I finished cleaning the two horses just as the sun was going down. A few minutes of nothing passed then I jumped up onto one of the stall dividers and sat on it.
"Beck? Did you know your parents? I'm sure you did. I mean, your mother had to wean you for like months before you could be on your own right? I wish I knew my parents. I mean, I knew my… adoptive parents. Just not my biological ones. I remembered that today. I guess when I was… at the place… I blocked myself off from so much that I sort of just lost my memory too."
Beck whinnied like he understood me. I could feel that he was listening, but he was mighty confused. I guess I couldn't read thoughts. Or maybe it just worked on some people. I was about to say something else to beck when I heard shuffling behind me. If its Sebastian again, I am going to be pissed. I need to talk to him about sneaking up on me. One day, I will not hesitate to turn around and maul the person, no matter who it is, butler or not. I turned around as much as I could on the wall and was surprised to see little Ceil standing there instead of Sebastian. I was even more surprised to see him looking… normal, emotional. I had only been there for a day and I had already learned that the little boy was to be feared and taken seriously. He and I were the same age something about him made me finicky. There was this feeling that always came with him. Something like sadness, but yet, it was more bitter that sadness. I wondered if that was what I brought with me too. I knew that he had been through something extremely traumatizing, as had I. Suddenly, the look on his face was replaced with a mask of hard stone. I was taken aback at how sudden the change was. I, too, shoved my emotions into the back of my head and stared at him with much of the same look as he was giving me.
"What are you doing?" he asked rather sharply.
"I was just finishing taking care of Elizabeth's horses. That is her name, right?"
"She prefers Lizzy, but my servants all address her as Miss Elizabeth. I expect you will too. Anyway, when you are done here, you will come inside, change your attire," he said this while sweeping me head to toe with a disdainful look," and help Sebastian with Supper this evening. Am I clear?"
"I understand, My Lord."
He gave me one last look then turned on heel and strode out of the barn. I wondered why he had come out instead of Sebastian. He was the Earl, and had servants to do what he wanted for him. Shaking off the thought, I patted the horses one more time then I left to get ready for dinner.