So, so, so sorry again! I am trying to find time to write but every time I end up too tired. I really hope you like the update! Feel free to review!
P.S. Right now I am writing the update for Learning To Love ;))
Anastasia' s POV
Three weeks since the awkward kiss. Three weeks I have spent in his apartment, three weeks I have lived dreaming of kissing him again.
I want to stop thinking this, I want to stop it. But I can't. Every morning when he is getting ready for work, when he is buttoning his shirt only when he is at the breakfast table, when he laughs at Gail's jokes about weather, food, anything..
I am falling for him. Or even fallen.
We've been ignoring each other, I only have my breakfast when he has left, he comes back when I am in bed. I understand him. Before three weeks I came into his life and told him I was expecting his child. And that I am his wife. He was kind at first, but now I realise he is not okay.
„ Ana.. „ He says as he steps in the kitchen where I am having a very late dinner all alone.
„ Hi.. „ I mutter as he takes off his jacket, the white shirt showing off his broad chest. I know I can't look at him like this, I know I am not allowed to do this.
„ You should be in bed by now. „ He says as he reaches the table.
„ I'm sorry. „ I say and stand up, about to take my plate but he grabs my wrist and won't let me.
„ Anastasia... „ He mutters , his eyes set on my lips. Oh, Christian, if only you could kiss me and we could raise this child together, be happy..
„ What is it? „ I ask, looking into his dark eyes.
„ It is you. „ He says and suddenly pulls me closer to his body. „ You are never there when I am having breakfast. When I get home you are asleep. At weekends you are at the park. We are married. „
What does he mean with it? Married.
„ When you asked me to give this a try, I thought it would be different. Like the very first night we spent here. „
I remember that horrible day. It was the day when I got to know I was really pregnant. When David wanted me to make an abortion.
The day I fell asleep in Christian Grey's arms.
„ You are right.. „ I say. I want this conversation to end, I can't look at him, he is too handsome, too masculine.
„ Sleep with me. „ And that's something I hadn't expected. Something I want so much and something I know I can't want.
„ I-, I , „ I mumble, not knowing what to say.
„ What's with you? I can't live with you without touching you,keeping my hands to myself, not even looking at you. „
„ Do you feel something for me? „ The question pops out of my mouth before I can even think. Is it true? Does he want us to be something?
„ Attraction, Anastasia. And also you are going to be the mother of my child. And you are my wife. „ And what did I hope for? That he would say that he is in love with me? Like I am.. No, no, no! You have to stop thinking like this! Where is the girl I used to be? Where is the girl who could easily date guys for their looks, money? Where is the girl who just wanted to seduce Christian Grey? Gone.
Right now I look into Christian's eyes, and I am lost in them.
I don't even have time to move away before Christian has moved his body towards mine and placed his hands on my shoulders. He lowered his head and pressed his lips against mine. He took my hands in his and intertwined our fingers behind my back.
„ Christian.. „ I managed to say in the moment when his lips were apart from mine.
„ Don't , Anastasia. We know you want this as much as I. „ He is right. He is so fucking right. I want him to take me to his bed, I want to feel him, every inch of his body. I want to feel his hands on my skin, I want to feel his lips on my breasts, I want to feel him inside me. Oh, God, what makes me fantasise about him like this?
I give in. I can't resist his hands on my body, I can't resist his lips on mine, on my neck... I just let him take me to his bed and lay me down on it while he takes off his pants, revealing his huge erection.
I let him hover over me and slowly take off my clothes, kissing everywhere he undresses me. I moan as his hands get under my panties, taking them off .
„ So wet, Anastasia. „ He says , sliding his finger into me. I can't believe this man can give me so much pleasure only with his fingers, if only we were here under other circumstances...
I moan his name in pleasure Christian just gave me , and very soon I am desperate to feel him inside as he posesses himself between mey wet folds.
„ I want you so much.. „ He moans as he takes my hands in his, taking complete control over my body.
„ I want you too. „ If I am here, in his bed again, I won't lie. I know how wrong this is and how it shouldn't happen. But if it is happening, I want to enjoy it. I want to remember this as something wonderful. Just like the first time..
He slides into me, already making me moan his name in pleasure.
Every thrust, every move he makes, it just makes me fall in a deeper hole called falling in love.
„ Ana! „ He screams my name as he finds his release.
„ Christian.. „ I moan into his mouth as we both collapse on his bed.
„ Let's sleep now. „ He says, kissing my forehead and turning on his back, wrapping his arm around me.
„ Sweet dreams.. „ I say before I close my eyes.
