*DISCLAIMER*
"I can't believe you're making fun of Juudaime," Gokudera said as he sat on the sofa, his arms crossed against his chest. He didn't attend their last subject just so he could talk to this man. (Well, he didn't wait for the class to end because Yamamoto doesn't have practice today so they'll be going home together earlier than usual)
"I'm busy," was all Hibari said to Gokudera.
Gokudera gave the Japanese a glare even though the man isn't looking at him. "Busy? Don't give me that shit. You were just sleeping a while ago," he said angrily.
"Yeah, so?"
"Tsk," Hayato gave up glaring at the man who didn't even bother giving him a glance. "I just can't believe you're making fun of the person you love," he told the Cloud calmly, closing his eyes.
"I never made fun of him," Hibari informed the silver-haired guardian seriously.
Gokudera opened his eyes as he heard footsteps coming closer to him. He was surprised when Hibari sat a little far away beside him on the same sofa. "Then why is he feeling that way?" he asked as he looked again at the Cloud Guardian.
"Hn," Hibari smirked. "That herbivore is just too no good to understand my actions," he answered.
"Say that again, you bastard!" Gokudera was easily angered. No one insults his Juudaime especially in front of him.
"I don't know why he feels that way but I'm pretty gentle to him," Hibari spoke his thoughts. He had helped Tsuna in so many things so he really doesn't know why the Sky still felt that way.
"Then why don't you just tell Juudaime that you love him?" Gokudera asked the Japanese. Well, this situation is just like what happened to him. Yamamoto wasn't saying a thing about his feelings so he thought that the idiot was just making fun of him.
Hibari looked at Gokudera as he raised an eyebrow. "Are you an idiot?"
"What?" Gokudera was shocked and was about to get mad at the question but then, he calmed down when he realized why Hibari had asked that. They are somehow alike. They would never say such embarrassing words so Gokudera somehow understands the Cloud guardian.
"Wow, herbivore, what's this?" Hibari asked in amusement (though his tone was a little insulting) as he touched a red mark that was on Gokudera's neck.
"Huh? What?" Gokudera asked (their topic suddenly changed but neither minded). He tried to look at where Hibari was touching but his eyes couldn't see the spot.
"You've got red mark here, oh and here and…" Hibari saw red marks all over Hayato's throat, neck, collarbone and he was sure that there are still more hickeys hiding under this man's clothes. "Heh," he smirked. "So you've done it?"
Gokudera stared at Hibari with confusion.
Red marks..?
...
Shit.
Blood suddenly rushed up to Gokudera's face. "Don't touch me," he said as he slapped Hibari's hand away from his neck.
"So who was on top?" Hibari asked, still with a smirk on his lips.
"T-Top?" Hayato asked in confusion. How can there be a top? He and Yamamoto are both guys.
Kyoya raised an eyebrow first before he responded at the silver-haired boy's action. "So you didn't go all the way, heh."
Huh?
Who the hell didn't go all the way? We both came.
We came at the same time…
Gokudera was about to tell that to Hibari but then the bell rang. "I don't know what the hell you mean but I have to go," he said as he stood up and walked to the door. When he was just about to twist the doorknob, he suddenly remembered the reason why he came here. "Oh, tell Juudaime that you love him sooner before he starts hating you," he said before opening the door. When he walked out, he saw his Juudaime at the other side of the hall. "Juudaime!" he greeted in a shout. "How long have you been there?" Gokudera asked nervously. Hibari might get mad at him if Tsuna heard what he just said, after all.
"I just came… The bell just rang… hehe," Tsuna answered and laughed nervously.
Gokudera knew that his Juudaime was lying but then he heard Hibari call the Sky.
"I'll be going, Gokudera-kun," Tsuna said before going inside the Disciplinary Office.
FF
Tsuna sat at the end of the sofa (while Hibari sat at the other end). He and Hibari had been silent for more than an hour now. Tsuna was too nervous to start a talk and Hibari was just there, staring at nothing.
Ugh… What should I do?
Sawada was already fidgeting. What should he do? After hearing something like that, there is no way he could start a talk. Right after the bell rang, he went to Hibari's office and then, he heard the last part of their talk… he heard Gokudera's advice.
