Chapter 9 – Picture Perfect

I jump right back into school taking up all my time. My current status – so very busy. I'm a little relieved since it's keeping Riku at bay. After that night he never asked about my feelings. He didn't push me into making a decision. He never trapped me against the refrigerator and made me cry like our last real fight. I'm thoroughly relieved. A week passes like normal. We have class and we're both busy. None of my friends have classes with me but I do have a class across the hall from Axel and Roxas. How they got into a class together I'll never know. I start my on-campus job again which takes up most of my time, keeping my mind busy. When I manage to spend time with Riku we always study, silently sitting in one of our rooms, me in my book and him ticking away on the computer. He kisses me like normal but we hardly have time to have sex.

Things with Zexion go back to normal like he never confessed to me. We laugh and talk like normal. Even worse is he gets along with Riku too so nothing weird happened between them behind my back. Everything is just… so normal I'm starting to get concerned.

A month flashes before my eyes and I'm so busy I'm getting frustrated. More and more I can't catch Riku when he's free. It's like he's beginning to avoid me. Why is he spending so much time on the computer? If he's not it's like he's always on the phone headed out the door. Dealing with my sexual frustration on my own just isn't as satisfying. Damn! Is he avoiding me? I stew about the thought for a few days, even with him in my bedroom while we study. Is he just busy? Or is something wrong? Is studying this year just more important than it was before when we'd mess around?

I'm lost in thought one day when I walk in the door and everyone is sitting in the living room. "Oh good, Sora, you're home." Leon and Cloud are sitting on the couch looking at me, one smiling and the other looking… well normal. Riku is standing in front of them with his hands in his pockets. He seems to be thinking because he doesn't look at me. Axel is the most confusing to figure out. He's crouching on the floor beside Riku, hands on his forehead, cursing over and over under his breath.

I head down to join them with my bag still over my shoulder. Usually I'd head upstairs first but I'm too curious about what's happening. "What's going on?"

Leon seems to be the only one talking if I ignore Axel's babbling. "There's something I have to tell you. We've already told the guys, we were just waiting for you to get home."

Should I stand next to Riku or just wait by the stairs? I go for in between and keep my hands on my bag to stop myself from reaching for him. He's trying not to look at me, I can tell. "Okay, what is it?"

The brunette glances at Cloud before looking at me. "Things are changing for us so we have to ask you guys to move out."

My heart skips a beat. "What?"

He continues in a casual tone, talking with his hands more than usual. "We'll be needing your rooms eventually so we're giving you all time to look for a new place. I know moving can take time. If you manage to find a place by winter break, that's awesome. If not, we'll give you until summer at the latest. That's almost eight months to look. I know you each have priorities to get in order right now. This is just a heads up."

He's staring at me waiting for an answer. Now I see why Axel is practically in the fetal position on the floor. Like me he has another year of school after this. Then again, so does Roxas and I can see them working something out if they have to. I look at Riku. He doesn't look worried at all. Of course he isn't, by then he'll be graduating. He must have already planned on looking for a new place. He finally looks at me and I avert my eyes. I don't know why but I laugh. "That's okay. Totally understandable. I mean, this is your house after all. Thanks for the warning." I head upstairs still laughing.

The moment I'm alone safe inside my room I collapse on the floor. What am I going to do now?

Another week of awkward glances. Everyone seems pretty normal, caught up in life and school and boyfriends. My mom even called and asked how I was doing. Sadly she asked how Riku was doing and I didn't really have an answer besides we've been busy. I think she knew something was up. I attempt to look at the bulletin board on campus for rooms but I just can't bring myself to do it. Every time I get too close I just think of Riku handing me the note the first day we ever met. It takes all my strength not to break down but the thought of all these people seeing me helps keep the craziness at bay.

One suspiciously normal day I'm doing my homework alone in my bedroom and I just snap. I stomp noisily across the hall and slam open Riku's door knowing he'll be inside. Like always lately he's sitting at his desk on the computer, his fingers frozen from the shock. He's staring at me looking genuinely surprised so that makes me feel a little better. Still, I'm too busy being mad to slow down now. "What are you doing!" He's just staring at me and after a second he turns back to the computer and fidgets with the mouse. "What the hell are you always typing!? Who are you talking to on the phone?" I notice the white piece of something in his mouth. "Oh my god, are you smoking."

This time I hit a nerve. "It's just a sucker, calm down." He pulls the sweet red candy out of his mouth.

Before he can say anything more I slap my hand down on whatever's closest to me. "Whatever! Why are you spending so much time on your stupid computer? Are you avoiding me?!"

He sighs, not looking particularly concerned. I didn't expect him to be upset or anything but I didn't expect no reaction at all either. When I get close to him about to fly into a rage for no real reason he pops the sucker into my mouth to shut me up. It works… and it's delicious! "I got a job, Sora." My eyebrows raise up in confusion. He can read me like a book so he explains himself before I ask. "I sit on the computer all the time because I'm working."

I'm still eating his sucker as I talk. "Working? Why didn't you just tell me?" Now I feel silly for throwing a fit. Though he was being suspicious so maybe that's the only way it would have worked out.

He sighs heavily and puts his elbow on the desk, his hand running through his hair. "I didn't want to tell you because it's not really that… manly to be honest." A laugh catches in my throat but he doesn't notice. "I already write articles for the paper for class, I've told you that before. Well this company hunted me down and I've been writing an advice column since school started. It's actually gotten really popular and all the writing keeps me pretty busy." That's not what I expected at all. "They've even told me when I graduate I'll have a job. This will be my career, do you understand?"

I stumble back and sit on the edge of the bed. I understand he has his priorities figured out already. He's already starting his life after college. Most of the seniors haven't even figured out where they want to work and he already has a position waiting for him? Where does that leave me…? I try to change the subject to keep myself busy. "So I guess you've already started looking for a place to move?"

He turns his chair around so he's facing me, still leaning on the desk. "Did Leon ever tell you why he asked us to move out?"

I blink. I'm still stuck on the idea of him leaving and feel like I'm about to cry. Stop it! Keep it together. Keep it together. "No, he didn't."

"There's a woman moving in." He's completely serious so I can't even laugh.

"I don't understand."

"They're going to have a baby." There's a hint of a smile on his lips but it passes.

The statement passes through me and I soak it in. "I… I didn't know." I should really be happy for them. I mean I am happy… but my own problems seem to stifle that. "That's amazing. I'm happy for them." Just saying it out loud sounds like I'm struck by some conflicting lie. I can see the strain on his face so he must hear it too. "How long have you known?"

