Chapter Thirty Two

OK – I don't do sex scenes. I can't write them, it's just not my style. So there isn't one here, but the build up to one and the aftermath. I didn't like this chapter when I first wrote it but it's grown on me a bit. That's my defence if you think it's pants.

Disclaimer – I do not own Twilight but I do own Hetani and anyone/anything else unrecognisable.

Embry POV

The entire setting was an almost clichéd version of romance with soft music, warm firelight and a gentle breeze tugging on loose strands of Hetani's shining hair. We just swayed from side to side, arms around each other with eyes never wavering from the others' gaze as we professed our love for one another. Almost two and a half years into our relationship and I still couldn't get used to her light voice saying those words to me. It got me every time.

"Embry?" she asked after a few moments of silence. I continued to look at her, adding a silent urge for her to continue. She did so. "Make love to me."

What? What did she just say? Did I hear that right? What? My eyes fell on a frantically gesturing Quil who mouthed something along the lines of 'say something, idiot' before pretending not to have heard. No one else seemed to be listening either – or they were really good actors. I looked at Hetani with wide, panicked eyes, uncertain of what to say.

"Why?" Hetani's determined expression slipped and she looked positively miserable. I was suddenly aware of just how stupid that question had been and hurried to reassure my girlfriend that I wasn't a complete tool. "I mean . . . a-are you sure?" I stuttered, watching in relief as an affectionate smile lit up her face.

"Of course I'm sure – more than I've ever been about anything. I'm ready." I knew right then that she was. I pressed my lips slowly to hers before withdrawing and holding her hand tightly. With that, I led her away from the party and towards the woods as I'd driven there, nerves almost taking over. Quickly (and out of Hetani's way), I phased and she cautiously climbed on my back. I took off running, thoughts spinning almost out of control. I had only ever had sex twice before – just before I became a wolf with some girl on two different nights. That didn't put me in the 'experienced' column but I was more concerned about Hetani. It would be her first time – how did I cope with that? How would she cope with that? I didn't want to hurt her!

Embry, Sam's strong voice sounded in my head. If I could have blushed, I would have. In my panic, I had failed to notice that Sam was in his wolf form, travelling from somewhere.

Yeah? I asked hesitantly, still mortified from him hearing my thoughts. Oh God.

You need to calm down.

Calm down? CALM DOWN!? She's HETANI, Sam, how am I supposed to calm down?

She's your imprint. You need to remember that, above everything else, she's the most important thing in your life. You were made for her, Embry and it'll come to you. Feeling desperately uncomfortable, I thanked Sam and breathed in relief when I saw my house come into view. My mom, although she'd managed to make it to graduation, had driven to Seattle for a few days about some business meeting. And there was no way I was risking Hetani's house with both of her sisters, her brother and her dad around La Push. Hetani slipped down from my back, looking as nervous as I felt and I decided not to push my luck, turning to phase behind a tree.

"Wait," Hetani called almost silently. I turned my giant head in her direction and she was blushing furiously. "Just . . . just phase here," she finished and I swallowed, hesitating. But I could see the fierceness underneath her trepidation and knew it was what she wanted. So, steeling myself and trying not to blush, I phased back in front of her, the fur melting away from my skin. Her eyes turned to the size of saucers but she gave no other visible reaction. Internally, though, her heart was pounding. The tension was palpable as I slipped on my shorts.

Hetani POV

As ready as I was, the sight of Embry's naked body in the woods was dangerous for my heart. As all of the pack besides Leah walked around half naked, I knew that they had impressive physiques . . . but seeing all of Embry? The solid abs with the prominent V that was no longer partially concealed by jean cut-offs and . . . just wow. He pulled on his shorts and I could feel the electric atmosphere so strongly that I could feel my hair curling. My wolf slowly approached me, his hands coming to rest on my hips as he looked down at me with a soft smile.

"We'll take it one step at a time," he said and I nodded, letting him take me inside. Once in the living area, all rational thoughts left my head as Embry kissed my neck. They were sweet, barely-there kisses that trailed along my neck and down my shoulder then back up again. His arms hugged my stomach securely and I felt my head loll to the side as I almost started gasping for air. My hands latched onto his arms as he continued his ministrations and I barely noticed that he was leading us up to his bedroom. The next moment, I was lying on his bed and he was hovering over me, his strong forearms holding his weight from crushing me. His beautiful eyes had darkened with lust and I knew mine had as well as I reached up and pecked his lips. We both reacted instantly, Embry pulling me up so I was sitting in his lap. Our lips danced a well rehearsed routine together as our tongues provided back-up. My fingers dug into his shoulders whilst his brushed around my waist, slowly dragging down to play with the hem of my dress. I managed to kick my shoes off and, in a daring move I hadn't attempted before, twisted to straddle Embry's lap. His kiss faltered briefly before he took it in stride and added even more passion to our movements. I gasped in surprise in pleasure as his warm hands slid under my dress and edged upwards, rubbing in small circles that made me moan. He smiled a bit at the sound and continued the movements whilst still kissing me. Once more attempting something I never had before, I moved my lips across his cheek, down his jaw and over to his neck and collarbone, nibbling occasionally as my hands stroked his impressive chest. His hands returned to my dress and I felt his questioning gaze. All I did to answer was hold my arms up. Eagerly, yet gradually, as though preserving the moment, Embry clenched the fabric and lifted the dress. His fingers occasionally brushed my stomach and made sure to brush my breasts as he took the dress off, leaving me only in my simple white bra and matching girl's boxers. It suddenly occurred to me that sexier underwear would have been more appropriate to have on but Embry's adoring eyes didn't seem to mind.

