The Bucket List Chapter 24, a glee fanfic

I'm back! You guys missed me? I can't believe what I came home to, Hemo's pregnant... no chance of Brittana getting back together. My heart has shattered into a million tiny pieces. I had a good idea for another fic but I dont know if I could write it...

Anyway, here's chapter 24! one more chapter after this and then it's the end of part one!

Chapter 24

"Fuck!" Brittany screamed out once more as she was slammed hard against the headboard which clattered loudly against the wall, her legs were wrapped securely around Santana's waist and her teeth were sinking into the skin of the Latina's shoulder. Everything felt so intense; stars had begun erupting in front of her eyes just after she was hit with her third orgasm and they still hadn't faded away… this could have been her tenth for all she knew, she'd lost count long ago.

Birthday sex was bar far the best kind of sex ever.

The blonde was just thankful that the music downstairs was loud enough to drown out the sound of her constant moaning and screaming. At first she had tried hard to hold back the sounds of her pleasure but after a while she gave up on trying to care about her friends hearing her scream out Santana's name over and over again until it became the only word she could form in her mouth.

Santana refused to stop the pumping movement of her hand and somehow managed to keep up a relentless pace. Even with the burning in her arm, hips and chest there would be no way she would stop since Brittany was having orgasm after orgasm and just hearing her own name leave the blonde's lips was doing amazing things to her body. But tonight was Brittany's night, it was her birthday after all, so Santana would do everything she could to make it a memorable one for all the right reasons.

Sweat was pouring off both of the girl's bodies. Their heavy breaths were mixing together in front of their faces as Santana trailed lazy kisses over every inch of Brittany's face. "I… Love… You..." The Latina panted out as she curled her fingers to reach her sweet spot inside of her girlfriend.

Brittany's fingers dug into the skin of Santana's neck as she screeched out and bucked her hips hard into the fingers inside of her over and over again until she couldn't move her body. Her muscles were aching so bad that she wouldn't have been surprised if she couldn't walk for the rest of her life but the thing was, she didn't even care because she felt so good as if she were on cloud nine.

Santana began to pump her fingers again but Brittany couldn't take it anymore, she knew if she had to go through this pure euphoric agony one more time she would probable explode. She lifted a shaky hand and wrapped her fingers around Santana's wrist to still her movements as she did her best to stutter out a breathless no. Santana's body collapsed down on top of Brittany's as she tried desperately to catch her breath. All that could be heard inside of their bedroom was the sound of ragged pants and probably the sound hearts pounding against rib cages like drums. Santana slowly slipped her fingers out of the blonde's body causing Brittany to shudder and let out a soft squeak.

Santana knew that doing that to the blonde for so long wasn't the best of idea's considering the state her heart was in at the moment and she had been pretty reckless about her health lately, but who could deny the blonde anything when she was so amazingly cute and gorgeous and just everything Santana loved. She wanted Brittany to feel good, especially after what had just happened with her parents.

"Best… Birthday… ever…" Brittany managed to say even though it took most of her energy to do so.

Santana just chuckled and planted a shaky kiss onto the blonde's lips and held it for a moment before she collapsed down onto her back with a breathy chuckle. She laced her fingers with Brittany's - both their hands were clammy with sweat - and gave her a squeeze. "Do you want to go back down?" Santana whispered into the crook of Brittany's neck.

Brittany just shook her head, turned onto her side and then wrapped her arm around Santana's waist protectively as she pulled the Latina's body up against her own. "I want to stay here with you," Brittany paused to plant a kiss on her cheek. "Forever."

Santana felt a shiver run down her spine and then her stomach do flips at Brittany's words. She wanted to more than anything to lay here with Brittany forever. She wanted to tell her so. But she couldn't form the words in her mouth. She wouldn't let herself lie to the blonde when she knew they didn't have forever to be with each other. Not with the way her heart was acting up. So instead, she turned to Brittany and pressed a loving kiss on her lips and looked deep into her baby blue orbs.

"I love you, Santana." Brittany mumbled lazily, her eyes flickered closed as sleep began to take over her body. Santana pulled the blonde's head down to her chest and racked her fingers through her long blonde locks.