What we just did. And what we do now. Wrong yet so right. So right to have sex with the father of your baby, with your husband. So right to be in love with him. So right to adore his looks and melt when he touches you. So right to want it.
So wrong to manipulate, so wrong to give him some drugs to make him sleep with you. So wrong to live with him to get more money. So wrong to marry him for his money.
She opens her eyes and glances at Christian. What if she didn't care about anyone but him? What if she abandoned the plan to divorce him and get his money? What if she tried to be with him for real?
The idea popped in her head but didn't leave her mind for some time before she finally fell asleep.
Christian was wealthy and could provide both her and the unborn baby. They were good in bed. Amazing.
She knew that she was no longer friends with David and the others, except Kate of course.
Maybe it was worth trying.
I wake up and find the bed empty. And my dream is over. And it gets even worse as I feel the urge to rush to the bathroom and empty my stomach. I get out of the bed and run into the bathroom,not even covering myself up. Morning sickness. I look up at myself in the mirror but then suddenly I start hearing voices in the room.
Christian's POV
„ Mom, stop, I will introduce you two. „ I say as she opens the door of my bedroom.
„ Well, I clearly won't wait a minute to see my daughter in law! „ My mother looks at the bed and makes her way to the bathroom where is Anastasia, fixing a towel around her body.
„ She is beautiful , Christian! „ Grace says as she approaches Anastasia.
„ Anastasia, meet my mother, Grace. „ Anastasia's eyes widen in shock as the two are introduced.
„ Oh, it is very nice to meet you , Mrs. Grey. „ She says as my mother shocks her by giving her a hug.
„ I still can't believe my son decided to start a marriage and even a family without leeting me know! „ Maybe it wasn't right to tell her everything. But she deserved to know after all. I left out the little details of our conditions when we decided to marry each other, and also the detail of for how long I have known Anastasia.
„ It just happened.. „ Anastasia says, looking at me. I guess I deserve an explanation but it can wait.
„ Anyways, I am very happy for you two. I guess we should let you change before I get to know you , dear. „
„ Thank you, Mrs. Grey.. „ Ana says before we leave the bathroom.
„ She is very beautiful, Christian. „ Mom says as we get back to the kitchen where Gail is serving the breakfast.
Anastasia is probably is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. Her dark brown hair, her sparkling eyes, her full lips that are so kissable. Her wonderful breasts that are the perfect breasts for a woman. Her long legs I can now touch whenever I want.
When I saw her, I didn't want a relationship, a marriage. Not that it was her fault, but it just wasn't me.
But after seeing my child on that monitor I knew I just had to do it.
Maybe it is time to stop what I was used to and really try this. One woman, in my bed, being a father .
Anastasia is out of my room, wearing the same dress she wore yesterday .
„ Anastasia, you look wonderful, how far along are you? „ My mother asks as soon as Anastasia gets in the kitchen.
„ Thank you Mrs. Grey. Six weeks. „ She says, placing her palm on her belly.
„ Call me Grace, honey. You are a part of the family now. „
„ Tea, Ana? „ I ask , turning to my wife. My wife. I even put on the wedding ring this morning when I got to know mom was coming.
„ Yes, thank you. „ She says as I pour the hot drink in her mug that Gail specially made for Anastasia.
„ How did you two decide on this? „ My mom asks , and before Ana has a chance to answer, I tell her the story that would be close enough to the original one.
„ We had been dating for a while and one morning she told me she was pregnant. „ I say. „ And then I was on business in Las Vegas, Ana had come with me. We went out for dinner and then we somehow decided to marry. „
„ Oh, I still wish you had told the family. Now we will have to organise a party for you two. I can't believe one of my sons is finally married and going to be a father. „ I can't believe it either, mom.
I really had never thought I would have this situation in my life. But so far it is not bad. There is just one thing I have to do before we really give our marriage a try.
Tell Ana about my Playroom.
„ Where are you going? „ I ask as Anastasia takes a few fruits and a bottle of water in her bag.
„ To the park. You know I don't want to sit inside all day. „
„ I will come with you. „ I say and get to my room to quickly change into jeans and a tee shirt.
I take my wallet and phone . And also a spare shirt and boxers. I have an idea.
We could go shopping with Anastasia. And then we could go somewhere very nice.
She is my wife, and she will have the life my wife should have.
„ Let's go? „ I ask as I get back to her . She nods and we get in the lift that brings us to the ground floor.
I take her hand in mine as we step out of the Escala building.
„ What are you doing? „ She asks as she realises our fingers are intertwined .
„ Being the husband you deserve. „
Anastasia's POV
The husband I deserve.
I don't deserve him. He is perfect.
