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My Lily chapter 2

Spencer POV:

I was snapped out of my thoughts by the sound of Morgan's voice, "Hey pretty boy, what's going on in that head of yours?" Trying to cover for myself I quickly replied,

"Nothing really, I'm thinking that I might get another degree."

"You never stop do you?" I decided to leave his question unanswered and get out of there before he can ask any more questions.

As I got up I asked, "Hey, I'm going to go get some more coffee. Do you want any?"

"No, man I'm good" was his answer as he looked back down at the paper work he had been avoiding all morning. As I grabbed my coffee mug and walked to the break room, I got the same unconformable feeling in the pit of my stomach that I get every time I have to lie to one of them about Lily. I hate lying to them and can't wait until the day that I am able to tell them everything and introduce Lily to them as my fiancé. I can almost imagine the look on Morgan's face when he realizes that I'm not as hopeless and inexperienced in the dating world as he thought! As I got my coffee and put just the right amount of sugar in it my phone rang once and then stopped, signaling that Lily was able to get a new disposable phone to call me with and I have fifteen minutes to call her back be for she dumps the phone and runs. My heart sped up at the thought of being able to speak with her. I looked around for somewhere private so that I could talk to her without anyone hearing, all I could find was a storage closet. As unappealing as spending time with the mops and brooms seemed, I would do anything to be able to talk to her and I was not going to miss this opportunity to talk to Lily. As I stepped into the closet and closed the door, I scrolled to my missed calls and redialed the number that had just called me. It would be pointless to save the number because as soon as we finish talking she will destroy the phone and move on to another city in another state that she refuses to tell me. As the phone rang, I could not keep the grin off my face.

"Sherlock?" she answered as she always does, calling me her nickname for me.

And as always I replied with, "How are you my flower?"

"Nothing much has changed here. How are you, Spencer? I miss you so much!" Her voice sounded strange. She is trying to hide something from me, I could tell.

"I'm ok, but Lily is something wrong? You never call me during working hours, you usually only call at night or on the weekends." I say trying to get her to tell me what was going on.

I was not surprised when she answered, "you know me so well Spence, this is why you are so good at your job! How is that going by the way?" she was trying to change the subject.

In an attempt to keep her on track, "Stop avoiding the question Lil, and just tell me what's wrong, your starting to make me nervous." I could no longer keep my mind from thinking of all the possible things that could be wrong. She could be hurt, she could be lost, she could have found someone else that she loves. There were a thousand possibilities that were floating around in my head but the worst of all keeps coming to the front. What if he had found her, what if he had her right now? No that can't be it, she sounds to calm to be in the hands of a man who wants her dead.

Finally, she intrudes on my wondering with her sweet voice, "It's been four years, Spence…" I did not really know where she was going with this but I was now pretty confident that this is not about the stalker finding her. I think she is just depressed from all the running and not being able to find any answers as to who and where her stalker was.

Not really knowing what to say to help her, I just started saying anything that I thought might help, " Yeah I know, but it is good that we have not heard from him in so long. It could mean that he has no idea where you are, or that for some reason he is no longer able to look for you, but Lily what if he is just laying low until you feel safe enough to show yourself and then when you do he comes after you? I know it's hard Lil, and I miss you so much it hurts, but this is the only sure way to keep you safe! I am trying my hardest to find him Lil, I really am but he is just too good. I don't know how he is hiding so well, but I guess Garcia would be better able to look for him, it's just not safe to tell her and…"

"SPENCER!" interrupted my rambling, "honey, I know you are doing everything you can, its ok that's not what I was trying to say. I understand why I have to hide but like I said it has been four years and not once did we ever feel like he was on my trail. John thinks that is safe for me now and is starting to lose the will to help me. He does not want to be on the road anymore and said that we have three weeks to either find the stalker or prove I'm still endanger, and if we can't then he is going to go home." John was the man that is helping Lily keep hidden. He used to be in the CIA and decided to help us because his daughter was the first victim this un-sub killed. John heard about Lily and offered to help keep her safe because he wanted to help stop the man that had killed his daughter. I thought John would be with us until we could find the un-sub because the death of his only daughter has always haunted him but he must be losing faith. I understand why he would not want to always be on the run anymore, but that does not mean I have to like it.

