Emma was feeling so out of it, staring at the floor when Manny nudged her, "What about this one?"
Emma snapped out of it and looked at the dress Manny showed her and then groaned, "Manny can't you just pick a dress? It's been days now." she joked
"Lookin for you silly." Manny confirmed, looking through the rack again as she walked at the same time.
Emma followed after and felt her feet being dragged, "Rick asked me." she finally confessed and Manny scrunched her face up but turned and smiled
"Well! That's what you wanted right!?" Manny asked and Emma shook her head and slowly shrugged, confused.
"I thought it was." she said.
Manny stopped walking and turned to her, "Or.." she drifts, "Is that what you just thought you needed?"
Silence.
"Rick was safe. I could of never really liked him." Emma finally admitted, feeling a little better and Manny tilted her head, pouting.
"Which meant he could of never ever really hurt you." Manny said, understanding completely. She looked around before she took a step closer, "Are you getting back together with Sean?" she whispered.
"WHAT?! NO!" Emma yelled and then her eyes widened, looking around. She was sorry but wow! What an insane question.
Manny sighed, "Then why have you been hanging out with him?"
"I haven't!" Emma exclaimed, "He tried to talk to me and then after a bad situation he offered me a ride home." she looked at Manny like she was crazy. Get back with Sean!? No way!
Manny gave an odd look, "Bad situation?"
Emma bit her lip and then took a deep breath, "Usual banter with Amy and ... well, just Amy."
"Just Amy?" Manny didn't believe her.
"Well, Jay was there.. but he didn't say anything." Emma felt it again, her heart weaken and drop. She looked away from Manny when she brought him up.
"That jerk! He has the nerve to come to your house with Spin and then not even atleast tell Amy to piss off?" Manny shook madly. She didn't understand! She use to think Jay and Emma secretly actually had become dysfunctional friends during the time they vowed to mess with another as soon as one stepped into school everyday..and with Jay coming and hanging out she thought it was a war coming to an end, but noo-
"Do you think I really wish Jay would come to my rescue?" Emma laughed yet it sounded so fake and she even looked like she wished he did.
Even Manny caught it and eyed Emma hard then crossed her arms slowly, "I don't know." she challanged, finally catching Emma's eyes by her firm voice, "Do you?" she raised an eyebrow.
Emma was in pure shock and shook her head no quickly and madly, "How could you ask me that?!"
"It just seems you wish Jay would of spoke up." Manny said and noticed Emma look away when she said his name again. It made sense now...was Jay watching Emma and jealous the other day?
"Lets go home." Emma snapped, finally looking at Manny again, glaring.
"Jay." Manny 'ah ha!'d when Emma looked away again, "Why do you keep avoiding my eyes when I say his name?"
"Your crazy." Emma went around her but Manny yanked her back.
"Your inlove" Manny shot back and Emma shut her mouth and looked like a dear in the headlights.. Manny's mouth fell, she didn't mean to say 'love' and didn't think Emma would take it so seriously but she saw the look on Emma's face..that she was right
"I'm not..." Emma sounded so weak, "I can't be.." she drifted off and thought about it, leaning on a wall.
Manny tried to offer better advice, "You see him every day." she laughed a little, "And he is charming..when he wants to be. And a babe.." she admited.
Emma felt it, the jealousy when Manny called the guy SHE wanted, badly, attractive and charming, and she knew this was the start of her admitting she had fallen for Jay. She laid her head against the wall she leaned on, giving it up. She was in love with Jay. Everything about him seemed to pop out so much to her. He was amazing.. crawls under her skin purposely, but still amazing, and funny, and trust there..always.
And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
[Chorus:]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.
Rick shut his locker the next day to find Emma standing there, with a sad smile, "My lady!" he cheered happily and grinned to then give a confused look at why Emma's friend was beside her too, looking nervous.
Liberty.
Emma gave a pitied look at Rick, gees..she really was in denial. My lady? Jay would of loved that..
"Rick this is Liberty." Emma introduced her to him.
They shared small smiles, but Rick was still confused but admitted "Lovely to meet you, I hope it's not a hassle that I started another science club." he told the other leader, "You're statistics and methods blow me away.."
Liberty shook her head, blushing like mad, Emma rolled her eyes smiling. Nerd talk.. she maybe had a brain, but she didn't enjoy the talk of math or anything..she just knew grades were important for her future. But these two?
They were perfect for another.
"My Methods? You're the one who won last mathematics championship." Liberty reminded and he blushed like mad and couldn't even speak while he scratched the back of his neck and shrugged bashfully.
Emma got to the point, "Rick, you're going to take Liberty to the dance this weekend, not me."
Rick stopped, and stared at Emma, to then think about it and softly smile at Liberty, "She has no objections?"