Santana lay in silence as she waited for the blonde's breathing to even out before she finally replied. "I love you too, Brittany. More than you could ever imagine." She looked down at the top of Brittany's head and planted a soft his there. "Happy birthday, baby."

A couple of hours had passed and Santana still hadn't found sleep. The music down stairs had come to a stop about half an hour ago and the only noises that could be heard were the quiet mumbles of the Berry men cleaning up. Santana almost felt bad for not helping them but the aching in her chest and the tingling in her arms had her full concentration. She knew this wasn't good and she knew it was her fault it was happening. She'd thought that maybe after a while the pain would have died down but it hadn't and was slowly getting painfully worse. She wasn't going to lie and say she wasn't bothered by it, because she was, she was fucking terrified about dying.

She cringed at the thought of dying that night, beneath Brittany, in the same house as her best friends.

No.

She couldn't let that happen.

She quickly slipped her way out of the bed and held in a breath as she waited for the blonde to wake up. Brittany flipped over and lay face down in the spot that Santana had just been occupying and let out a grumble but thankfully stayed fast asleep. Santana wandered through to the bathroom on unsteady legs and quickly pulled out a strip of pills from her wash bag. She couldn't bear to look herself over in the mirror; she knew that all she would see was a pail chalky mess.

She placed two pills into her mouth and swallowed quickly then turned the tap on to gulp down a few mouthfuls of cool water. She gripped the edges of the sink, the water felt icy against her insides as it slipped down into her stomach.

She gave herself one final shake before turning back to climb into bed with Brittany. Maybe if she got a goodnight sleep she would feel better in the morning. After all she had a whole day planned out for the four of them.

"I thought if we left Lima it would mean I wouldn't have to see this place again." Quinn mumbled as they walked through the halls of McKinley High School.

"Oh shut up, Q." Santana snapped as she trailed her fingers down the red lockers she had once seen every day. She hated to admit it, but she actually missed this place. "I wanted to tell you guys something, something that I couldn't put into words so I thought about how we used to do this kind of thing in high school… sing." Santana explained as they walked into the choir room.

Rachel, Brittany and Quinn just shot the Latina a confused look before taking a seat in the chairs as Santana pulled out two stools at the front of the room. Everything looked the same. Nothing had been changed; even the chairs were still in the same position from when they had last seen them.

"So, last night I got talking to Mr Shue…" as if on cue, the said man walked in through the side door holding a ukulele. He took a seat on the stool next to Santana. "And I persuaded him to help me out, only because he's the only person I know who can play a ukulele." She winked at the man next to her and patted him on his arm. "Whatever though, thank you Mr Shue for doing this for me."

"It's my pleasure, Santana." He grinned and positioned the instrument in his lap.

"Okay, so you guys listen." Santana pointed towards the three girls sitting in fort of her but began to shift awkwardly on her stool. She didn't know how this song was going to go down with the other girls. She didn't even know if she would be able to keep singing it knowing the meaning behind its words. "Just know I love you all." And with that Mr Shue started to play, Santana breathed in a single shaky breath and let the lyrics pour from her lips.

And I came home

Like a stone

And I fell heavy into your arms

These days of darkness

Which we've known

Will blow away with this new sun

Santana's eyes had drifted up towards Brittany's eyes somewhere in the middle of the first verse and she refused to look anywhere else. The blue of her eyes were soothing the angry butterflies in her stomach and reduced them to a slight tingle. Images of the time when she first found out about her heart problem flashed through her mind, when she was laying in Brittany's arms as she plantes kisses all along her neck... The thought made tingles form where the ghost of her lips had been.

And I'll kneel down

Wait for now

And I'll kneel down

Know my ground

Brittany's heart sped up in her chest, it beat harder and harder each time a word left Santana's mouth. She couldn't believe that she was singing this song to her; she couldn't believe any of this. It was all getting too much for her to comprehend. Her vision began to blur and soon enough everything around her was a cloudy mess.