He sighs in such a way it's like I don't know something important and he's about to drop a bomb. "He told me when I said I was moving out."

"You mean last week?" I struggle to smile.

"No, I… told him a few days after school started. He decided it was good timing I guess." He sighs again.

I must be confused. Maybe I'm hearing things. I swear he just said he told Leon he was moving almost a month ago. Since then… he's been avoiding me. And working. He's been doing nothing but working and keeping his distance. The sobbing starts without my intention… I just can't stop the tears from burning my cheeks. "You're leaving me? Why didn't you just tell me?" I'm crying so hard it's hurting my throat and my voice is coming out in between gasping for air. "That's why you keep avoiding me, isn't it?" He looks lost like he didn't expect me to cry and here I am sitting on his bed sobbing like a child. "There's no point in us being together if you're gonna graduate and leave me here, right?" I try to talk more but it just comes out as noises that don't really form words. I can't even see through my tears but it still hurts. The warmth of his arms around me startles me as he pulls me into a hug. He's comforting me? With my face in his chest I calm down enough to talk again. "No wonder you didn't say anything… that night you… overheard me talking to Kairi and Namine." I push against his chest so feebly that he lets me go.

When I look up he's smiling in an understanding way that confuses me even more. "You must really love me if you're crying this hard."

"What?" My sniffling tones down with a little hint of anger. "I don't…"

He's touching me so gently, brushing my hair out of my face, looking into my eyes like he loves me. I can't control myself and I blush, my sobbing basically gone. He gives me a kiss on the temple. "Sora, I would have told you sooner if I'd know you were this worried."

I'm starting to feel silly. "Huh?" I can at least wipe the wetness from my cheeks. And my chin too. It was like a waterfall. Maybe I've turned into a crybaby.

"Well you kind of ruined the surprise now…" He scratches his head in disappointment. "I'm not going to break up with you when I graduate. Why would you think that?"

Now I'm confused again. "You're not?" My thoughts are coming out a bit jumbled but I can't stop my mouth. "But that night you were eavesdropping. You didn't say anything. And you've been working. And we don't even have sex anymore. And you're always making excuses on the phone to leave at weird times."

He ruffles my hair. "Oh, Sora. I'm not trying to avoid you. I'm just busy with my job and all my papers for class." He sighs. "I should have told you sooner. That was a bad decision on my part. I'm definitely not trying to avoid sex. I'm sorry…" Now he's shoving me onto the bed like he's the one needing comfort.

He's nuzzling my chest, his arms still wrapped around me. "But I don't understand. Why did you tell Leon you were moving out?"

Hiding his face for a long moment he doesn't speak but I get impatient and wiggle out of his gasp so I can look at his face. He gives in. "I didn't want to ask you until I knew I had a place to live."

"Ask me what?"

"To move in with me dummy."

"Oh." Well now I'm completely embarrassed. "You were keeping your job and moving out a secret to surprise me?"

"The moving out part yes. The job… I didn't want to tell you because it's kind of lame, don't you think? I mean… it's not very sexy." Even though he's saying that he spends all his time typing so obviously he likes it.

I remove him from me and sit up. Honestly I'm relieved to hear he enjoys writing. I was on the verge of thinking he might be a porn star with his running out all the time and being to damn sexy. "So you like to write. That's very sexy."

He looks pleasantly surprised, sitting up beside me. "You think?"

"I do." I'm already feeling a lot better knowing all these secrets he's been keeping. I was jumping to ridiculous conclusions. We never kept secrets before though so of course it made me confused and anxious. It doesn't help that I can't even keep secrets so when he does it's ten times worse. "If I can be in the room with you while you're working that's kind of nice. It's even better than you being gone all the time. It's not lame." After college is done that'll be one less thing for him to be busy with too. "Can I read them?"

He finally smiles his really smile and it melts my insides. "Of course." He kisses me for the first time in what seems like weeks. A real kiss with heat and hunger in it, salty from my tears but mix with the sweetness of the sucker still lingering. We lay next to each other on the bed for a while before he gets up and goes back to typing.

"So where can I read your articles?" Articles, is that what I should call them? Saying column sounds kind of silly. Where can I read your column? No. Maybe I should have just stick with writing.

He doesn't seem to notice and answers very casually. "Just ask Namine, she keeps a binder of all my writing." I raise an eyebrow but he's not looking at me. "Actually it's really organized. It'll be easier to read than looking for them all in the paper or online."

That's kind of weird. "Why would she keep a binder…?"

He stops what he's doing and looks at me. "She doesn't know it's my writing so it's a convenient coincidence actually. I write under a different name."

Oooooooh that totally makes sense. "Well okay then. She enjoys your advice columns then?"

I've captured his attention again. He must not have anyone ask him questions about writing. The flattered face he keeps making is stealing a smile out of me. "I'm assuming she does. She has my college articles in her binder and my new ones from the paper. I think she's figured out it's the same person even though it's under different names. She's shown me the binder though so she doesn't realize it's me." Unable to get back into his work he joins me on the bed again.

I bet she's gotten Kairi into it too, that's pretty coincidental. Now I'm really excited about reading his stuff. I wonder what kind of things he writes about. I realize he never answered one of my questions from earlier. "Did you ever say who you've been talking to on the phone?" Not your porn manager, right? That would fit right into the puzzle with lack of sex. Maybe he's all sexed out by the time he gets home.

As if on cue his phone rings. He glances at me as if to ask if he can pick it up. We were initially in the middle of an important discussion, if I can call it that, but now I've calmed down so I nod. He picks up with his usual hello. Of course to me it sounds deep and sexy and reminds me that I love him. He listens for a moment before saying anything to whoever is on the other line. "Yea, I'll come pick it up. I'll probably start bringing them home from now on." Some more listening. "No, it's not a problem anymore. No…. I'll be there in a half hour or something." Chattering on the other line. "Just leave them on the desk. I don't care." Finally they hang up. He looks up at me. "I have to go to campus and pick up my stuff. You feel like walking?"

This helps me perk up. "Sure." I wait for him to change into jeans instead of shorts and we head out together. "Who was on the phone?"

"One of the guys in my writing class. We all write the paper together." He opens the door for me and lets me go ahead. It's still nice out so only the screen door needs to be closed. He slides his hand into mine as we begin our walk.

