A/N Here it is the 14th Chapter! Thanks for staying by this fic and for all the lovely feedback it really means a lot! I shan't be updating for the next 2 weeks because I am going away (with no wifi someone save me) but I thought it'd be nice to tell you!

Chapter 14

Happy For You

DAN'S POV

Everything that just happened still hasn't quite locked together in my mind yet. That Kiss – Where did that come from? I had never done anything like that in my life – what I did was definitely not me, but either way I'm glad I did.

Maddy is still next to me on this bench, and she is leaning her head on my shoulder, my hand still clasped around hers, as she has her eyes shut and hair pushed over her face.

I sigh, everything seeming so perfect – then it daunts on me, does this mean I have a girlfriend? That, that Maddy is in a relationship, with me?

After weeks of shutting my emotions away, pulling them back, scared of the reaction, of her, Phil, and well, everyone else – what caused me to just put myself out there?

I tell myself it was just the moment, it just felt right, but even though it still nags in the back of my mind, I let the overwhelming sense of euphoria take over me.

Gently turning my head I see Maddy, actually asleep on my shoulder, though I can't imagine the bench is that comfy, she seems content – I turn my attention back to the bottom of the Hill, I have no idea how long it's been, but I haven't seen Phil in a while.

He's not with that person I saw him with earlier by the Lemurs, and I can't see him anywhere within my view.

Sliding my Phone out of my pocket, carefully as to not disturb Maddy, I see the time is a little past 8pm, this has been such a long day. Texting Phil;

'Where are you? It's been a while'

I realise maybe he went off with the person, probably a girl, so I should be happy for him, but he could have at least texted me first.

As I shove it back into the pocket, I stir Maddy and she wakes up quite suddenly, as if she's been in a long dream.

'Oh!' She looks puzzled at why her face was stuck on my shoulder and jolts up 'I'm Sorry – What- What?'

It takes a second for her to register, looking around for answers somewhere floating in the air, then locks on my face, I simply smile back, waiting for her to click.

She tilts her head at me, then 'oh, oh god that's right'

I laugh back at her, making her chuckle as well, shaking her head at me, only then do I realise that she is no longer holding hands with me, as she pulls her hands through her hair shaking it out.

The tender moment we shared leaves an imprint of her touch on my hand, and even though we kissed, a more special action that anything, having her connected to me forms a bond I just want to reform again.

Suddenly my phone buzzes, a text from Phil. I look down at it, and it's a one word reply,

'Home'

What?

Phil – Phil is at Home? I thought we were going to see the bats and the evening show, why is he home so early I don't understand...

Before I can think anything else, another message from him,

'I'm Happy for you'

His response confuses me, how does he know about – does he even? What is he referring to; I swear he can't know – can he?

The puzzled look on my face must give this away, as Maddy snaps me back to where we are,

'Dan what's wrong? Where's Phil I can't see him anywhere'

'He's, he's at home?' I ask her and myself, with no idea what to do,

'What? Why? How did he even get home so fast?' She seems as confused as me right now, turning to me she continues, gesturing to my phone, 'What time is it anyway?'

'A little past 8, and I have no idea, really, we should leave' I speak as I try to stand up, making my way down the hill.

Hastily following me Maddy catches up, 'What are we leaving right now? Okay – but, but do you think he saw us?'

Maddy's got it. I bet he did. Oh Phil.

I'm Sorry.

Am I?

'But what if he did?' We are walking and talking right now, making out way through the dimly lit wide pathway leading to the exit. 'I don't understand, he knew-'

I abruptly stop in my tracks, recalling that I only really just professed my love for Maddy like an Hour ago- and now she's going to find out this obsession I've had with her – oh god.

'Knew what Dan?' She asks the question.

'Uhh' I swivel round, wide eyed, 'just, well, just that I didn't think he would have a problem with us basically'

'Oh' She takes in a breath and purses her lips, unexpectedly she actually walks faster, turning back to me and says 'well you know Phil better than me – he either gave us space, or, or you know, he's sensitive' She shrugs and I know exactly what she means.

The fiasco with that bitch earlier merged with this, I can't even imagine the conflict he must be dealing with right now.

However, her first point may be right, he's understanding, right? He knew, and seemed so cool with it all- I can only guess until I get home and actually talk to him.

xxxx

After the reverse of the journey we took earlier, we reach Maddy's floor, she steps out the lift, nodding delicately at me and smiling, I try to smile back, it's only the right thing to do after such a truly amazing night, but my concern for Phil may never be replaced by this.

'See you soon' I call to her, as she proceeds down the corridor,

'Yeah, see you tomorrow' she responds, yeah, tomorrow is definitely good too.

