I am sorry for no updates -I will really try to update my other stories,like, tomorrow. And sorry for all kinds of mistakes!
I know there is so much drama but I guess my life is so boring, I like to write drama :D
I will try to write more longer chapters , also! :))
Christian's POV
" Fuck.. " I groan as I wake up, my head, I will explode. I look out of the window, it must be already like 10 p.m. I need to get back to Seattle, that's the only thing I know. Why did I drink so much, it is not me!
What the hell happened yesterday? I had the meeting, then I went in while Taylor was parking the car, then there was that woman.. Anastasia, I think. We went out for a glass of wine, then I spoke to Taylor, yeah, I told him that he was no longer needed. Then I went back to her, but what happened next? Shit, why am I naked? Okay, it might be not the biggest problem, she was hot and attractive. And where is she now? Oh, must be a smart girl, already has left.
I get out of the bed and walk to the bathroom. I need a shower, a fresh shower. I let the hot water wash my body but then I feel something unfamiliar on my wedding ring finger.
" Fuck! "
" Sir, you told me to leave you on your own. " He says but I keep staring at the fucking ring. No, it can't be what I think it is, I just can't be married!
" So you don't know anything that happened with me after? " I ask.
" I am sorry, no. " Taylor says. It is not his fault since I really wanted some privacy with that Ana .
I need to find her. I need to fucking find her and get a divorce. As soon as possible.
" Taylor, find the information of the girl I am married to. Right after we land in Seattle. "
Anastasia's POV
" So, what's next? " I ask as I lie on David's couch. I am pretty tired after all the events.
" Now you need to hide somewhere, he will want to find you and get a divorce, you will stay here for two weeks and then you will tell him your news. " What? Hide?
" Did I understand everything right? You want me to spent two weeks in this house? "
" Ana, do you want to be even richer than you are going to be? " I want. I want to be as rich as I can. Okay, two weeks. Not a day more.
" Fine. " I sigh, and my friends start clapping their hands.
" Okay, we will get some food, Kate will stay with you. " David says and the men leave the room, leaving us here.
" So, show me the ring! " Oh, Kate is still excited even it is a fake marriage. I show her my hand, I bet our rings are the cheapest you can get, the drunk Las Vegas wedding doesn't offer you elegance and style.
" So, Anastasia Grey, you say.. " She sighs, taking my hand.
" For about month. " I laugh. And then I will be the very rich Anastasia Steele.
" How was the night? " I get it. She is my best friend - she deserves to know about what a lover Christian Grey is.
A huge grin appears on my face.
" Really? " Kate laughs.
" Amazing. He is hot, and handsome, and big, if you know what I mean. " I laugh. Oh, it will be a good memory.
" Don't fall for him! " Kate makes me laugh. I will never fall for someone, I think.
" I won't. "
" It would hurt David. " Oh, not again.
" Me and David aren't together. "
" But he would like to be. " Kate says. And? I don't want a relationship with my friend.
" Won't happen. " I say and laugh again.
Christian's POV
" She is not living at her place? Then find where she is! " I yell at Taylor. It has been three weeks since the night which kinda changed my life. I know it makes no sense if I am formally married or not but I can't fucking live, knowing I am married to someone.
" Sir, we have been trying but there is no sign of her. " Taylor's words make me believe. He is a professional, he would have found her if he could.
" Not now, Andrea! " I yell as my personal assistant knocks on the door.
" Sir, there is a girl who says she is Anastasia Grey. " What? I immediately stand up and walk out of my office. There she is, she is looking out of the window, but she looks as the same girl.
She turns around and faces me, looking in my eyes.
" Christian. " She says , walking to me and wrapping her arms around me. What the.. She is crying, shit.
" Come to my office. " I say and lead her to my office, where we are free from the stares from Taylor and Andrea.
" Don't cry , we will get a divorce soon. " I say and take my phone, I need to get the divorce papers.
" No, please, no. " She says, still crying.
Yes, we will have a divorce. Even her cries won't stop me.
" I am sorry but I am not interested in marriage. "
" You can't , Christian, please. "
I can. I dial my lawyer's number but hang up after her next words.
" I'm pregnant. "
I stop breathing for a moment. Pregnant? No, no , no, make this bad dream stop, let me wake up single and without a baby on the way, please.
She looks at me, what can I tell her? No, I can't have a kid and I won't.
" Are you keeping it? "
" Are you even asking this? This is our child! Didn't that night mean anything to you? "
" What are you suggesting? Maybe let's move in and live happily ever after? " I laugh. " That's not what I do. "
" But are you going to abandon this child? "
" Tell me how much you want and you will get it so you will be able to raise him. " Maybe I am too harsh but it's me, I don't need a child in my life.