And I will wait, I will wait for you

Santana's heart wrenched at the sight of the blonde. She knew what she was singing was hurting her but she kept on singing. She kept her eyes glued to Brittany as her own tears began to fall down her cheeks.

So break my step

And relent

You forgave and I won't forget

Know what we've seen

And him with less

Now in some way

Shake the excess

Santana let her eyes flicker over to the other two girls sitting with Brittany but quickly shut them tightly to block out the image of her best friend crying hysterically into Rachel's shoulder. Her whole body was shuddering like a crazy mess and showed no sign of stopping.

But I will wait, I will wait for you

And I will wait, I will wait for you

Santana could feel her voice beginning to break, it felt like there was a stone in her throat and it was getting bigger and bigger but she kept herself together… she would try as hard as she possibly could to keep herself from breaking in front of these people.

So I'll be bold

As well as strong

And use my head alongside my heart

So tame my flesh

And fix my eyes

That tethered mind free from the lies

Santana's hands were shaking now and her emotions were evident in her voice as she sang causing it to waver every now and then. She kept her eyes closed so that she wouldn't break at the sight of her loved ones. Even Mr Shue's playing had begun to falter. A sob broke through her lips halting her singing. She heaved in a couple of deep breaths and shook her head to calm herself down. She quickly tapped Mr Shue to signal him to carry on playing and that she was okay to carry on.

Santana carefully stood up and walked up to her girlfriend. Her tears were making her cheeks sticky and she could barely make out the figures in front of her. But as she got closer to Brittany, the blonde reached her hand out to lace her fingers with Santana's. With her spare hand she reached up and wiped the salty tears from the Latina's face and looked deeply into her eyes. And in that single look, Santana knew that Brittany understood. She understood that Santana knew she was going to die and she knew that was practically nothing anyone could do about it. This was Santana saying her goodbyes.

'Cause I will wait, I will wait for you

And I will wait, I will wait for you

As the song came to an end, Brittany jumped to her feet and cupped Santana's cheeks in both of her hands. She pressed her forehead against the Latina's and nodded, she didn't have to say anything or do anything but leaned forward and captured Santana's lips in a warm kiss. "I love you so much." She mumbled out but it was almost too muffled in a sob to be understood. Santana couldn't find her words to speak so just reattached their lips together and hoped that would convey all of her feelings for the blonde to understand.

Quinn, Rachel and Mr Shue stood just behind them next to the piano; they were all struggling to hold back their tears but Quinn was by far the worst. She clung to Rachel's jacket and sobbed madly into her chest and every now and then she would stutter out incoherent words that didn't make sense. Rachel just held on tight and refused to let go. She hated seeing her girlfriend look so broken. Quinn barely ever cried, that was until they found out about Santana dying, she had been crying a lot lately and Rachel had never seen her this bad since the first time she opened up to her about Beth.

"Maybe it was time I left…" Mr Shue whispered softly to Rachel as to not ruin any moments between the girls. Rachel just nodded and gave him a weak smile as the man left.

"Are you okay sweetie?" Rachel asked the broken blonde in her arms.

"I'm just really going to miss her, you know? She's my best friend. She's just always been around… it's going to be wrong her not being there with her snide comments and witty comebacks." Quinn let out a pathetic chuckle as she thought about all the slams Santana would blurt out without even having to think about them. "I don't want her to die."

"I know, I know… I don't either." And it was the truth. Rachel would miss the Latina, even with all the things Santana had put her through in high school she had turned out to be a really good friend in the end and the diva couldn't have asked for more. "But we have to stay strong for Santana. Just for a little while longer." Quinn just nodded weakly against her shoulder. Rachel looked over to where Santana and Brittany were stood; they were completely wrapped up in each other's arms as Brittany silently sobbed into the crook of Santana's neck. It was more than obvious that Santana was trying hard to keep up tough facade but as Rachel met the Latina's eyes she could see every ounce of pain that was raging through her insides.

Santana offered Rachel a small smile as she whispered 'I love you' and 'please don't forget about me' into Brittany's ear. Brittany pulled away with a shocked look on her face.

