soo... thanks for NOT reviewing! all except like 2 people! Thanks for the motivation, it was appreciated I would just like to point out that I redid (not making that many changes but a lot the first about seven chapters. Except chapter one... i couldn't figure out how.. it wasn't in my documents.. don't antagonize me about my stupidity..

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CH 14: POV TRIS

I nervously walk down the path of the Pit to Fours'- Tobias'- apartment. I know now that he didn't see my fears so he doesn't know I have the fear of... intimacy. How embarrassing, Eric saw that. I'm just glad I'm done now, I can finally be free. As Tobias said, we couldn't do anything about my situation until initiation was over but now that it is, I can begin to work my way out of this.

Tobias opens his apartment door and holds the door open for me to enter. I do, trying to act unfazed by the large comfortable bed stationed near us.

Tobias takes my chin and lifts it so I'm looking at him. "What's wrong?" He asks, sounding genuinely concerned.

"Nothing, just my landscape." I hope my lack of aptitude for Candor doesn't show now. He seems to buy it. He leans down and softly presses his lips to mine.

I guess I tense up so he pulls away. He looks at me and I can tell he's trying to ignore what just happened "So, we have an hour until we have to be back at the Pit, what do you wanna do?" He asks me. My mind freezes. Although the way he says it isn't suggestive, the words are. I go back to my fear landscape, replaying it in my head.

"Tris, are you okay?"He asks me and I snap out of my faze. "Something's up with you Tris, and don't lie." He says in his instructor voice.

I can't hold it in anymore, "You were in my fear landscape." I say quickly and quietly.

"What?" He demands. Then, in a softer voice, "You're afraid of me?"

"No! I'm afraid of us... of what we're doing, of being in a relationship, I guess. I don't know if I'm doing it right, or what I'm even supposed to do-"

"Tris." He interrupts sternly. "You're not doing anything wrong. We're together, aren't we? What makes you think I'm not new to this either?"

Oh. oh. "Well, I just thought, someone like you-" I see him smirking. "I mean just- I don't know, look at you-" He cuts me off with his lips.

"And look at you." He replies. "We're together and that's all that matters." I smile up at him. Every precaution, concern, and foreboding disappears with his words.

"So what do you want to do?"

An hour later after talking kissing and enjoying each others company, Tobias and I head down to the Pit for the announcements.

He notices my uneven breathing and comforts me by enveloping my hand in his. "You'll be fine. I'll be surprised if you're not first. You have nothing to worry about."

I give him a small smile and enter through the wide doors leading to the Pit.

The intense noise that was locked out from the thick doors blast onto me full scale now. Before the noise would have sent me into a shocked state, covering my ears, but now it only gives me strength. I look up to Tobias who, like me, is smiling.

"Go find your friends." Tobias yells to me. Even though we're right next to each other I can barley hear him even though he's practically screaming. I just nod in response.

I wander around and eventually run into Christina and Will. "Where have you been?" Christina yells to me. Instead of me answering Eric starts yelling into the microphone for everyone to be quite. Soon everyone is.

"Alright! So as you know, the initiates for this year have just finished the arduous process of attempting to become members. Dauntless isn't much for speeches so I'm gonna make this short and sweet. Congratulations for making it through initiation and welcome to all of you who have made it into Dauntless!" As the last word leaves his mouth a screen appears behind him, with names listed, 1-10.

To my surprise and pleasure I see my name listed in first place. I skip the rest of the names and see Christina and Will's names: 7th and 6th. Pride and happiness course through my body, and I turn around to congratulate my friends but instead am greeted by Tobias.

"You think a hug would give away too much?" He asks me.

"Ya know, I don't really care." I take him by his neck and kiss him hard on the mouth. I hear catcalls and cheers erupt around us. We break apart and I see an extremely shocked Christina and Will.

"Girl, you have some explaining to do!"

After the arduous task of explaining every detail -that I would be aloud to mention- Christina is finally satisfied.

"I think we should go get a tattoo, ya know, to celebrate being real Dauntless members." Chris states.

"That sounds like a good idea." I say and we walk excitedly up the pathway to the tattoo parlor.

Three hours and two new tattoos later, Chris and I walk back to our initiate dorm, where we'll be staying for the rest of the time until we're assigned apartments.

"Show me your tattoo!" Chris demands for the 800th time.

"I'll show you when I get out of the shower."

"I'll be waiting!" She loudly states as I walk into the bathroom. I laugh and roll my eyes.

Ten minutes later I step out of the bathroom with my PJs on- something I learned to do the hard way, cough cough Peter.

"Okay show me!" Christina demands. I roll my eyes and lift my shirt, revealing my rib cage. On it is an intricately designed bird cage with a broken door. Flying out is a shadowy bird, flying upward in the same direction as my ravens.

"Oh my God, Tris that's gorgeous!" Christina exclaims as Tobias walks through the door.

"What's gorgeous?" He asks. Christina instantly sobers up at his appearance, as if he's still her instructor.

"My tattoo." I say responding to him. He looks shocked.

"You have a tattoo?"

"Several actually." He looks even more shocked. "Could I see them?"

I point to the ravens, then lift my shirt and show him my new one.

"They're beautiful, what do they mean?" He asks as he gingerly touches his fingers to the bird cage.

"These," I point to the ravens. "Are my family. This" I place my hand over his on the bird cage. "Represents freedom." Because my back is turned to Christina I mouth 'From Eric'.

He nods his head.

"So why'd you come here?" I ask him.

"To say goodnight to my lovely girlfriend." He says smiling.

"Well then, goodnight." He kisses me softly on the lips then my forehead and leaves quietly.

"You two are so cute!" Christina squeals.

I wake up several hours later with an intense thirst and the need to pee. I get up and go to the bathroom. After, I head to the water fountain.

After my drink I turn around, getting a slight glimpse of a body before everything turns black.

cliffhanger! well all you readers needed one, I didn't get enough reviews last time! I only updated because I'm kind. But for real you better give me some feed back if you want this story to continue past 15 chapters!