"Oh, tell Juudaime that you love him sooner before he starts hating you."
That Juudaime is surely him and the 'you' is definitely Hibari. He is not that dumb to not realize that. He was also wondering why Gokudera and Hibari are talking about that but he chose to put that thought aside for now.
"Let's go"
Tsuna flinched, surprised at hearing Hibari's voice. "W-Where?" he asked as he looked up at the man who was now standing in front of him.
"Home," Hibari answered as he took Tsuna's hand and dragged him forcefully.
Tsuna let himself be dragged by the older Japanese, not that he has a choice anyway. He looked at the Sky and was surprised when the sun was already setting.
How long had I been thinking?
"Herbivore," Hibari called when they reached Tsuna's home.
Tsuna turned his head to look at the Cloud guardian and was about to speak but was taken aback when he was pushed to the wall. "H-Hibari-san?" he saw the intense look in Hibari's eyes and he couldn't help but stutter.
"I know you heard our conversation earlier," Hibari stated with his deep voice.
Tsuna gulped. Was he so obvious? "I-I'm sorry, Hibari-san," he apologized as he looked at his feet, too scared to look at Hibari's eyes.
"Tch," Hibari cupped Tsuna's cheek so he could see the boy's face again. He gave the Sky a chaste kiss on the lips and then hugged him tightly but gently.
Tsuna was surprised and his heart started beating faster. He was sure that Hibari could feel his fast heartbeat due to the tight hug.
"You already know how I feel so I'll wait for your answer tomorrow," Kyoya told the Sky as he let go of the hug. "And just so you know," he cupped Tsuna's cheek again and looked directly into the little boy's big eyes. "I don't accept rejection, Tsuna."
Tsuna gulped in fear, hearing those words, but his fear was completely taken over by surprise when Hibari addressed him by his name. He saw Hibari smirked at him first before taking his leave.
"Yakyuu baka, what the hell are you doing?" Gokudera asked in a shout as he tried to push the heavy arm that was resting on his chest. They were on his bed. Yamamoto is going to sleep over tonight.
"Cuddling," Yamamoto answered with a smile before pulling Gokudera in a hug, burying his face in the Italian's chest. This way, he could smell Gokudera's scent more.
Gokudera's heart started beating fast, feeling Yamamoto's breath on his chest. He was sure that the idiot could feel the hard pounding of his heart. "B-Baka, I know that! How the hell can I sleep like this?" he asked the Yakyuu baka with annoyance.
"Where did you go before the class ended?" Takeshi asked with a pout, nuzzling his nose against Gokudera's chest and obviously ignoring Gokudera's complaint.
Gokudera's brows twitched with anger, having his question ignored. But he sighed in annoyance, knowing that debating with this idiot would just be a waste of time. "Disciplinary Office," he answered as his heartbeat slowly calmed down, getting used to the baseball freak's closeness.
"Hn… why?" Yamamoto couldn't recall Gokudera doing something bad to be called by the disciplinary office.
"I just had a talk with Hibari," Gokudera answered. He suddenly remembered something he should do so he sat up, letting Yamamoto's arm fall to become wrapped around his waist. "Anyway, you should sleep now, you still have practice tomorrow," he told the baseball idiot as he took his laptop that was on the table near his bed.
"How 'bout you?" Yamamoto pouted again as he tightened his hug around the Italian's waist.
"I'll just research on something first," Gokudera told his lover.
Yamamoto sat up also beside Gokudera and cupped the silver-haired guardian's cheek so that the boy was now looking at him directly in the eyes. "Okay, but don't stay up late, goodnight," he said with a smile, giving the Italian a sweet kiss on the forehead.
Gokudera blushed at this and he pushed the idiot away from him. "B-Baka," he said as he looked away. "A-Anyway, goodnight," he stuttered. He was blushing; his face was oh-so-red. He knows, he could feel it; he could feel his cheeks burning with embarrassment. And he could feel Yamamoto's eyes, staring at him. He knew that there was a smile on that idiot's face without even looking at him. "And stop looking at me, idiot," he hissed as he frowned at his laptop.
