Disclaimer: I own nothing. One Tree Hill is not mine and neither is the song FOOLING YOURSELF by Eve 6

With Tragedy Comes Grief, Desperation, and Love

They Party Part 1: I Never Got So Nasty It Ended In Tears

Haley and Nathan had climbed in the car and headed back to the house. She rested her feet on the dashboard and began to write in what looked like a journal. After a few moments of silence Nathan realized Haley was unhappy with his music he then said something that even shocked him.

"Haley if you don't like the music I'll give you a one time get out of jail free card and put in your own music." Wait did that just come out of my mouth?

Oh cool uh thanks I guess.

She lifted her board with a broad smile creeping on her lips. She then pulled a tiny case from her bag and began to search through a pile of disks.

If you're doing it for yourself
And you don't care what they think
I can understand having a little fun
It really makes no difference to me

"Wow Hales, this isn't half bad. Who would have known your music didn't completely blow." Nathan laughed as he heard Haley scribble her comeback.

Ironic isn't it Nathan? I mean barely even trying and I can find a simple song to describe you. It's not the real you though it's the show you put on so no one can see the real you. I know the feeling all to well. By now they were sitting in there own driveway just listening to the music before heading to the party.


I don't care that you turned your back on me
I do care that you turned your back on you
turned your back on me

"Haley I don't put on an act okay? I am who I am. I don't do what I do for others I do it for myself. I love my life. I party every weekend, have a great girl, and someday I'm going to be in the NBA

Nathan you can fool everyone else with your speeches but I'm not buying it. I know just how scared you really are, it's nothing to be ashamed of we are all scared it's only human to be afraid. I've seen the way you interact with your dad, he reminds me of…never mind but nonetheless I know you're scared. Everyone else might believe it but I live with you, and as for "your girl" I don't see the pleasant relationship and love in her eyes that you do.


Something you'll never reach
Guess whose making it too far
Why can't you see
That being strung out for two weeks
Just to be with them is being
Someone you never wanted to be...

"I told you once I'm not acting! Allyson is great and it is everything we make it seem to be I promise you that. Just because you have been in my house a week doesn't mean you know everything about my family! Can we just drop this please? I'm trying to be nice here and all you are doing is insulting me!" Nathan's blood began to boil and his voice echoed loudly through the car.

I'm sorry Nathan I didn't mean to offend you. Had he not been so angry he would have realized how his outburst had affected Haley? To anyone else it was just mindless loud bantering but to her it put the fear she hoped to lose back in her eyes. Nathan had raised his voice to her which meant she had done something wrong, which back at home meant Haley would feel a blow to her cheek. She curled in a ball and hid her face afraid he might strike it.

Nathan was so furious that he just pulled off his safety belt and slid out of the driver's door. He didn't notice the fear in her eyes and he never suspected her to curl in a ball. He stormed off in to the house searching for the bar.

Haley tore her eyes from her face to realize Nathan had left the car. He didn't punish her maybe that way things were done at home really were wrong but who was she to tell. Her life was always blows to the stomach, twisted arms, pinched and bit up breasts, and slaps to her face. She picked herself up off the seat still a little nervous and headed for the party, she decided now would be a good time to feel the wrath of alcohol, even though she hated what it had made Mike into but that was more drugs then alcohol.

"Oh if it isn't little Miss I don't speak, so please pity me." An already clearly drunk Allyson muttered.

And if it isn't little Miss I'm with Nathan Scott so everyone take a bow and worship me, Queen of the bitches, to what do i owe this pleasure your majesty?

"Look you little…" Allyson was cut off when she saw Nathan appear.

"Hales Ally we are playing I never let's get to it. Oh Haley get a drink, I'll start the game and you will be able to catch on easily k?"

Haley just nodded and sipped her drink

"Okay I never…got caught having sex in a public place."

Brooke rose her glass as did Lucas and to everyone's surprise so did Haley. Although Haley took a swig of her drink no one noticed tears forming in her already glossed over brown eyes, that is no one but Nathan and maybe Allyson which started a whole new meaning of evil in her scheme.

"Alright I never had sex with something made of plastic." Tim beamed proudly as Brooke and yes-even Haley gulped down their drinks. Yet again Nathan noticed the water appearing in Haley's eyes.

"Okay okay my turn." Allyson said excitement dripping from her mouth. "I never had such a fucked up family that I intruded on other people's lives where I soon became to retarded to talk."

"Allyson!" Lucas yelled very pissed off.

"Al?" Nathan questioned with no sign of emotion.

"Well silent girl drink up…I mean you agreed to play the game where secrets are revealed and now that yours has been you better start chugging."

Tears formed in Haley's eyes now visible to everyone. She slowly lifted her cup and took one last swig…then flicked it sideways letting the remains of her drink soak into Allyson's white t-shirt. Haley then took off running for the stairs.

Lucas looked to Nathan who signaled for him to follow her. Knowing there was no time to argue it out with Nathan on this one he took off in the direction he had assumed Haley left in. Nathan glared at Allyson and pulled her into one of the many bathrooms.

"What the hell was that!" Nathan more yelled then questioned.

"It was a game of I never." Allyson stated in a 'duh' tone.

"I know what the fucking game is Allyson! I meant why the hell did you say that about Haley?"

"Why do you care, I was showing her just how un-welcome she really is. I did it for you. You are the one that said we would make it known she wasn't wanted. Unless you changed your mind and you actually want the charity case in your house? Or maybe you Nathan Scott is falling in love with her?"

"What? Al how could you think that? Of course I don't want her here and yeah I want her to feel un-welcome but not to that extent. What the hell is this about falling in love… you are my girl and you know that."

"Please Nathan we both know we are together for social standing only. We can play this whole in love bullshit out there and perfect couple card at school but who the fuck are you trying to kid? I don't love you. You don't love me! But if you so much as think of falling for the basket-case-emotional-melt down-silent-bob-character of Haley James your reputation will cease to exist."

"Well you didn't have to humiliate her?"

"Well how else will she know her place? We have to out her in it duh!"

"You do what you want, but if you ever treat her like that or bring her past into your torture schemes we will be over and I will bury your reputation 6 feet under."

"Fine but you just make sure she knows she isn't wanted."

"I will but in my own way, I want you to concentrate less on Haley and more on pleasing your boyfriend, girlfriend of mine."

"Oh I think I can go that." Allyson said pulling between where her legs hung off the counter sides