Hello this is starshine and i really enjoy writing these chapters as you know i am gay and my cousin is gay for girls i guess even though he is a guy lol. Him and I enjoy writing this story and even though you might not like it now we do appreciate you giving it a shot. Things go up but eventually everything comes down. Will our two couples be together? Or will they just fall again like everything else? Let us know what else would you like to go on. You haven't read nothing yet and i hope you like this chapter. The chapters are short but they do give us more time to update quicker. So please stay with us and we will make this go as fast and painless as possible. Well for us! Have a good Day/Night.
All Glee characters belong to FOX and Ryan Murphy. All other characters belong to yours truly.
Declaration
Sunday, November 30th 2013
"We have a monkey?" Brittany asks excitedly to the brunette behind the animal shelter counter.
"Yes his name is Joe and he came in yesterday. " Marley looks up seeing Brittany's excited expression. "Someone is in a good mood today."
"I've missed all my animal buddies I'm really excited to see them." Brittany practically gushes.
"I'm sure they missed you too." Marley smiles and points to the bulletin board on the left. There is your chore list same as always and I'm pretty sure there is another animal charity event we are doing coming up soon.
"Hmm hopefully I can bring a date." Brittany grins, "Well let me get started I'll see you in a few." Brittany heads into the next room to start her chores.
Brittany's eyes fall right onto Joe as she walks through the door. "Hello, Newcomer." Brittany greets the animal
Joe begins to make hand signals at Brittany and hoots a few times.
"Aww your so cute little guy" Brittany walks towards the monkey who is in a cage and gives him a banana
Brittany smiles when the monkey shoves it into his mouth
She heads towards the dog section first. She meets a golden retriever named lucky.
She begins to groom his fur. I hope I didn't make a mistake lucky. What if she wants to be with her more then me? She is pretty and smart. It's probably cause she is smart. I wish I was smarter. Brittany sighs inwardly Her phone vibrates as if a response to her thoughts.
Santana 11:35am: Um, so I guess I'll do it tonight
Brittany 11:37am: ok
Santana 11:40am: u can still change ur mind
Brittany 11:45am: I know
Brittany tries to push this feeling of regret and hurt away but it just linger on her heart
She puts lucky back in its cage and heads to the cat area to work with Tabby
Brittany starts changing the litter boxes and sweeping up the cages. She starts to feed them when one kitten's purrs start to tug at her. She sits down and pulls the kitten into her lap. The kitten moves around her lap and uses Brittany's hand to rub herself against. "Hey, Brittany can I help." Sam's voice breaks the moment of peace Brittany had found.
Brittany continues playing with the kitten as if she heard nothing.
"Brittany, talk to me, I'm sorry, I shouldn't of acted that way. I just don't want you to get hurt again." Sam pleads. "What about-" Sam gets cut off.
"What about what, you being the one that's hurting me right now. You can't force what you think on other people don't you trust me to do what's best for myself." Brittany scoffs at Sam. "Don't you trust me to do go after what i want instead of what other people think I should want."
"Brittany, yes I trust you, I just wish we could talk about-" Sam says getting cut off again.
"Sam, there is nothing to talk about. Do you understand me? I love Santana and we're going to make this work. I will seriously never talk to you again if you end up messing this up again"
Brittany says as she gets up and returns the kitten to it's cage. "Well are you going to help or was that just an excuse to corner me."
"Mami." Santana screams in excitement seeing half her mothers face on the monitor. "Move the camera to the left a little. Right there that's perfect." Santana says as her mother's face center on the monitor.
"My beautiful baby girl, I've missed your sweet face." Maribel says in Spanish.
"When do you guys get back, I want to see you so bad Mami." Santana says switching to Spanish herself.
"We'll be home before Christmas. You should come home and spend it with us." The older Latina woman suggests. "Oh, I have all these pictures to show you, it's so beautiful here you should have come and brought that pretty girlfriend of yours."
"I don't think abuela would have approved." Santana says sadly. "I don't think she wants to see me anymore."
"Don't be silly she still loves you." Santana's mother snaps at her. "Give her some time. She will come around the two love you two share will win her over."
Santana uses her thumbs to catch the tears welling up in her eyes. "What's wrong baby, what are you crying."
"It's nothing mami." Santana lies. "I don't know what I'd do without you." Santana kisses her fingers and touches the screen.
"All right, baby. I have to get ready talk to your father. I love you Santana." They wave goodbye as her mother fades from sight and her father takes a seat in front of the camera.
"How is my little princess?" her father asks in anguish. Santana has always loved her fathers accent when speaking English.
"I'm doing good Papi." Santana flashes her father a smile.
"How's college? You going to be a doctor yet?" Santana's dad pursues.
"No Papi. I'm enjoying my job now." Santana sighs.