"I would never forget about you, Santana. Never." Brittany shook her head incredulously and refused to break eye contact with her girlfriend. "You hear me?" Santana just nodded before closing her eyes and planting a kiss on Brittany's cheek. Could she really believe the blonde's words though? Maybe the blonde believed her own words now but what would happen when someone else came along? Someone like Kristen…

"I love you, Britt-Britt." It was the only thing Santana trusted herself to say without breaking down into a sobbing mess on the choir room floor.

Later that day as the air began to get considerably colder and the sun was getting ready to set in the horizon, Santana drove the four of them over to the old water tower with a picnic in the back of her car and a couple of blankets. She had persuaded the Berry men to go and sat up a camp fire for them while they were all at the school so that it would take less time to get everything sorted. She just hoped that her friends and her girlfriend liked it…

Santana pulled up in front of the path at the bottom of the hill, the rusted water tower casted a shadow over them as the sun shone warmly behind it. Santana quickly jumped out of the car and opened up the back to pull out the picnic basket. "Do you want me to get that?" Quinn asked the Latina as they opened the back doors for their girlfriends.

"Sure, thanks." Santana handed it over with a smile and began to make her way over to the path when she was stopped by a hand around her wrist. She twisted on her heels and was met by the ocean blue eyes of Brittany. The blonde pulled her closer and circled her hands around Santana waist, the Latina couldn't suppress the giggle that escaped her lips as Brittany began to kiss and nibble at her neck. "Britt…" she squeaked out, her hands tangled into the front of the blonde's jacket.

Brittany pulled away causing Santana to grunt in protest but just as she was about to pull her back in for a kiss, the blonde turned and crouched down slightly. "Jump on." Santana looked at Brittany confused for a moment but then hesitantly took a few steps forward before jumping onto the blonde's back, her legs wrapped tightly around her waist and her around her shoulders. Brittany hooked her hands under the Latina's thighs and pulled her closer to make sure that she wouldn't fall off. Santana buried her face into the crook of the blonde's neck and inhaled the sweet scent of her girlfriend. "Holding tight?" Brittany asked.

Santana mumbled a quick yes but tightened her grip for safe measures. Brittany suddenly launched off up the pathway in a sprint causing Santana to let out a loud squeal. They over took Quinn and Rachel who were already halfway up and just giggled as they saw Santana bouncing up and down on Brittany's back. "Br-ii-it-tan-yy" Santana screamed out in a jerky voice as her body bumped with each step the blonde took. Brittany just giggled as they reached the top of the hill and set the Latina down on shaky legs with a pale face. "Are you trying to kill me?" Santana asked incredulously.

Brittany shook her head with an innocent smile and pulled her girlfriend in for a sweet kiss. Santana moaned and tangled her fingers in long blonde locks as she slipped her tongue into Brittany's mouth. Brittany's fingers began to play with the hem of Santana's sweater and lightly brushed against smooth caramel skin.

They broke apart when Quinn cleared her throat from behind them. "As much as I love you two, I really don't want to have to watch you suck face…" she chuckled as she placed the basket down in the grass beside the unlit fire and flapped the blanket around to straighten it out on the grass next to one of the metal legs of the water tower. "Hurry up, San. I'm cold." Quinn shivered and pointed to the fire as she buried herself beneath Rachel's outstretched arm.

Santana just rolled her eyes and pulled a lighter out from her pocket getting a few strange looks from the other girls. "Relax, I got Leroy to buy me it yesterday. It's not mine." She reassured the girls causing them to relax slightly as a comfortable silence passes over them.

"I didn't quite understand why you three used to like coming here in high school…" Rachel breaks the silence. "It didn't seem very appealing to camp out in the cold. But now that I'm finally here, I think I may understand." She nodded her head out towards the distance where the sun was now setting; it painted the sky a perfect orange as a deep purple-pink colour began to bleed into the horizon. "It's beautiful up here." She ended with a content sigh.

