and glared, crossing her arms. Rejected.
Emma was out front of school now when she went to cross the street to begin walking home but a motorcycle stopped in front of her, cutting her off. Emma gasped and jumped back, glaring hard at the driver til they took off their helmet. Sean.
"You okay?" he asked her and that was when Emma realised she was crying, and she put her hand to her cheek, touching the tear and tried to quickly wipe them away. Her heart felt weak too... and just a second she felt happy? Well that went to shit.
Over the silence, Sean sadly looked at her.
"Let me drive you home." he said, and it wasn't a question.
Emma felt humilated enough, so took the offer to get out of there and home fast. She nodded and he passed her his helmet as she walked to the back of his bike.
Up at the entrance of the school, Jay had rushed out and then saw Emma getting on the back of Sean's bike, wrapping her arms around him.
Jay clenched his jaw and his heart felt like it was going to rip out of his chest. He turned to walk inside to bump into Manny's Santo who looked up.
"H-" Manny stopped from greeting him to shut her mouth... she's never seen Jay look.. bothered. He was usualy care free. But his eyes told it all.. he was in pain for something and for some reason couldn't even look her in the eye.
She saw him glance at one more thing before he turned back and walked around her, leaving. Manny quickly glanced where he was to only see Emma riding off with the boy who broke her heart a million times and even shook her head as well.
As for Jay, as he turned to walk back into school, his anger even shocked him when he punched the doors window before entering and it smashed to pieces.
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more