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Here is Bella's Epilogue. Tanya's is the very last chapter and she will explain things about her behavior.
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A Hard Day's Night
Bella's Point of View
"Tanya Marie Cullen," Mr. Banner called.
Tears blurred my vision as I watched Tanya walk across the stage and receive her diploma. Seeing your child graduate is a big accomplishment that makes you feel proud and sad at the same moment. Proud because this is something you want to see your child achieve, and sad because you realize your little girl is no longer a child anymore.
Tanya was lucky to have out whole family and Rose's family here to cheer her on, on her big day. This was probably the most I had seen her in the past week. She was either out with her friends or she was sleeping over at Demetri's.
I often cried myself to sleep, knowing how much I sacrificed for Tanya, only to have her shut us down every chance she got.
The remaining names were called, and after the ceremony we searched the crowd for Tanya. We only had a few hours left with her before she was off. We didn't know when we would see her again.
Demetri's parents were gracious enough to give Demetri and Tanya a summer trip around the world. They were going to many different countries. The trip was all Tanya could talk about; she could not care less about the new Apple laptop Edward and I bought for her, or the money my parents gave her. She blew it off, because the trip around the world was the best gift ever according to her.
I had Masen hold my hand as we maneuvered through the crowd. He was still small that I didn't want him to get lost. We finally found Tanya in a corner taking pictures with her friends.
My mother waved her over and she said good-bye to her friends. "Thanks for coming, Grandma and Grandpa." She gave them a big hug.
"Oh you're out first and only granddaughter to graduate high school. Of course we would be here. Now I want pictures," my mother demanded as Esme nodded enthusiastically in agreement.
Tanya posed for them. "Now, I want to take one of you with your parents and then one with Masen and your parents."
"Grandma, I really have to go. I need to finish packing," she whined.
The tears freely flowed down my face. This was it— she didn't want us in her life. She was way too good for us. Edward squeezed his arms around my shoulders, comforting me.
"Tanya, you can spare us all two seconds to take pictures with your parents and little brother." Esme huffed in annoyance.
Tanya rolled her eyes and motioned for us to join her. I quickly wiped my eyes with a wrinkled tissue before joining them. I smiled for the cameras and Masen came to take a picture with us.
Once the pictures were done, we went our separate ways, Tanya leaving with Demetri.
I wanted to have a nice family dinner with her, but she didn't want to do that. She was only going to be home for a little bit before she left to go to Demetri's home for his graduation party tonight.
As soon as we arrived home, Edward and Masen went to go play Skylanders. That was the deal they made, if Masen behaved during the graduation ceremony than Edward would play Skylanders with him when we got home.
I went upstairs to change and to see if Tanya needed help with anything. Her room was almost empty. She had moved all of her stuff except for some clothes and necessities into Demetri's home. Since they would be going to San Diego State University together in the fall, his parents got them an apartment and would be flying their stuff down to their new place.
Before knocking on her door, I eavesdropped on her conversation with one of her friends. "I know, in a few short hours I will be free from this shit town and my annoying parents." She laughed.
I wish I could hear what the other person was saying. "I don't care what they think. My parents don't do shit for me, all they do is reprimand me for stupid shit, and then my mother tries to get involved. She tries way too hard. I think she wants to live my life, you know? I don't care if I see them ever again. While they are stuck here living in this little dump, I will be in vacation homes, not worrying about money, buying anything I want, and going to school. I'm so grateful for Demetri. He is the greatest person in the world."
Unwanted tears fell freely from my eyes. Was I really trying too hard? I just wanted to be there for her.
"I know! Oh my gosh, my mother is the biggest pushover. No wonder my dad married her, he could do or say whatever he wanted, and my mother would follow. She's his little bitch just like that little rug rat they call my brother. I won't miss that little shit either— always wanting my attention." She laughed.
I had heard enough and barged into her room. "Get out of my god damn house, you ungrateful little brat," I demanded in a deathly calm tone.
