After you'd gone

Name : After you'd gone

Author : Lisi the slayer

Genre :Romance/Angst

Summery:

Spike sacrificed himself to close the Hellmouth over Sunnydale once and for all. Year on and Buffy is still distraught and beats her self up about how she never told him how she felt. But now he's back, back from the dead, determined to get his life back he sets out in search of Buffy, but how will Buffy react when she's see him and will she accept him into her life again ?

Pairings- Buffy/Spike

Spike

Buffy kicked the door open, Spike came in from behind her. The rest of the gang checking the upstairs.

" Style hadn't changed a bit, Dru always did go for the old Medieval, although -"

Spike cut off and walked up to a revolting looking statue. He touched the stone and his brows creased.

" Although, this little war statue that was always Angelus' style."

" Glad you remember me Spike."

Spike turned around and an arrow shot into his chest, Spike howled and fell to the ground, Buffy ran to his side. She yanked the arrow out and looked at the tip, it was green.

" Poison ?"

Angelus smiled and smoothed his hair back,

" What else is there Buffy ?"

The arrow fell from Buffy's grip and she looked at Spike. He was unconscious, his forehead hot and clammy and very sweaty. Then everything went black.

When she woke a badly beaten up and bloodied Spike lay at her feet. The chains rattled as she tried to move her arms down to him, she was chained to a wall. Buffy groaned with frustration.

" SPIKE !"

" He can't hear you Buffy, why do you even care ? He's your mortal enemy, your arch nemesis."

Buffy looked up and saw Angelus walking towards her, holding a sword.

" Not anymore. He is not my enemy anymore."

Angelus stopped where he was for a moment.

" Poor bugger then, got no fucking clue."

" No clue about what Angel ?"

Angelus growled, clearly annoyed.

" Would you stop calling me that ! I am not Angel, I'm Angelus."

Buffy looked at him confused.

" Your soul, you had a soul. What happened to your soul ?"

Angelus smirked darkly.

" Got rid of it. "

he paused, his face softening till he looked at Buffy the way Angel did. And when he continued his voice was smooth and deep.

" It was the only way Buffy, the only way to get rid of the pain. The pain that burned me everyday, then you sent me that ring and I thought a stake would be kinder.

But you stopped me, you risked your life to safe me and I wasn't going to ruin your sacrifice. Instead one night I went to a bar, met a beautiful women got drunk had a night of passion and then BANG !"

He paused and smile lit upon his features, a smile which widened as he heard an unconscious Spike moan.

" BANG ! All that pain gone. Gone in an instant. I felt new, refreshed and suddenly I didn't care if you lived or died.

Then I heard from Drusila, brought back memories that did."

Angelus looked down at Spike at that point.

" Memories, my own gang, Drusila, and my love who sired me and of course Spike.

Bitter rivals, William the Bloody and I rivaled over everything, Slayers, kills even women we could attract, before the kill of course.

Even then we rivaled, just how much blood we could drink before they died, never won that one Spike knew actually how much he could take, how to damage them."

Angelus grinned warmly at unconscious Spike, like he was meeting a dear friend.

" But when all was said and done, when we came under attack we teamed together. We teamed up and we always came up top. No one could beat Spike, built himself quite a reputation William the Bloody, some places you just had to say the name William and the women would scream in fright.

Made things difficult mind you, difficult to hunt, to carry out the perfect hunt. But oh I was impressed and he knew. Spike and I we could have gone far. Me, Spike and Dru."

Angelus then moved up and looked at Buffy.

" Then I got cursed, Angel goes goody goody falls in love with you and suddenly I come back and Spike's turned against me. Poor bugger, i'm telling you falling in love with you, it's a new torture."

Spike moaned again and his eyes slowly opened. He saw nothing but darkness at first then he heard a voice.

" Looks like sleeping beauty coming back to us Buffy."

That voice, I know that voice Angel, or Angelus.

Then suddenly everything came into view. Spike looked up and saw Buffy chained to the wall. He gritted his teeth and growled as he forced himself up.

" Always could take good beating Spike."

Spike growled at Angelus and began to advance, Angelus pushed him back.

" Someone else wants you Spike, I'm thinking me and Buffy could do some catching up time. Someone misses you Spike. Misses you terribly."

Spike looked over Angelus shoulder and Drusila moved towards him.

