Chapter three is here and as usual I don't own the Teen Titans and I don't own the characters Fred or Jess either, they own themselves :L Enjoy :D

I sat on the edge of my bed, unmoving. If anybody who didn't know me were to walk in they could have passed me off as a statue. It's like I had no will to live. Without him, without Beastboy I didn't. It hurt me to even think of his name, him, and it especially hurt to think of how I first realized I loved him.

It'd been a normal day at the tower, a sunny one as well. I was taking advantage of the nice weather that early on in the year to meditate by the window. Beast boy and Cyborg were playing the play station, mega monkeys or something and Robin and Starfire were off on a date that wasn't a date according to Robin. 'Azareth Metrion Zinthos' I chanted this over and over feeling quite at peace. I couldn't go outside in the sun, because I'd burn but didn't mean I didn't enjoy the warmth now and then. I had probably been chanting at least two hours straight before I noticed that the sounds of the play station had stopped. I opened an eye and almost fell from the air. There sitting only a few inches away were Beast boy, just staring at me.

I gained my composure and raised one eyebrow and asked 'Since when have you taken to being silent?' He looked hurt at that remark and got up to move away. Perhaps it was the guilt, or the fact my emotions were secretly trying to tell me I liked him, that made me grab his hands with my power and tugged him back down onto the seat and made me apologise. He looked thoughtful for a moment and then gave me his trademark grin and exclaimed 'I know a way you can make it up to me'. This put me off guard but I played along this once and replied 'Oh really and how would that be?' But just then the alarm went off. Robin appeared on the screen, showing that he and Starfire were already battling Mad Mod who had seemingly tracked down the couple and ruined their 'friendly outing.'

At that moment in time, Cyborg ran into the room grumbling and ran straight out again to the T-car. I just arched one eyebrow and whispered to Beastboy 'Date with Bee tonight?' who just smiled back. I was still heard by Cyborg though who came over the communicators and shouted at us to hurry up. You could even see the vein throbbing on his head as he grumbled about 'stupid minor villains ruining his pruning time' Beastboy ran off in a fit of laughter at our metal companion's distress over his date and even I allowed myself a rare small smile. I was in a good mood that day.

I climbed in the back with Beastboy and Cyborg whisked us off downtown. Robin looked peeved off when we got there, perhaps it had something to do with the fact Mad Mod was running around shouting 'Robin and Starfire sitting in a tree, K I S S I NG' and avoiding all their attempts to subdue him. I stepped out the car and put up a wall of black energy where Mad Mod would run next and as he ran into it one behind him as well. Leaving room for Beastboy as a Rhino to ram into him and then to finish it off, Cyborg blasted him with his sonic cannon. He was down and dizzy and I thought I'd be safe standing near him. That was until he looked up at me and whispered 'Surprise Raviee' and shot me with a light green coloured beam. I flew back into a wall and lay there stunned. Beastboy came running and tenderly helped me up.

'Are you okay, Rae?' he asked seriously concerned. I was fine though, nothing broken just a bit woozy from the knock against the wall and I told him so. He grinned at me then and I felt my knees go weak and the next thing I knew the lamp post only a couple of feet away from me was engulfed in black magic and was bent in two. Beastboy noticed but decided to ignore it and continued trying to cheer me up in the only way he knew, jokes! 'Rae, why is basketball the grossest sport there is?' I just looked at him and he replied ''cause they dribble all over the place.' I giggled; I actually giggled but soon had to stop because the poor lamp post was now melting. He looked shocked that I had laughed at one of his jokes. 'Err, Rae... Are you sure you're okay from the thump against the wall like no hits to the head or anything right?' At this I burst into tears how dare he think that I only laughed because I was injured, I always loved his jokes but I just couldn't show it.

By now the lamppost was completely disintegrated from my powers and I was attracting looks from the on lookers. That's when it clicked, whatever Mad Mod had shot me with was affecting my control on my emotions. I was feeling them like a normal person would but more in a yo yo type way. I was all over the place with them. I definitely wasn't safe to be on the street with on lookers. I rushed over to Robin, my fear already starting to crack the road and told him what had happened. He took action at once and started issuing orders. 'Starfire carry me to the med bay immediately so I can set up ready for Cyborg to treat Raven, Cyborg get raven in the car and try to keep her calm, no laughing no tears nothing just calm. And get home ASAP!' And with that they took off and I was bundled into the car.

Back at the tower I was lying on the bed strapped up to several monitors chanting my mantra with Cyborg running scans. I must have zoned out for a while keeping calm because the next thing I know Cyborg is shaking me saying 'Bad and Good news Raven, the good news is, it isn't permanent and apart from the effects on your emotions it is safe, the bad news is I can't identify exactly what it is so I don't know how long it will last.' I bowed my head. That meant I would have to shut myself away in my room so as not to harm anyone till I felt fairly normal again. I started to cry, I didn't want to be shut off from the world. I felt like a freak. A couple of monitors cracked from my powers. Cyborg drew me into a hug and I calmed down. Once I was calm enough I decided I'd walk to my room, as my powers were playing up.