She looked flabbergasted. "I have to go, Carmen. I will see you later," she mumbled into the phone before turning her attention to me.
"Were you listening to my private conversation?" she asked, appalled.
"This is my god damn house and if I want to listen in on your fucking conversation then I will," I snarled. "Now, pack the rest of your shit up and get out."
"I cannot believe this. My own mother kicking me out of the house. I would expect this from Dad, but not you," She declared.
"Really? Life deals you things that you never expect. I never thought I would become pregnant at sixteen, and I did. I never thought in a million fucking years that I would have a daughter who hated me and her family for no reason. I don't know what we ever did except give you everything you ever wanted," I exclaimed.
"Of course you have no idea why I hate you all so god damn much and you never will understand." She zipped up her last bag of clothes before hauling it over her shoulder. "I'm leaving! You and dad have a great life with Masen. Try not to push him away. I'm going to live my life like you and dad never existed, and I suggest you do the same with me. As far as I am concerned, Didyme and Aro are my parents. They give me everything I have ever wanted unlike you and Dad, Bitch." She smiled cruelly and left.
I stood there in her empty bedroom and fell to my knees crying. I knew I didn't deserve this. I was a damn good mother. Maybe I was a little too easy sometimes, but that was part of a learning experience with your first born.
"Momma," Masen called from down the hall minutes later.
"Momma, where are you?" I could hear him getting closer and my sobs getting louder.
I heard the door creak open and Masen rushed to me. I held him tightly against my chest as he whispered. "It's okay, Momma. Tannie may not love you, but I do. You're the best mother ever, even if I sometimes throw a fit and don't act like it."
My tears fell faster. Kissing the top of his head, I whispered. "Thank you, Mase. You're the best little boy anyone could ever ask for."
He smiled and gave me one last hug before he tugged on my hand. "Come on, Momma. Let's go downstairs and you can make us ice cream sundaes and we can have a sleepover downstairs with Daddy and watch Everybody Loves Raymond."
I stood up on wobbly legs and went into my bathroom to clean myself up. My eyes were red and puffy from all the crying; it seemed like a permanent look these days. I changed into a pair of shorts and one of Edward's big t-shirts before joining them.
Edward and Masen were trying to get Brownie off of the pillows so they could lay the sleeping bags on top of them, but she refused to me moved.
"Brownie, come here girl," Masen called, patting his legs.
"Brownie, want a treat?" Masen winked and that got her up and running to the pantry door.
Edward set the sleeping bags down and came over to me. "You're not my little bitch, Bella," he whispered.
"How did you..?"
"Tanya is very loud, Bella." He gave me a tight lipped grin.
"Oh," I paused. "I know I'm not, but she apparently thinks I am. It's just really hard. She is our only daughter and the first to graduate. I thought this would be a happy time, but it wasn't at all."
"Bella, you are a great mother and wife. Any man would be lucky to have you as the mother of his children. Look at all the shit you have to put up with. After all these years I still put a dirty dish in the sink even if the dishwasher is clean. I leave my dirty clothes on the bathroom floor. And I can be an asshole sometimes, and yet you still love me."
I jumped into his arms and latched my lips onto his. "I love you so much, Edward."
"Excuse me, but I did all this work trying to scoop ice cream. What about me?" Masen asked, wearing my apron and balancing three bowls of ice cream covered in way too much chocolate sauce.
Edward put me down and I wiped the happy tears from my face. "I love you too, Mase."
He smiled and walked toward us. "I love you too, Momma and Daddy."
Handing us each a bowl of ice cream, he walked back into the kitchen to put the apron away and turned off the lights. We all got underneath the blankets with me in the middle as we started a marathon of Everybody Loves Raymond.
I may not be the best mother, and I may not have the greatest relationship with my daughter. All that mattered was the present, and having my kids healthy, even if we didn't communicate. It may hurt me now, but I can only hope that someday we will become close again and fix our relationship.
Edward took our empty bowls and put them in the sink before joining us again. I snuggled up against his chest. Masen was on the other side of me holding his worn out teddy bear, and Brownie was lying down by our feet, chewing her bone.
