Firstly I have to comment on VD this week. The episode plot was good, anytime Lexi is up there keeping Stefan straight I find itout to be a good episode. But as usual they have to ruin it with that Elena and Damon sex scene, I was disgusted. Stefan's not gonna take her back once he finds out and by the look of episode 9 promo he is gonna find out. The end was bit strange though I mean I really hope Damon did the right thing and let her go because if not then we all know why there is this feuding rivilary between Stefan and Damon. But hope is not lost because I still believe in Stefan and Elena! But it's hard when they throw those sex scenes in there! They keep that up they will lose a viewer! Enough of my VD rant this week. Well Elena's gonna give birth soon, and you will love the name! Enjoy this chapter leave me comment! AND THANKS FOR READING AND LEAVING AMAZING COMMENTS YOU GUYS ARE SO SUPPORTIVE...

Chapter 12

Back in Mystic Falls, Elena had agreed to go and meet with the adoption counselors she had researched online. She had asked Jeremy not to tell anyone about what she told him because she wasn't sure yet but at the same time she had no one to talk to about this. Elena was getting pretty big she was almost seven months and her tummy was getting bigger. As she put on her clothes and tried to cover up what made her look bigger she breathed in heavy and wondered how the day was gonna go. As she walked downstairs she saw Alaric making her breakfast and walked into the kitchen. He was putting it on a plate on the table and told Elena "sit down and eat please", she smiled and placed her bag down pulled out the seat and sat down. On the plate were three pancakes with bacon, scrambled eggs and strawberries. She picked up her fork and look up at Alaric saying "thank you so much", as she took a big bite of pancake. While she ate Alaric sat and watched her and when she was about finished he began to talk:

Alaric: Soo! How are you feeling? Any morning sickness or anything?

Elena: Well not lately all that's pretty much gone! So I can eat anything I want, by the way this food is amazing.

Alaric: You're welcome! And I'm glad you're feeling okay. (As he watched her munching more) I talked toJeremy?

Elena: (at that moment dropped her bacon and began cleaning her hands with a napkin) Oh! So what did he have to say?

Alaric: He said you were having a hard time because you feel your going through this alone.

Elena: (rubs her stomach) I mean it's hard to do this by myself, and I really wish Stefan was here and I have hoping that he will come back but….

Alaric: But you can't really be sure that this is something he is willing to accept. (Looking into Elena's eyes)

Elena: I want this baby to grow up with two loving parents, he's human! He shouldn't have to live with a doppelganger mother, and a vampire father that he may or may not come back. I have all these issues in my life and what gives me the right to bring him into this world of chaotic supernatural craziness.

Alaric: Elena but what about me and Jeremy? We're human and we live in this supernatural disaster. So if that's your excuse, I think you need a better one.

Elena: (sighed) but you guys have rings!

Alaric: Elena be honest you can tell me!

Elena: (stood to her feet grabbing her bag and walked to the door and just as she was about to leave) you want honesty Ric. I miss Stefan! He's always been there for me and when I need him most he's gone. I can't help but blame myself because he left to protect me, I don't wanna raise this baby without him. And yea Damon's been great but he's not Stefan! I love him and some how this baby is part of him and this should be a happy time but it's not.

Alaric saw all the hurt in eyes and as she left he yelled out once more "Elena!" Elena got in her car and drove away, she was crying so hard that she could barely see the road; she stopped the car and heard the music playing (Adele-Turning Tables). Placing her head on the steering wheel she just let it all out and began to scream "aaaaah, no, no, noooo." She could see all the time her Stefan spent together, and she felt that it was too much, she put her head back and cried more. In her heart she could feel every touch, kiss, and hug and it made her feel worse. As the song ended she tried to pull herself together so that she could continue to drive because she was almost late to her appointment. She looked in the rearview mirror to clean her eyes and she breathed in saying "I want the best for you" and she put the car back in gear and drove.

It took about two hours for her get to the next State of Georgia, Elena knew that the adoption agency she wanted to handle her baby's adoption had to be out of state and prefer the parents be far and away from Mystic Falls. Arriving at the adoption agency Elena could see the place was very high end. She got out of her car and looked at the sign that read: Kinder heart Adoption Agency, she touched her stomach and proceeded inside. Once entering the building Elena saw poster on the wall of all kinds children spread out. She was happy to see that at least there was not racism in the adoption agency. She walked to the counter and the receptionist greeted her with a smile, she handed Elena a clipboard and she took a seat in he corner. She started to fill in the forms and when she got to some questions she was unsure how she should handle it so she left it blank. Soon, her name was called and she stood following the woman to back office, entering in the office she placed her bag down and took a seat. The woman sat in the seat across from Elena and she began to read the forms:

Woman: (flipping through the forms) Elena Faith Gilbert, Parents deceased, (mumbling) Father?

Elena: Ah yeah! Is that necessary because I'm just not so sure

Woman: Oh it's okay a lot of young mothers come here and aren't sure who the father is. (Clicks the pen and writes unknown) It does make it easier for the couples to know both parents background so that in case of it's medical for the future.

Elena: Oh I mean I've been completely healthy so I'm sure he's fine too.

Woman: And your having a baby boy, you're about?

Elena: almost seven months!