The lift takes my back up; I use the mirrored walls to fix my hair, how I always stupidly do if I'm worried or something.

Finally reaching our flat door, I take a deep breath and turn the key. Expecting some crumpled version of Phil again, I am pleasantly surprised as I walk in on Phil playfully sitting crossed legged on the lounge chair, rapidly typing on his phone with a goofy smile.

My concerns are lifted from my shoulders, and I make a big smile, joking 'Phil what are you doing? Why did you le-'

He cuts me off – 'ssSHHH!'

'What? Why? It's texting not a phone call!' I am curious so sit down by him peering at his Phone, I see an unfamiliar name of 'Freyja' as the recipient.

'Just' He doesn't look up at me, still furiously texting and laughing to himself at the same time,

'Who are you even texting?' He finally puts his Phone down and looks up, the full force of a beaming smile faced at me.

'Freyja, I met her at the zoo'

Still really confused I reside to questioning him on this later, 'ah okay, but why did you leave so early, and those texts they seemed a bit – un-Phil'

'Oh those, well, that was like before, well, basically I saw you and Maddy, holding hands on the bench and –' He's talking slower again, but not the sad Phil I knew earlier, more of a cheerful, but just a careful speaking Phil, 'I wanted to leave you to it, I know how much she means to you, and yeah I felt a little bad I guess, but then Freyja texted me and now I'm happy I guess, she's great'

He kind of babbled the last bit, but now at least I am happy for him, and apparently him for me, wow I can't believe things are going alright now.

'Okay well, she seems nice and at least you're all okay, you know, since this morning-'

'Oh yeah I'm totally fine since then now' He goes back to looking at his Phone again 'Thanks'

'Oh god! I realised we're supposed to be filming today!' I suddenly remember and feel slightly stupid, having not filmed anything in a few hours...

'It'll be fine, we have loads from the Zoo and let's just film making Dinner or something' Phil replies,

'Yeah fine I guess that'll, see you in a bit for that then' I walk out the room getting a little acknowledgeable nod from Phil, and go into my room, flopping on my bed, content, I let the thoughts from earlier with Maddy fill my head again, leaving me happy just wanting her touch again.

xxxx

MADDY'S POV

Still ecstatic from, well everything that happened, even after ages to get over it, I still can't push away the feeling of wanting to see Dan again.

Its Sunday again now, the week has gone by too quickly, yet so much has happened it somehow feels like an eternity.

Dan's been texting me and popping in over the past few days, just little things, he's explained he's been a tad busy with editing the video and such, which I'm fine with as he said that Monday we can do something, and I should meet with them today - for real this time – to discuss what I will actually have to do for this darn job!

So I am having another lazy day, exchanging texts with Dan in the meantime until we meet, we end up bringing up the topic of what being on youtube is like.

Maddy – 'So how do you just talk to a camera and get a million views?'

Dan – 'Honestly I don't know anymore I just do'

Dan – 'Maybe if you were to watch them you would know'

Dan – 'Wait don't do that, or do, whatever I guess you will anyway'

Stupidly it hadn't crossed my mind. It would be the obvious thing to do, right? What kind of a friend am I if I don't even know how they actually spend their life?

Maddy – 'Okay good idea... maybe I will ;)'

Dan – 'Go ahead'

Dan – 'WAIT start with the latest, you don't have to touch 2009 me, honestly'

Really Dan? Now I'll just be curious you idiot!

Maddy – 'Now I want to! You really are not good at reverse psychology'

I put the Phone down on the table and grab my laptop, searching in youtube 'Dan Howell' betting on that it will show up with something.

Sure enough, his channel, 'Danisnotonfire' is the first result, clicking on it I subscribe, a fat load that'll do me now I'll have a personal reminder of videos from him himself let alone a machine – but either way I go onto his video list.

My Phone buzzes again;

Maddy – 'Going now, last chance'

Dan – 'Go on I don't care'

Maddy – 'Are you sure?'

Dan – 'um, actually, let me recommend you not watching the Tumblr tag first, go watch another one, just NOT THAT ONE'

Maddy – 'Am I missing something? Why? O.o'

Dan – 'haha just don't.'

Seeing he is actually serious about this, I flick lower down his video list,

'Woa, got quite a collection here' I murmur to myself, seeing the extensive list and thumbnails of Dan's videos.

'How Not To Stay Cool'

'Dan & Phil vs. Tumblr'

'What Not To Do At The Beach'

I read a few video names and notice the jist is that he tells us mostly not what to do, and judging by what I know of Dan, this does make sense!

Following his advice I stay away from the Tumblr tag, knowing all too well the craziness and general awesomeness but potential 'other things' it holds, I completely understand. The first video that attracts me is his Draw My Life – It then dawns on me that I bet his fans know more about his life than I do. Oh.