This was the perfect way to end one of the hardest days of my life.
One year later
This past year was very challenging. It was hard to learn what my daughter had been up to from my sister. Tanya called her once a month to give her an update on her life.
From what my sister has told me. Tanya is a cheerleader for San Diego State University. She parties all the time and is still dating Demetri. She tells my sister every they speak, how much she loves the freedom to do whatever the hell she wants, without Edward and me breathing down her neck.
She also had so much fun traveling during the summer. Demetri and she went everywhere. Tanya never wastes an opportunity to tell Vanessa how much nicer Demetri's parents are than Edward and I.
It has been a lot easier this past year not having to deal with Tanya, but I still miss her. I wish she would call me or answer my emails to tell me how she was doing, but it has never happened. So instead of dwelling on it, I put on a brave face every day.
I was lucky enough to still be an aide with Rosalie. I told her next year would probably be my last since Masen would be a fifth grader. Once he is done with elementary school I don't know what I will do. I'm not worrying about it right now. I could stay at home— it's not like I make a ton of money, and Edward's garage has been doing very well since the competition closed down.
I saw Angela around the school still and I finally caved in and let her babysit for us. She was a really nice girl. I don't know how she put up with her mother. Masen loved having her babysit him— she actually played with him, unlike my own daughter.
Tonight Edward took Masen to practice soccer. Masen had become obsessed with soccer lately. I thought it was really cute, and it got out all his pent up energy.
While they were out I cleaned the house and got dinner started. Masen requested grilled cheese and bacon sandwiches on sourdough bread tonight. It was one of his favorites and mine too.
They didn't take long to make on the big griddle. I had them all ready with the cut up fruit on the table as soon as my boys walked inside covered in mud.
"Stop," I said holding my hand up and pointing back outside.
"Momma, that water is cold." Masen complained and pouted.
"I will happily give you a nice warm towel, but I did not spend my afternoon cleaning up this house to have you both track in mud," I explained and shooed them outside.
"Yes, mother," Edward grumbled acting like a child.
While they were washing up outside, I went into the laundry room and put two towels in the dyer for five minutes to warm them up. Once they were toasty warm, I brought them outside to my shivering boys. It may be hot during the day in the summer, but at night it gets a bit chilly.
I handed them each a warm towel and I helped dry Masen. I took their wet clothes and stuck them in the washing machine right away. It would be a pain to get the mud out of their clothes if I waited.
Going back into the kitchen, I washed my hands and brought the boys their dinner. They both devoured their sandwiches. They were hungry after a long soccer practice.
They finished fairly quickly and Masen laid his head on the table. "Well, Momma, I think I'm going to call it a night. I'm an exhausted."
I laughed. The things he tells me. "I am sure you are, Mr. Soccer Player." I ruffled his hair.
"I'm very serious, Momma," he said.
"I know, Mase." I smiled.
"So, can I have my dessert for breakfast tomorrow?" he asked.
"Absolutely not," I replied back immediately.
"But I didn't eat it tonight." He tried to negotiate.
"You could stay up for five more minutes and eat it," I said.
"Why can't I have it for breakfast?" he asked as he stuck his bottom lip out and gave me the puppy eyes.
"Nope, ice cream is for after dinner only." I stuck my tongue out at him childishly.
"Alright, I will have it tonight." He sighed.
Edward came back into the kitchen after going to the bathroom and saw me pulling out the Double Fudge Brownie ice cream. "Oh, can you get me some of that too?" he asked.
"Sure." I smiled.
Edward got two bowls out, and I put two scoops of ice cream into each bowl. He took them to the table for Masen and him as I put the ice cream away.
While they ate their dessert I went upstairs to our bedroom. I changed into my nightgown and logged onto the laptop to see if I had any messages from my daughter. It certainly was wishful thinking— not one email was from her.
I sighed and signed off. Edward came up behind and started to massage my shoulders. "Anything?" he asked.