Woman: (Placing the papers on the table in front of her) okay! So what we have is some books here of potential parents, they like to send in letters and books with photos so that birth mothers can know where their baby is going.

Elena: (flipped the book open) and are these parents here in Georgia or are they far away?

Woman: Most are in different states, I think we even have a couple that lives in Belfast, Ireland.

Elena: Wow! So far!

Woman: Is that something you need closer. For that piece of mind, because we do have some potential parents that are willing to do open adoptions, where you can set up visits yearly and receive postcards and pictures with contact.

Elena: (shook her head no) No, no, if I do this I want him far away; I wouldn't be able to handle it knowing he was that close to me.

Woman: (didn't pressure, just shook her head) okay, okay! I suggest you look more at these books; they're parents that might be exactly what you're thinking about.

Elena seemed pleased with that and she picked up the books as the woman showed her the way out. Elena walked out of the office carrying the books and to the car. She placed he books on the passenger seat.

Arriving back home she took the books up to her room and sat on her bed going through all the possible families. One family she looked at was an older couple about in their forties. They had raised a one child and the wife had gotten a hysterectomy, after having her daughter so she couldn't have anymore children. They lived in Washington State, a rainy place and she was a nurse and he was a doctor. They always wanted more children but weren't able to have anymore. Their pictures showed them with their 17 year old daughter. She was very pretty; they had a Christmas photo that showed how they spend it. Elena was very intrigued by them but she worried for their age because she never wanted her baby to be alone. She kept looking through all the books until she came across one couple: The Andersons. Their picture is what drew her in they were Stefan and Elena in opposite of each other. Where Elena had dark hair and brown eyes, Mrs. Anderson had blond hair with green eyes. Mr. Anderson was different from Stefan too but a lot like Elena physically. He had dark brown hair with brown eyes, and both were very good-looking. She looked at the photo and had fallen in love. She opened the book and began to read the letter:

Dear Birth Mother:

We are Jessica and Mark Anderson and we are thrilled that you are considering us for potential parents for your child. We have always loved children but have been unable to have any of our own but, we are looking forward to meeting your little guy or girl. You probably want to know more about us ; I would like you to know that my husband and I are not the richest couple out there but we do okay. We're both twenty-seven years old we met in college and fell in love. I majored in music and dance, and I now am a teacher at a local high school. My husband majored in English and works at very prominent publishing company as a book editor. Even though we are young we have a lot of love, we're from Georgia but we both went to school at NYU and we found happiness in this big city and stayed. Most couples know exactly what gender they want boy or girl but we would love to have either. My husband loves baseball, and if we had a son he would teach him all he knew about baseball, we're big Yankee fans so he would he grow up going to all the games at Yankee Stadiums. I grew up dancing and majored in it so if we had a daughter she would be in ballet slippers from the time she can stand, and taking lessons from me to become a great dancer. Whatever we are blessed with we will let them become whatever their heart desires with help from us as parents. We hope that you choose the best home for the greatest gift and are sure that whoever you choose will be amazing parents. Thank you for listening to our story.

Elena turned the page to see more of their pictures which consisted of Mrs. Anderson with some of her students teaching, their graduation photo, their wedding picture, some family photos and a picture them two in Yankee jerseys with caps. It reminded Elena of her picture with Stefan where his arms are wrapped around her and their both laughing while he is whispering something in her ear. She smiled and a tear began to come to her eye. In that moment Elena was sure that if she gave away her son that this was the family she wanted him to go to because he would never feel he was adopted. Their appearance was of her and Stefan, they seemed to love each other unconditionally, and they had hopes and dreams for a child that they didn't have yet. But the last picture was what really settled her decision. Closing the book she lay back on her bed and looked up at the ceiling fan in her room saying "this is what's best for you." Lying in her bed she had fallen asleep but awoke to some noise of someone in her room. She sat up and looked around to see Damon sitting on the bed reading one of the books. He didn't look to happy, Elena started to speak but he cut her off.

Damon: You going through all this and will die and in the end you don't even want him

Elena: Damon, it's not like that. I haven't made a decision.

Damon: Seems to me you have (tossing the book to the ground)

Elena: It's not your decision; he's not your son.

Damon: But you're my responsibility. (Coming over to Elena) I promised, I promised to protect you.

Elena: You don't have to take care of me. If Stefan wants me safe he can come home and do it himself.

Damon: (as Elena walks away) I saw him you know! I've been trying to bring him home, but…..

Elena: (turns around) you what? Damon where is he? You have to tell me

Damon: You don't think I wanna tell you Elena! It's not that easy if you go looking for him you will end up dead or even worse a sacrifice or god knows what else.

Elena: Damon, you can't keep him from me, from us? He's the father and I love him.

Damon: (has the blank look on his face and takes a step back) I get it! Your right Elena, he's not my son. I'm not his father and in the end if you survive and wanna give him up then you do so. But right now my only concern is keeping you alive (grabbing her close) If I could do nothing but keep you safe and alive then for you Elena that's all I need.

Elena: (pulls closer to Damon and cries) I'm sorry, I'm so sorry! I'm scared and I hate feeling like I have no one.

Damon: (pulls back and places both hands on her cheeks) I'm here for you okay! I know I haven't been the most supportive but starting today! I'm here.

Elena: (touches his hands) thank you Damon. (Sniffling) They hug closely.