"Not a single one." Liberty answered for herself proudly.
Emma silently laughed, watching the two take closer steps to another and talking about arrangements for the dance, and then back to math and giggling with another. Love at first site.
Emma happily turned and left them be to stop when she almost ran into somebody.
Jay.
Jay stared down at her and his eyes seemed suprized to see her, but his mouth stayed silent. Emma looked away and walked around him, walking off slowly and a bit sadly.
Jay stood there and shut his eyes tightly before turning and following after her, "Emma!"
Emma just shook her head while walking, why should she turn around to him? He was being such an ass the other day.
Jay grabbed her elbow and stopped her, "Why are you mad at me?!" he had to blurt out, giving her an incredulous look. He should be the one mad! And her chasing him!
"Don't you have somewhere to be?" Emma taunted, squinting her eyes madly up at him, "It's 4th period." she went to turn and he grabbed her again as she took notice to someone coming their way, "Oh and there's your sidekick."
Jay was trying to talk but gave her a baffled look to gaze to what she glanced at, Amy, who was coming right to them then shot Emma a look, "What is that in your voice GP?" he feared asking this but had to, "Jealousy?"
Emma fumed, shoving his hand off her to then get a closer look at that hand, all cut up and looked pretty bad
"Hey Jay." Amy greeted him as Emma still watched Jay's hand, confused.
"Now now Amy." Jay informed, eyes still madly on Emma.
Amy crossed her arms, "Then when?" she snapped and Emma looked at her... did that mean Jay usually waved her off?
Made Emma a bit more happier..
"When I care to." Jay squinted his eyes pretending to think, "Which is probably never. Go bug Alex or Towerz." he bittered, over this situation.
Him and Emma needed to get things straight. No Amy, no Sean, no Rick.. just them.
Even some people raised eyebrows while passing, impressed or amused he, Jay Hogart, yelled at one of his own friends to go bug off.
Amy angered and clenched her fists while glaring at him until she snapped her eyes at Emma, she knew Jay had been following Emma around more than usual, and the secret crush was turning into way more, her blood boiled over it.
"Careful, he tends to get bored after you put out." bittered Amy to Emma, storming off just as the bell rang.
Emma snickered bitterly, giving Jay an 'are you serious?' look and walked off again.
Jay groaned, frustrated, but still grabbed her again, but held her with arms with two hands now. The halls were now emptying with students going into classes.
"Stop running away!" he yelled at her, and it echoed, since now being empty besides them two, and by the tone it sounded he wasn't just talking about physically.
Emma's mouth dropped but she glared at him, then his hand, "What happened to you? Go walk through a glass door?" she taunted.
"Window actually." snapped Jay without relizing it and then awkwardly looked away, "...and I punched it." he admitted lowly. How come he couldn't just LIE to this girl? He use to be so good at that with other girls.
"Why?" Emma asked, trying to still look mad but couldn't help but care..
Jay licked his lips nervously then coughed, mustering up courage, "Cause you make me mad." he confirmed.
Emma's heart sank.
"And you make me crazy too." he added with a snicker and looked up thinking about it, "Infact you've even made me feel hurt, a-and don't get me wrong, you probably make me more happy more than you do make me mad, and you've made me more happy than anyone else has made me."
Emma's mouth fell, not understanding where he was getting at.
"But when you make me hurt?" Jay couldn't even look her in the eyes as he held her and spoke, "That's when I know I think I love you...cause I don't want to give up or go away as much as that hurt sucks." he snickered looking her in the eyes now, "Probably hurts more because I've never felt it." he swallowed hard, "You know.. being jealous? Or Possesive.. worried.. I don't usually have these feelings but when you're around or on my mind, it's there." he let one hand go off her so he could tap his forehead.
Emma's mouth hung open as if she was going to say something, but couldn't think of anything, her heart was thumping like mad and she could barely breath.
"Won't go away." Jay softly confessed.
Emma thought this was like the dream she had over and over of when she would tell HIM her feelings, but him doing it made her just want to have a heart attach, she was speechless.. wasn't this suppose to be easy? Just admit you want him too.
Wait.. did he just say he loved her?...
That was way more and 1000 times more than what Emma expected for today or to EVER come out of him. It was like going into shock, not knowing how to even blink. She took his other hand off of her gently, the one that was all cut up..because of her? Then she tried to blink and turned around, walking off.
Jay stood there, in shock himself, and once again, hurt. He cringed feeling that ache in his chest and snickered shaking his head.. so this was what heart break felt like?
When she was out of sight he heard a laugh then a slow clap, "Well that was entertaining."
Jay turned around to Alex. She raised an eyebrow and crossed her arms at him.
"I believe they call it Karma." she explained.