" What? " She looks at me with her eyes wide open.
" I told you, and I would like to get a divorce as soon as possible. "
" I won't sign any papers until we try to be a family. A family our child deserves. " She says and stands up. Is she kidding? She will sign everything I want, doesn't she know who has she married?
" Don't you dare going anywhere. " I yell at her and follow her to the exit.
" I told you. " She continues to walk to the lift, but I stop her, taking both her hands in my.
" It is not worth to try. "
" How can you say that? Don't you realise you are ruining you unborn kid's life? And what do you think will happen with me - do you even know how hard it is to raise child on your own when you don't have money or help? My mother lives in Georgia, I have no friends here, I am all alone. " Oh no, she is crying again. Many women get knocked up, it's nothing new.
" Anastasia, don't worry about the money. "
" You think it's about the money? It's about our child's happiness. I am sorry, I have a doctor's appointment now. " The lift closes and she is on her way out of the building. No, I can't let her!
Anastasia's POV
Oh God, it was so easy. He must be pressing that lift's button like crazy. Now I only need him to agree to try until David tells me Christian has signed the papers. He said it would be like two weeks from today. I think I can handle being in a relationship with Christian for two weeks.
I get out of the lift and walk outside. Fake cries, come back to me! He has to see me upset, depressed. Okay, he must be here any second, what else can I do?
Oh , yes. I put my hands on my flat belly and look down at it. Talking to our unborn kid, as a wonderful mother.
I hear the lift open, and I start talking to my belly.
" Honey, it is not your fault your daddy doesn't want you, it is not your fault you will never have a real family. But mommy loves you, mommy really loves you. "
" Anastasia. "
" Get away from me unless you are okay to try. I could try this for my child. " I say and start walking away from him, out of the building.
" Anastasia, our child will have a better life without me , trust me. "
Doesn't he understand? I won't have a divorce with him. Okay, I will act the drama queen now. I will walk away from him , I will make him apologise me. Because if he really treated the woman he knocked up like this, he would be a total jerk.
I walk across the street, knowing he will follow me.
Brakes, cars stop, his arms on my body, pulling me back.
" Anastasia, are you alright? " He asks me but I am still in shock. I almost got hit by a car, I could have died. If only he hadn't pulled me back, he saved my life.
" Christian.. " Tears start rolling down my face, real ones. I wrap my arms around him for a hug, I am scared. What if something had happened? What if I had died?
" Don't cry, it is okay, nothing happened , schh.. " He says, hugging me close.
" Christian, thank you. But I have doctor's appointment now, I have to go. " Stop with real emotions, Ana! You need to get away from him today, you need to make him think.
" Is your doctor good? " Is my doctor good? I don't know, there is no doctor. Okay, play poor.
" I can't afford a good doctor. " I laugh, but I will when I get the money.
He is taking his phone and calling someone, shit.
" Hello. Are you free today? Sounds good, oh, she is pregnant, okay, thank you. " He hangs up and checks his watch.
" Cancel you appointment, we are going to see the best doctor in Seattle. " What? No, no , no!
" I can't, Christian, I already have my appointment here. " Shit, this is a problem. Okay, breathe Ana, breathe. When he gets to know you are not pregnant, act like you are hurt and in depression. Do anything to make him feel sorry for you, that is going to be your plan B.
" You wanted the best for the baby, I am giving it a try as you can see. " Okay, plan B is okay too. Now act as if you want to be with him.
" Oh, Christian, thank you ! " I exclaim and wrap my arms around his neck, I will give him a kiss, he deserves it after all. I let my lips touch his, I know I have to pull away but I can't, I want more. Our kiss turns into an open mouth kiss, a romantic kiss.
I pull away. What am I doing?
" I'm sorry.. " I mumble, looking away.
" It is okay. " He says, still shocked by the kiss. " Follow me. " He says, I guess we are going to his car. There is that man from the office, he lets us in, then asks Christian where to.
" It will be a short ride. " Christian says as the black Audi leaves the parking lot.
" Okay. " Now I need to think of all the emotions I will use when I get to know I am not pregnant. I will cry, I could find something that could kill me, I only need to be married with him for some time. I will manage how to, I know, it is me.
He doesn't say anything, I bet he is thinking about our kiss. There was nothing, nothing. I can't feel anything for him, no.
The car pulls in some private clinic's driveway and we get out of it. I follow Christian inside the building .
" We are here to see Dr. Greene. " Christian tells at the reception.
" You name, Sir? "
" Grey, Christian Grey. " The lady looks strangely at him , I guess usually there are women names written.
" Dr. Greene is ready to have you. " After her words, Christian walks to ( as I guess ) Dr. Greene's office. I follow him into the white room, full of women vaginas and stuff like that.
