After you'd gone

Name : After you'd gone

Author : Lisi the slayer

Genre :Romance/Angst

Summery:

Spike sacrificed himself to close the Hellmouth over Sunnydale once and for all. Year on and Buffy is still distraught and beats her self up about how she never told him how she felt. But now he's back, back from the dead, determined to get his life back he sets out in search of Buffy, but how will Buffy react when she's see him and will she accept him into her life again ?

Pairings- Buffy/Spike

Lover's denial

Spike suddenly felt Buffy turn heavy and he grasped her tighter and moved her into an easier position, she had fainted in his arms.

No colour left in her face, he made to move in to the house when he found an invisible barrier stopping his entry. Spike growled, his invitation had obviously disappeared when he died and had not returned with him.

NIBLET !

SPIKE WHAT THE HELL ! I'M TRYING TO SLEEP HERE !

Niblet let me in

GET BUFFY TO, YOU TWO NEED TIME ALONE !

NIBLET JUST DO IT !

FINE ! SUMMER'S HOUSE PLEASE WELCOME BLOODY SLEEP BREAKER SPIKE INTO THE HOUSE !"

Spike tested it and he walked into the living room with ease.

Thanks Niblet,

Whatever

Spike chuckled at Dawn's annoyed voice and then diverted his attention to Buffy. She seemed to be stirring slightly in his arms.

He placed a soft kiss on her forehead placed her on the sofa and Buffy's eyes fluttered open.

At first love was shinning out of them and Spike thought for a moment everything was going to be ok. But then in a flash hurt and fear erupted in her green eyes and she leapt from the sofa.

" GET OUT ! YOUR NOT SPIKE ! SPIKE DIED ! HE WAS A HERO AND DIED CLOSING THE HELLMOUTH GET OUT !"

Spike tried to protest, and on a last chance blurted her nickname.

" PET ! Pet it's me, it's your Spike."

Tears trickled down Buffy's face.

" Well maybe I'm not your Buffy anymore."

Spike felt like he had been staked. His step faltered and pain filled his icy blue eyes.

A tear trailed down his face. His pale hand clenched over his heart, emotions he had long ago locked away broke free .

He thought he saw Buffy edge closer to him but Spike couldn't take being anywhere near her.

" I'm sorry Spike."

Spike shook his head, more tears flowing and sparkling like diamonds ran down his face before he fled in his Vampiric speed into the rainy night, ignoring Buffy's screams of his name.

Once back in his lair he flung himself onto his bed and howled.

Tears ran down his pale flawless face. The moonlight lit up his sharp features and it made the tears glisten like precious jewels and their trails glistened like that of rivers on a bright summer's day.

He growled again and clenched his hand over his heart.

It didn't matter now. Noone could see him. His hard reputation would still be perfectly intact. But that's all it was, a reputation.

He felt like someone had staked him and he found himself wishing that it was so. After all a staking lasted seconds this was eternal.

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