okay guys im so sorry I haven't updated in more than two months but my break is now over and I'm back with this story! yeah! im really glad if your reading this, thanks for being a loyal reader!
CH 13: POV TRIS:
As soon as I laid my head on the pillow last night I feel asleep. But my reality meet me in my sleep, bringing me back. I laid there trying to not think about anything, but failing miserably.
A thought comes to my mind: Today, later, is our fear landscapes. Wow, initiation went fast. Well that's probably because my problems outside of initiation are harder than the actual initiation process. I'm just glad it'll come to an end soon. I will finally have my freedom from Eric. And freedom to be with Four
Of course things probably wont be that simple, but I can hope.
Soon I'm shaken awake by Christina. "Get up! Gotta get breakfast quick, we need to get to the pier." I scramble out of bed and get ready quickly. Christina and I head down to the cafeteria and grab some food, and walk up to the pier.
"Have you seen Al? I haven't seen him." Chris asks me. Something in my heart breaks, it feels like everything that happened last night just became real.
"Are you alright?" Chris asks me after I don't respond for a while. "I haven't seen Al." I don't know how convincing I am though, but I'm trying my hardest to not let my emotions completely take me over.
"Okay, well he better show up fast, no one's gonna wait for him once the landscapes get going." She responds. She sounds so optimistic, and I kills me; I feel like I'm being slowly burned from acid.
We arrive in the pier and sit down on the chairs provided in a room for the initiates to wait. Everyone else is nervous looking, I would be to but I have worse things on my mind. At least I can use the landscapes as an excuse for my behavior. Eric, Lauren and Four come in and begin to take roll. The room goes quite as Al's name is called. I bite my tongue and clinch my fists to hold back a sob. I put my hands on my face and give myself three seconds to pull myself together. I drop my hands with new found composure.
I see Eric and Four sneaking glances at me. Four with worry, Eric with that dominate look of his. His way of silently projecting: I own you and can and will punish you in any way I deem appropriate if you step one foot out of line.
"Has anyone seen Al?" Lauren asks, ignorant. When no one replies she picks up a walky-talky and speaks into it. "A transfer initiate, Al, is not here. If you could keep an eye out that would be appreciated. Over." She lets go of the button on the walky-talky and turns back to us.
"In the mean time, we need to get started. I will begin calling you in 20 minutes. Good luck."
Time goes by slowly and I lose track. No one as been called yet so at least I know it hasn't even been 20 minutes, even though it feels like an eternity has already gone by.
Lauren re-enters the room and opens her mouth to speak when she gets a call from her walky-talky. "...found... chasm... uncertain... struggle ... dead." Are the only words I can make out. But I already know what has happened. Everyone else bursts into a state of chaos, demanding to know what happened.
"Listen!" Lauren shouts. "I will allow you an hour to check everything out and come back here." She looks at her watch, "If you are not here by 10:30 you will be unable to go into your fear landscapes, which will ultimately lead to you being factionless. 10:30." She says this harshly but I can see she's having a hard time holding back tears.
Everyone exits the room and heads out to the chasm. I follow, already full of dread and terror. I am the one to blame for this.
I can faintly hear the Dauntless leaders speaking about courage and reaching the unknown. I just couldn't stand it, I couldn't stand with the rest of Dauntless mourning an initiate. They don't know what happened; they don't know anything. All but Eric, who put a little too much emotion into his last words. Everything he does is perfectly staged, perfectly calculated. All perfect to play just who he needs to play, all to get what he wants. Well fuck him.
I stand alone in an empty hallway, in an attempt to just get away from it all. I hear foot steps nearing me and I turn around. I see Four standing there.
"Hey Four, whatcha doing here. Here to tell me to go pay my respects." I don't mean to be bitter- he hasn't even done anything to me- but I'm not in a great mood right now. He simply sighs.
"I have something to show you. And don't call me Four any more." I'm curious about everything he said but I don't bother asking. He begins walking, and I follow him.
"Why are we here?" I ask Four. He lead me back up to the pier, and now we're in the hall in front of the fear landscape room.
"I want to show you my landscape." I am completely shocked. "What? Why?"
"I want you to know some things about me. Like how I told you to not call me Four? See if you can figure out what you should call me." He holds up a syringe to my neck.
"This is just the simulation for the landscape." He tells me before putting the needle in my neck. He holds up a second syringe to me and I take it questioningly.
"I've never done this before..." He taps a spot on his neck. "Right here." I gently place the needle in his neck and we enter the room seconds before the simulation begins.
POV TOBIAS
I'm a little uncertain about what I'm doing but I don't regret it. I want Tris to know me, and I want to know her. She's beautiful, not like other girls but in a better way. She's so alive, and I love that. I see this when the wind of the tall building we're standing on materializes beneath our feet. I immediately tense up and wrap my arms around Tris for support.
She takes a deep breathe, closing her eyes. Is she enjoying this? I look around; the height is dizzying. I'm going to fall one way or another-"We have to jump?" Tris asks, as if reading my thoughts. I nod my head.
"On three. One... two... " how are you so freaking calm? "One!" She begins sprinting, pulling me with her. We begin to fall and I bit my lip to hide a scream. I brace myself for the impact of the ground but end up standing, like always. Tris dusts herself off.
"So whats next?" She asks as if we're at a theme park and she's a kid asking her mom which ride to go to next. Crazy.