"All you do is party mija. What kind of job is that." Santana's Dad keeps pushing.
"I enjoy it. Why can't you just accept that this is something I want." Santana rolls her eyes trying to keep her emotions in check.
"How are you gonna get a family and a house when working there? Your husband cant support you forever." Her father chaste at her.
"I'm gay Papi. How many times have I told you this? I love Brittany and I can support us fine. Why can't you accept me?" Santana's voice gets louder at her dad not accepting her.
"Because who you are is unacceptable!" Santana's dad shouts.
"I'm gonna go." Santana's dad ends the call. Santana begins to cry in frustration. "Ugh" She shouts shutting her laptop and heading to her room. Unknown by Santana, Kurt came home early from a lunch with Rachel and heard everything between Santana and her dad. Santana grabs Bo and lays down cuddling with her. She buries her head into Bo's fur. She sighs deeply before drifting into a peaceful sleep
Knock! Knock!
Santana groans as she hears someone enter and footsteps getting closer. Santana moves her head from Bo's fur and sees Kurt staring at her.
"May I help you?" Santana raises an eyebrow at the flamboyant boy.
"Move over." Kurt hits Santana's leg motioning her to move. Santana moves back giving space for Kurt to lay down. Kurt puts his arm around Santana having her snuggle up to him.
"Are you okay?" He asks.
"No…" She buries her head into his neck as sobs over flood her body.
"It will be." Kurt says reassuring.
"Thank you gay boy." Santana smiles. "I'm really glad I have you Kurty." Santana takes deep breaths calming her down.
"No problem Satan. This doesn't mean I want to have sex with you. I still like the Penis." Kurt smirks hearing Santana's giggle.
"Hehe and I like the Vijay Kurt." Santana pushes Kurt off the bed making them both burst out with laughter. "Where is Rachel at?" Santana asks looking over her bed seeing Kurt lying on the floor.
"She is meeting Quinn, She finally answered her phone." Kurt stretches sitting up from the floor.
"So that's why your home early." The Latina puts Bo on the bed moving towards the edge.
"Yeah, I don't know, I think I will miss Rachel being in denial." Kurt shrugs.
"You really think they're done torturing each other? Rachel has had Quinn on the hook since we started college, maybe before." Santana informs Kurt.
"That long?" Kurt sighs, "All we can do is hope. Anyways so you tell Brittany about your date tonight?"
"Yes." Santana huffs, "I'm still hoping she'll tell me to cancel. This is silly I know how I feel." Santana rolls her eyes and looks away.
"How are you going to handle your issue with Sam?" Kurt asks carefully.
"We are eventually going to have to talk. If I want to be with Britt I'm gonna have to deal with Sam, but until that day comes his life will be shit. Santana smirks
Quinn stands outside of Lyrical Madness twirling the keys around on her pointer finger. The blonde darling waits her impatience growing with each passing car. This is stupid. I'm just going to upset her and make her worry for no reason. Doesn't she realize I'm protecting her. It's my pain why should I force it on Someone else.
Rachel sits behind the club gathering her thoughts. Okay Rachel Barbara Berry you can do this. She is your Best friend. She is opening up don't mess this up. What if she tells me she loves Joel? I don't know if I can handle that. Rachel takes a deep breath before heading to the front of the club.
"Quinn." Rachel says hesitantly as the beautiful blonde stares into the street. The startled girl jumps before turning on Rachel with her hand over her heart.
"Rachel." Quinn says breathlessly, "You scared me." Quinn takes several deep breaths.
"Why are we here Quinn?" Rachel asks fearful of the answer.
"Puck and Joel flew to Tennessee this morning, so we can be alone, this place kind of reminds me of the auditorium." the blonde says shyly.
"Oh… It does, doesn't it. Not as big as the ones I use to sing at but it will work. Wait are you gonna sing for me?" Rachel smiles brightly noticing Quinn's shy gestures.
"Uh, I don't know maybe, it just reminds me of all the times we talked in high school." Quinn shuffles shyly to the door and opens it. "Coming?" Quinn holds the door for the brunette diva. Rachel rushes to the door nodding thank you to the blonde as she walks past her.
Quinn leads Rachel towards the stage turning on Rachel before reaching it. "Why did you run off on Friday?" Quinn asks not being able to drive the thought away.
"I was scared." Rachel fiddles with her hands.
"Rachel, there is nothing to be afraid of." Quinn takes Rachel's hands into her own. "I'm sorry I don't tell you things. It's just that last time I confided in someone my parents set a permanent date with a therapist."
"What happened Quinn. I'm not like everyone else. I really cared about you." Rachel says sincerely.
Quinn reaches into a shirt and pulls out a necklace and squeezes it tightly she brushes back her hair with her free hand. "Joel bough this for me." Quinn gives a small laugh, "He says having something to hold onto makes it hurt a little less. It does a little, you remember telling me I was putting on weight in high school?"