Santana relaxes down in between Brittany's legs when she had finally got the fire going and smiled widely as the blonde unzipped her jacket and wrapped them both up inside of it. "Stay warm, baby." Brittany mumbled into Santana's ear causing the Latina to shudder as the blonde's warm breath caressed her skin. Brittany relaxed against the leg of the water tower and pulled Santana with her. "I've missed this so much." Brittany said loud enough for everyone to hear.

Quinn nodded her head in agreement. "Me too, it feel like it's been forever since we were last here… it will probably be the last time we're all here together…" the blonde muttered under her breath but the others all heard what she said.

Santana felt Brittany's arm tense around her waist and her head shake no at Quinn's words. She knew it hurt the blonde to listen to this kind of stuff; she would always get upset or walk out of the room when Santana and her father would be talking about the future. She just didn't want to think about a life without Santana.

The Latina stroked the pad of her thumb gently over Brittany's hand to sooth her, the blonde's arms tightened even more as she began to pepper Santana's neck with soft kisses. "Please don't leave me…" she heard Brittany whisper almost silently into her ear. A painful shock shoots its way through her stomach and up to her chest as she took in the blonde's words. She couldn't hold back the tear that trickled down her cheek, Brittany quickly leaned round and kissed it away before it could reach Santana's chin.

Santana had been thinking a lot lately about how Brittany was going to react when Santana died, a lot more than she usually did, she had even spent the best part of her day thinking about it. Maybe it was because she knew her time was coming sooner than it was meant to, but she was prepared to die. She was terrified, but she was prepared. Brittany had told Santana that she would be able to cope when Santana wouldn't be here anymore but really, both girls knew she wouldn't and that was becoming more evident with each day. It was a hell of a lot easier for the blonde to get upset over things and sometimes she would even lash out. Santana knew that was down to her.

Maybe it had been the wrong thing to do, the two of them getting together. Santana didn't regret it, she never would but she couldn't help but feel the pain when she thought about leaving the blonde so heart broken.

"Santana?" Quinn's voice pulled the Latina from her thoughts and back to reality. Santana shook her head to clear the haziness and arched an eyebrow at the blonde sitting across from her. "I said do you want one?" she was holding out a neatly wrapped sandwich in foil in front of her. However, Santana just shook her head and buried herself into Brittany's chest. She suddenly didn't feel very hungry anymore.

"Are you okay, baby?" Brittany asked the Latina with a concerned look.

"Yeah, I just don't feel very hungry… I had a big dinner." She lied. Brittany gave her a confused look, they had had lunch together and Santana had barely eaten anything then either. But instead of questioning her, she just nodded her head and buried her face deep into the crook of Santana's neck. There was obviously something troubling the Latina but maybe it was best not to say anything until they were alone.

A couple of minutes past and all four girls found themselves lying flat out on their backs and looked up at the pitch black sky that was scattered with tiny white stars that seemed to multiply as she stared deeper. Santana smiled softly to herself, she was thankful she would get to see the stars like this one final time before she died. They flickered and twinkled and Santana began to feel herself slowly being hypnotised by how beautiful they were.

Suddenly, a shooting star fired across the sky causing the girls to gasp out in amazement. "Quick! San, make a wish!" Brittany grabbed Santana's arm in excitement and bounced up and down in her spot. Santana giggled at the blonde's eagerness and rolled her eyes playfully.

"Okay, okay." Santana closed her eyes and took in a deep breath.

I wish… I wish that Brittany won't be heart broken when I die.

"What did you wish for?" Brittany asked with wide eyes when Santana finally looked up to the other girls.

"I can't tell you that, if I do it won't come true." Santana giggled as she tapped her finger against Brittany's nose then leaned in to kiss away her pout that had formed on the blonde's lips at Santana's answer. Brittany shivered when a sudden gust of wind swept over the hill top. "Do you want to head home?" Santana asked the others who all nodded eagerly and began to pack their things away. "Thank you guys for coming here tonight."

Quinn, Rachel and Brittany all rushed over to Santana and enveloped her into a bone crushing hug. "We love you; of course we would come here." Rachel said matter of fact as the two blonde's nodded along in agreement. They pulled out of their group hug and made their way back down to Santana's parked car where they all climbed in and relaxed as heat filled the space around them.