Hayato sighed in relief when he felt Yamamoto lie on the bed and slept. He, then, focused on his laptop and started his research. Well, he felt like an idiot when he was talking with Hibari earlier. What is top and bottom in a boy-to-boy sex? And what does he mean by 'they didn't go all the way'?
FF
The Italian couldn't believe it. He knows now the top and bottom. He knows now how to go all the way. Not only did he research about this but he was also able to watch one. And so he knows now how guys do it.
Disgusting
That's how he felt.
Disgusting
But if it was his idiot… if it was Yamamoto doing it with him… then maybe, he'll change his mind. But that is just a maybe… MAYBE. He didn't know. He wouldn't know unless they do it… but the question for him is HOW THE FUCK WILL THEY DO IT? Who will be the top? Who will be the bottom?
Seme and uke…
He also found out how they call the top and bottom. The top is called the seme and the bottom is called the uke. The description about those is easy to understand but how the hell is he going to apply those data? The seme is usually the taller and older one while the uke is obviously the shorter and younger one. Semes are usually cool and 'bad' while the ukes are usually the idiot and innocent and kind. How the hell is he going to apply those descriptions to the two of them?
Everyone knows that between the two of them, Yamamoto is taller and Hayato is shorter but Yamamoto is younger than Gokudera. Gokudera is cooler than the idiot and surely, Yamamoto is the kind person and obviously the idiot here. But the innocent one, that may be Gokudera.
Hayato calmed and tried to sleep but every time he closes his eyes, images of him and Yamamoto doing it all the way come to his mind though he was not quite sure who the seme is but…
Ughh… I can't sleep.
Hayato sat up and looked at his clock.
12:05
"Tsk. Hey, Yakyuu baka," he called as he gently shook his lover's body to wake him up.
"Nnn…" Yamamoto just groaned.
"Oi, Yamamoto," Gokudera called again, shaking Yamamoto's body harshly this time.
"Hm?" Takeshi lazily opened his eyes and looked at his lover who disturbed him in his sleep.
"I can't sleep," Hayato whispered to his idiot beloved.
Yamamoto gave Gokudera a gentle smile. "Then, come here," he said as he pulled Gokudera by the hand and embraced him tightly but gently.
"Eh?" Hayato looked at his idiot lover.
"Goodnight," Yamamoto smiled before giving Gokudera a chaste kiss on the lips. He let Hayato rest his head on his chest.
"Night…" Hayato whispered, enjoying the feeling of Yamamoto's fingers playing with his hair.
FF Saturday morning
"Hayato…" Yamamoto called as he walked inside Hayato's bedroom. He just finished cooking their breakfast and his beloved is still sleeping. "Wake up, the food's gonna get cold," he said as he leaned his face closer to Gokudera's ear, his breath sending shivers to the Italian (even though he was still asleep) as he spoke those words.
"Nnn…" Gokudera opened his eyes a little but closed them again and continued sleeping.
Yamamoto sat on the bed, his hips just below Gokudera's head. "Hayato," he called again with his gentle voice as he removed the strands of silver hair that covered Gokudera's beautiful face.
"Two…" Hayato whispered.
"Ha?" Takeshi obviously didn't understand what the boy said.
"Just two more minutes…" Hayato whispered as he wrapped his arms around his lover's waist.
Yamamoto just blushed at the action but he smiled and patted Gokudera's back. "Hai hai," he couldn't possibly refuse this request, right? Especially now that Gokudera is hugging him.
Sweeeeeeeeeettttt
They stayed like that for two minutes and just as promised, after the two minutes, Gokudera sat up, covering his mouth with his palm, as he yawned.
"Good morning," Hayato greeted as he turned his head to look at the baseball idiot.
Awww
Yamamoto was surprised again at the greeting. Not only did he receive a hug from the Italian but also a greeting in the morning?
Awww
That's just so sweet (at least for Yamamoto, he never gets this often from his oh-so-cold lover). Yamamoto must be in heaven now. "Good morning," Takeshi greeted back with the happiest smile ever before kissing the silverette's forehead.