I go ahead and click on it, half way through the video I do realise I know very little about his home life, but now I do and learn a lot about him I never knew before.

Before I can stop myself I find myself on a long journey of clicking through all his videos on the suggestion bar, one after the other, an hour or more passes by of me watching him, he's so funny and relatable, I realise now how he has almost 2 million fans.

He leaves me almost in hysterics at nearly every video, and that combined with me just staring at his beautiful face for a while leaves me in a brilliant mood.

I only get through about 17 or so... that's not too many is it? How do I find myself just lost in a Dan Video Marathon?

I only then realise my Phone has been buzzing a lot as I check on it again, um, I have 6 new texts from Dan, checking the time I see I have not responded for about 2 hours, aimlessly floating through youtube does actually take some time..

Dan – 'How you getting on there?'

Dan – 'Now I'm worried you're not replying '

Dan – 'Oh shit have I scared you'

Dan – 'Sorry if anyone has please reply now I'm scared'

Dan – 'Okay I'm hoping for the best now I hope you're just dead from my amazingness ok'

Dan – 'So yeah were you going to come into the studio to talk about the art this evening? :)'

Yeah I haven't actually replied to any of these and now I feel bad, oops. Instead of feeling too bad and making him wait any longer, I reply;

Maddy – 'Yeah sure, what time do you get there?'

It's like five –ish now, I've just wasted this day with sleep ins, tumble and youtube, I don't know about you but that sounds like a pretty good life to me.

He texts back really quickly, I like guys who do that, shows they care and aren't douches I guess.

Dan – 'It starts from 7 – 9 and we get there at like 6 or earlier, so pretty soon, we're going to leave soon anyway, you can meet us there if you want'

It sounds like a good Idea to just meet them there as I am in no way even publicly presentable right now in my slippers and hoodie, good look. So I reside to probably sneaking in the studio and talking to them afterwards.

Maddy – 'If I talk to you after the show is that okay? I mean you probably need time beforehand right?'

Dan – 'Yeah good idea we have to set up and stuff, see you then 3'

His little heart emoji makes my insides flutter, even though it's just a little typing it seems really sentimental coming from Dan especially.

Maddy – 'Okay will do!x'

Texting Dan seems so much more conclusive and easier to talk to him, even though I find him an open person to talk about anything, now I know a bit more about him through his videos, I think it's always been easier for me to type to people rather than actually talk.

Maybe we're all like that inside.

About 2 hours pass and it's 7, I guess if I leave now I'll get there for just before 8, good plan right?

Getting ready after somewhat procrastinating (New word!) away from even getting changed through Tumblr, I finally drag myself out the door of my flat.

Making the monotonous journey to the studios as I did all those weeks ago for my first interview, now when I enter these doors I will have a purpose and a newfound confidence in myself of even being there.

I push open the glass doors to the building and once again I'm met with the familiar surroundings of BBC Radio Studios, and all the bustling people walking around doing specific jobs.

Looking at the panel to the left of my I see the list of names and what show they do at what time in which studio, very helpful as I find the exact location of Dan and Phil in their studio.

Following the directions of the map and panel I find myself climbing a few stairs and wondering through some security areas using the key I was posted a few days earlier, and I finally reach a green lounge area with black sofas and a TV.

This is where it said they should be but I can't seem to see them any- oh wait! I spy the all too stereotypical green spotty shoulder of Dan's colourful shirt, and realise they are in the studio behind a glass wall to the right of this lounge area.

Poking my head through the door I catch Phil's eye and he smiles at me whilst talking into the mic, I'm just glad he's happy, I'll have to ask Dan what happened earlier.

Then Dan finally notices me and gestures me to come in, and I nod to him and the few other people in the studio, I stay quiet as Phil is talking about some kind of Owl Swarm City with 'Internet News' audio effects following what he says.

I sit down on a little black bench behind the audio desk out of the way of the cameras I see dotted around the studio, in a few of Dan's Videos I remember him mentioning that you can watch the Radio show online, and I expect his 2 million fans have all eyes on them live right now, kind of eerie really.

Dan smiles at me through the wires and microphones hanging over head every now and again as he continues with the show, I didn't think to listen to the first hour and a half as I have a brain, so I only catch the end of what they are saying in the show.

Strewn around the floor of the studio is a reminisce of some apocalyptic fight including base ball bats and hard boiled eggs – I don't want to know. Behind the boys is a somewhat hallucinogenic spiral digital screen covered in various fan arts people have sent in I suppose, with for a reason I cannot fathom, a Queen mask is In the middle with the colourful lights peeking through her eyes making it look psychedelic. I guess this wall might as well be Dan and Phil in a nutshell. Crazy and beautiful.