"Confinem-" I don't finish and am rammed into Tris, the impact forcing to whack into my chest, and her arms have no other place to go but around me. Ha, score. I almost smile until the feeling of being trapped sets in. My breathe picks up again. And if I'm not mistaken, Tris' does as well.
"Confinement." She finishes. I nod, not being able to do anything else.
"So how about you tell me where this fear comes from. Maybe talking will help, somehow." Tris says. "Ah." I say. These are unpleasant memories. "This one's from my wonderful childhood. Punishment. I got put in the upstairs closet."
"My mom kept our winter coats in our closet." Yeah, my parents did too. That way more hot, less room. Much better, yeah?
"I don't think talking is helping." I say.
"Alright how about I talk then." She says some stuff but nothing is helping. The box is slowly creeping closer.
"Can I ask you a question?" I ask in a sudden attempt to calm myself down. I don't actually have a question but I need something to distract me.
"Sure." She responds. I try to think of something. Then I feel it. Her heartbeat; even though her back is against me I can feel her heart beat with ease.
"Why is your heart beating so fast, Tris." I swear I can see her blush all the way to her ears, the only part of her face I can see.
"Well..." I can tell she's trying to come up with something "Well, I barely know you, and I stuck in a box with you Four." I wish I didn't just barely know you. I say to myself.
"You must be cut from Candor, Tris, because you're a terrible liar." I laugh and the box breaks open.
[everyone knows how this goes so I'm just gonna skip forward to when they're done]
POV ERIC:
I go back up to the fear landscapes after giving those retarded speeches. My fucking god? Why do I have to say anything? I didn't know the damn guy... I only killed him.
I stop in front of the landscape room when I hear voices. And I recognize both of them. I want to know what they're up to and why the fuck this girl wont take a warning, especially when I put it out so clearly for her. I step out of the way and follow them out.
I see them walk carefully, looking out for other people before Four gently slips his hand into Tris'. What a loser. The guy has a choice of any girl in the whole compound and he wants the freaking Stiff. Not only is she a Stiff but an unattractive one as well. I just don't understand his attraction. But who cares, it's not his problem, it's Tris'. I bet she thinks she so sneaky, I wont catch her. Ignorant bitch. And I literally just taught her a lesson, you'd think she would catch on. But that's not a problem- I'm no where short of consequences.
POV 3RD PERSON
The feel of Tris' lips makes a feeling similar to a mixture of fireworks, butterflies and extreme happiness course through Tobias. He looks down to see Tris' eyes open, and gazing at him. Everything that just happened, Tris finding out who he is, not judging him or pitying him, and now this kiss; is pretty much the best thing that's ever happened to him.
Tris feels the same way. She's extremely shocked, she wasn't sure how a guy like Tobias would feel something like that for her. It makes her feel wonderful, wanted, special. Happy. Tobias brings his hand back to Tris' and leads her up out of the chasm and into his dorm room.
Tobias closes the door behind Tris and she just awkwardly stands right next to the door, as if she's at a strangers house.
"Come sit down, Tris. I won't bite." Tobias says gently. Tris' reluctance vanishes and she walks to Tobias, sitting close to him on the bed. Tobias opens his moth to speak, and Tris looks to him but instead sees the clock behind him. 10:27.
"Tobias! I have to get to the fear landscapes!" Tris says frantically Tobias turns his head. "Shit." He mutters. He grabs Tris' wrist and they sprint to the pier. They arrive just in time, exactly 10:30. Lauren looks over at both of them curiously but begins to talk.
"Alright so now that we will have no more interruptions, I'll take roll again." She goes through everyone's names, all of which are answered with a 'here' or 'yeah'.
"Ok, we'll do Dauntless borns first." She calls a name and a short girl walks away with Lauren.
Time passes slowly, each initiate seems to take an hour each. After what Tris is certain was an eternity passes by she looks around only to see one other initiate left, Peter. Soon he too is called and the room is only holding Tris, Tobias and another man who helped out with Dauntless born training.
After several minutes Lauren comes back in a nods to Tris. She rises and looks to Tobias who mouths the words 'be brave'.
~~~[tris' 7 fears blah blah blah]
POV TOBIAS
I waited for Tris to be done, and soon she is, in eight minutes. That is the best score in all of the initiates. Dauntless born included. I can't help but feel proud. She steps out of her landscape looking shaken and pale, as she should look. She just faced her worse fears.
"I heard you only had seven fears." I state, as if I didn't just stare at her whole landscape. Of course I know she has seven fears.
"Yes." She responds quietly. She looks nervous. "You didn't see my fears did you?" She questions.
I wonder why she asks that. The people who were watching laughed at one of her fears though, which made me mad at the time but now simply makes me curious.
"I only saw you on the screens. Just your reactions to your fears." I tell her. She seems to relax a little.
"So, do you want to come over to my apartment? You have on hour until the announcements are made." With my words she goes pale. Why? We've been alone together before.
"What's wrong?" I ask her, genuinely concerned. She just looks down, composes herself, and looks up at me strongly. "Nothing." She replies.
I take her hand and we walk down the path to the apartments.
so was that worth the wait? i feel like ive gotten to be a better writer through this story, i re read it and saw my progress so im hoping you could see it too! well this one is hopefully the best of all the chapters! the next one should be up soon, ive got a plan for it!
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