"Yes it was Junior year like around February." Rachel says recalling their rough high school friendship.
Rachel was standing in Glee Club by the piano wearing her green and black plaid outfit. Finn was the first to show up and they start discussing this weeks assignment. It wasn't long before Sue's unholy trinity came into the room and joined them. Quinn locks her arm with Finn and Rachel realizes she's the only one not wearing her Cheerio's uniform. That's when Rachel notices that Quinn was wearing very loose fitting clothes and still Rachel could tell she looks a little bigger. Finn walks off to talk to Mike and Puck who just walked in. "Quinn are you putting on weight?" Rachel whispers so only the girls can hear her. The Queen Bee's normally perfect face wore an expression of absolute horror.
"Hey man-hands if Lucy decides to let loose every now and again who are you to judge her." Santana snaps at her and Brittany looks at Rachel like she just drowned a littler of puppies.
"Screw both of you." Quinn scoffs at them and flees the room.
"What did I say?" Santana asks clueless. Brittany whispers something into Santana's ear and Santana starts to follow Quinn before Brittany pulls her back and shakes her head. Rachel decides to go after Quinn herself and finds the Homecoming Queen drying her eyes in the bathroom.
"Hey I'm sorry. Is everything okay?" Rachel asks confusion nibbling at her. Quinn huffs finally releasing the breathe she was holding.
"Santana joke is just really getting old, and I can't believe you think I'm getting fat." Quinn says with a total lack of emotion.
"That's not what I meant." Rachel says apologetically. Quinn rolls her eyes and starts towards the door.
"We're late for Glee club." Quinn informs Rachel evenly as she holds the door to the bathroom for Rachel.
Rachel watches as Quinn disappears from the conversation and starts to wander around her own mind. Quinn's knuckles on the hand gripping her necklace turn white. "Quinn talk to me, this is a safe place." Rachel says soothingly.
"You sound like my therapist." Quinn laughs lightly trying to brighten the mood.
"Sorry, that was my fathers talking." Rachel responds giving Quinn a soft smile.
"Yes I know." Quinn says frowning slightly. "I passed out and fell down the stairs later that month." Quinn start to envision waking up to find out her life was changed.
"Lucy, Lucy." A strange woman's voice calls Quinn from the abyss. Quinn groans feeling like every inch of her body was in utter agony. "Welcome back to the land of the living. You look like your still in pain, I'll increase your pain meds." the elder woman wearing a white coat says.
"NO!" Quinn's scream comes out more like a hoarse whisper. "I'm fine." Quinn tries to put on a brave face knowing nothing in her body felt right.
"I'm Dr. Bolton , Lucy we're going to take good care of you. Your mother will be here in a couple hours." the doctor says slowly as she walks to a rolling cart pulling out a needle and walking back to Quinn.
"What about the baby?" Quinn cries as she tries to pull herself away from the doctor.
"I'm sorry Lucy." the doctor says shaking her head slowly.
"I told everyone I passed out because of low blood sugar. I didn't tell them why my blood sugar was low." Quinn's tears rain down her face. "I killed my baby Rachel." Quinn shuts her eyes burying her face in her hands as she trembled uncontrollably.
Rachel stands there her hands covering her mouth as shock fills her. "You-Quinn you didn't kill your baby." Rachel snaps out of her shock induced coma
"Rachel I did kill her, I didn't go to the doctor I wasn't eating right and I only took vitmains Santana stole for me." Quinn moves her hands to her hair and begins pulling hard against it.
"Stop that!" Rachel rushes to Quinn taking her hand." No you didn't quit blaming yourself. Rachel Interlace her fingers with the blonde making her look at her. "You cant blame yourself. You will go crazy."
"There was so much stuff I should have done. Why was I so scared, Now I'll never know Beth, I never hold her in my arms and now you know one of the horrid things I'm responsible for." Quinn looks down in shame as she talks.
Rachel wraps Quinn in an embrace letting her cry into her chest. "This is not your fault Quinn. Do you hear me. Please don't cry I'm here for you. You wont lose anything like that again. I promise." Rachel whispers into her hair. "It's ok. It's gonna be ok." Quinn sobs and cries into Rachel's chest and time seams to stop mattering. Quinn eventually pulls back and dries her eyes with her pointer finer.
"Well I choose this place because I wanted to sing to you. So can I do that before I break down again." Quinn laughs trying to force a smile from herself. "Stay right their." Quinn tells Rachel as she climbs onto the stage. Quinn pulls out her cell phone and plays with it for a moment. The lights dim and a purple spot light shines on Quinn as a melody begins to play. The blonde starts singing shyly.