Walking with my hood up and head down I didn't realize there was somebody coming the other way. Not until I walked straight into him. I yelped in fright and my powers threw him out the window. I rushed to the window an apology springing to my lips only to see a green raven hovering perfectly unharmed. I stepped to the side so he could swoop in; changing as he went so by the time he had landed in front of me he was the green fella I had grown to love.

'I'm sor...' I managed to get out before he stopped me. 'Its okay' he cut in with. 'I understand it's not your fault' for the second time that day I reacted with shock to something Beastboy had said. He was acting really grown up about it. I realized I was staring when he started to scratch the back of his neck. I had to get out of there! 'Erm so I have to go to my room' I told him in my monotonous voice, and walked past him. 'Wait' I stopped with my back to him. 'Remember earlier; just before the alarm went off, well I was joking about the making up stuff but would you like to come out with me someday like tomorrow?' A blush was creeping up on his face and he was too busy staring at his feet when I whispered 'as a date?' The blush increased when he said yes, and if it wasn't for his super hearing I don't think he would have heard my quiet 'yes' but now I really had to go so I left him doing his victory dance in the hallway.

Sitting in my room I realized that I was quite looking forward to my 'date' with Beastboy tomorrow. I just hoped my powers and emotions would be back under control. I started to meditate. Maybe that would help. By the time I had my emotions under control it was one in the morning. I decided I'd better retire for the night so I would be ready for tomorrow.

I woke up slightly later than usual; I put that down to the late night. Now I just had the problem of finding something to wear. I presumed it would be casual clothing so I picked black jeans, skinnys in fact and a purple hoody so I could hide underneath my hood if I had to. I was feeling much better this morning and decided to help my calm state even more a cup of herbal tea was in order. I walked into the kitchen to see Robin and Starfire in a deep discussion at the counter and Cyborg cooking bacon. When I entered though he paused to check on how I was feeling and I assured him meditating all night had allowed me enough control.

As I was waiting for my tea to brew Beastboy tumbled into the room yawning. Waking up any time before one was early for him but even though he was apparently half asleep he had done well dressing himself. He had a white shirt on underneath a dark green open shirt and blue jeans. He sauntered over to where I was standing and informed me that he would be ready to go as soon as he had had some breakfast to wake himself up. I finished my tea and told him to come and knock on my door when he was ready and retired back to my room to drink my tea and prepare myself for the day ahead.

Before I knew it Beastboy was knocking on the door. I opened it to see his big trademark grin and I felt happy inside my head respond with one to match. He offered me his arm like a proper gentleman and we headed off to the roof so we could fly into Jump city. He told me to follow him and that where we were going was a surprise. He took me right into the heart of the city and landed in an alleyway so as not to startle the citizens to much. Although by now you think they would be used to a green animal land on the streets and morph into a human. The place we were headed was just around the corner and we walked the last few meters or so. Inwardly I groaned when I saw the front of the store, he had taken me to a comic book and gaming store. I started to falter a bit but Beastboy gave me a look and said 'Please Rae just try it, it's not what it seems from the outside.' I like to think that my reasons for giving him the benefit of the doubt was because of how nice he was to me yesterday but the real reason was because I knew I was slowly falling for him.

We walked inside and were immediately confronted with a situation at the counter. The guy behind the counter, Fred was his name, was arguing with a customer. 'What sort of store owner do you think I am?! I do not own any of those sorts of magazines you are looking for. I am a respectable citizen and an innocent one at that' Unfortunately for poor Fred at that moment in time, a young good looking women walked out from behind the counter in only one of his shirts. I guessed she was a dancer from her physique and she had pretty brown hair. She put her hand on Fred's shoulder and told him 'Fred just let him into the back room with those magazines and come back to bed' Fred just looked like a dear in the headlights and pointed us out to the women while whispering 'Damnit Jess I didn't want to make a bad impression on the Teen Titans but now the secrets out' and to the guy 'Here's the key to the back room don't be too long.'

We couldn't help but giggle at poor Fred but we had to stifle them as we approached the counter. He wouldn't look us in the eye even when Beastboy said 'look mate it's okay, we're off duty today just think of us like any normal citizens' He mumbled to the floor 'well what do you want' and Beastboy winked and said 'can we use your over service, not the one that guy wanted though' Fred looked relieved and handed Beastboy another key and said 'it's on the house' Beastboy motioned me towards some stairs and to go on ahead but I lingered long enough to hear him say 'Hey dude don't suppose you got that new Pokémon game have you?' That's one of the things I loved about Beastboy, how much he loved his games.

By the time I got to the top of the stairs Beastboy had caught me up. He told me to close my eyes with no peeking and only open them when told to. He led me into a room that smelled familiar. I opened my eyes onto one of the biggest darkest libraries I'd seen. Who knew a comic book store would hide this upstairs. It was then that I truly realized I loved Beastboy; the fact that even though he hates reading he found this place and was content to spend the day just enjoying my company while I read and that is exactly what we did all day.

So its longer this time, hope its okay?