After you'd gone

Name : After you'd gone

Author : Lisi the slayer

Genre :Romance/Angst

Summery:

Spike sacrificed himself to close the Hellmouth over Sunnydale once and for all. Year on and Buffy is still distraught and beats her self up about how she never told him how she felt. But now he's back, back from the dead, determined to get his life back he sets out in search of Buffy, but how will Buffy react when she's see him and will she accept him into her life again ?

Pairings- Buffy/Spike

Ain't Love Grand

Spike felt his heart plummet, a horrible heat flush rose up with in him and he turned around to vomit in the gutter.

Buffy didn't notice, she kept staring at the piece of paper.

" I should have killed her. That day I should have killed her."

She turned around and saw Spike walk back towards her, he looked ill and she saw him wipe his mouth with the back of his sleeve.

" Why would she want you ? You have a soul now. Your different."

Spike looked at her solemnly.

" Souls can be taken. You know that better than anyone."

Buffy didn't know what to say to that. An awkward silence fell upon them.

" Spike what would Drusila want with Dawn ?"

Spike rose a hand and touched her face.

" To get me back. It would get to you, I love you and she knows I'll come with you. She plans to take me back.

Buffy I have to kill her and even without my soul I still love you, even if you never believed me.

But if things go wrong get Dawn, get Dawn and get the hell out of there."

Buffy punched him in the face.

Spike groaned and lifted a hand to his face.

" I am not leaving you to die Spike. Let's get the rest of the gang and then put Drusila where she belongs."

Spike nodded and tried to hide his face but Buffy caught his look.

" You love her ?"

Spike looked up, sadness but bravery shining in his eyes.

" She saved me from my very poor existence. Buffy I was planning on spending eternity with her.

I'll always love her.

But I love you Buffy, your the best thing that happened to me, I've given you everything. Even my un-dead life. I love you and I love Dawn, and if the only way you and Dawn can be safe is if I kill Drusila then so be it. I love you Buffy."

Buffy kissed him softly then pulled back slightly.

" I've been a monster to you.

I've told you you can't love, I've used you and hurt you. But when you left, when Willow went mad and I went to your lair to drop off Dawn I missed you so much.

Even after what you tried to do I missed you. I knew you loved me, and deep inside I loved you too. But I couldn't let myself be with you, not when you didn't have a soul. Now you do and I've seen the real you and I love you."

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