Sadly I'm still curious and I don't hold back on being nosey. "What did he say?"

He isn't bothered by the question. "He told me my box is full. All of my mail is delivered to my office on campus. Well, as close to an office as you can get. As seniors our room is split up into stations so we're all in the same room but I have my own desk. Basically."

That sounds interesting. I wish I had my own desk instead of choosing a seat a million nasty students have sat in before me. "That's cool. What's in your box?"

"Letters." He glances at me and I must look confused because he makes a face. "I told you it was lame."

"No, it's not lame. I just don't know what you're talking about. Letters for what?" I'm not sure my curiosity is coming off as real. Maybe I just sound like I'm messing around. "I really do want to know. I'm not just asking because you're afraid it's lame. I swear it's not lame."

He doesn't look convinced but he tells me anyhow. "Usually they're letters from people hoping for advice from my column. I've been getting more lately since it's been up for a month so I've been running out to get them." I see him glance at me out of the corner of my eye since I'm trying not to trip over the raised sidewalk. "I'll be able to mail them to our place when we move… even though you never officially answered my question."

I can't stop smiling all of a sudden. Maybe I just needed to cry because now I'm smiling so hard it's almost painful. "Okay, ask me again. For real this time. I'm not freaking out or anything." I tug on his fingers as if to say I'm sorry.

He smirks. We're already close enough to campus that people are frequenting the sidewalk around us. He pulls me aside so we won't get run over, but there are so many people around I'm getting embarrassed. "Pretending this is the first time you've heard of it. Sora, I'm getting an apartment and I want you to move in with me. It'll be our place and this time we won't have to share with anyone else. How does that sound?"

Darn, now I kind of wish he'd asked me at home. This guy is too sexy and he's giving me those eyes that undress me. "That sounds amazing!" I jump into a hug and he lifts me off the ground. I'm sure he's smiling as wide as I am which would be shocking for anyone else to see. He always has such a serious face at school. He pulls me into a kiss and people around us are whistling. My blush is spreading to my ears. When he lets me go and the excitement around us passes I smile shyly. "I love you. I didn't mean to say I didn't earlier."

"I know." We continue our walk to his office/classroom whatever it is.

I feel like all of the problems I was making up until now have melted away. I can finally let out my sigh of relief I've been holding in all month. I must have been stressed out with everything going on. I'm practically clinging to Riku's arm as we walk together and I reluctantly release him when he has to type in the door code to the room. I can't help but look at him from behind at those broad shoulders that look so strong under the black fabric of his shirt. And his butt in those jean… I resist grabbing it.

He steps inside first mumbling, "Hm, no one's here. That's surprising."

I can't hold back anymore. I jerk on his shirt and he stumbles back in surprise, obviously caught off guard, otherwise I wouldn't have been able to knock him over. He ends up sitting on the edge of the nearest desk, hardly a step away from the door. More like lean against the desk, catching himself with sturdy hands. It doesn't matter though because I'm already kneeling between his leg, unzipping his pants.

His hands grab at mine as I pull at the jeans. "Sora, we can't do it in here. What if someone comes in?"

"Aw, just a little. I only want a taste." Since he's holding onto my hands so tightly I just move my head forward and thrust my mouth into his crotch, making sure he can feel the heat of my breath through the fabric blocking my touch. I hear him grunt and glance to see if his eyes are closed. They're already half lidded so I nuzzle in a bit more and he's already getting hard. It makes me smile. "Please?" Of course he can't argue now and releases my hands so I can get in his pants, removing them just enough to let his erection out. I swallow him up and he jumps in surprise, practically bending over me at the heat. His hands are clutching desperately at the desk and his mouth is opened gasping which make me laugh in my throat as I slide my tongue over him so fast he's begging me to stop. Even his cheeks are flush as I suck on him. Damn, we need to go so I can join him. I torture him for a few minutes before speeding up and he's practically on the edge when there's a beeping sound at the door.

"Shit…" He struggles against me and the moment the door opens an inch he manages to slam it shut again. Of course I'm not about to stop.

A girl's voice calls in protest from outside. "Hey! What the heck…" She jerks the handle a few times. He ends up leaning against the door while she's fighting with the code and handle.

He's too heavy for her to open the door so I continue, trying not to be noisy which is really difficult. It doesn't matter because he can't stop himself from groaning; even if it's quiet it's still obvious. He throws his head back and I swallow the whole mess to save us time. That's okay with me because he's very yummy. The sound of the girl fighting the door has vanished which gives him a moment to collect himself.

I lick my lips and stand up with a smile, feeling accomplished. "Ah, tasty."

He laughs a little, slowly dressing himself properly and fixing his clothes. "Let's go before she gets back." He hurries over to his desk and grabs his box so we can leave. We're out of the building without anyone stopping us. I'm sure Riku knew the girl trying to get in the room but no girl's call after him like they're in class together. Home safe.

Walking down the sidewalk again I hold his hand and he looks at me. "Where did that forceful Sora come from? I kind of like him."

It makes me smile. "See what happens when you make me really horny and then deprive me of sex. I just violated you." If it had been a year ago I never would have done that, but now I just can't resist.

"You can violate me any time." He smirks and I don't need to look at him to know he's being honest. We enjoy the rest of the walk in silence. It seems like it's been forever since we've spent any real time together. Time when we aren't stuck doing homework or something along those lines. I must sigh a hundred times before we're at the front door. And to think I was basically going crazy an hour ago. I'm definitely going to avoid that in the future.

Peeking downstairs I notice a head of blonde hair on the couch and go down to investigate. Since we're connected Riku is forced to go with me but he doesn't fight back. He's still carrying his box, patiently waiting to head upstairs I'm sure. Just a quick glimpse. I glare at the couch when I can see who's on it. I thought it was Roxas laying there, and he is there, but not where I thought. The blonde laying on his back on the pillow is Demyx and Roxas is face down on his chest, snuggling like a couple would.

I cock my head to the side. "Do you know what's going on with them?" What's with these weird three-way relationships going on? It's annoying. Riku just shrugs. My voice must have been loud enough to wake them up because Roxas grumbles under his breath. "Hey! Are you awake? Where's your boyfriend?" Not that I can talk after last winter break and Riku sleeping with Axel. I mean that was amazing but now they're sleeping with Demyx? In this case literally just sleeping.

My best friend sits up clumsily and yawns. "What, a guy can't sleep on top of his friend?"

