Hey guys, Lunamon810 here. With the second/last chapter of Died Young that I should have written ages ago. Hopefully I haven't messed anything up too badly, and... yeah. That's all I have to say really. I still write with Rilluya/Kimber in one-shots a lot, so maybe you'll see more of her, if I ever get around to posting any of those. Welp, enjoy~
For quite a while after I died I wandered around as a ghost. I followed Killua when he left the estate with his friends Gon, Kurapika, and Leorio, which I later learned were his friends from the Hunter Exam. They split up pretty soon though, and I watched Killua and Gon through their time in Heaven's Arena. For a mission's purpose, Illumi had already taught me nen, and I was surprised Killua didn't know about it, considering he was older than me and had been on a lot more missions. You would also think I would be used to seeing Killua go into assassin mode, but I'm still not, it still scared me a little bit.
After Heaven's Arena, they went to Gon's home. I left pretty quickly after they got there, suddenly feeling like I was intruding, since Gon didn't know I existed as far as I knew, they never talked about me or me dying or anything. Killua had pretended nothing had happened when he left. I went back home and wandered around the estate, hoping with such strong abilities maybe mom, dad, or Illumi would see me, but it didn't appear to be happening.
One day, I stood at the end of the hallway Illumi walking straight towards me. I stood, still hoping he could see me, though I knew it was futile. Just as he was about to walk through me, and I bowed my head, my mother came into the hallway. "Rilluya?" Illumi froze and turned to look at her.
"No, it's me."
"No, Rilluya is in here. I see her on the cameras. She's standing right in front of you." Of course. I'd forgotten mom's cameras, they were so expensive. How could I not realize she'd be able to see me with them, if she looked in the right spot? Kalluto followed her out into the hallway, and she pointed directly at me. "Right there."
"Rilluya is dead, mother. She's gone."
"I'm still here... You're wrong..." I said quietly. My mother looked at me, and I think she was trying to figure out what I said. I sighed and moved out of Illumi's way as he started walking again, probably thinking our mother had lost her mind. I growled in irritation, suddenly mad that he didn't believe her. Of course I was going to stay back as a ghost, I had to watch and make sure everyone was alright. Illumi stopped and looked over his shoulder at me.
"What was that noise?" Our mother looked at me, then nodded at me. Illumi shook his head. "So she's standing there now, is she?" He started walking towards me, and walked straight through me. I sighed again, then looked at my mother, giving up hope on Illumi believing me. Our mother motioned for Illumi and me to follow her, and Kalluto followed suit. He walked straight into me, but I doubt he knew what was going on.
We eventually made it to my fathers room, and the entire family was gathered, minus Alluka, who was locked up, and Killua, who was still gone with Gon. Milluki looked very irritated to be interrupted from whatever he was doing, probably playing video games. Hooking up to the cameras with his computer, they could all see me standing there in the room. My mother pointed at me. "See, I told you she was here.
"I guess she is." Illumi said nonchalantly, looking at me. "So? What are we supposed to do about it?" I cringed slightly. He said that as if he was talking about getting rid of a bug infestation or something.
"Well, it is a shame to have lost a Zoldyck child. Maybe we should find a way to bring her back." My father suggested, but my grandfather looked at him, seeming somewhat confused.
"How would we do that?" The answer suddenly dawned on all of them, and it made my stomach turn. "Alluka." They were going to use my twin. But how? There were only two people he granted wishes for for free, and that was me and Killua. When my grandfather questioned this, Illumi answered.
"Maybe he'd do it for Kil." I tried to hide my irritation, but failed. Illumi called Killua's number, and I watched him put it on speaker phone.
"Hello?" My brother's voice came.
"Kil." I could hear him growl, making me look away. They really shouldn't have been bothering him for something so stupid.
"What do you want Illumi? They said I can leave, they can't just take that back."
"No, they can't. But we'd like you to come back, to do one thing for us."
"There's no way in hell I'm- Wait a second. What do you need me for? Shouldn't you be able to do everything on your own? You're all older than me, besides. Kalluto and Alluka."
"And Rilluya." Illumi reminded him. "Which is why we called. Her spirit is still here, and we'd like for you to wish her back using Alluka." Killua was dead silent for a second. I knew most of his problem. He didn't want to come back, but he loved me. And this also meant he'd see Alluka, at least for a second.
"Fine. But then I'm leaving."
"Understood."
"I'll be there tomorrow. Be ready to get this overwith. And no tricks, or I won't be happy, and neither will Gon." Killua hung up, and I sighed, looking away from my family. Illumi looked at me.
"Shouldn't you be happy? Your 'big brother' is coming to save you." That sent chills down my spine. Why did I need saved? What was wrong with me being a ghost, watching over them?
The next day Killua arrived, though Gon had to stay with the butlers. Killua was lead to where Alluka was being held, after being shown me to prove I was there on the monitor. Alluka tackled him immediately, giggling happily. Killua smiled and hugged my twin, and I found myself smiling slightly too. There was always some type of good in our family. Killua got on his knees in front of Alluka. "Hey Alluka? Can you grant a wish for me?" Alluka nodded eagarly.
"What is it Onii-chan?"
"I wish... I wish Rilluya was back. Her spirit is still here, and... That just makes it seem meant she come back." Alluka looked sad for a second, probably thinking about me, then smiled and nodded.
"Okay, Onii-chan!" There was a silence, and everything faded away for me.
Suddenly, a few hours later, I woke up in my bedroom. I woke up. I was alive. Killua stood up and immediately hugged me, along with Alluka. Illumi stood next to my dresser, and the rest of the family, beside Milluki who found deep disinterest in it all, stood around the room. I heard myself giggle as I hugged them back, happy to be able to actually do such. Hearing me seemed to make it all the more real for them as they hugged me tighter. Eventually they let go, and I smiled at them.
"Thanks big brother, twin."
"Of course." Killua said, ruffling my hair. Alluka hugged me again, giggling happily as I hugged her back. I looked at my parents. The downside was my training would probably start again immediately, they would probably lock Alluka back up, and Killua would probably leave. But the few moments that my brothers were around would make it worth it. And now I could try to impress Illumi again.
Killua did leave, and I didn't try to stop him this time. How could I? I know he probably would have stayed had I asked him, but I never wanted to do that to him, make him stay with all the torture we went through when he didn't have to. Besides, he was such good friends with Gon. I walked down to the butlers' quarters with Killua, and smiled at Gon. He grinned. "Hi!"
"Hi." I said and nodded. I looked at Killua, and he hugged me tight,
"Just let me know if you need me, Rilluya." I nodded.
"I will big brother." I hated lying to him, but it was for the best, like I said, he would have stayed. I watched the two leave and sighed bowing my head. I turned to see Illumi, who just turned and started walking back up the mansion. I followed him in silence, mentally preparing for everything I would be going through again. But I would go through it happily, because I didn't want to make Killua or Alluka sad ever again. And maybe Illumi, I still never figured out if my death affected him or not.
My trained started up the next day, after they knew it wouldn't kill me, since that would be such a waste. Illumi trained me everyday, even though it used to just vary from member of the family to member. Maybe he didn't want to take the chance of someone going too far again, heck if I knew. All I knew was Killua tried to call me once a week, and the fact he tried to keep in touch with me kept me going. They also let Alluka see me sometimes, not very often though. Probably just enough to keep me going, in their minds. But I would always keep going, for Killua and Alluka. No matter what happened.
So I died young, but I came back. Because the good die young, but the great will live on. So maybe, that means there's more out there for me. I hope it does. I really do.