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Chapter 20

Beside You

"Alexander Lightwood, you open this damn door right now!" Alec got to his feet and stood there momentarily confused. "I know you're in there!" The familiar voice came again.

It couldn't be, the boy thought as he made the short journey to the door. He had longed and dreamed of the day to hear that voice again, of course, not so angry.

He hesitated before opening the door. Standing before him was a man with gold green eyes burning with anger, mouth pressed together in frustration, and arms crossed over his chest in defense was Magnus Bane. He was wearing a simple white shirt, leather jacket and a grey scarf circling around his shoulders. Without warning, Magnus pushed passed Alec and stormed into the little apartment. Alec closed the door but didn't move. He stared at Magnus for the longest time, unable to process his entity. How was this possible, how could he be here in France? It all seems so, dramatic, unreal, and fictive. He shook his head telling himself that Magnus wasn't supposed to be here. He wasn't supposed to follow him.

"Magnus, what are you doing here?" Alec demanded.

"Oh, I don't know, I came to France because I wanted to see the Eifel Tower," He said his tone dripping with sarcasm. "Why do you think I'm here Alexander?" Magnus said throwing his hands in the air in exasperation.

"Fine, how did you find me?"

"How do you think I found you the first time?" It took less then a second for Alec to figure that out.

"God, Isabelle," He exclaimed clawing the air. He was going to kill her. Alec rubbed his hands over his face in a gesture of frustration and looked at Magnus. "Why are you here?" He asked again.

"I'm here because I'm pissed at you. I'm here because you left me without a word. I've waited days Alec, days, for you to come and talk to me." He said coldly. "We could have talked it out Alec, we needed to talk but you avoided me instead." Magnus shook his head. "Scratch that, you didn't just avoid me ran away from me all together!"

"I-I didn't-" Alec started but Magnus cut him off with a wave of his hand.
"If you have something to say to me Alexander, you say it to my face! Not in some... Some... Bull shit letter!" He cried pulling out the letter from the inside jacket and slapped it onto the table. Alec stared at the letter remembering well how much it hurt him to write it. He remembered wasting countless papers trying to write the right one; though the one he had sent wasn't any better. He ducked his head hiding his pink cheeks. He felt his heart beat with confusion and his mind went blank.

"I have nothing to say, it's all there!" He said pointing to the letter.
"I don't give a crap about it! I want to hear it from YOU! I want to hear YOU say it's over; I want YOU to tell me it was all a mistake!" Magnus snapped. Alec drew in a sharp breath. Nothing came out because he knew that deep down everything in that letter was a lie and that, that was the last thing he wanted to do. He couldn't possibly say it was over. "Answer me!" Magnus shouted, causing Alec to jolt.

There was a time when he would have surrendered to his words, answered his demands, but it was out of love and affection. Now, he was forced to say the one thing he couldn't and he looked away in shame. Suddenly, there came a sharp pain as nails dug into his chin and he was forced to look up into those piercing gold-green eyes. He hadn't seen Magnus stride the few inches between them. "Alexander, you can lie in a letter, you can speak lies, but your eyes can never lie." Magnus hissed. "So you will NOT look away from me this time; no, you look at me and tell me!" Alec shook with fear, hurt and guilt. Feelings of anger, loneliness, and confusion raced across his mind and boiled over.

"Yes! Yes it's over! Everything was a mistake!" He cried flaring his hands in the air. Magnus continued to stare at the blue eyes boy in disbelief.
"You're lying" The older man said. Alec clenched his jaw.
"No, I'm not." He gritted.
"Yes, you are Alexander. This letter merely serves as a shield for what you really feel." Alec could hear his voice shaking and when he looked deeper into Magnus's eyes, they were shining, tears collecting in the corner. He felt a peg of guilt twist in his heart.

"Say what you want Magnus, believe what you want, but it's over." Alec said trying to make voice cold and distant. Magnus closed his eyes and released the boy. He took a step back and began pacing back and forth trying to gather his thoughts. He could- would not be aggressive, or else he would be like his father. He came after Alec to prove he was not his father. After a while, spoke.

"Look, I know your scared Alec; I know you're hurting." Magnus said walking back to the boy taking his hands. Alec's gasped at the sudden touch and his heart jumped as a rush nostalgia coursed through his veins. "But I don't care about our status, none of that means anything to me and you know that. So I have to ask you, are you afraid of me?"
"It's not that!" Alec blurted out ripping his hand away. "It's not always that simple!" He said running his hands through his hair in irritation.
"Then talk to me. Tell me what you're feeling; tell me what's on your mind. I have to know or else I won't know what to change." Magnus begged. Alec felt like he was on the verge of falling off a cliff again. Never in his life was he forced to expose his feelings; reveal himself. For the longest time, he had hidden his thoughts, his disappointments his anger and disappointment. Alec had never lashed out, never snapped but being with Magnus changed every characteristic he had. He lost his temper, his patients quicker and he never felt so perplexed in his life. He became candid and that scared him. He was scared of getting hurt or saying the wrong things. He just wanted to forget, not resolve the problems. He looked at Magnus with pleading eyes that said don't make me say it.