"Not without hearing shit from his other friend." I groan.

Somehow he can tell I'm stuck on that day I caught them. "Shut your face Sora, it was just that one morning. Nothing's going on. We've just become very comfortable friends. There's nothing wrong with that." He pats Demyx on the chest like he's a puppy.

I guess I've said what I wanted to say and just shrug. "Let's go upstairs." I lead the way with Riku following quietly behind. I decide to bring my homework into his room while he looks through his box of letters.

He was telling the truth. The next day he's so busy answering the phone and writing for specific deadlines when I see him he's in a daze. I assume the best thing to do in these situations is the leave him alone, to my great discouragement, but one more day won't kill me. The next morning I walk into his room and find him passed out at his desk. He's fully clothed from yesterday and has headphones have fallen to his neck, hardly hanging on. His computer has long since gone into sleep mode and obviously so did he at some point.

"Hey." I try to wake him gently, giving him a few soft kisses on his ear since it's the easiest thing to reach. He sits up sluggishly and hangs over his chair for a moment. "Did you fall asleep at your desk last night?" The answer is obvious but I want him to wake up before I ask anything useful. He blinks several times before he seems to focus on me. His hair is a mess and looks very cute for bed head. He yawns before he can form any words.

Out of nowhere he looks around, "Shit, what time is it?"

I don't even know so I look for the clock. "It's like 10, why?"

"Damn it. I'm gonna be late for class." He's on his feet and across the room.

I chase after him and manage to grab his arm. "Riku, stoooooooop. It's the weekend! You don't even have class."

My words sink into his brain in the middle of him putting on his shoes. "It's the weekend?" I don't need to repeat myself because he falls back onto the bed in defeat.

Cute. "Do you need more sleep?" I doubt he got any laying on that desk. He can't even answer me, I help him take off his shoes again and he's able to take off his own shirt. I crawl on top of him to undo his belt and he mumbles something I can't understand. "Hm?" Sliding the belt out of its place I toss it onto the floor. "Are you trying to tell me how amazing I am for helping you undress?" Even if he's dead tired he hears me and smiles. I'm struggling with his pants and he lifts his hips and pulls them down himself. That was easy. "You're just a big baby aren't you?" When I get off the bed he rolls over and pulls his pillow into a more comfortable position.

My butt starts vibrating from my phone and I pull it out to shut the ringer up. My lover groans but seems otherwise content. Looks like Kairi's calling me. "Hello?"

She doesn't even say hello, she jumps right into conversation. "So I have a question for you."

"Hold on." I chance giving the irritable sleeper a kiss before leaving the room so I can be out of his hearing. "Sorry. What's up?"

"Namine and I have our drawing classes and stuff, you know. Not to bore you with all the details." I know exactly what she's talking about without having to know anything else.

"Art stuff. Sure." I'm sure she's growling at me for calling it that but it makes me laugh when she gets mad about something so silly.

She clears her throat without bitching me out. How nice of her. "Yea, well we were wondering if you and Riku might want to be models for us."

She hasn't asked me to model for a long time. I'm kind of curious. "Today?"

"Yea, later tonight maybe. We could get dinner after." Here comes her usual gist. "I know it's a lot of sitting around and keeping still but it would help us both a lot. Please Sora pleeeeeeease."

Why does she need to guilt me into agreeing all the time!? I hate it. With a sigh I inevitably give in. "Fiiiiiiine. Will you come over here and set up?"

"You know it's easier if you come to my house." Now she's just being snarky. "I'll pay for your food."

"Bribery. I knew it!" Now I really have to give in. "Riku's asleep still so I'll have to ask him later."

She doesn't miss a beat. "I'm sure he'll say yes! K text me when you're on your way! He can just drive you guys so it won't take long, right?"

I'm still standing in the hall pacing around as I talk but her words stop me for a moment. "Why do you sound suspiciously excited?"

She clears her throat again, "I better call Namine. See you later."

"Woman!" She hangs up. There is definitely something going on in that head of hers. I haven't been to Kairi's house in a long time so this might actually be kind of nice.

Axel's door opens and he stomps out into the hallway. Before I can stop him he hugs me. "Why are you so noisy?" He must have been sleeping too because he's only wearing shorts and he's acting like he's sleepwalking. Or maybe he is sleepwalking.

He's still heavy though. "Axel! I'm gonna fall if you lean on me too much."

I'm surprised he relents."Have to pee." And he wanders off. That was random. I head into my own room to decide what to do but he follows me in when he's done. He's still in a haze of sleep so he lays down on my bed but he seems to be more alert than Riku was. "Did you guys make up?"

"Make up?" I'm sitting at my computer but I haven't even turned it on yet.

"Yea. Weren't you guys fighting?" He's looking at me now so maybe he's not that groggy.

"Well, what's up with you and Roxas? Are you guys in some sort of three-way with Demyx?" He's sitting up and now we're facing off with questions.

His cocky smile shows up, as expected. "No. Roxas told me I'm never allowed to have sex with Demyx again. And I haven't."

I raise an eyebrow. "Oh. Well then I guess it's not weird he was sleeping on him downstairs." I wait for a reaction but the redhead just shrugs. Weird. Guess it isn't a big deal. "What about that one morning I caught you guys."

"Roxas just told me what he wanted so I did it for him. It was an exception that one time." He lays back like that wasn't completely crazy sounding.

Now I'm finding it hard to choose my words. "What are you, his plaything?"

"Maybe." He's unaffected. "If I am he can play as much as he wants."

Maybe I don't want to know about what the heck they're doing with Demyx then. He's just a plaything too obviously. "Do you love him?"

"Sure, I do."

"Sure?" That's an odd answer. "Do you think you'll move in with him now that Leon asked us all to move out?"

I see his eyebrows pinch together but he tries to answer naturally. There's still a hint of irritation underneath. "I dunno. Are you gonna more in with Riku?"

"Yes." My quick answer throws him off. He was about to start a fight or something but I diverted it. I think. "He asked me to move in with him just the other day. I said yes." My voice might have been a little snobbish this once. I regret rubbing it in when he looks like I kicked a puppy.

He shrugs it off and scratches his head. "Whatever." Then he's getting up to leave and I know I've hurt some weird feeling inside that head of his. He isn't going to tell me?

"Hey wait!" I rush after him and grab him by the pants.

"Hey! Don't pull my pants down!" He grabs at the shorts while I try to pull them down.