Santana turned the radio on but turned it down so that it was just a comfortable background noise amongst the silence inside of the car. They drove along the country roads, the only light eliminating the way ahead came from the headlights of Santana's mustang. She looked up at her rear-view mirror and smirked at the sight of Quinn's head resting in Rachel's lap as they slept soundly. It had been a long day and Santana couldn't blame the couple for falling asleep, she was actually surprised they had lasted so long.

"I've missed you." Brittany's voice caused the Latina's eyes to flicker from over to the sleepy blonde sitting next to her and sent her a confused look. Brittany reached over and placed her hand on Santana's thigh. "Well it just feels like we haven't seen each other in a while since I started working… I just really miss you." Brittany explained.

"I've missed you too, Britt-Britt." Santana risked a glance at her girlfriend before turning back to focus on the road ahead. It would take about twenty minutes for them to drive home but when they were younger they would cut through fields and jump over fences so that time would be halved. "But I've had a really nice week with you." The Latina reached down and placed her hand on top of Brittany's and gave it a soft squeeze.

"It felt good, just been able to lie in bed with you and do nothing, just the two of us." Brittany began to draw lazy circles on the inside of Santana's thigh as she spoke quietly into the Latina's ear. Her breath grazed over the Latina's skin and caused her eyes to roll back into her head. "I don't want to go home because then I'll have to go back to work and it'll go back to how it was." She pulled her hands back into her lap and stared down at them sadly. "I don't like being away from you, especially after what's being going on lately."

"What do you mean?" Santana asked with a raised eyebrow, she kept her eyes glued to the toad though.

"I know you've been getting worse. And I know you've been trying to act like everything's okay, but I know it's not." She reached back over and laced her fingers with Santana's and began to rub her thumb back and forth over hers. "I just don't want to be away from you right now."

"Brittany… you don't need to worry about me okay? I'm going to be fine. I don't want you putting your whole life on hold because of me, soon enough I'm not going to-" she paused and frowned at her own words. "You will have to move on after me, Brittany and you will need a life to do that. So putting it on hold now won't do you any good." Santana stopped at some red lights and turned to face Brittany.

"I don't care about my life after you. I just want to spend as much time with you as I possibly can. I love you, more than anything. So when we get home, I'm going to call Kristen and tell her I'm quitting." She said matter of fact as she leaned in towards Santana to kiss her but frowned when the Latina turned her head.

"Brittany." Santana shook her head. She could feel the tears building behind her eyes and her throat felt like it was closing up. "You can't. You need to work."

"No. You can't tell me what to do, San. I'm telling Kristen and that's final. I'm not leaving you alone when you're getting worse." She said with a stern voice.

Santana turned back to look at Brittany with dark, lust filled eyes and her bottom lip pulled between her teeth. "Are you insisting?" Brittany just nodded with a slightly confused look. "You have no idea how much you turn me on when you act like this…" she husked as she placed her hand on the back of the blonde's neck and pulled her forward into a hungry kiss. Their tongues battled and fought for dominance, Santana's fingers tangled in blonde locks as Brittany tugged furiously at the hem of the Latina's sweater.

They were suddenly pulled apart when a loud irritating drone came from the car behind them followed by what sounded like, "Fucking move." Santana looked out the window to see the lights had turned green and put her foot down before quickly sticking her middle finger out of the window. She chuckled to herself when the lights turned back to red before the other car could even move; the man in the car slammed his fists down on the wheel causing the horn to blare through the street.

"If you keep touching me like that we're going to crash." Santana slapped Brittany's hands away from undoing the buttons of her jeans but she couldn't keep the pleasure from lacing her words.

"Well hurry up 'coz I don't know how long I can keep my hands off you." Brittany giggled but squealed when the car lurched forward and turned down the road towards the Berry's house. "Will I get a chance to say thank you for my birthday sex?" The blonde asked innocently.

"Oh god yes." Santana clamped her legs shut to ease the furious throbbing between her thighs as images of what her night would consist of.