when elena awoke, she didn't feel the familiar warmth against her back she grown accustomed to. ever since that night, stefan had been a little distant. not cold, still warm, it just tasted a little bittersweet. she wasn't really worried, but she knew he was hurting for what he did to her.
Klaus had recently been gone most of the day, leaving stefan and elena at the house. they never quite knew what he was doing, only assuming he's making himself feel useful, teaching new hybrids how to be vampires.
stefan and elena had once shared the thought that he only needed and excuse to care about anything. that he's only the worst person on earth because it gives him the fulfillment of a purpose. they knew that they could never forgive him for what he's put them through, but they also knew that it isn't beyond the human mind to look past everything he's done, not if they loved him.
stefan and elena were living proof of that theory, god knows they've been tested of it many times.
elena got up from the bed, and glided down the stairs and out the front door. stefan was standing at the left side of the porch where the city skyline was faced.
she came up from behind him and slid her hands under him arms to rest on the front of his shoulders. she half expected him to tense at the surprise of her touch. but little did she know he could guess that gentle heat in her fingertips anywhere, to which he would immediately smile. when she felt him relax, and she smiled too.
no one but the bored hybrid watching them, making sure they didn't stray, would have been able to say how long they were standing there.
when he finally turned in to face her, she smiled brightly. she stood on the tip of her toes and kissed him. only lightly, but that was enough. he brought his hands to her face, and stroked her cheek. he kissed her nose, her forehead, her cheek, her eyelids, and her lips once more, as she giggled quietly. he loved her laugh. her kind of deep, a little husky, but over all, light, soft, and lovely laugh. though he himself was close to crying. she held him tighter, when he pulled from their kiss to hold her against his chest.
"Stefan" she addressed and looked up at him. "i need you to stop hurting yourself like this." she said seriously. "When you hurt yourself, you're hurting me. i love you so much, stefan. nothing is worse than knowing your not happy, except knowing that i can't make you happy." he moved his arms from around her shoulders to her waist to hold her tighter. "I dont care if your no good for me, or if i'm no good for you. because what we have is worth fighting you for." she said, her voice broke in the middle and began to cry, desperately grasping him. "I need you, stefan." she sobbed. "i need you here."
"Shhh, i'm right here. i will never leave you, elena. i couldn't if i tried." he laughed, in a kind of melancholy way. "let's go inside." he whispered into her hair. she nodded against his chest.
they stayed inside by the fire, it was only starting snow out. for a while they each wrote in their journals, mutually wondering if this was their destiny. if they could not continue this forever, elena was starting to miss the option of joining stefan in eternity. to anyones surprise, she is starting to think she would have turned eventually anyways. and is only so in love with stefan, she is starting to think she would want to.
but klaus would hunt them until the ends of the earth, no doubt. he will not be satisfied until he's set up hybrids in every town for 100 square miles on the entire world. so he'll always have connections he'll always be in control.
Elena had no idea now what their fate held anymore. she had always thought that something would have to work it out for them. she has never had a doubt that she and stefan were meant to be. she was born only to love him. she never thought that true love would be so hard. she only had so much inhibition about such things before she met stefan, but even since they had been in love she had figured nothing should dare succeed in breaking them. even though its only in common sense that one would assume the natural reason. but in Elena's eyes, it had never looked as probable.
when elena sought to break the silence, she lead with only,
"Stefan." she said holding him in her gaze once her journal was as full as it might be today.
He looked up from his journal, across the coffee table. "Yes, Elena." she looked almost caught and admitted,
"I guess i just want to hear you say my name." he pulled his feet from the couch beside him, and offered her the seat nest to him. she walked over, and collapsed into him. he wrapped his arms around her waist, and kissed her cheek.
"elena," he whispered, before he kissed his way, lovingly, to her neck."Elena." again into her jaw. "Elena." as he left for her shoulder, and then her breast. she moaned, and kind of smiled, in a serious way though. he kissed her lips then, passionately. she found her way to a straddled position on his lap. elena ripped his shirt, and she was happy, when he helped lift her sweater over her head.
he'd been guarded, and she needed him to understand, that she loved him. for everything he is. he stretched the fabric of her tank top down to reveal her clevage. and while he was distracted, handling her breasts, she kissed his neck and sucked just below his ear, then taking the lobe into her teeth.
"Elena." he moaned.
he pulled back, to have access to her lips, once more. she began to work on his belt while still trying to grind against him. he picked her up from the couch, and sped them up the stairs.
he set her down gently on the bed. before she flipped them over, she pushing him back down by his chest.
"elena."