"Tell me what's wrong! How dare you make a hurt face at me and then pretend you don't care. You're a dirty liar!" Tug tug tug.

He's already feeling better because of the distraction. "You little jerk. Stop that." He wrestles out of my grasp but I manage to trip him before he gets to the door. He lands with a painful sounding thud. "What… the heck." Obviously fed up he grabs me by the face. "What's your deal?"

I attempt my best pout. "Tell me why you made the painful face, Axel. Please?"

Slowly but surely he gives in."Fine! Just stop with that face!" I let him sit up and sit patiently until he finds what to say. Out of frustration he groans several times like he's not really sure what I want to hear. Or at least he doesn't know what part to tell me. "Fine. It's nothing really. I just… was freaking out about moving."

I glare at him. That is such an obvious lie. He might be worried about moving but that doesn't match the forlorn face he was making. "Where did you learn to lie so well? Cuz you suck!"

She scoffs. "Come on Sora. Just leave it alone. I'm worrying about nothing okay?"

I wrinkle my nose. "Fine, but if I see you make that painful face again you have to tell me."

"Deal." He holds his hand out to shake.

Reluctantly I take it, shaking slowly. "You're not allowed to avoid me either."

"Damn! Fine…" He's already shaking so it's not like he can say no. And I'll definitely beat him to death if he lies.

I'm about to boil over with curiosity so we're both going to suffer with this agreement until he tells me and it's over. In the quiet I hear another voice and recognize Riku talking to someone, probably on the phone, as he's walking towards the bathroom. The door slams and I know I'm right. "Okay, you can go."

Axel must have heard him too because he shakes his head. "You have the attention span of a gnat don't you?"

"I do not!" Though in this case I do. "I just have other things to do."

"Besides learn secrets? Who are you?" He laughs as he stands up, helping me to my feet. He's back to normal, that's good. "Anyway, keep this face business to yourself." I nod innocently like a good boy and he leaves not feeling any better about my secret keeping.

Following him out into the hall I catch my lover walking back into his bedroom still on the phone. Chasing after him before he closes the door I listen to figure out who he's talking to.

"I remember where your house is… that sounds fine." He lets me in before closing the door. I really hope he's not talking to Kairi… I told her he was sleeping. "Do you want us to wear something specific?" Damn you Kairi, that girl doesn't listen when she wants something. "…what about the shirt? No, that's fine." He actually laughs. "We can talk about that when we get there." What the heck are they talking about!? He walks up to me and touches my cheek, still focused on the conversation. His gentle touch makes me smile. "He's right here. I'll let you talk to him so I can shower before we come over. Yea, here he is." He hands me the phone, giving me a peck on the lips before leaving the room.

"Hello?" I grit my teeth, waiting to hear the bathroom door before talking. Kairi's laughing like she's in trouble. "I thought I told you he was asleep! And what the hell happened to later? I thought we weren't planning on hanging out until dinnertime."

She laughs again. "I knoooow. I'm sorry, I was just excited. Besides, I told Riku he could sleep for a few and he said that's fine."

I can hear the water from the shower since he left the bedroom door open and I really want to be in there with him right now. "You're a mean person, aren't you?" I'm assuming we'll head over there soon from what he was saying. "We're not doing those long ones are we. Like where I have to stay in one spot for twenty minutes." It doesn't sound hard but it really is. I can be sitting on the couch trying to stay still and after two minutes my nose itches or my leg is painfully uncomfortable. I don't know why being still is so hard.

"Oh, no, I won't make you stay still for that long. Don't worry." She explains why but I zone out. "Actually it's funny you said that."

Suspicious! "Is it?"

She laughs again. "This might benefit us both actually."

"Should I be worried?"

Her laugh is growing more disturbing by the minute. "Namine and I will be drawing but it would be sooooooo helpful if you let us take pictures too. That way we can have something to go off of later if we're finishing a sketch. You know, just in case."

"What!" My voice makes a weird sound and I clear my throat. Wow, was that just awkward excitement? "I thought you hated drawing from pictures." It's strange I remember something like that but in this case I just want the truth.

"I do… but this is different."

! "I knew it. You just want pictures you perverted girl."

"Come on Sora! I can keep a copy for reference AND you can have a copy too. Everything we take, I'll let you copy it." She's waiting patiently for me to give in. "If I ask Riku I bet he'll say yes."

"Hey, that's not fair." I sigh and actually think about it. "Wait… so you're gonna use us individually for drawing. Are you planning on drawing us together?"

"That's a silly question, Sora. Of course we invited you both over so we could draw you together."

Dang. I've seen Kairi's drawings before. As much as I hate to admit it she always has amazing pictures of couples. They're always in really hot poses too. I would so love pictures of Riku and I together… even more so if we're posed like that. I clear my throat again. "Damn it, sold. I'll let you take pictures."

She cheers so loud I have to pull the phone away. "Okay, so head over whenever you're ready. I'll start setting up. I still have to call Namine and tell her we're starting early." I can hear banging in the background. Who knows what she's doing.

Actually that reminds me. "Kairi."

"Yea?" More banging.

"This is off topic. I was looking for this… writer I guess that has some articles in the paper. Riku told me Namine has this binder or something." Should I explain more? It sounds like I don't know what I'm talking about.

She's straining against something in the background. "Oh, yea, I know what you're talking about. You want me to ask her to bring it over?" She curses under her breath. Something must have attacked her. She was never good at doing anything with a phone smashed against her face. "I've read some of those. They're pretty clever."

Clever? Well now I'm even more curious if that's even possible. "I haven't read any yet so it would be awesome if she brought it."

"K, I'll tell her. I should go before I hurt myself. See you soon." She hangs up.

I guess that was efficient getting all of that done in one conversation. Laying Riku's phone on the bed I stand up right as he walking into the room. "Aw, noooo. I wanted to shower with you." I make fake sobbing sounds for a minute.

He looks much better now. Obviously that nap helped. He has a towel wrapped around his waist that opens a little as he walks. Not quite enough to see anything which is too teasing. "You talked for too long. That's not my fault." He's suddenly naked and I enjoy watching him get dressed, pulling on the black boxer briefs I like the best. He's pulling on his jeans and buttoning them when he looks at me. "Are you taking a shower before we leave?"

Why are you ruining my sightseeing with clothes? I sigh. "I guess since you're dressed now." I try to leave the room at a snail's pace but he shoves me out. Leading me towards the bathroom still shirtless he nibbles on my ear and I'm laughing as I'm pushed into the bathroom. "Fine, okay, I'll hurry." So I rush through my shower, change and we drive to the house.

