CH 7: Mourning

All the characters belong to Stephanie Meyers except for Moon, Grace, and the newborns

Jacob POV

We had just gotten back from the cliffs and Nessie finally stopped screaming in agony. I looked at Nessie and gently moved a strand of her hair out of her eyes and placed it behind her ear. For the first time in my life I don't know what to do…first I lost Leah and now my Nessie is plagued with the nightmares that Moon creates for her every night. I gripped my hair and let out a yell of frustration, it was my fault this happened if only I was able to stop Leah she would still be here with us right now. I got out of my seat not making a squeak as I rose in a fluid graceful motion, I looked out the window behind the couch Nessie was laying on and started to remember one of the runs me and Leah had.

Flashback

I was running with a freedom that most people would never get to experience unless they traded bodies with me. My paws crunched down on the sticks that stood in my path, I could smell the various scents of the woodland animals that inhabited this forest, and I could hear my heart beating as it tried to pump blood as fast as I was running. The wind felt like tiny hands caressing my fur as I ran against its current, I jumped over a log and almost trampled a bunny to death in the process. I was really enjoying myself when I felt

Leah's mind pop into my unbroken silence, she sure knows how to ruin my peace.

"Well hello to you too Jake" Leah said in a mocking tone and I could see from her mind that she was close to where I was running.

"Leah don't start today if you want to annoy someone please go annoy Sam" I said with venom dripping in my words and I instantly regretted saying them because I felt a trickle of sadness creep in her mind before anger swallowed it up.

"You know what Jake you're an ass" She responded and I could hear her behind my catching up to me.

"Sorry Leah that was wrong of me" I said as sincere as I could be but I did silently wish she would leave already.

"Apology not accepted fur ball" Leah said with malice in her words. She was now running alongside me and I could see her boring holes into my eyes as if she was trying to read my soul.

"So what have you been up to Leah" I said not breaking my long stride as I asked her the question.

"You heard about Sam and Emily's wedding?" She asked ignoring the question I asked her.

"Yea…we all kind of expected this to happen especially after that Volturi scare we had" I said remembering when we stood our ground with the wolves sending the Italian bloodsucker's home humiliated.

"He doesn't deserve it" She said curtly and I turned my massive head at her and came to jog until I stopped running altogether.

"Deserve what…Emily?" I asked curiosity seeming to burn a hole in the deep recess of my mind.

"Happiness…why does her get the happy ending Jake while I am stuck as the bitter, lonely genetic dead end" She said looking at the ground. I walked towards her and nudged her with my head.

"Leah…everyone deserves happiness. Sam got his but in the process he also lost a very beautiful woman and one day when you find that special someone I will be making sure he treats you how you deserve to be treated" I said with a wolfish grin on my face and let my tongue roll out of my mouth.

"Thanks Jake…you tell anyone about this and you're going to have a very hard time having kids" She said and smirked at me.

End of Flashback

I walked towards the front door and opened it gently. As I stepped outside I was hit by a strong wind and my mind stayed on that talk I had with Leah on that run. I slipped off my clothes, tied them around my ankle, and felt the heat take over my cold boy until I landed on all fours. I took off towards La Push and stopped when I was halfway there when a sudden realization hit me. Leah will never get that special someone she talked about, she would never walk down that isle, and she would never have kids no because that vampire not only took her life but her future as well.

I shook my head and kept running until I reached my dad's house. I shifted into my vampire form and slid my clothes on as I was walking towards the door. I knocked on the door and I began to wonder if my dad heard the news about Leah's death and if not would I have to be the one to inform of what happened. I hear wheel rolling over tiles and then eventually the soft plush carpet.

"Who is it" My dad's rough voice asked. He was close to sixty-five now but his voice never showed his true age.

"It's me dad…Jake" I hesitated before saying my name scared that I might break down right there on the porch steps.

"Oh Jake come in son" My dad said and I heard him unlock the door. I twisted the door knob and let myself into the house. A flood of memories met me when I stepped into the house and realized that it has been almost two years since I've stepped foot into this house. I could hear the faint crackle of voices on the TV and watched my dad roll himself to the TV turning it off and quite gracefully rolling his wheelchair towards me.

"Hello son it's been awhile since I've talked to you. How have you been? How is Nessie?" He asked throwing questions at me each one felt like a slap to the face and I finally broke down, my legs lost all feeling and fell into my dad's lap sobbing. He began to smooth out my closely shaven hair and I kept sobbing unable to talk.

"What happened son?" He asked in that calm voice he always used when I was little and trying to get over my mom's death. I told him everything that happened not leaving any holes unfilled, any questions he had were answered in that revelation.

"Jacob…I'm going to tell you something my father told me when I was your age. We have no control over death nor were we ever supposed to and that is how it's going to stay. God already has something planned for everybody and you have to realize that Leah was going to die either way and you could not have stopped it. Now rise up son and realize that your job is not over until that bloodsucker is in pieces." My dad said and I could only stare in wonder. My father was never a really religious man and neither am I but I realized that my dad was right and that my mission was not over. I got to my feet and it felt like I was fighting against a heavy object on my shoulders.

"Thanks dad…for everything" I said to him and gave him one last hug goodbye and walked out of the door. I turned around at the house I lived in and knew in that moment what I had to do.

WHEW! Well thanks for being patient everyone hope you enjoy the chapter!