Soul-Sarah's POV

I was impatient. I walked up and down. Unable to calm down.

„Pls. Miss. Sit down. You hace to calm down. There is nothing to be worry about."
„Nothing to be worry about? This Padawan is talking to me! She is still inside my head, she shouldn't be there."

I signed. This kriffing girl is still inside my head, for three months now.

Hey wasn't my choise to have you here. Just leave my body and let me go, and everything wil be alright.
That's all you want?
Yes!
Well, then...no.
I hate you.
I thought Jedi aren't allowed to...
Shut up, Barbie or I make you bad headache.

I stoped talking with her. Last time she made me headache, oh man...I hadn't moved, everything hurt. I had felt like my head exploded. I finally sat down.

„I know this must be..."
„You know nothing! No one of you can help me. They all want that I get in a new host, but I can handle this. I can!"
„No one every said you can't."

The helper – a woman - looked slightly hurt. I didn't want to scream at her. I don't know what had come over me. I signed again and pulled my legs to my chest. I rested my chin on my knees.
I looked over to the helper.

„I understand. Jumping isn't the best idea..."
„Do you have an idea where I could go? Or to who?"
„Yes. You should meet your healer. He lives in the town on the other side of the desert."

I nodded and she left my house. I signed. Why does this have to be so difficult?

Difficult? Barbie, you are the one who shouldn't be here.
What is your problem, why can't you just shot up?
My Problem?...My problem are you!

I decided not to talk thougher. I just get angrier when she is it. I left my house and took a speeder. I have to eat something. Soon I arrived at a small restaurante.

I walked inside. Some People sat on the tables. I sat down at an empty one. I ordered something and wait. Suddenly someone sat down on the opposite of me.

„Hey, hiker. I knew the seeker would find your Host." she said.

Thanks to my host I know who it was. As I speak I tried to hide my anger and hatered, about seeing her. But I actually didn't know who she was.

„Yeah,...Thanks." I said.
„So how was your day?"
„I don't want to talk..."
„My name is Terry."

I felt the rage in me, I could have screamed at her. But again it wasn't my emotion.

She is using her name?! Terry was the one who had told the seeker where I was. This soul has killed her as she said it!
Calm down.
No! Please beat her, please!
I won't now shut up.
Barbie I will...
I don't care! I handle this myself!

I had no patient to speak with her further. I looked over to Terry. Has this girl really betrayed Ahsoka? She looked so... nice.

Appearances are deceptive always.

From who do you have that?
From my master.
And he...
Forget it Barbie, I won't tell you anything about him futher.

I signed. I noticed that my food stand in front of me. I hurried up with eating it, I wasn't in the mood to talk to Terry.

„And what the other..."
„I'm sorry Terry, but I have to go now. You know, meeting the helper."

Oh no. I shouldn't have said helper. I saw in her view that thousand of questions flew through her head. I stood up, gave the man the money for the food and left.
I jumped on the speeder and drove back to my house.

I jumped of it and walked it. I took my bag and put all I had in it - clothes, food, pictures – everything. I walkd with it over to a bigger speeder. (Like a car without tires).

Where are you going?
I drive to Ellrehn.
Why?
To meet the healer. I want to talk to him before I decide.

I could hear her gasping and breathing slightly faster. She was nervous as she said the next words.

The decision, to kill me?
Exactly.