"Nope," I answered.
"Masen's waiting for you to tuck him in." He changed the subject.
"Okay," I said and got off the bed.
I went into my little ray of sunshine's room to find him sitting there waiting for me. I walked over to him and gave him a kiss on his cheek. Soon he wouldn't be my little boy anymore—he would be going to middle school. I only had one year left of this niceness since the school years were always tortuous. Kids were starting to find their identity. My biggest fear was him turning into Tanya and hating Edward and me.
"Good night, Mase." I smiled.
"Night, Momma."
I stood up to leave. "Wait, Momma?"
Turning around, I looked at him. He was playing with his fingers. "Do you think Tannie will ever visit us? I kind of miss her."
"I don't know, Mase." I sighed.
He nodded his head. "Well, Momma, at least you still have one charming kid in this house."
"Oh, really and who is that?" I played along as if I didn't know.
"It's me!" he yelled pointing to himself.
I chuckled with him and gave his forehead one last kiss. "You will always be my little man."
He smiled. "I hope I won't always be this little. The girls don't really like short guys." He sighed.
"Girls," I laughed. "You're too young to be thinking about girls."
"What can I say, Momma? The girls dig me." He giggled.
"You are way too young to be talking like that. I think you have been hanging out with Uncle Jake and your father way too much." I laughed.
"Grandpa Charlie said I was a stud." He shook his head up and down.
"Your grandfather is right. Now, it's time for bed. You have a big game tomorrow." I grinned.
He smiled back at me and pulled his worn teddy bear back to his chest and soon he fell asleep.
I walked back into my bedroom and joined my adorable husband on the bed. I cuddled up next to him, his arm wrapping around my shoulder as we watched the television.
"So, I was thinking tomorrow night— you and me," he suggested.
"Yeah," I grinned, waiting for him to say more.
"I think we should give Angela a call. We could get a room in Seattle and have a nice romantic dinner."
Turning my attention away from the television, I looked at his eyes. "I would love that."
"Great, it's a date." He grinned and pressed his lips to mine.
"I love you." I chuckled happily.
"You better, because I love you, too." He smiled, pulling me on top of his body. His lips drifted down to mine.
"How about we start our date a little early?" I suggested, rubbing myself against him.
"I like your thinking, Mrs. Cullen." He grinned.
Just as I was about to take my shirt off, our little bubble was destroyed. "Momma! Daddy! Open up! There is a giant spider trying to eat me in my room!"
"Damn cockblocker." Edward grumbled.
I pushed off of him and laughed as I opened the door. Masen flung himself into our room and Brownie ran after him. Masen quickly jumped into the center of the bed. "Shut the door, Momma! He is going to eat us!" he cried.
I quickly shut the door and locked it. I picked up Brownie and set her on the bed. She snuggled up against Edward's legs. Joining my two boys in the bed, we huddled up together silently.
Masen, of course, broke the silence. "Daddy, why aren't you wearing a shirt? He asked and turned toward me. "Momma, what happened to your shorts?"
Edward and I both looked at each other wide-eyed. "Um…" we said at the same time.
"Oh gross! You two were wrestling again." He put his hand over his eyes and made Edward and I laugh.
"No, we weren't wrestling. You interrupted, little man." Edward laughed.
"Good, I don't need you wrestling my Momma." Masen said, cuddling next to me.
I stuck my tongue out at Edward playfully and he did it back to me. "All right you two kids, if you don't stop I'm going to have to put you in time out," Masen prompted.
Who is this kid?
Edward and I both looked at each other before we started a tickle war with Masen. His giggles were very loud as he screamed, "Stop!"
Ignoring him, Edward and I continued to tickle him. This is what I loved about being a parent. There were books that mentored you on how to parent, but they were a bunch of bullshit to me. You learn how to parent from experience.
Everyone has their hard days, but the joy of having kids makes everything better. Tanya may not like us now, but I can only hope one day that will change. If not, I will always have my little ray of sunshine.
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