Today is gonna be the dayThat they're gonna throw it back to youBy now you should've somehowRealized what you gotta doI don't believe that anybodyFeels the way I do about you now.
Quinn voice rises in confidence as she belts out the the word was on the streetThat the fire in your heart is outI'm sure you've heard it all beforeBut you never really had a doubtI don't believe that anybody feelsThe way I do about you now
Quinn jumps off the stage taking Rachel's hands as she looks deep into her brown eyes transferring all her love and adoration for the diva in front
Of all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I wouldLike to say to you
But I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonder wall
Quinn sings the rest of the song with tears pouring down her face. Rachel now has moist cheeks as she realizes Quinn's true feelings for her. Rachel might have always been dense when it came to people telling them how they feel but when you sing it. It's like everything comes together.
Santana looks across the table at the girl across from her. "I'm sorry you dressed up and I'm here in jeans and a t-shirt." Santana apologizes. Damn as if this wasn't already awkward enough. I know who I want to be with. This is torture.
"Santana I wanted to dress like this. Honestly I'm surprised you showed up." Elise smiles at Santana trying to clear the awkwardness of the date.
"I may be a class A bitch, but I wouldn't leave you hanging like that." Santana tells Elise.
"So why are you doing this." Elise asks knowing Santana didn't want to be here.
"Brittany wants me to see if I have feelings for you." Santana just comes out and says it. Elise chuckles softly shaking her head.
"Wow, that's very candid of you." Elise says then sighs." Well you do." Elise talks quickly not giving the Latina a chance to cut her off. "There not the feelings I hope but you care none the less. I hoped that after that night you did. But you do care about the people around you even when you act heartless. We're friends Santana and I really don't understand why what happened did happen."
"I love Brittany, and I don't know how everything got so fucked up that, that I lead you on." Santana says thinking back on a million different happy moments with her beautiful blonde dancer.
"Until that night at the club I never thought you would be with me. You are very alluring Santana and I know you are with Brittan and I'm ok with that. I want you to be happy and I cant do that the way she can. We are friends first. As much as that night confused me. We will always be friends." Elise smiles softly
"I feel like I gave in to quickly. Like maybe I should have fought more not to be here." Santana shrugs.
"Love makes us give in. Its ok just go fight for her now." Elise says sternly.
"I will." Santana stays in her seat debating what to do next.
"What are you still doing here?" Elise smiles. "Go!"
"Thank you. You are really a good friend." Santana stands up kisses Elise on the cheek and jets out to go get her girl.
Santana pulls up to the blondes apartment nervously fidgeting in her seat. She rushes up the stairs standing in front of the door rehearsing. "Ok. Britt I went on the date like you said. And I have no feeling for Elise at all. No that's stu-"
"She really wont like that you used that word." Quinn opens the door smirking obviously showing she heard her speech. Santana's face turns red.
"She's in her room." Quinn lets the Latina in. Santana nods then begins her journey. "Hey Lezpez don't mess this up." Quinn smirks giving her a thumbs up.
Santana knocks softly on Brittany's bedroom door hoping she was still up.
"Come in" Brittany's voice calls through the door. Santana opens the door catching Brittany wiping tears from her eyes. "You're supposed to be with Elise." Brittany says confused.
"Why were you crying?" Santana asks softly as she walks to where Brittany is sitting on her bed.
"I was worried that you would choose her over me, because she's prettier and smarter." Brittany shrugs. "I just didn't think it would be so quickly." Brittany looks to the foot of her bed as Lord Tubbington hisses at Santana.
"Brittany Susan Pierce I love you." Santana says touching the side of the blondes face.
"But?" Brittany asks mournfully as Lord Tubbington leaps of the bed hissing at Santana as he left the room.
"No buts, all I thought about was you, all I said was about you and I realized I was on a date with the wrong person." Santana cups Brittany's face with both hands and kisses her softly on the forehead.
"I only want you Britt Britt." Brittany smiles bright at Santana.
"I only want you too sanny." Britt stares into mocha eyes. Santana's breathing gets heavier at the close proximity of the bombshell blonde.
"I need to go or things will move to fast." Santana pulls Brittany to her feet and the blonde does a spin pulling Santana towards the door. Santana opens the door stepping out and turning around facing Brittany who is now leaning against the door frame.
"Night Britt" Santana whispers staring at the beauty of the blonde.
"Night San." Brittany stares at the other girls lips before she couldn't see them anymore.
The Latina turns around and walks down the stairs towards her car. She hears feet running after her and turns around to catch a blonde jumping on her slamming there lips together.
"I love you" Brittany whispers against the kiss.
"I love you too" Santana sighs pulling their bodies closer.
The song we used in this chapter. Is one of my all time favorites. It is wonderwall by oasis if you never heard of it i recommend it to everyone.
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