"Alec," Magnus said firmly determined not to let it go. Alec sighed in defeat.

"I- I'm not so much afraid of you as I am of your father. Magnus the things that he did; the kind of person he is, I… I don't feel safe. Can I trust you?" Magnus shook his head in desperation.

"I'm done with him. I broke every tie I had with my father. I promise it's all over." He took a step forward, but Alec coiled away.

"No Magnus. I don't deserve you." He said holding up his hand in defense.

"What do you mean you don't deserve me?" Magnus blinked. He could hear his father's deep controlled voice the back of his head telling him it was he who didn't deserve Alec. It was almost comical in twisted way.

Alec gave an irritated cry and shouted, "I can't be with you. I can never be good enough for you."

"And who's telling you can't be with me?" Alec opened his mouth to answer but Magnus wasn't finished. "No one; the only person getting in the way is you. You think you're so damn poor that you won't allow yourself to love." The words hit Alec like a slap in the face and he covered his face in shame knowing Magnus was right. He could feel the tears drip onto the palm of his hands. Magnus approached the boy and tried to pull his hands away from his face, but Alec resisted. "Alec, my father, Camille, or anyone for that matter has no right to say we can't be together. Yes, there may be people who are going to judge us and hate it, they're going to find it wrong, disgusting but those things don't matter to me. What matters are you and me and how we feel about each other." Magnus yanked Alec's hand away bearing his tearful face. "Tell me; tell me how you really feel about me, please." Alec shook his head and hiccupped as the sobs rose from within.

"I- I tried to forget you. I tried to leave you in the past but I can't. I can't because… I love you and I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do with my life without you okay! You, Magnus, you gave me a reason to live! Before, I didn't know what I wanted to do or who I wanted to be. I don't know how and I sure as hell don't know why but that's how you make me feel. I- I'm completely useless; I can't think and I don't know what I'm supposed to do next." Alec cried. Magnus's expression became open with vulnerability, compassion and relief.

"And I, you." Magnus started gently. "I feel every bit the same way. You are so much more to me than a simple fling. You are different because of who you are. You're not poor Alexander, you are rich; richer than I ever was and will be. You're rich in spirit, in patients, in forgiveness and love. What I mean is you do so much and ask for so little and I wish there was a way I could give you something without you thinking it's an act of charity. I'm not a reward for your good deeds; I'm a person just like you." Magnus approached the boy closing the distance between them and this time, Alec stayed where he was. "You're not earning me Alec. I'm here on my own account because if I didn't want you, I wouldn't be here right now. But Alec, I really need you because only you can see the real me; only you see what I truly am behind my makeup and glitter-" To his surprise, Alec choked a laugh through his tears and he couldn't help but smile. "Deep down, you know just how broken I am." Alec watched in amazement as the beautiful, richest man of Brooklyn, cried before his very eyes. "I'm scared Alec," Magnus whispered taking the last step forward closing the gap between them and leaned his forehead against Alec's. "I've never loved anyone as much as I love you and I don't want to lose you. So let's not run anymore. Let's not run from our fears but let's face them together. Let's not run from the love we have and instead embrace it, cherish it and nurture it. What do you say?" There was a long silence as the two locked eyes with each other contemplating what to do next. The past few weeks were miserable and unbearable for Alec but now, just like a fairy tale, he was here. Alec threw his arms around Magnus and held him close.

"I'd like that" He whispered his cheeks bright pink and his eyes watery. Magnus looked up and thanked the Lord. He pulled back slightly and leaned forward brushing his lips across Alec's. The boy gasped and Magnus pulled back and stared at his blue eyed lover. Then they knew; they knew exactly how badly they need each other, how they needed to touch, to feel each other again.

It was like a wave of emotion crashing into Alec when Magnus pushed him against the wall and kissed him. It was like being claimed again; the heat the rush and the passion. Magnus slipped his hand around and under Alec's shirt and ran his hand around his waist. Alec closed his eyes wrapping his arms around Magnus, his body wanting him more than ever.

How many nights did he lie awake his body aching and burning with the phantom feelings of where Magnus had touched him? But now those thoughts didn't matter anymore.

Magnus pressed his body closer and Alec gasped at the feeling of Magnus's erection hotly rubbing against his inner thigh and it sent a thrill of excitement through him. He let out a faint moan of loss as Magnus's kisses trailed away from his lips and down to his neck. He nipped it with dominating hunger. Magnus' finger grasped the material of Alec's dress shirt and ripped opened the buttons revealing his pale skin. As Magnus slid his hands up Alec's chest, he noted with interest that his skin was cool under his hot hands and he could feel goose bumps under his fingertips. His fingers came around Alec's nipple and he gave it harsh a squeeze causing the younger boy to jerk in response. Magnus bent down and took in Alec's nipple in his mouth and tugged lightly at with his teeth. Alec ran a hand through Magnus's hair in encouragement and in doing so took out some of the gel. The older man darted to the other side giving it the same treatment and care.

It wasn't enough; he wanted- no he need more.