If only... If only I was the wife he deserves.
But maybe it is not too late? Maybe I can be the wife he deserves?
No, no , no!
But why no ? I have been denying the idea but things happen. I hadn't planned to become pregnant. I hadn't planned to live with him. And maybe really spending the rest of my life with this man could be one of the things I hadn't planned but it is just meant to happen?
I haven't had a sign from David, I am safe and provided with Christian. Why not?
And the main reason I am going to try is that my heart seems to have made the decision. I didn't think I could fall in love. With anyone. I remember myself telling my old friends I would never fall in love with that Christian.
But the three weeks spent here have changed me.
„ Where are we going? „ I ask as Christian leads us to his car.
„ How about we go shopping? We could buy you some clothes and other stuff you need. And we are not coming home tonight by the way. „ He smirks as he says it but it makes me wonder what he has on his mind.
We get in his car and he drives us to the mall which is full of those expensive shops that have the clothes I had always wanted to afford.
„ How about this? „ He asks, showing me a beige jacket that is one of the most beautifful pieces of clothing I have ever seen.
„ Oh God, show me. „ I say as he helps me get in the jacket. It fits me perfectly and I stare at myself in the shop's mirror. Christian is standing behind me, his arms on my hips.
„ I think it looks fantastic on you, we could get you also this blouse. „ He says , showing me a white blouse that would really look amazing.
„ Christian.. „ I say, looking at the price tags. It is funny that the reason I married him was his money but now I am ashamed he is spending money on me.
„ If you want , I will buy you the whole shop. But now I want to do this, I want to see you happy. „
So sweet and so caring.
„ Thank you. For changing me and my life. „ I ay and give him a kiss on his lips. For the first time in my life I am truly happy.
„ Now, how about we split for an hour? I will give you one of my credit cards, you are not allowed to come back until you have bought yourself at least three new outfits. „
Too perfect.
He gives me the credit card and pecks my lips one more time.
„ I will meet you right here after an hour. Make sure you have a swimming suit, too. The code is five-five-seven-zero . Remember you are my wife and my money is your money. „
Isn't that what I wanted? His money.
But it is him I want now. Maybe it is because of the baby, maybe somewhere deep inside me I know that I want my child to have a father. Maybe it is my hormones that make me want him so much.
I walk around the shops, trying on different clothes. I decide to buy two pairs of jeans, a few blouses, dresses. Of course, I have new lingerie too. I found a blue swimsuit and also a few pairs of shoes. For everyday walking and one pair of high heeled shoes. A new bag. I am a woman after all.
I stop in a cosmetics shop where I choose a lip gloss and a mascara. I don't have anything. I wonder how I managed to live with three outfits the past three weeks. One that I had on, and the other two that Taylor had bought me.
When I realise the hour is over,I get back to the place where we are supposed to meet with Christian.
If only Christian was the one I met there.
Christian's POV
I can't wait for the evening. We are going to go to that house I managed to rent at the last minute. A cosy but modern house at the lakeside. And I will tell her everything about me. And she will tell me about herself.
I have bought Anastasia a new phone and iPad specially for her. And there is something else, too. The diamond ring I ordered a few days ago is finally ready. The engagement ring she didn't get. And there is one outfit that I bought specially for tonight.
I am walking back to the place where we had to meet and I see her arguing with someone, with tears in her eyes.
I rush over them.
„ No, David! This is my life, and that's my decision! „
„ What is going on? „ I sharply say as I get to her and the man she is talking to.
„ Can we go, Christian? „ She asks, looking at me and ignoring the guy.
„ And you won't even introduce us? „ The guy asks, smirking at Anastasia.
„ Christian, this is David, an old friend of mine. David, this is Christian, my husband. „
„ I think me and my wife are leaving. „ I say, taking the bags from Anastasia's hands. She shouldn't be carrying anything except this child.
„ Of course. And Ana, remember, this is your choice. „ The man says as we leave but I don't care. I see Ana wants to get away form him.
„ Everything alright? „ I ask as we get in the car to drive away.
„ Yeah.. Where are we going now? „ Ana asks, wiping the tears away.
„ We will get something to eat and then we will have to drive for about two hours. But I promise it will be worth it. „ I say, smiling.
Anastasia's POV
His smile encourages me. That everything really will be alright.
The meeting with David was not accidental. He had searched for me. He wants me to divorce Christian. He wants the money he was supposed to get.
But he was not okay when I told him there will be no divorce.
He said I won't be okay.
But right now I look at the man who is driving the huge Audi and I feel safe.
I feel like I shouldn't worry about anything but how to make this really work.