" Christian, it is nice to see you, may I be introduced to the lady? " The doctor asks, turning at me.
" Anastasia .. " After the silence he finishes my name. " Grey. "
" Oh, congratulations! " The lovely woman says, she walks to her machines and turns them on.
" Can you sit here, Anastasia? Christian, you can sit next to her. " The doctor says, and I make my way to where I am told to sit. Shit, he is staying, he sits down next to me.
" I guess we want to see your baby for the first time, am I right? " Oh, there will be nothing to see.
" Yes. " I say, smiling at Christian.
" Can you roll up your shirt, Anastasia? It will be a bit cold. " She says and I do what I am told to. She spills the cold gel on my stomach, making me shiver, then she takes something and starts rolling it on my belly.
Oh no, her monitor shows what's happening in my belly, okay, get ready for the fake tears, you will need them .
" Well, how long do you think you are pregnant? " She asks.
" Three weeks, anything wrong ? " I ask, acting worried.
" Well, I think you might be right. You seem to be about three weeks pregnant, I can't tell exactly, it is hard in the very early stages of pregnancy. "
I stare at her , wide eyed. Pregnant?
" What? " I ask, blinking.
" Your pregnancy seems doing very well so far. " The doctor repeats, giving me a smile.
My pregnancy. No, I broke up with Carl last month. It is.. It is Christian's child. I can't have a child, I can't do it. When I get the money from divorce, I will want to explore the world, I will want to live rich, I can't have a child.
Christian's POV
It was a shock. Everything. But right now I don't have any other chance besides trying.
When she kissed me, when she kissed me I wanted to push her away. But I couldn't. I don't have ever kissed a woman like that, her lips so sweet, her scent so tender, how much I wanted to have her then.
She' s been looking strange since Dr. Greene told her everything was okay. Now we have filled in some papers, and we are saying goodbye to Dr. Greene .
" See you next time! Congratulations! " She tells us as we leave. Anastasia is not saying anything but following me. Taylor is waiting at the car, we get in, still not a word from her.
" Anastasia, are you alright? " I ask, taking her hand in mine.
" I don't think it is a good idea. " She says,looking in my eyes.
" What are you telling me, Anastasia? "
" Let me out, I will get a taxi. " She says, taking away her hand.
" Anastasia, I will try, I won't be a good father but you said, you said that it is not our child's fault.. I will try, I promise. "
" You said it is not worth trying, I agree with you. Stop the car, please. " She looks so serious now, what's the reason of her sudden change of thoughts?
" Taylor, stop the car. "
" Bye.. " She says, getting out of the car.
Anastasia's POV
I can't, I can't. I walk in our apartment, everyone's at the table. David, Jose, Kate, Chris.
" Is anything wrong Ana? " Kate asks me, walking to me. She must have seen my tear strained face.
" And how it looks? " I ask, laughing. It is not okay, it is more than not okay.
" What the fuck happened? " Chris asks as I walk in the room.
" I won't do it. He is rich enough now, I won't wait those two weeks. "
" What? Are you fucking crazy Anastasia? " David stands up , walking to me. " You will do everything as we had planned. "
" I won't! " I yell, I need to express my emotions.
" Did you screw everything up with him? Shit, Kate should have married him. " Jose says.
" Stop yelling at her, Ana, didn't he believe you? " Kate seems to be the only one on my side.
" I didn't have to lie. " I say, crying into my jacket.
" Can you explain us? " David gets up from the table and walks to me, everyone's looking at me.
" I don't think there is anything to explain. " I say, I am about to go to my room but David's hand stops me.
" You will fucking tell us. " He says, holding me against my will, shit, it hurts!
" Will you take your hands off of me? "
" Not until you explain what you did wrong. " He even tightens his grip , it hurts.
" Get off of me! You want to hear everything? " I turn to the other people. " I am pregnant! Congratulate me! " I laugh, tears rolling down my cheeks.
There is burning desire in David's eyes, he looks angry.
" Slut. " He says then slaps me.
" Ohh! " I groan as his palm hits my face.
" Are you stupid? She is pregnant! " Kate takes me away from him.
" How could we trust you when you can't even use protection during sex? " He laughs, making me cry even harder. " Chris, drive her to someone who can kill that baby. " What? No! I know I can't have a child but I can't get rid of it. Even I know I could never kill someone, I could never kill my own child.
" I won't go anywhere. " I protest as Chris takes my hand.
" You will. " David says, giving Chris the keys of his car. He is dragging me out of the house. I try to get way, I yell , I bite but nothing succeeds.
I am in David's car, which is locked, of course.
" Chris, you don't have to do this. " I tell him as he gets in and starts driving.
