After you'd gone

Name : After you'd gone

Author : Lisi the slayer

Genre :Romance/Angst

Summery:

Spike sacrificed himself to close the Hellmouth over Sunnydale once and for all. Year on and Buffy is still distraught and beats her self up about how she never told him how she felt. But now he's back, back from the dead, determined to get his life back he sets out in search of Buffy, but how will Buffy react when she's see him and will she accept him into her life again ?

Pairings- Buffy/Spike

Lying to yourself

Dawn carefully made her way downstairs, she heart sunk as she saw a dishevelled blonde head sleeping on the sofa with a tear stained face.

Dawn went over to the figure and gently tucked a blonde strand from the closed eyelids. The eyes fluttered open, shining with unshed tears.

" Dawn ?"

Dawn smiled reassuringly, due to her nervous she raised her wrist to tuck her long brown strands behind her ears, she realised her mistake too late.

Buffy grasped Dawn's wrist in a steel vice grip. Ignoring her sister's protests Buffy turned her arm around and was shocked at the marks on her sister's forearm.

" Who ?"

Dawn gulped at Buffy's deadly calm voice.

" He needed it Buffy, he needed it and -"

" AND HE TOOK IT ! HE HAD NO RIGHT TO ! THAT MANIPULATIVE UNDEAD SCUMBAG !"

Dawn was beyond furious, she was shaking with anger and she yanked her wrist free causing Buffy to hiss in pain.

" HOW DARE YOU ! TAKE THAT BACK BUFFY TAKE THAT BACK NOW !"

Buffy shook her head and looked at Dawn with disgust.

" I can't believe you Buffy, I offered him my blood because he needed it.

He was so gentle and kind. It felt wonderful. And that Manipulative Un-dead Scumbag saved us all.

He gave up his own un-dead life and saved us all. Take that back and take it back now because he didn't deserve that."

Hey Niblet ! Mind if we have a telepathic chat ?

Dawn smiled and Buffy looked at her with raised eyebrows.

Dawn just smirked at her, a feeling of being superior filled her.

Spike had a special connection with her, he had picked her over Buffy.

Sure thing Spike, just ditching this nuisance.

Dawn arched her eyebrow and glared at Buffy, waiting for her to take back what she said. Buffy shook her head left the house and slammed the door shut.

Dawn felt resentment build in her. Buffy could go anywhere, anywhere she wanted and yet she could go nowhere.

Ready for that chat Spike

Spike noticed that as he read Dawn's mind her voice was full of resentment.

What's up with my Niblet ?

Spike had a big feeling it had something to do with a certain blonde haired Slayer, but he waited for her response anyway.

What happened last night between you and Buffy ?

Spike felt his heart sink and all the heartbreak of last night came again and stronger.

He was about to reply when he heard several kicks at the door and the bang as they were flung open.

Sorry Niblet. Talk later.

His face turned to Vampire mode and he growled until he saw who it was. His face instantly shifted back to normal and his shoulders slumped.

Buffy watched him slump and she felt a mixture of emotions.

" Is there something you wanted Slayer ?"

Buffy looked exhausted and she slowly approached Spike, gently raising a hand as she came closer. Spike chuckled humourlessly.

" Back to the face punching are we ?"

Buffy shook her head, tears on the edge from spilling down her face, she raised a hand to touch Spike's face and several tears fell as she saw him flinch away from her touch.

She wanted to cry but the heartbreak was chocking her. Slowly she touched Spike's smooth cold cheek and she moved her hand up to his forehead. She placed both hands on his temples and whispered softly in his right ear.

" Close your eyes Spike."

Buffy watched as his icy blue eyes gleamed in confusion but he obeyed anyway and softly his pale eyelids covered his blue gems from view.

Buffy moved her hands over his face, she softly guided her fingers over his closed eyelids, she could feel them twitching as her fingers passed over them.

Her fingers glided down his defined cheek bones. They flowed down his pointy chin. And her fingers slowly passed over his rose petal soft pink lips.

She watched as tears sneaked through his closed eyes and ran quickly down his face, she caught the tears with her mouth and kissed them away. She could feel Spike trembling and her heart ached as she heard him stifle a cry.

"Open your eyes Spike."

Spike didn't want to, the feeling had been wonderful, Buffy's hands so delicately tracing his handsome features, it was as it had been before.

" Open your eyes Spike"

Spike opened his eyes they sparkled even more now that they were behind a veil of unshed tears.

" I missed you. I missed you Spike. I missed you so much."

Spike gently snaked an arm around her waist and gently nudged her closer.

Buffy closed her eyes and kissed his cold lips gently. Spike glided his tongue over her bottom lip begging for entrance.

Buffy obliged and the kiss turned wet and passionate. Spike eagerly explored every inch of Buffy's mouth, her warm air warming his cold tongue.

He grasped her arms tight and moved her against a wall. The two tongues battled a war of dominance, neither giving up.

Neither gave up until Spike caught unawares was thrown from Buffy and his head hit the stone floor hard.

Disorientated and more than a little shocked he leapt to his feet and turned into Vampire mood, his eyes scanned across the room till he saw a female Vampire battling with Buffy.

With a growl he leapt into the air at the Vampire's back, his new leather coat flying behind him like giant leather wings. He dug his sharp nails into the Vampire's back and hauled her away from Buffy.

By now Buffy was unconscious from being head slammed repeatedly on the cold stone floor.

Spike let out a furious growl and turned the Vampire around roughly to see her face.

His face changed back to normal instantly. His heart plummeted.

" Dru ?"

A sharp pain erupted in his chest. He looked down and saw that a dart had pierced his right shoulder.

He yanked it out and growled angrily. But he knew it was too late. He barely registered Dru tying his hands together and gagging him. He looked at Buffy and his desperate mind wondered why his body wasn't fighting then he looked at Dru.

The world blurred and he finally blacked out going limp in Dru's arms.

Buffy moaned and she opened her eyes, she saw a blurry outline lie limply in a darker blur.

She squinted and her heart raced when she saw it was Spike.

Her heart rate went sky high as she saw he was bound and gagged. Spike was never taken prisoner, he had risked his life and now she had to save him.

She made to get up but she didn't get even close.

She watched helplessly as Dru dragged Spike out of Church and into the dark evening. Then the world turned black as she heard a faint calling of her name.

"Buffy !"

She blacked out.

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