Ryder ran straight back to her room and slammed the door; she couldn't believe what she had done. She told Kelly she had one last chance and she had screwed that up for them both. Single handedly Ryder felt like she had ruined everyone's lives in a split second.

She fell onto the bed holding back tears. "All because I got myself to drunk." She whispered to herself.

There was a banging on the door. "Let me in right now you stupid bitch!" It was Kelly; Ryder lay on her bed as if she wasn't even there.

"You promised me you would give me one more chance! We were happy together and you ruined that! Now neither of us will be happy." She paused and chuckled softly. "Except you, because apparently ruining people's lives makes you very happy!"

Ryder could feel the tears caress her face as she sat up and faced the door, believing every word that Kelly threw at her.

"For a minute there we were all happy believing you were dead, because you couldn't ruin our lives!" Kelly smiled knowing that she had hit a soft spot in Ryder's mind. She picked up her suitcase and walked away, proud of what she had achieved.

The words ran through Ryder's head like a river, so clear. She felt like everyone's lives had been ruined because of her, but now it had been confirmed and that was all she would believe. Ryder slid off the side of the bed and fell to her knees, crying wasn't even an option anymore as she was still so dehydrated from the night just past. Ryder looked at her hands shaking; not from being cold, but from the shock.

Randy paced his room, not being able to believe that all this time Ryder wanted to find him, and she just didn't think he wanted to find her. Taking a deep breath as he tried to calm down, Randy sat himself down on the edge of the bed.

"I told you didn't I! I told you she was no good for you but you wouldn't listen to me!" John growled as he barged into Randy's room, feeling somewhat proud of being right.

Randy could feel him emotions getting the better of him again as he stood up to face John.

"What does it even matter now John! Sure you were right, whatever! I've lost the most important person there ever was in my life because of that stupid whore!" Randy gripped his hands into fists as he thought about how Kelly ruined everything. "And all you can do is come in here and rub the fact I was wrong right into my face! I thought you were meant to be my best friend!" Randy pushed John's chest causing him to stumble and fall against the nightstand.

John regained his stance and took a deep breath; he knew fighting wasn't worth it. He walked over to the door and looked back at Randy. "Make that two people out of your life; you've lost your mind." John shook his head and slammed the door closed. Randy watched the door slam as his ex best friend left him alone. "I didn't need you anyway!" as Randy yelled onto deaf ears.

Ryder had managed to calm herself down enough to not make and stupid decisions, unlike last time. She decided that Randy didn't need her around in his life anymore and that she would just head back home to her own friends. She began packing everything into a suitcase and planned on booking the next flight home as soon as she was done. As she was about halfway through there was a knock on the door, Ryder hesitantly looked through the peek hole to see who was on the other side, and it was John.

"What do you want?" Ryder whispered as she held onto the door knob wondering if she should let him in.

"I just need to talk to you."

Ryder slowly opened the door and let him in, as he passed her and she swiftly shut it again turning to him. "You're not here to yell at me are you?"

"Why would I do that? You haven't done anything wrong." John smiled softly trying to make the best out of a bad situation.

Ryder went back over to her suitcase "because I ruined everyone's lives by coming back."

John looked stunned, he couldn't believe she thought that, but he knew where she got it from. "Ry, you can't listen to everything Kelly tells you, she's just jealous that you came back because she knows how much Randy adores you." John looked over at the suitcase Ryder was packing. "Where are you going? Were not leaving until Tuesday."

"It doesn't matter John, I ruined their perfect little relationship and I should never have come back, that's exactly why I'm going home." Ryder didn't take her eyes off of all the clothes she was packing.

John grabbed her arms and turned her towards him. "You can't go home just because of this one little slip up! If we all ran away because something went wrong then none of us would be here right now, you can't let this get the better of you Ry."

Ryder looked down "but I've already failed here, and obviously no one wants me around."

John sat Ryder down and took a seat on the bed next to her. "I want you around, I already lost one friend today, let's not make it two please." John basically was begging her to stay, Randy had always been his best friend but he couldn't handle him the way he was right now.

Ryder sat there in silence contemplating her decision; he was right, she loved travelling and the money was great too most of all keeping busy was what kept her mind off Seb. "Okay" Ryder whispered as John put his arm around her.

"It's just you and me for now okay, I won't let anyone hurt you."