Promises, I dislike them. Why? Because I'm a bad person but at the same time I'm very suspicious so when I make a promise I always tend to keep them despite my misery. It is now 12:59 pm and I am posting the next chapter becuase in the last one I said I would post either today or tomorrow and it is officially one minute till the day after tomorrow. So damn the sleep but if there are any major errors, witch wouldn't surprise me since I´m writing half asleep let me know and maybe one day I will correct them. I know I am weird o.O I doubt anyone´s waiting for this at this time at night... xD

Chapter 11

Terrible.

Terrible didn't even begin the describe the way Alexander Lightwood felt at the moment, he was currently curled up on the sofa chair in the library trying to become invisible with his siblings and father only a few feet away. Robert Lightwood who was on the most part away working had surprisingly and to Alec´s terror came back for the weekend coming to terms with the fact his two sons weren't in good shape. Since his return he hadn't said a word to his eldest but instead way paying attention to Jace going through books that could give them clues about how to eliminate the heavenly fire he held within. Alec had been given disapproving looks from his father though, especially when he could be helping to find information but the boy just didn't have the energy or heart to care anymore, he cared too much throughout his life and all he could see that it brought him pain. He could still remember the night before, the way Blake stood above the dead humans, it had shocked him but now he felt embarrassed and guilty. Alec wasn't deceived by him and knew what he did for a living but he couldn't get up the nerve to call or text Blake anymore and after how things ended he doubted he was going to see the red haired warlock again. -It's not like I'm perfect - Alec thought – We both have our problems….-. Then there was also Magnus, the thought of being rejected again make him push his first ever love away. Even though Magnus was being kind to him and wanted to help him but in some way that made it worse, Alec didn't want to get his hopes up so that's why he said those things.

"Have you seen Camille since that day? She always comes here every year" Magnus asked. "Dead" Alec replied coldly. "She´s dead". Alec could feel Magnus tense up beneath him and a second later he pushed the boy off his lap and onto the bench so he could look into his blue eyes. "What do –-? " Magnus started to ask, "I killed her" Alec interrupted and in his mind at the moment it was true, he did kill her, if he had never when to see Camille in the first place then Blake would have never assassinated her.

But now he could see how very wrong that scene was, regardless if he liked it or not Camille used to be his ex´s girlfriend and he just announced her death like it was nothing and even admitted to killing her. So many things could have been done better and he could have avoided the extra pain but unknown as to why ever since he´s woken up from that nightmare he couldn't help but cause himself dread.

Suddenly the loud noise of the doors opening pulled Alec out of his thoughts and standing there by the entrance of the library was no other that one of the men he had been thinking about. –Blake- Alec thought – What is he doing here!?-

To Blake´s enjoyment he could see the surprise and shock on Alec´s face as it registered that he was in fact here. Why was he here? Even Blake did not know himself, only that is was in part out of boredom and in part revenge. He still wanted Alec but at the same time he wanted Alec to be more…..submissive, to not run away from him and toforget about his past lover so maybe this was his reminder to him that he would not just simply vanish from his life.

"Are who you might be?" asked the elder man who was now standing up from his chair. Now at second glace Blake noticed the familiarity between him and Alec, same hair, same eyes. –So I guess their related?- Taking another look at Alec before he responded he noted that the shadowhunter was perched on his chair in a very uncomfortable way "I'm a close friend of Alec´s and I just came here to return his mobile." He answered smirking, "You see he dropped it at the party" he continued as he walked closer to the boy. In the background he could hear the whispers of the elder man asking Jace angrily "Who this downworlder was?!" but Blake wasn't concentrating on them now that Alec was in his reach. He pulled the shadowhunters phone out of his pocket and leaned in putting the device in Alec´s hand but not before kissed him on the cheek "See you later" Blake said with an evil smile knowing what he just done as he went back towards to door.