Kairi's house should be one of those places three people share, like the house we live in now. Lucky for her, her parents bought the house and she's spoiled. I leave it at that. Riku parks in the driveway and the girls are at the door before we even get out of the car. Creeps, are they excited or something? We're shuffled into the living room where they've positioned their chairs and junk. The table that's usually there is pushed out of the way. Is it just me or are they set up to use the couch? That looks weird.

Kairi places a hand on Riku's arm. "Do you mind if we start with you, Riku?"

"Sure." I'm watching him as he takes his shirt off. What the hell did they talk about on the phone? She leads him to the couch and tells him how to lay down when Namine grabs my attention.

"Hey Sora." I look at her. "I brought my binder. Do you want to put it by the door so you don't forget to take it with you?" She's smiling and already leading the way. We leave the room for just a second to find her bag. She pulls the binder out and hands it to me. "I didn't know you liked this kind of thing."

That's cute. "I haven't actually read them yet."

She looks so excited. "I bet you'll love them. I don't know if you know this but there's a guy that writes for the school paper. I think the one that writes these newspaper articles is the same person." It's like she's handing me a treasure. "I can't believe he's writing for the paper now. I love him!"

You love him? I almost choke on my laugh. "You know it's a guy?"

"Of course. He writes about his boyfriend all the time." What? "It's always so romantic. I love it. His new advice column is great too. Enjoy it." And so care of her sacred binder is placed into my hands. "Return it whenever you're done. Take your time. I'm actually excited someone else I know might like him."

You have no idea. "Thanks." I find a safe place for the binder by the door so I won't forget it. I didn't realize Riku brought a bag in and already left it by the door. Perfect. It is sooooooo hard not to tell her the truth. How easy it would be to say 'hey it's Riku'. Such a bad secret.

We walk back into the living room and Kairi has taken her seat. She's waiting patiently for Namine to join her I'm guessing. She looks at me with a little smile. "Riku, do you mind if we take pictures."

How could she ask so easily!? He doesn't even move. "Go ahead." He answered so easily! What's wrong with them!?

"Sora, do you mind taking it." She's already holding the camera up for me to take.

Evil! I stomp over to her and grab the little machine. I get my first glimpse of Riku laying on his back on the couch. Shirtless, he has one hand on his chest and the other at the edge of his pants. He's looking at me which somehow draws out a blush. I clear my throat and turn on the camera.

Kairi seems to be in control of this nonsense as her girlfriend sits down. She looks over at her to see if she's ready. "Okay, let's get started. Riku, you can just relax." If he was any more relaxed he'd be dead, seriously. "You can close your eyes. Just try not to move."

Namine is about to start drawing when she looks at me. "Sora, don't forget to take the picture."

"Right." I've been holding the camera and got distracted there for a second. I take the first picture and somehow I'm told how to take it properly three times before getting it right. Am I distracted by his hotness?

They chatter for a minute about how long to time their session and start a little clock. Riku looks like he's passed out which makes me laugh. I pace around annoyingly while they draw, falling completely silent. It's weird watching their pencils scratching away frantically. Each time the timer goes off they discuss their problems which go over my head and reposition Riku. I take a picture each time with growing anticipation. Oddly enough he's able to nap so easily it's like he's not even trying. I get nervous under Kairi's eyes when she's drawing me. Her gaze is always so intense and I can't imagine what it's like with both of them looking. He doesn't even seem to notice. After a few easy laying down positions Kairi asks him to sit up. He follows her directions without question.

She seems to have a lot of specific idea which makes me wonder. "Here, can you put your elbow on your knee and lean on your hand?" He does as she asks and she actually leans in and pulls his hair to one side. "There we go, very sexy. If you can just look down a little more." Ohhhhh too sexy. I take a picture before she's ready and I notice Riku smirk. "Sora." She smacks me. "You're distracting him." He goes back to his straight face and I wait this time until she's satisfied. The timer goes off again.

This time Namine gives him direction. "Sorry, can we do a few standing up. Mine looks weird." Kairi leans over and she tries to cover her picture. "Don't look!" I've never seen her embarrassed face. It's kind of cute.

Without needing to be asked Riku stands up, letting them reposition themselves before he's told where to go. "What do you want me to do with me hands?" I practically die when they tell him to hold his hair up. I'm gonna die.

Kairi grabs the camera from me because I'm not paying attention anymore. I resign to the couch and just watch. It seems like they draw forever and the timer keeps going off until it's annoying. I'm starting to get bored and I think I nod off.

There's a finger poking my face. "Sora, it's your turn."

Who is it? The red hair tells me it's Kairi and I get up. She leads me to the spot Riku had been standing in. "Where's Riku?"

"He's in the kitchen." She sits me down in a normal way with my knees bent a little. "You're not gonna fall over after two seconds are you?" I can already feel myself straining and she can tell. "Fine, just put your hands on the floor and try not to complain the whole time." She glares at me and I just wrinkle my nose.

Namine takes a picture which starts to make me nervous and asks me to look up at the ceiling. They start drawing and in no time to timer goes off. That was fast. I was almost comfortable. They ask me to stand up and take my shirt off. Clearing my throat I take my shirt off thinking Riku didn't care so why should I. I throw it aside and wait for direction.

This time Kairi lets Namine decide. "Well, can you grab your belt in the front?" I practically have a handful of my pants before she agrees my hands are in the right place. "Perfect. And lift your shoulders like you're shrugging. Just like that yea." Riku has already wandered back into the room. He's still shirtless, drinking a soda and I try not to look at him. They start the timer and Kairi demands I look at her so I struggle to keep a straight face. When the timer goes off this time the blonde is nodding. "You know Sora, you might be thinner than Riku but you have a really great body."

My cheeks flush a little. "Thank you."

Kairi seems to be nodding. "I knew they'd be the best to models. They have nice body structures, don't you think?" She's talking strictly to Namine, ignoring the fact that we're both standing in the room.

"Agreed."

Each time they reposition me I swear it's becoming more and more provocative. Or is it just me? I'm finally in a position where I can see Riku and he's sitting idly on the couch. Maybe I was thinking too much. He seems normal, his fingers laced together as he waits for them to finish drawing. His eyes are scanning over me and I'm finally able to keep my face normal. Then I see it… so gently I almost miss it, he bites his finger. Oh my god… he's going to jump me for sure. The timer goes off and I scramble to my feet. "Okay! I need a break!"

