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Chapter 5
Trunks paced back and forth on the observation deck, Pan and Giru were missing, and he was worried sick. They took off in the Para brother's ship while searching for the stolen dragonball. Damn those Para brothers! If only they hadn't stolen the six-star ball on Planet Gelbo. After all I went through to get that ball!I made a fool of myself by dressing as a bride, spent weeks on that Planet practicing and then practically marrying an ugly big blue blob! I'll never get over the humiliation and embarrassment if my father ever finds out…Then chasing the Para brothers for days all the way to the asteroid-like Planet Beehay, filled with those disgusting giant worm creatures. Only to make a bigger fool of myself by falling under their dance spell, and that's where this nightmare began. If only she didn't insist on searching their ship by herself, never waits for someone to help her! "Stubborn child…"
"If she could hear you now, she would probably be very upset about you calling her a child." Goku had been discreetly watching Trunks for a while as he paced back and forth with animated expressions on his face.
Trunks stopped and sat down on the window seat. "Goku, I didn't see you there. Where are the Para brother's?"
"They are still tied up downstairs. I'm trying to get information about Planet Luud, but they're not saying much."
"I'm worried about her Goku, and it's going to take at least a month to reach Planet Luud. This ship isn't as fast as the one she's in. You know Pan, she doesn't wait for trouble, she goes looking for it."
"I know this must be very hard for you Trunks, but we have to believe that she is ok. Remember that she can take care of herself. Who knows we might be worrying for nothing."
"I don't know Goku? I have a bad feeling about this; maybe I should have a word with the brothers and see if I can get them to talk." Trunks looked like he was ready to kill!
"I don't think so. Pan not being here is affecting you more than I thought it would. I can't risk you being near them, especially if you blame them for her disappearance."
"Of course it's affecting me Goku! We're supposed to keep her safe; I don't know how you can be so calm about it!"
"Well one of us has to be, don't you think? You have to try and focus; it won't help if you are being irrational. Maybe you shouldn't be up here, her scent is very strong in this room, and it's not good for you. I need you at your best if we're going to search for her, we don't know what to expect on that Planet."
"I know… I miss her so much already." He needed to let this out, and he knew Goku would understand. "We have become closer, though I still think she needs to go home. At least then I'll know where she is and that she's ok, but not knowing is so frustrating." He looked at Goku indecisively. Do I tell him? I need to talk to someone; this is driving me crazy. I feel like I'm on the edge of a cliff waiting for someone to push me.
"Is there something else you want to talk about Trunks?" Goku could sense the tension in the young man.
Trunks sighed. "I don't know how long I can fight this inner battle Goku. She's not making it any easier either."
"Is there something you're not telling me Trunks, why is this so hard for you? I know that her not being here should make it easier, but you seem to be getting worse," Goku looked at him curiously. He knew exactly what was going on, he could sense it when they were together, but he needed Trunks to know that he could trust him enough to confide in him.
"We k-kissed, t-twice and the last time it was err, a bit intense. Please don't be angry." He kept his head down, staring at his feet. "If she hadn't stopped after…well let's just say I would've claimed her right there! I lose control every time and I don't want to do something I will regret. I don't have feelings for her, but at the same time I can't resist. This is tearing me apart, I wish things were different. Maybe her disappearing is a good thing at the moment because I was so close to mating her."
"I think you should take this time to think about what's been happening, and how you really feel. In my opinion, the only thing holding you back is her age. That's why you won't admit that deep down you are developing feelings for her." Goku held up his hand, preventing Trunks from interrupting. "You have to push everything else aside and think about how this will affect the two of you. Don't worry about people back home either, they will come to terms eventually. I can't really say anything about the kissing; it's no use being upset when I know what's happening. You not mating her is an indication of how strong your self-control is. Although it will be more difficult, the more intense her heat cycle becomes." Goku sat down beside Trunks on the window seat. "If you want, I can always keep tabs on you, at least until you make a decision. I know how this ends Trunks, but it's up to you whether you want it that way or not." He reached out to pat his shoulder. "I am not going to stand in your way, but bear in mind that she is still very young.
Trunks looked at the gentle Saiyan appreciatively. "You have no idea how much that means Goku, thank you for understanding. My father would have a coronary if he knew what was going on out here."
Goku chuckled "I'm sure he would! Don't stay up here too long ok."
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Trunks entered Pan's makeshift room. It's so quiet without her. How could I think it would be better if she went home? It's for her protection though, and I would do anything to keep her safe. He sat down on the bed thinking about everything that occurred over the past few months. He sighed laying down on the bed moving his hands behind his head and under the pillow. His fingers touching something hard… He sat up and pulled out a little red book. "What's this?" He looked at the front and back, but there was no writing on it. "I'll just have a little peek." He opened it to the last page with writing on it…
He kissed me again. Dende, it was the best moment of my life. I can't believe how gentle and sweet he is. Always worrying that he is taking advantage of me…
Trunks gasped. "Is this her diary, is she writing about me?" He could not believe what he found. I shouldn't read it, but maybe it's a good way to get into her head. She doesn't need to know I read it…He flipped to a random page.
I wonder if Trunks has a girlfriend. I need to know! If I ask him will he tell me? Will I be angry if says he has one? I don't know why it bothers me so much, maybe it's because I want him for myself…If only I were older *sigh*
He chuckled and kept flipping until something caught his eye. It was just after the last entry, but there were a few blank pages in between…
I've been having these strange feelings lately, especially after that last kiss I shared with Trunks. I don't know what to make of it? I remember asking Mama not too long ago how she knew she loved Papa. She told me it was the most wonderful feeling, and that I would know when it happens. If love is anything like what I'm feeling now then I understand why Mama never told me….
When I'm near Trunks I find it hard to breathe. The Earth or should I say Planets stop moving. He is all I see, smell and taste. My insides melt at the slightest touch. Nothing else matters. No star is brighter than him. He is everything to me, and without him I would be as empty as a black hole…If that's not love, then I don't know what is?
I may only be fourteen...and a half *giggles*, but I have come to a great realisation. I am now and forever will be unconditionally in love with one Trunks Vegeta Briefs!
"O MY DENDE…"