After you'd gone

Name : After you'd gone

Author : Lisi the slayer

Genre :Romance/Angst

Summery:

Spike sacrificed himself to close the Hellmouth over Sunnydale once and for all. Year on and Buffy is still distraught and beats her self up about how she never told him how she felt. But now he's back, back from the dead, determined to get his life back he sets out in search of Buffy, but how will Buffy react when she's see him and will she accept him into her life again ?

Pairings- Buffy/Spike

Love's pain

Dawn tried to ignore the rush of jealousy that had begun to seep like poison through her bloodstream.

" She's fine. She's ok. She's, she's-"

" Niblet just tell me like it is."

" Spike, I've never seen her sadder. Since you died nothing's cheered her up.

Her friends think she's falling into a deep depression, when we're alone she acts like I'm not there, or if she's not there.

I can do what I want but it's not cool. She's like shadow of what she was.

The only word she'll say is Spike. Even when she's patrolling and killing Vampires and god knows what else, your the only thing on her mind.

It's like she's put her life on hold. Sometimes it's like she died with you. I've never felt so alone."

Spike sat there shocked by Dawn's revelation, he hugged her tighter and kissed her forehead.

Niblet, if I go back with you, do you think, do you think she'll take me back ?

Dawn let out a sigh and with pitiful eyes looked straight into Spike's icy blue one's.

" Your never know till you try Spike. It's not going to be easy for her."

Dawn warned him seriously.

" You handled it well ?"

" Yeah well I've had to deal with a lot in my time."

At that Spike felt guilty and he hugged her even tighter. Dawn looked at him and began to frown.

His face was unusually pale and he had blue circles under his eyes.

What is it Niblet ? Something wrong with my face ?

Dawn frowned and shook her head.

" There's nothing wrong with your face but you can't fool me Spike, you need blood, take it."

Spike watched as Dawn pulled up her sleeve and her once unmarked wrist now had two small red fang marks. He felt guilt fill him.

" I liked it Spike, it was nothing like I've felt before. Take my blood and then your be fit to visit Buffy."

Spike nodded his head and he moved Dawn in-between his legs, guiding her with his arm, her face resting against his naked shoulder again.

Slowly he took her wrist and brought it to his silky lips. His lips gently planted kisses over the fang marks.

His tongue soothing and cold. Dawn moaned and shifted harder into Spike's shoulder. He kissed her skin gently and quickly soothed her skin with his tongue.

You know what's coming up Niblet

Spike warned her in advance before he sunk his fangs into her flesh.

He felt Dawn gasp and squirm slightly but not nearly as much as before.

Slowly his face changed back to normal and he sucked at her wrist, sucking the blood out of her and her life force.

Dawn relaxed against him and kept her wrist steady for as long as she could but all of sudden it became too heavy and her entire body went limp.

Spike removed his lips from her wrist and re-bandaged it. He gently then carried the sleeping Dawn under the covers of his bed and resting on his chest. Before sleep took him he muttered one word.

" Buffy."

Spike growled softly as he felt someone nudge him in the ribs and repeatedly call his name.

Niblet, decease I'm getting my beauty sleep, I am a Vampire remember

As if I could forget ! I gave you my blood remember !

And Spike it's night, the sun went down thirty minutes ago !

At this Spike forced himself to wake up. He opened his eyes to see Dawn frowning at him.

" I told Buffy I was with on old friend I haven't seen for a while, I can't be back late come on !"

With a nod of his head he got out of bed and then realised the obvious problem.

" err Niblet ? I didn't come back with a full wardrobe ?"

Dawn smirked evilly.

" Well aren't you lucky then that Angel left a nice bright blue jumper with denim jeans in such a case of emergency."

Spike narrowed his eyes dangerously at Dawn.

" Dawn, if I find out that's there's a stack of black clothing in that wardrobe I'll be tasting you again and this time it might just be your neck."

He warned her seriously. Dawn just chuckled and left the room before Spike could retaliate.

Ten minutes later and an extremely angry Spike left the bedroom. He glared at Dawn.

" One word, just one word and your be dinner. ONE WORD !"

" Oh Spike, don't you look nice and summery !"

Spike let out a growl and hoisted a protesting Dawn on his shoulder.

" Can't say I didn't warn you Niblet."

With supernatural speed he ran to the Summer's home. Finally he put Dawn back down who pouted at him.

" That'll be the last time you say I look nice and summery, now for the hard part."

Summoning his Bloody William courage he knocked on the door.

Buffy opened the door and then when she realised who it was she froze.

" S-S-Spike ?"

Spike grinned at her superiorly.

" The one and only."

" Spike ?"

Her voice breaking like she was about to burst into tears any minute.

Your on your own Spike I'm out of here ! Tell me how it goes

Dawn squeezed past Buffy and ran upstairs to her bedroom.

" Spike "

Buffy repeated quiter this time.

" Yes Buffy, It's me. Spike. I've missed you so much."

Unshed tears glittered in his eyes and Buffy let out a squeal before leaping into his arms, wrapping her arms around his neck and crying deeply into his shoulder.

Hey what do you think, It's not going to be that simple right now Buffy's lost in the shock but letting him back in is not going to be easy. Review ! 2 reviews and I can update !