I'm intercepted by Kairi again. "Good idea. We should have some lunch."

Oh no, not lunch. My stomach is growling and I'm actually starving; the mention of food must have been a reminder. The girls head towards the kitchen first giggling about what to cook and I'm right on their heels. At least I am at first. I had a feeling he'd grab me and sure enough Riku's hand latches onto my arm, jerking me out of the doorway. He never put his shirt back on and his skin is hot against mine as he pulls me against him. I'm actually surprised by his kiss, his lips attacking mine. I don't intend to gasp but he takes advantage of my open mouth and lets his tongue in. I mumble into his kiss and grab a handful of his hair as we stumble into the wall. How long has it been since he kissed me like this? I practically melt into his arms when he removes his lips to let me breath, moving to nibble in my ear. His hand slides down to my ass as he pulls my hips into his and I realize I'm already turned on.

I try to shove him away. "Stop. Not right now… we can't do it here…"

His hand is suddenly on my neck. " Hn, you say that now, but it's okay for you to jump me on campus? What's the difference?" He's sucking on my neck in a mean way even though his hand stopped.

"I said nooooooooooooo." I push again and he lets go. He growls louder than I expect and I have to laugh. "See I told you. You should have taken a longer shower."

"This is your fault" He stomps into the kitchen and I follow after him. He takes a seat at the table right away, obviously still aroused and trying not to make it obvious. The girls are in the middle of cooking so they don't even notice. Namine is doing most of the work and Kairi is just being a pest but it's cute to watch their exchange. Lunch passes too quickly and we're at it again.

I can't deny I'm excited to start pictures with Riku and expect the girls sit down with their sketchbooks, but they don't. Kairi looks at Riku without sitting down. "Can we move on to just taking pictures." She has an evil smile.

He smirks at her. "Only if we're taking pictures of you two afterwards."

Namine looks as confused as I am. Her face turns bright red and she puts her hands on her cheeks. "Not pictures like yours right?"

"Huh?" I'm so confused. "Pictures like ours?"

Kairi makes a face. "Fine."

Riku takes that as his cue. "Come here Sora." Reluctantly I walk towards him still not quite sure what's going on. He sits on the couch and pulls me into his lap and Kairi is already taking pictures. Riku's hands are rough as they grab me, one on my chin and the other on my chest. I feel him kissing my neck and even with the camera I feel the heat rising in me.

I'm sure I'm blushing when I try to fight and his grip is too strong so I just end up clutching at the hand on my chest. "This is embarrassing…" He turns my face towards his and kisses me on the lips. I whimper a little and he lets me go.

I suppose he feels like he should reassure me. "Don't be shy Sora. You told her you wanted pictures right. I even brought my computer so we can copy them today." That's… true but it would have been nice to be warned.

Kairi's voice catches my attention. "Just pretend I'm not here. That's all. You'll have so many good pictures tomorrow if you do."

It's hard to ignore her with all the talking and the camera clicking. Hands are on my belt and I blush again, laughing a little. "Stooooooop."

Lifting me up he grabs my leg to help me turn around in his lap. His hands slide my arms around his neck. "Just be normal." Normal… this is way more embarrassing then someone just seeing us. Even if we are just kissing. He's distracting me with a kiss and it helps me relax in his lap but his hands go back to my jeans. His fingertips are just under the edge on my butt and it tickles. Of course I start laughing, even if I'm red in the face. Annoyed by how uncooperative I'm being he's throwing me onto my back on the couch. He lifts my leg out of the way and slides up to kiss my forehead, my hands still around his neck. I accidentally grabbed him when I thought I was about to fall. "Aren't you the one that keeps complaining?"

I cover his mouth with my hands. "You don't need to talk about it."

The face he makes is like I'm in trouble and I regret covering his mouth. He's so not going to be nice. Why does he have to be so strong? He easily pins my hands above my head and goes for my nipple. I squeal loudly and start struggling again. Eventually he gives up and head-butts my chest. "Why are you being so difficult? They're just girls."

Kairi laughs. "I resent that."

He sits up and I feel kind of disappointed. What… the heck. Embarrassed and now disappointed? Why can't my brain just make up its mind! I sit up making a weird face. I know it's weird because he's looking at me with a raised eyebrow.

My redheaded friend is already going through the pictures on the camera. "Oh, I know. I'll go get my computer. Once Sora see's these I bet he'll be interested in doing more." For the next hour I'm practically attached to her back as she sorts through the pictures, editing and cropping as she pleases. They look so much better than the ones we always take on the phone. She's so right; I do want to take more. But it's too embarrassing. To prove my point I ask Namine what she would do if it was us taking pictures of them and she can't do it at all.

She laughs a little. "Maybe if I had a drink or something I'd be okay."

Kairi scoffs in annoyance. "That's unfair. It has to be you real feelings, not blatant honesty due to drinking. Unfair."

Somehow we end up bickering until we're forced to leave because they're being ridiculous. I'm sure they're just gonna go make out of something. Riku drives us home, the images safely copied onto his laptop and the binder of his writing in my lap. I feel like I just got presents… if I forget about being molested for several of those minutes. I can't tell if Riku looks disappointed he didn't get more or if he's normal. Isn't he the one being difficult? I don't know.

We walk in the door and I notice everyone's downstairs and plan on going down but I'm jerked off my feet and over his shoulder. "Don't even think about it right now." He slaps my butt like I'm in trouble and I laugh. We go into my room and he throws me onto the bed. Taking the time to gently set down his bag he snatches the binder out of my hand, moving it to the desk. "You're about to make me crazy."

He locks the door and pulls his shirt off. I smirk. "No wonder you were being so aggressive." It kind of feels good to tease him. He looks irritated that I enjoy his pain and climbs onto the bed, pulling my shirt off in one quick motion. He's on top of me already, nipping at my collarbone as I laugh. "It's because you can't resist my adorable face."

The lips stop and he's still for so long I think I broke him. With a groan he gets off the bed, moving to my closet and opening it. Did my mouth break him? Maybe I said too much. He's going through my clothes for a long time before he stops moving again. With his back to me still I can tell he found something. "You asked for this, you brat." When he turns around I notice the tie in his hands. I haven't worn that in forever.