Getting to the door Blake almost felt like he had been a little to lenient with the boy, -I should have full out snogged him- he thought funnily so before he went out the door he decided to pull one last blow. Turning around Alec had such a cute face and he couldn't help but ruin it, "Hey Alec? By the way I can't wait to have you again" was the last thing the warlock said before leaving Alec. When he turned around everyone in the room were looking at him; judging him but the scariest look of them all belonged to his father.

"Jace, Isabelle. I would like you to leave the room" Robert announced fiercely. "But da—" Isabelle started to protest, "I need to talk to him in private!" Robert yelled as Alec got up from his seat the fear made him paralyzed to the spot. He wanted his siblings to stay because he was scared but at the same time he didn't want them to see this, see what he knew was going to eventually happen. "It's okay, go" Alec said to his sister faltering on his last word. Jace took that moment to grab his sister's hand and lead her out of the room, both of them still weren't getting alone but even without words they agreed that their little sister shouldn't be here. Once both siblings left the room the slam of the door seemed to echo and suddenly he felt that much more scared and alone since the man in front of him was looking at him like he was a disease and not his son.

"You were dating one warlock and now you're onto another, do you want to bring shame to this family!?" shouted Robert suddenly. "I took a blind eye tolerating you being with that downworlder with your happiness in mind but then you bring it before me!" he spat once more. Alec was so scared and before he knew it he was trembling all over but he had to keep to together "Da—it's just", -how can I explain it so he would understand- Alec thought while looking at his father´s twisted face – he never will-, "It´s…just the way I am" he completed defeated knowing that there was no happy ending. "Alexander, I tried to think differently but you just proved me wrong, you are just as dirty and tainted as I thought. You don't belong here anymore" Robert said coldly. "What- are you saying?" asked Alec, "JUST LEAVE. GO!" Robert burst out "You are defiantly not a shadowhunter and no son of mine" he screamed as Alec stood there paralyzed with fear then his father walked out of the room and slammed the door sending Alec´s world crashing down as he fell to his knees and burst out crying – He isn't healthy for you- Magnus´s words echoed in his head.

After what could have been an hour or minutes of sitting on the floor as he looked down at his trembling hands Alec didn't know what to do or where to go, he had just been kicked out of his home but somehow he felt relived. Alec knew this was going to happen someday and now that it has it's almost like he has been set free but that he could either fly or fall to his death is what worried him.

Taking his phone out of his pocket he knew the only option he had was the boyfriend he was currently angry at so before he could change his mind Alec pressed the call button, "Hello Alec" Blake´s voice answered after two rings, inhaling in too calm himself he went straight to the point "Can I move in with you?" Alec asked boldly. "No" Blake retorted mockingly as if he enjoyed the suspense. "It's your fault I'm in this position" Alec accused. "What are you talking about?" Blake asked mischievously in a pretend offended tone. "You did it on purpose knowing I was going to get thrown out" Alec stated and the silence that continued only confirmed his suspicions "If you think I'm going to beg to live with you!" Alec shouts upset feeling the tears once again behind his eyelids.

After a moment witch Alec took to compose himself there was a reply. "Sorry, I didn't think this would happen. I thought maybe you would choose to live with me since I made things awkward for you with your family but believe me, I wasn't trying to leave you with no choice!" Blake says genuinely. "Okay, but could you do that next time without hurting me" Alec said humorously with a hint of pain in his voice, "So meet you in an hour?" he asked. "That's fine but …. Alec?" Blake says surprisingly unsure of himself. "Yeah?" Alec asks. "I love you" Blake declared so clearly that Alec knew it was what he had said, no doubt, then the line cut off leaving Alec with his thoughts and the beeping of the phone.

So what do you think? Was I too harsh? I think Blake sadist moments depends on how I'm feeling at the time. Don't get me wrong I'm am happy but sometimes I just like to mess things up ha ha ha Also on another note MORTAL INSTRUMENTS MOVIE TRAILER COMES OUT MONDAY! ;D and Godfrey is sooo hot :3