Magnus straightened up and braced his hands on either side of the wall; Alec caged in and kissed him. He parted his lip prying Alec's lip open in which he obliged. Magnus's mouth exploded with saliva and his tongue darted out wanted to taste more. The two fought for dominance their tongue colliding with each other, rubbing, biting, pulling and nipping but eventually Alec gave in and a deep growl of victory rose in the back of Magnus's throat. He took in Alec's lower lip and rolled it between his teeth and bit down hard causing Alec to gasp in pain. Blood seeped from his lip and Magnus was quick to tender to it by sucking on the metallic taste. Without warning Magnus cupped Alec's jeans and the boy let out a short cry in his mouth. Magnus pulled away slightly to look at the little boy. His blue electric eyes were wide with eagerness.
"It's okay," he whispered. "It's okay Magnus," he said again and bucked his hip against Magnus's grasp. A grin tugged at the corner of Magnus's lips and he began rubbing slowly. Alec moaned and the man pressed his lips over the other boy silencing his plea.

Still, it wasn't enough.

His body became agitated and he desired Alec under him. Magnus pulled away, grabbed Alec's arms and shoved him into another room, which he guessed was Alec's bedroom, while still kissing him. Magnus shrugged off his shirt and pulled of Alec's as they made their way to the bed. Magnus brought Alec down on the bed and crawled on top of him and aliened himself on him; leg's tangled between each other, his hip right above his own, and his muscled abs over his abdomen. Alec wrapped his hands around his partner's back and pressed his chest against his and he arched his back enhancing the spot where there lower bodies touched.

This was going way too fast.

Magnus gasped pulling away for air. He took a moment to collect his thoughts, to contain his hunger. If Alec was truly his, then he'd have to confess it. He'd have to hear it out loud. Magnus's hands trailed down to Alec navel and tugged on Alec's pants undoing the button and zipper. Alec arched his back as Magnus slipped off his pants leaving him bare in his black boxers. Magnus ran his hand around his lower body feeling the tight muscles quiver to his touch. With his thump he made little taunting circles around Alec's waist band.

"Magnus," Alec pleaded grabbing his wrist and trying to force it down but Magnus resisted.

"What do you want?" Magnus asked huskily. Alec bit his lip and tugged at his partner's hand again but still Magnus didn't budge. "No Alec, tell me." Alec whimpered and shook his head. Magnus slowly pushed his hand lower, his hand was just under the waistband and Alec caved.

"Magnus, Please. I need you now!" Alec panted the tears coming hot at the corner of his eyes. The man hissed in triumph and brought his hand all the way down. Alec threw his head back and gave a loud cry as his lover's hot hands cupped his aching, sensitive penis. His body physically shaking from trying to hold onto reality as Magnus chafed back and forth. Alec moaned his stomach churning with excitement and pain. He felt his world slipping away from under him and he was tossed in frenzy storm. He squeezed his eyes shut as the other man began rubbing faster. He breathed out heavily forcing himself to relax, to feel Magnus's hand around him, to feel their bodies pressed together, to feel the passion and control in Magnus's voice.

Magnus remembered being with Camille and how it felt like he was descending into the ocean but with Alec, it was like starting from the bottom of the darkest depths of the ocean and rising upward. There was that feeling of being blindsided by the darkness, having to feel their way through love not knowing what's next. But being with Alec, the passion increased intensely that it almost becomes unbearable and they have to hold on tighter to each other or else it would be over.

"Magnus I-I can't-" Alec whimpered restraining against his hold. He couldn't lie still anymore. He became restless because the heat, the obsession and the adrenalin was driving him over the edge; driving him to insanity and he began to resist. Alec's head throbbed from the turmoil he was being thrown in, his heart pounded faster with every touch and kiss that it was on the verge of shattering into a million pieces and he shook his head in fear, the tears hot in his eyes. He tried to sit up; to run; to end it but Magnus quickly pinned him back down.

"We can do it Alexander, trust me, please," Magnus whispered his hand stroking Alec's damp black hair away from his burning blue eyes. "Love, love is such a beautiful thing." Magnus spoke gently. "Every time I'm with you like this, it's like doing it for the very first time." Alec looked up at his lover with vulnerability and affection. "Only you Alexander, only you can-and have given me this sense of rush. So please, don't hold back but give me everything." Magnus pleaded eagerly. Alec grunted and threw his head back no longer able to suppress his emotions and gave a cry of pain as Magnus pressed himself closer, deeper into the boy.
"Please-" Alec gasped unable to get out the rest. Please what? Stop this madness? Please continue this unbearable torture? The feelings Alec felt had never been so right, so perfect that it hurt but his vision becomes clearer and he begin to see what he truly want.

Their bodies twist and intertwine together - becoming one body, one soul rising toward the heavens.

Alec could feel the beating of his heart pound against the beating of his lover; the heat in their veins grew hotter until it burst through the surface of their skin and the two become undone.
They lay side by side, panting hard trying to catch their breaths. Eyes locked, green-gold on blue. Magnus ran the back of his hand gently across Alec's pink cheek and leaned forward his lips pressing against Alec's.

"I love you."

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