FF
Gokudera stood silently, his hands trembling at his sides. He was in the bathroom, naked. He had a dark blush on his face and his brows were twitching with anger or rather… embarrassment.
"Why…" Hayato whispered as he closed his fists tightly. "WHY THE HELL ARE WE TAKING A BATH TOGETHER?" he asked in a shout as he raised his head to look at the idiot's face. "Ah, shit, my eyes," he whispered and cursed as he bowed his head again and wiped his eyes with both hands.
"Careful now," Yamamoto said as he turned the shower on to help his beloved. He was shampooing Gokudera's hair and he didn't expect Gokudera to raise his head so suddenly (Gokudera was so stiff a moment ago due to embarrassment, after all) that's why the shampoo got into his beloved's eyes.
"Tsk," Gokudera was finally able to open his eyes… but they were still red and unwanted tears were on his face. "Why the fuck are you doing this for me anyway?" he asked in a shout.
Yamamoto turned the shower off and he cupped the Italian's face to look at him. "I'm sorry," he apologized as kissed the man's tears away. "Don't get mad."
"That's not it…" It's not that Gokudera is mad. "Tsk, you're really an idiot, let me wash your back for you," Gokudera told his idiot, still with a blush and a frown, as he turned the man's body around so he was facing his back.
FF
"I'll go ahead then, Hayato," Yamamoto said as he patted the Italian's head before running away.
Gokudera sighed in relief when he saw his idiot ran away. Not that he didn't like the baseball freak near him; it's just that beside this idiot, he couldn't keep his cool. Especially after what they did in the bathroom (you know already), Gokudera was wondering how the hell is that idiot still so, so energetic?
Gokudera sat under the tree as he sighed deeply again. He was tired— really, really tired. Honestly, who does something like that so early in the morning? Yamamoto is just so damn horny. He is a real pervert.
Still… Gokudera wondered why they didn't go all the way. Is Yamamoto holding back? That's the only reason Gokudera could think of. There's no way Yamamoto didn't know about that 'going-all-the-way' thing; Yamamoto did tell him to research about this, after all.
Oh man… How the fuck did I end up to this topic again?
Hayato literally face-palmed himself as he got irritated. He regrets now; he shouldn't have researched on that thing.
Tsk.
Gokudera heard voices of baseball players. He removed the palm on his face to look at the baseball field and saw that they were already starting their practice. They were running around the baseball field (He's just outside, a little far away from the field so no one would notice him) and his eyes were obviously looking for the idiot— his idiot and he immediately blushed and looked away when he saw that his idiot— the baseball freak— was also looking at him, showing him his idiotic smile. "B-Baka," he whispered to himself.
Saturday Afternoon
Tsuna sat silently in front of Hibari who was also sitting silently with his back leaning against the wall behind him. They just finished studying and obviously, it's time for Tsuna to tell Hibari his answer.
But Tsuna didn't know where and how to start. Well, of course, if there's something he should and must say, that is he accepts Hibari's feelings. But he couldn't say that… not when he is still confused with his feelings. His heart would start beating fast whenever Hibari is near him but isn't that just because he is afraid of his sempai? And he likes Kyoko, for heaven's sake. How could he say that he accepts Hibari's feelings for him?
The Sky couldn't possibly reject Hibari's feelings. After all, the Cloud had already told him before that he doesn't accept rejection. And if Sawada was to say something like that, he would probably get bitten to death on the spot.
Tsuna raised his head a little to take a quick glance at the black-haired man in front of him but he eventually looked away when he saw the man's eyes staring at him.
Someone, help me.
Tsuna was crying for help in his mind. Those eyes he saw moments ago weren't just staring at him, they were intensely looking at him, glaring at him. So scary
"Well?"
The herbivore's body flinched, hearing that voice. He knew that he has to have a definite answer sooner, and by sooner, he meant now. He started fidgeting, unable to think of the right words to say.
"Say it."
Tsuna gulped. He really had to answer now or else, he'd die. "I…" he paused and released a deep breath before continuing again. "I'm sorry, Hibari-san. I already like someone else," he said as he looked at Hibari only to regret it afterwards. Hibari's eyes were showing him a deadly glare. "H-Hibari-san, I'm really sorry but I like Kyoko…" he apologized and explained. Tears started to form in his eyes when Hibari's glare didn't disappear.
