Chapter 2 : School
The next morning I wake up .Not really sure when i finally fell asleep. Reaching for my phone I remember throwing it and never getting up to get it. With a heavy sigh, I slink out of bed . Passing my night-stand I look at my digital ,and see the time is 6:39 almost two hours before i have to be at School . Walking to the closet i see the black rectangle right ontop of my red converse . Picking it up i accidently light up the screen finding 3 unread texts . Next I notice my battery is at half . Deciding not to read the texts yet, i plug it up to the charger ,and go about getting ready .
After i shower and wash my hair , I threw on my robe that was hung on the small hook on the back of my door. I go down stairs to get a quick breakfast before I started to get ready. When I reach the kitchenm, I'm suprised to see my mom already up . She doesn't have to go to work for another 3 hours . "Hey mom , what are you doing up so early ?"
"Well it seems that I got my period , and have cramps " She says and doesn't notice the face I make " Dear have you been crying ? Your face looks a bit puffy." I freeze , I thought the shower would have taken care of my cry face for some reason.
" Uh no ... erm- I think it was the lack of sleep " I quickly lie and force and force a smirk . It looked like she wanted to ask more but decided against it . " I'm jus gunna finish up , and go get ready."
"Okay dear. I'm going to try and catch a little more sleep before I have to actually get up " Then she adds " Paige remeber you can always talk to me . " With that said she turns and leaves . It keeps replaying in my head , And i can't help the smile that forms on my face . I'll always have my mom . Then i remember yesterday and I feel like shit once again .
After finishing my breakfast I trudge up to my room , look through my closet . I decide on wearing a Sports bra, with a loose fitting dull yellow tank-top with a faded picture of a smiley face with a big bright red tongue on it , then i pick my favorite pair of black jeans (Emily always told me I looked good in them ... not that ,that mattered now anyways )and to top it off my red converse . Then I move to the bathroom and do my hair . I leave it down and make to braids starting from my hair line meeting in the middle at the back of my head.
With one last look I move to my bed and check the time on my phone (7:57). I had a little time , so I checked my messgaes. ( Again all from emily)
Emily: Goodmorning
Emily: I know your still mad , but i can't wait to see you
Emily: are you coming today? i really need to talk to you .
It makes me mad , after what i saw the night before I still get butterfly's in my stomach . But again... What happened yesterday is still like a fresh wound . Shoving my phone in my pocket I head downstairs and grab my keys from the row of hooks that hang by it , and go to my car .
Once im in my car i take a deep breath " Today is going to be a long day " I think while starting my car and pulling out . The school is not to far from my house it's only about 10 minutes away, so soon enough i'm in the parking lot . I forgo my usual park spot (seeing Emily is already parked next to it ) and take one further in the back . I stop before getting out of the car ; suddenly really natious . Taking a few more deep breathes I ready myself to get out . But I look up when I see movment . There stands Emily next to her car looking at me . I freeze for a couple of seconds. Seeing her instantly made me think of the night before ,and I want to cry all over again ,but quickly I look away and act like im looking for something . After about a minute,i peek back up to see if shes gone - seeing she is I get out of the car and make my way towards then entrence of the school .
Every step I take I get more nervous . If after one glace at her I freak out its going to be hard considering I have about 4 classes with her . Finally reaching the door , I walk inside and make my way to my locker . Just as i'm about to open my locker I hear the buzz of my phone . I take it out and swip the screen to see the message without looking at the I.D (knowing more than likley who it is)
Emily: You look amazing to day :)
Sighing I put my phone back in my pocket and take the books that I need out putting them in my bag . As I turn my head to look in my bag I catch someone not to far staring . Looking up again seeing emily . She is smiling her half smile like she does when she's nervous ,I can tell she has been crying too. My heart can't help but ache . I hate seeing her sad . I notice i've been staring back at her for quite sometime and divert my eyes back to my book bag feeling slightly stupid for wishing I could just go kiss those lips and make her happy . I can't though , She has Nate germs and i'm still hurt .
More peopel start to crowd the hallway ,which always mean the first bell is about to ring , cause I mean who actually wants to be early to school . Guessing I have about 5-7 minuites before the bell does ring, I go to the bathroom . Knowing I probably won't be able to during the rest of the school day (thats where girls like to hang out inbetween classes) .
After i'm done I go to wash my hands and just then Hannah Marin walks in . She gives me a look . "Hey Paige. You okay it looks like you've been crying ." Dammit . How come my cry face hasnt worn off yet !? " Did something happen with you and Em, I just saw her and she was lookin a little puffy too? " Ugh , Marin is always the observent one .
" Ask emily . She can tell you." It comes out ruder than I want but I really didnt want to talk about it . Not here, not where i could be seen doing so . I'm Paige McCullers . I'm Strong . with that thought I walk out of the bath room before she can ask more and go to my first period .
This is one of the periods I have with Emily . We usually sit together in the back near the wall . Walking in I see Emily again already there so I pass by her and for a second I think about sitting with her but then don't and go for one more in the fron. I saw the look on her face and I felt bad for a second before shaking it off ,realizing I had no reason to . I felt my phone buzz and took it out .
Emily: You can't ignore me forever .And, Please don't try either
Just as i'm about to put my phone back it buzzes again
Emily: I saw you read it Paige please just please say something
And I did . She finally broke me .
Me: Emily , just stop . You hurt me . Do you understand that? I saw you kissing someone that isn't me . After all I did to be with you , hell to even trick myself into believing i actually deserve you . And you do that of all things. With a guy at that . The cousin of the girl you loved ! Probably still love . I'm sorry but i can't do this right now . Everything is to soon . Maybe if you give me time I can try to forgive you.
I typed fast and sent it without even looking it over. My breathing got somewhat harder and my heart was beating fast and my eyes stung with unshead tears. Not here McCullers I thought and squeezed my eyes to let the tears spill so i could wipe them . My phone phone buzzed agian.
Emily: I'm not letting this go paige .I'm not letting you go . I need you.
Beore I could do anything the bell rung and walked in ."No phones Paige . Next time i see it its mine till June." Embarrased about being put on the spot I shoved my phone in my pocket .
" Sorry " ,I say barley hearable .
"Alright class today I would like you to take out ..." I tune out and star blankley staring at my desk. God, what about time doesn't she understand . I mean thinking about her actually trying for me makes me smile a little on the inside . But still . Why . Just why? I feel my phone buzz again but igrnore it .
I guess I blanked completly Because the next thing I hear is the bell sounding for 2nd period . I see everyone leaving the classroom including . I grab my stuff and walk towards the door , but before I can walk out someone grabs my arm . I turn to yell at the person but before I can , I see who it is and go mute . It's Emily staring at me with a determined look on her face.
"Paige , we need to speak .And before you say no just let me explain. Please"