Embry POV

I observed every possible inch of her body as I lay her down on the bed. Her underwear wasn't the lacy lingerie that featured in every fantasy I'd ever had about her but I didn't care. The white stood out against her dark skin, making her almost glow. Her breasts were a modest size, nothing too extravagant for my Hetani. Drifting down, I saw her hands itching to cover herself up but I held them down, seeing nothing to be ashamed of. Her stomach wasn't flat like most other girls her age but the slight roundness didn't bother me in the slightest. I let my lips drift across her collarbone and downwards, over her small peaks and stomach, worshipping every single bit of bare skin I could find. Then I momentarily froze, my dark orbs falling on the tiny, pale scar near Hetani's heart, just avoiding being covered by her bra strap. The bullet wound. The healed bullet wound, I corrected myself. After pressing a fleeting kiss to the flesh, I let my eyes travel to hers as my fingers settled on the clasp behind her back. She looked back resolutely.

"I'm ready," she repeated and I grinned.

"I love you," I whispered and she almost did glow.

"I love you too." That was all it took for me to continue into our little slice of Heaven.

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Hetani POV

I woke up in the morning and instinctively snuggled into Embry's warm body next to mine. I instantly felt the soreness in my muscles but it was completely worth it. No one had ever made me feel so beyond loved before and just one look into my boyfriend's eyes the previous night told me that he adored me beyond measure. I felt the same way.

"Good morning," he greeted me, pulling me closer. Both of us were still half asleep but I was well aware of the fact that we were still naked – not that I was complaining.

"Good morning," I replied cheerfully, tracing his abs with my index finger. He growled playfully at me but didn't make me stop.

"How are you?" he asked hesitantly, like he was afraid of the answer. I breathed a laugh and shifted so my chin was pressed on his chest and I was staring at him.

"I'm magical. Granted, I'm sore but last night was . . ." I blushed violently but didn't retract my eyes, loving the way he looked back unwaveringly.

"Perfect?" It was overused, almost cliché, but resembled my thoughts just right.

"Yes, it was." I had known he was made for me and I for him, but the sensations I had gotten just . . . blew me away. Suddenly, I felt extremely self-conscious and shifted my eyes to look at my hands that rested just under his chin. "For both of us?" It had been a long time since I had used such simple language to ask something and Embry seemed to notice. Yet he still got the point, as he always did. His right hand slowly pushed my head up so I couldn't avoid his eyes any longer. They were sparkling.

"Of course it was – for both of us."

"Even though I'm not . . . experienced?" I checked and he nodded, sighing a bit.

"Hetani, I love you and you need to listen to me. That was the single most important and special experience in my life – I can hardly think of anything to top that." I breathed in relief although he seemed to be suddenly unsure. "Was it . . . OK for you?"

"Are you kidding? I thought I had already made it perfectly clear – magical," I reiterated and we both smiled contentedly, my head returning to rest on his chest. And we just lay there peacefully until . . .

"Embry, have you seen H- holy shit, my eyes!" Jake burst into the room but quickly slapped a hand on his face to cover his vision. I squealed and yanked the sheets up to fully cover both me and Embry as we turned bright red.

"Uh . . . hey Jake," I said weakly. He just stood resolutely with his hand over his eyes and facing about three feet from the bottom of the bed.

"Yeah, ok, I'm gonna go and see Nessie. And scrub out my brain with a metal brush. Bye." He felt around and managed to make it out of the door blind. Just as I was about to relax, he popped his head back in, eyes squeezed shut. "Did you use protection?"

"Jake!" I shrieked whilst Embry looked willing to jump in a hole and die.

"Yes, we did," he answered a slightly high voice, gesturing pointlessly to the two discarded shiny packets on the floor. Jake nodded and finally left for real. I buried my face in Embry's neck and tried to calm my flush.

"That was humiliating," I mumbled and felt Embry nod in agreement.

"The whole pack's going to know now," he pointed out but I'd known that already and prepared myself as much as possible.

"Brace yourself," I teased before preparing to get up for breakfast.

There you have it. Thank you so much, as always, for the reviews/favourites/alerts – I appreciate every one and love you all so much for being so supportive. I'll probably publish the Jared/OC story after this is over and done with. Love Bianca :) x