Before I can fight he's sitting on my chest and I can't move. My hands are above my head and he uses the tie to tie me up, no pun intended. The bind is secure around a bar in my headboard before I can struggle against it. "Hey! This is not okay!" I jerk at the tie but it's annoyingly strong. "Untie me right now!"

He's busy taking off my shoes. They fall to the floor and he moves onto my socks. Gone in an instant. "Sorry, you need to be punished." He's smiling as he takes off my belt and it's discarded.

"Punished?" That sounds dirty.

Continuing this removal of clothing he takes off his own shoes and socks. I strain against the tie again and he moves onto the bed. "Don't struggle so much. I don't want you to hurt your wrists." His skillful fingers are already removing my pants and underwear, kissing me as he removes his own. That was fast. Just to be mean when he moves closer I push him away with my feet. He grabs my foot and it tickles so I try to pull away but he has a firm grip. "Now you're just playing hard to get. Don't make me tie your legs down."

A wave of embarrassment washes over me and I calm down, biting my lip. "I'll be good."

Spreading my legs I redden as I watch him move closer. He begins kissing my thighs at the knee, moving slowly down my leg. When he's an inch from my slowly growing excitement I feel his teeth on the tender flesh of my thigh. A little scream comes out of my mouth at the gentle bite. Teasingly he moves to the other thigh, sucking on the skin as he moves, lifting my legs. This is even more embarrassing and I try to move my hands, already forgetting the restraint. I unintentionally groan at the fact that I can't use my hands and he smiles, releasing my legs. Still refusing to satisfy my need to be touched he hovers over me, leaning in to kiss my chest. His lips are so soft it would tickle if I wasn't so aroused. They get desperately close to my nipples before moving away. This is making me crazy! I wrap my legs around his waist and he looks at me, "Impatient?"

"This teasing is painful." I pout.

"Maybe I should choose another place to tease?" He's moving over me but it's just a trick and he starts kissing the flesh of my arms one after the other. This is like torture! This time he lets his pelvis rest against me and his hardness rubs against mine. He's kissing my wrists just beyond the hold of the cloth and I moan. I must have gotten his attention because he starts kissing me, his fingers gingerly pinching my nipples. I pull against the tie again and suck on his tongue in need. His kisses leave me breathless and he pulls away to let me suck on his fingers for a second. Finally his wet fingers move inside me and I gasp at the penetration. He has two fingers inside me within minutes, his free hand squeezing my thigh as he spreads my legs in an embarrassing way that's making me hard. "You must have wanted it all day? I don't know how you resisted until now."

I'm busy whimpering at the feeling of his fingers inside me but I find the words to answer. 'Self-restraint?"

He laughs, removing the fingers to move towards the side table and find the lube. "As if you have self-restraint." As if to prove his point he unties my wrists. Immediately I climb into his lap, not caring if this makes him right or not. I attack his mouth, biting his bottom lip and he lets my tongue in. With my arms around his neck and me grinding my erection against his he struggles to open the lube. Somehow the cap defeats him and he's coaxing me back onto the bed. My hands are on him anyhow with my urge to have him inside me but he stops me. "Not yet, I want to play with you some more."

I pout but he doesn't give in this time. "Okay, then I'll play too." I pull him onto the bed and get him to lay down on his back, positioning myself over him so I can have him in my mouth. I move my legs over him without kneeing him in the head and feel his hand on my need when I'm where he wants me. He must have opened the lube because I feel the slick liquid on my cock when his hand wraps around it. Wet with lube his fingers are inside me again rubbing in all the right places. He's sliding a third finger in and I'm struggling to keep him in my mouth, trying to lap my tongue around him but I keep moaning and I can't control it. He pops out for an instant when he spreads my legs wider to get me into his mouth. I gasp in time with him as I grab his erection and put in back in my mouth, trying to drive his as crazy as he's driving me. I can't do it! I can't! A forth finger is finding its way inside me and I feel so full I might break. I retire to gasping with my head collapsed in his lap, unable to move beyond him moving me. "Riku…" I cry.

Suddenly I'm released from all the feelings below my waist and he's moving out from under me. "How do you want it, Sora? From behind?" He's already moving behind me and I'm bent over on all fours.

"Yes… yes… hurry." His hands are on my ass, squeezing it and spreading me open. The air against my entrance makes my whimper until he's rubbing against me again. I let out a throaty moan as he slides right in down to the hilt. So deep… He starts thrusting and I slowly collapse, unable to even hold up my head. He's so hard inside me it makes me crazy. He ends up on top of me thrusting harder as I almost flatten myself against the bed. The wet sound of him screwing me makes me so hot. I think I feel tears when I finally make a mess of the blankets, but I don't care. Riku doesn't seem to mind collapsing beside me and being just as much of a mess.

After a minute he's propped up on one elbow and slaps my butt.

"Hey." I turn to face him, covering my poor cheeks he just slapped. After sex that was kind of sexy. He's smiling in a satisfied way and I smile back. Sitting up I give him a gentle kiss. "You've been holding all that in for a month?"

His smile is too sweet, I lean my head on his shoulder. He lays his head on mine with a laugh. "Maybe." There's a short silence. "Maybe longer. We couldn't have sex like that over the summer either."

That's true. Quiet sex is so very different from loud aggressive sex like just now. Both are good but I think we needed loud this time. "Now I have to wash my blanket. Again." I laugh. First we'll have to walk past everyone in the living room with the evidence. I start laughing even harder. Riku seems to understand and starts cracking up.

"We should take a bath." He suggests out of nowhere.

That does sound nice, even if the bathtub is kind of small for both of us. "Clean up in the shower and then a bath." I argue.

"Alright." He kisses my heavily before getting off the bed and picking me up. We head straight for the door.

Before he can maneuver the handle open I fidget in his arms and he has to focus on holding me. "We can't walk into the hall naked."

"Oh come on. I doubt anyone's even upstairs." Even with me fighting he gets the door open and I try to cover myself up. Thankfully no one's in the hallway. I have to admit I kind of get excited about the little journey with the thought of being caught. We make it into the bathroom and close the door, jumping in the shower as soon as it's warm. When we're clean he starts filling the tub. I take some time to turn on the radio on the counter that I've never used until now. I'm not usually in here long enough to use it but this time it might be nice. Finding a decent song I climb into the tub in my lover's lap. We both have to bend our knees a little but I can lean back against his chest and it feels just right. For a moment I even let myself imagine what it would be like to live with Riku in a house of our own.

Maybe that's too cheesy… I throw the thought into the back of my mind for some other time.