The show comes to a close with a satisfying song by Bastille accompanied by a music video someone sent in, and Dan walks around the desk to greet me, wrapping me in a big hug and a smile, before introducing the others to this mysterious girl who let herself into the studio.

I exchange hellos with Phil and then Dan says, 'Everyone this is Maddy, she's the graphics art person, yeah'

'Thanks, yeah just here to discuss some stuff' I reply to the few other people in the room.

I get a few 'Okay's and nods from them all, before Dan quickly takes me by the hand, and leads me out of the studio into the lounge as Phil follows behind. His touch to my hand fills me with a warm flush as we are connected again, and it just feels so right now.

We sit down on one of the chairs together and Phil sits opposite us, he does not question us holding hands, as I guess he has already cleared this all up with Dan beforehand?

'Soooo...' I start after a somewhat awkward silence,

'Yeah' Dan lets out a small cough, 'So you were hired here to do us some graphics art huh?'

'Yup' I give him a smile and he returns a knowing glance,

'I'm not sure what we want, just something that describes the show really' Phil interjects,

As Dan continues, 'Yeah, I mean the small snippet you heard probably isn't enough, but you can listen again on youtube and such' Dan pauses and I nod in reply – 'actually you know what this is way too formal, you know us, Phil likes lions, the internet is weird, do whatever you feel is right after doing whatever research you want to do'

'Great Dan that's brilliant advice' Phil jokily undercuts him,

'It is actually!'

'Well as you know I watched a few of your videos earlier today Dan, and by the way I laughed a lot, you are weird' My comment makes him blush a little which just makes me want to laugh in his face, after everything and how confident I have seen he can be, he still is deep down an awkward soul.

'Yeah, so just put that weirdness into your art I guess, it would help watching Phil's too' Dan continues,

'I will I promise, there's only so many hours in the day!' I look at Phil and he's smiling politely and laughs, understandingly, but I still feel as if there's something he's either hiding or something he wants to get back to.

'Well then this was fun, and probably could've been done earlier, but you know us I never get anything done' Dan concludes the conversation and starts to get up, turning to me and smiling, hinting for me to follow him I guess, so I stand as well, as he takes my hand again, making me flutter all over again.

We all get half way down a few floors heading outside when Dan stops in his tracks. 'Oh god'

'what?' I am curious and slightly concerned, then Phil realises too,

'Oh dam yeah'

'What is it?' I turn to them both, a quizzical look on my face.

'I forgot, people usually meet us after the studio, and we haven't introduced you yet, there will be a shit storm' Dan has genuine worry on his face at this moment.

'I mean you could exit earlier to us, but we usually take a while so if you don't mind waiting' I almost agree to Phil, but Dan cuts in,

'No I can't make Maddy do that, she wouldn't want to wait by herself when it's so dark anyway – they have to deal with it sometime anyway..' He seems to try and flatten the knot of dilemma out inside his head,

'Well I don't know what to do, let's just go down, there might now be that many people today'

'Okay fine' Dan says, I've just been sort of watching their conversation, not having anything to input I just go along with what they are going to do, unfamiliar with his fans I think it would be quite cool to meet them anyway.

'I wouldn't mind being with you, I'm sure they'll be fine, just people right?'

'haha.. yeah.. people' Dan jokes and raises his eyebrows in mock concern, 'maybe, I don't know some usually freak out, scare me sometimes too'

'Yeah they can be weird, they are really nice though, just see how it goes okay?' Phil talks as he proceeds out the corridor into the lobby with the glass front, walking with them I instantly see at least 6 girls suddenly freak out and jump up and down at the sight of Dan and Phil.

When Phil pushes open the door I can hear one screaming and flailing her arms about, fair enough, if I were to meet one of my idols I probably would act similarly anyway.

Stepping out Phil is bombarded with the first girl instantly wrapping him in a tight hug, being polite he hugs back, but before I can take my eyes off them too look back at Dan for some condolence to this sudden madness he has had to take his hand away from mine to do the same to another girl, almost in tears.

I hang in the background, standing behind Dan sometimes as they sign things, hug and get pictures taken, it's understandable, but every time Dan hugs another young girl a twinge of jealousy tweaks inside of me, I know it really shouldn't, it's so stupid, but it does.

Once they are all done, which is like after a good half hour of polite exchanges of chatting, they are finally ready to leave, and I notice that not once did they have to explain who I was, they are all completely understanding after all. At least I hope. I know what people are like on the internet, which is where most of these people seem to have come from.

We make our way back down the sheltered area in front of the building into the street and hail a cab, the journey back home if filled with interesting conversation very usual with us, and I had a generally good day, discovering more about the once mysterious boy I saw crammed into the same lift as me.

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