"I'll try my best Lily but I don't know if I can find him in three weeks, I have no leads and any trails I had have all gone cold!" I did not want to tell her that there was no way that I could find the un-sub that I have been looking for, for four year in just three more weeks unless by some miracle he jumps up out of nowhere screaming, 'Here I am! Come get me and take me to jail,' which I highly doubt is going to happen. But I also did not want to get her hopes up just have them crushed in three short weeks.

Her next words caught me a little off guard, "Spencer, I can't do this alone."

She had been at this for a while now; she must at least know the basics of staying invisible. Confused, I tried to reason with her, "You have been doing this for four years Lil; you know how to keep hidden. You can do it alone, you don't need John."

"No, Spence, you don't understand, I don't want to do this alone. I refuse to! You don't know what it's like to not have a home to come back to every night, to move every couple of months, to not have any solid friendships, working any odd job you can find, and to do all of that without even knowing for sure if you still have to be running from something! Spence, if John goes home, I want to come home too. I want to be able to live with you and finally stop running! It's been four years and we have not heard a peep, I think it is safe for me to come home."

"Lily, people like this don't just give up! He is out there somewhere; I don't want to scare you but I also don't want you to feel like you are completely safe. Until we know that he is no longer living free on the streets you will always have to be careful. I understand you're tired and I want so much for you to be by my side and to be able to come home to you, I just don't think it's safe. And I want nothing more than your safety." I desperately tried to reason with her. I don't know how but I know that the un-sub is out there just waiting for her to show herself so he can strike.

"How about this, you try your best to find this asshole in the next three weeks and I'll stay with John, but if you don't and John goes home then I make Washington my next hide out. It's been four years, it should be safe to come back and with you covering up any relationship between us there should be no reason to suspect that you are being watched. This way we get to be together and I can still be in hiding, no legal documents, fake name, the whole act. We can figure out what to do next later." She sounded so desperate that I could not tell her not to come. Maybe she and John are right, maybe I have just been a profiler for too long and am paranoid. Although I don't think I am.

So against my better judgment I gave in with a sigh, "I won't be able to change your mind will I? You will come here whether I agree to it or not won't you?" She always has been stubborn.

"Yes Spencer, I am through running! You know after all this time of not being able to see each other; I thought you would be a little more excited that we are finally going to be reunited again." I can't believe that she thought I was saying this because I do not want to see her.

"Lily, you know that's not it! You know that I want nothing more than to see you again, to be with you again, but even if I can't be with you now at least I know that you are alive and safe. I might not be able to say the same if you were to stay here. What if he finds you again! I can't lose you Lil! You are my everything!" I needed her to know that as hard as not being able to be with her now is, I would be destroyed if I were to really lose her.

"What if I promised you that if we get any trace of him, then I will leave again and go back into hiding? Does that make you happy?" At least she was trying to compromise with me.

"You promise as soon as I think something is up you will go back into hiding?" I wanted to make sure she understood that I got to make the call of when she might need to leave. If I left it up to her, she would not leave until she physically saw the un-sub and that could be too late.

"Yes Spencer, I promise!"

I decided to give her what she wanted, my approval, "Fine, if and only if I can't find him in three weeks and John really leaves you, you can come live with me for your next hide out." I still had hope that John was just having a bad day and when the time is up he would continue to be on the run with her.

"YAY! I can't believe I am this close to being with you again! I have been dreaming of this day since the day we separated!" She practically screamed in my ear. I will always remember the look on her face when John came to get her that day; it has haunted my dreams many a time. She looked so heart broken, like she thought we were never going to see each other ever again. And with all the time we have spent apart it was almost starting to feel that way. No matter how apprehensive I am about this or how dangerous this might be for her, I can't wait for these next three weeks to be over because that means that I will be able to see her again and be able to hold her again.

"I know Lil; it's so surreal being only three short weeks from being with you. I can't wait to wrap my arms around and just hold you close to me! I love you so much sweetheart!"

As I declared my love for her a muffled voice came through the door, "Hey Reid, man, where'd you get to?" It was Morgan. I must have lost track of time while I was talking to Lily! I don't know how I'm going to going to get out of this one!

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