" William, you've been lost, a lost little lamb, all lost and alone. Hiding from the big bad wolf, it's ok little lamb you don't have to hide anymore."

Her baby voice echoing around the stone walls.

Spike felt all the fight leave his body, his heart aching at the thought of having to kill her.

" Buffy doesn't love you dear, I've given you everything, look at what the Slayer's done to you. You got a soul again. She'd turn you human if she could. That's not you Spike."

Spike went to move closer to Drusila when Angelus groaned in pain as Buffy kicked him between the legs.

Seeing his chance Spike picked up the rusty axe and axed Buffy free from the chains. Buffy leapt into action kicking Angelus down, Buffy dealt the fatal blow and Angelus turned to dust.

Drusila let out a furious scream and charged at Spike, Spike took Buffy's stake and charged at her. He hit the spot, then felt something stab him.

" Your coming with me William."

Spike touched her cheek, his face soft and sad.

" Sorry luv, you missed."

He yanked out the stake and as a tear trailed down Drusila's face she turned to dust.

Spike felt all his energy leave him and he collapsed on to his back. Buffy screamed when she saw the knife in Spike's chest.

Buffy ran to his side and put her hands on the handle of the knife.

" On three, One-"

"ARRGH !"

" Sorry Spike."

Spike shook his head and placed her hand over the wound.

" Vampire remember, I'll be fine."

Buffy squeezed his hand.

" We have to get Dawn, there's that teenage Vampire you dreamt about."

Spike nodded and with Buffy's help he got on his feet.

" I'll try to reach her, see if she can get to us."

Buffy nodded.

Niblet, it's me Spike, Can you come to us ? Can you come downstairs

The door creaked open and a teary Dawn entered the basement.

" Already here Spike."

Spike smiled warmly and looked at Dawn with deep compassion.

" You were right Spike. Time to lay off Vampires. From now on i'm only going to be attracted to the normal guy."

Spike chuckled.

" Yeah well, you Summer women can't resist us Dark Vampires. Can't resist the mystery."

Willow and Xander entered the room holding a stake.

" I've had enough for now, let's start the walk back home."

Spike shook his head and he fell to his knees. Buffy rushed to his side.

" Don't think I can make it Red, Dru didn't make the mark but it was a deep shot."

Willow just smiled and then the world turned around them and suddenly they were in Buffy's living room. Spike fell from his knees to the carpet unconscious, whilst everyone but Willow fell to the ground onto their knees. Willow smiled sheepishly.

" Sorry, the journey can be pretty intense especially if your already injured."

Buffy gently touched Spike's forehead.

" What happened to Dawn's Vampire ?"

Willow looked at Dawn sorrowfully.

" He's staked."

Buffy nodded and grunting she lifted Spike up, she turned to Willow and Xander.

" Look after Dawn."

Xander nodded and grinned.

" Of course."

Taking deep breaths, still worn out from Willow's transportation spell she carried Spike to her bedroom and realised something.

Angelus had been right when he had told her she treated her loved ones badly, she touched her neck and realised there was a step she had to take.

A step to show Spike she really did love and trust him now. All she needed was Willow's help. Her hand closing over the ring she had taken in battle from Angelus.

Spike woke much later on and he muttered her name, Buffy leaned over him and pushed her hair over her shoulder.

" I never showed you how much I trust you Spike. Bite me. I trust you."

Spike sat up slowly and looked deeply into Buffy's eyes.

" Spike I never want to leave you, I don't want to grow old with you. Willow's a powerful witch."

And as if on cue Willow opened the door holding the ring Spike had been digging for years before.

" I can restore her soul and I can make an exact copy of this ring. Your spend an eternity with eachother. If this is what you want then I'll help but Buffy there's no going back."

Buffy smiled and moved her neck closer to Spike.

" I don't want to go back. Turn me."

Spike didn't know what to say, it was what he had dreamed of her saying. He never thought she'd trust him so much. He kissed the side of her face and turned his face to Vampire mode.

" It'll only hurt for a moment Pet."

Then he sunk his fangs into Buffy's neck, Buffy's eyes widened and she gasped, but then her face changed and a look of pleasure filled her features, Spike pulled back and dragged a nail along his own neck, Buffy looked at him, her face heavy with lust and desire and she turned around and drank from his neck. Sucking more and more until she died.

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