"Tsk," Hibari hissed as he removed his glare when he saw the herbivore about to cry. "That's not what I want to know," he said. Who the hell asked him about what he felt for Kyoko anyway? Tsk "What do you feel for me?" he made himself clear by stating his question.
The tears on his eyes vanished as he looked at Hibari with his big eyes.
What do I feel for Hibari-san?
…
I don't know
He fears this man but that doesn't mean he hates him, right?
Hibari-san is scary but I don't hate it when he is near me.
But that doesn't mean that he likes the man, right?
I don't know
He is so confused with his feelings.
I don't understand my feelings
He doesn't understand himself at all.
"I don't know…" Tsuna whispered as he bowed his head. Everything in his head is just a mess.
"Come here," Kyoya said as he reached out his hand and grabbed Tsuna, making the boy straddle his lap. "I'll make you understand," he said as he hugged Tsuna, wrapping his arms around the boy's slim waist.
Tsuna's eyes widened and his heart started beating fast once he received that hug. Blood rushed up to his cheeks and he doesn't know if he should struggle or not. He had been letting Hibari do this to him before but today is different.
Different?
How can today be so different? Hibari is just hugging him like what he always does. Why should he struggle now?
Why didn't I struggle before? Why did I just accept the hugs like it was a very normal thing two boys do?
…
*Ba-dump* *Ba-dump* *Ba-dump*
Tsuna could feel wild heartbeats… He could feel not only his own but Hibari's heartbeat also.
Hibari-san's heartbeat?
This is the first time he had felt Hibari's heart pounding so fast or rather should he say, this is the first time he paid attention to Hibari. He had never paid attention to Hibari 'til now. He was only thinking about how Hibari likes making fun of him… how he feared the Cloud. This is truly the first time he paid attention to why Hibari was doing this to him.
Has Hibari-san always been like this from the start?
The Sky tried to recall but he couldn't remember. All he could remember is the fear he felt every time Hibari was beside him.
Kyoya tightened his hug around the boy's slim body, letting Tsuna's head rest on his chest.
*Ba-dump* *Ba-dump* *Ba-dump*
Tsuna could hear Hibari's heart pounding and he was sure that it was faster than before.
Ughh…
This is really the first time he had let his heart take over his mind. His mind was always making him fear Hibari-san. Today… his heart was making him feel something he doesn't know… something so confusing.
Why?
And now that he thought about it, those hugs… those kisses…
Why did I let Hibari-san do those to me?
The things that are done by lovers only…
I didn't even struggle.
I didn't even try to struggle.
Letting Hibari do all those, does it mean that he actually loves the man?
But what about Kyoko?
Kyoko hadn't crossed his mind since the day Hibari made him go to the disciplinary office. To tell the truth, he doesn't really think of her much often like what everyone does when they're in love. Tsuna was just happy to see Kyoko every day.
Hibari-san…
Every time Tsuna would go to the disciplinary office to see the Cloud guardian, he always felt fear. But…
Did I really fear going to Hibari-san's office?
If he really feared going there, he shouldn't have gone in the first place. He could have just made an excuse or asked for help from his friends but he didn't. He never tried.
No…
Was he really scared?
I was actually… excited?
He never hated those hugs. He never hated those kisses.
No…
All he did was accept those.
All I did was ask myself why Hibari-san was doing those…
That's the truth. And his mind kept on telling him that Hibari was just making fun of him. But now that he knows what Hibari felt for him, he realized that somewhere deep in inside him was hoping for something.
Was I expecting something more?
*Thump*
He just realized that he was actually expecting something more. He had let Hibari do those because he was expecting something more. Deep inside, he was actually hoping that Hibari has a better reason why he was doing those.
"Hibari-san"
Tsuna pulled away from the hug, letting Hibari's hands rest on his waist. He didn't look at the Cloud guardian directly; he just looked at his hands on Hibari's chest that were clutching the man's shirt tightly. "I'm sorry. I'm really, really sorry. I was always so ignorant. Please forgive me. I didn't mean to ignore your feelings. I misunderstood you because I was so self-centered. I'm so sorry. I'm really, really—."