" I am sorry, Anastasia. "
" Chris, he is just jealous, please don't. " I say ,looking out of the window, we are getting closer to the centre, I need to think of something.
" I need to pee. "
" You don't . "
" David will be pretty angry if you let me pee in his Baby. " Please, let me get out of here, please.
" Fine. " He says, pulling in the next gas station's driveway.
" I don't need your company. " I say as we walk to the toilets. He looks at me strangely but lets me go alone. I close the door and open the window, I need to get out of here. I climb out of the window and run as fast as I can to the street, there is a taxi driving, I need to get somewhere safe, I need to get away from Chris.
The taxi stops as I wave at it, I immediately jump in.
" Where to, Miss ? " I search for the adress I was given this morning. If Christian Grey is not at his office, he is there. I give his adress to the driver, he is the only one I know in Seattle besides my so called friends.
I know this is crazy, this is strange, I don't even know if he will want to see me again but I need somewhere to stay, I need to be in safe, and I have a feeling he could make me feel safe. I remember how his strong hands saved me today, can he do it again?
The driver tells me we have arrived, and I pay him and get out. The building is huge, living there must be expensive. I walk in and look at my piece of paper, shit , it says I can't get in his apartment. No, I need to, I walk to the security desk, maybe they can help me.
" I am sorry, how can I get to Christian Grey's apartment? " I ask, but the young lady laughs.
" Do you know who is Mr. Grey? You can't just get in his apartment. "
" He is my husband, and I need to get there, please. "
" Okay, security, take this girl out of here. " She waves to the security men who walk to me and make me leave.
" Wait, I really know him please.. " I yell but all I can hear is something about someone like me better going where I belong.
I am about to start crying again, when I meet his eyes. He is entering the building, looking at me and the men who are dragging me out.
" Anastasia. " He rushes to us and the men let me free. " What happened? " As they realise I do know him ,they leave.
" Just please take me with you now, please. "
Christian's POV
" So you won't tell me what happened? " I ask her as we eat dinner. Her face was red as if someone had hit her, her eyes were cried out, she definitely weren't okay. She eats the steak but she is quiet.
" I can't, I am sorry. "
" Anastasia, are you alright? "
" No. " She answers, giving me a serious look. Her beautiful eyes are cried out, there must be something wrong, something very wrong with her.
We finish the meal, and I walk to her and take her hand in mine.
" Don't worry, we will try. " I say . We will. I guess this is the day when I stop thinking about my needs . I am not ready, definitely. I am not ready to give up my lifestyle, I am not ready to have a child, to be in a relationship. But I need to act as if I was, I need to let her think everything's okay, she is going to go through so much for my child, she deserves me giving it a try.
" Can I go to sleep? " She asks. I stand up, taking her hand and leading her to my bedroom.
" It is pretty early but of course you can. This is my bedroom, you can sleep in the guest room but.. since we are giving it a try, you could sleep here. There is my closet and bathroom, use and take anything you need. "
" Thank you. "
Anastasia's POV
I am wearing his t-shirt and I just had a shower. I get in his bed, it is so soft and big, I get under the covers, it is warm and good here. I just want to sleep, I am afraid of what else can happen today, I want this day to end. I want it all to end. I want this marriage to end, I want my pregnancy to end so I can give this baby to someone who really wants it. I want David's anger to end, I am afraid to go back there. My hand makes its way to my belly. I am pregnant, I really am. And I feel so sorry for both Christian and the baby now. He wants to try but if only he knew what he is going to try.. If he knew what is he getting into, if he knew how bad I am.
" Feeling better? " He is standing at the doorway, still wearing a suit, only he has unbuttoned a few buttons of his shirt.
" A bit, thank you. " I say, looking as he walk in his closet, putting his jacket on the rack . " I will take a shower. " He says , giving me a smile before entering the bathroom.
He acts like a perfect man, he is caring. He knows me for a few hours but he is so nice . He doesn't deserve it, he doesn't deserve it all.
I keep thinking of it until he gets out of the shower, a towel wrapped around his waist. His naked chest reminds me of our wedding night. It was so hot and intense, it was amazing.
What am I thinking? Why am I thinking of him that way? It won't happen.
He gets back in, dressed in pajama pants and a t-shirt. He gets under the covers and turns to me.
" Are you alright? " He asks me, switching the lights off.
No.
Every time I close my eyes, I feel afraid of David. I feel afraid something will happen to my baby. I feel scared.
" Can you hold me, please? " I ask and Christian immediately reacts. He wraps his arms around me, tugging me close to his body.
" Better? "
" Much. " I fall asleep in a much safer place now. His arms.
Maybe for the last time, but maybe, this thought just popped in my head, just maybe, I could try, too.