"You don't have to apologize, I'm not mad," Hibari shut Tsuna, lifting the boy's head with his right hand so they were looking directly in each other's eyes. "However, if you don't say how you feel for me sooner," he said as he wiped the tears that were on Tsuna's cheeks. "I might just get mad and who knows what will happen," he said then smirked when he saw the Tsuna's response.
"I—"
"Don't even try to say that you don't feel the same."
Tsuna gulped. "I won't reject you, Hibari-san. So please, take care of me forever," he said with a dark blush on his face. He suddenly hugged the Cloud, pulling him in a kiss.
Hibari, on the other hand, was surprised but he smirked at the kiss, knowing that he had conveyed his feelings to the boy pretty well. Forever? That sounds bad but I accept your challenge, herbivore.
Yamamoto finished his practice today and now, he and Gokudera are walking home together. "'Dera, just tell me where you went during my practice," the Rain said as he walked a little closer to the silver-haired guardian.
"I told you I just took a walk," Gokudera answered with irritation in his tone. "How many times do I have to tell you that, idiot?" he asked angrily, almost in a shout as he glared at the Rain guardian.
Yamamoto had been constantly repeating his question after they finished their practice and Gokudera had been giving him the same answer for God-knows how many times.
"But 'Dera, did you really just take a walk?"
Gokudera raised an eyebrow as he stopped walking. Does Yamamoto think he's cheating on him? True that he didn't just walk earlier, he went off somewhere and had a talk with someone but to think that Yamamoto is accusing him— "Get straight to the point, idiot. Where do you think I went?" he asked with a calm but serious voice, disliking how the idiot accuses him.
"Disciplinary office," Yamamoto answered with hesitation but still with a smile on his lips.
"Haaaaaaa?" Gokudera asked in disbelief. He doesn't know why Yamamoto is thinking that way but he was sure that the freak is an idiot. "Why the hell would I go there?" he asked as he stared at Yamamoto and waited for an answer but all he received was a nervous, idiotic laugh.
Gokudera stared at his lover with confusion for a moment before he realized why Yamamoto is thinking that way. "D-Don't tell me you're jealous of Hibari?"
Yamamoto laughed nervously again as he scratched the back of his head. Those words were true, after all.
Gokudera's eyes widened and his cheeks turned red when Yamamoto's response confirmed his jealousy. "You… you're an idiot," he whispered as he looked away. "A-Anyway, perish the thought. He's in love with Juudaime. Let's go home," he said fast as he continued walking.
FF Saturday Night
It was now Hayato's turn to sleepover tonight. He just finished changing his clothes to pajamas and now, he is looking at Yamamoto with annoyance. "Why the hell do you look so happy?" he asked angrily, not liking the idiotic smile he was seeing.
"Nothing… I'm just happy 'coz you're here with me," Yamamoto answered, still smiling.
Gokudera blushed again, hearing that. He just couldn't get himself used to hearing those words. His heart would always skip a beat when he hears such words from the idiot. But he isn't getting irritated like before; he knows now how to handle this. He had come to like it, actually.
You're happy 'coz I'm here?
Gokudera smirked. He walked and sat beside Yamamoto on the bed. Earlier, when Yamamoto was at the baseball court, he left because someone called him. And that someone was asking something from him. It wasn't actually a request but rather a command that should be done. But doing that would mean—
"What if I'm not here with you anymore?" Gokudera asked.
"Ha?" Yamamoto was surprised, hearing that question. He looked at the Italian beside him and saw that the man was serious. Why would Gokudera ask something like that? If it was just a mere question, then there's no problem.
But this is Gokudera we are talking about. He wouldn't ask something so meaningless with such a serious face. There's something behind that question. He just couldn't figure it out.
Gokudera turned his head to look at the Japanese directly in the eyes before he spoke again, "What if I leave you?"
I'm really, truly sorry for taking so long to update. I was so busy at school.
And sorry for the OOC-ness also :)