woowww sorry for the super long delay but I was on a holiday and stuff and urgh.. school.. funny fact about this chapter. I was actually in Central Park when writing this :)

another thing.. I don't feel really good about this one, it just seems wrong but let me know what you think anyways.

at least it's longer :)

xx

The fourth time I saw Regina I was nineteen and she was twenty-three.

"Neal" I scream to the bathroom door. No response. I sigh and knock while I scream his name once again. The water turns off and my boyfriend finally speaks up.

"What?" says his slightly annoyed voice.

"You said you were coming with me." I say, trying not to make my voice sound to hopeful.

"Oh yeah… I forgot to tell you, I can't come with you, I have some things to deal with."

I roll my eyes, I know exactly what he was talking about, because I know him. I met Neal a couple of months after the whole incident with Regina, which was really a turning point in my life. I was moved back to a foster home and was no longer placed in families. They couldn't handle me or something. I didn't get much freedom so I started to sneak out at the nights and steal. I had always been against stealing but I didn't have any money and I just didn't know what else to do. At those nights I went out to the city nearby and partied till five. There wasn't any holding back on the alcohol anymore. As soon as I turned eighteen I left the foster home and started searching for a place of my own. I had some money (they give you something so that you can get your life started) but it was barely enough for a place and some food so I was back to stealing. I met Neal on one of those days. It's actually quite funny because I was stealing a car and then suddenly he was in that car and I freaked out before I realized that it wasn't his car either. I stole a stolen car. I remember that being quite funny. Neal and I started talking and before I knew he was my boyfriend and we got our own place. Things went pretty fast between the those of us but we were both alone and it was just nice to have someone.

"How much?" I asked when Neal stepped out of the bathroom. My eyes didn't lure over his half naked body. They never had and I think it's something that seems to confuse both me and Neal. But we never really talk about our relationship, it's the least of our worries.

"ten thousand." He says, snapping me out of my thoughts. My jaw almost hits the ground. He really got us into some deep trouble this time.

"Ten thousand?!" I say surprised with a hint of anger in my voice, I don't want to make things worse but ten thousand?! Neal holds his hands up and quickly sits on the bed besides me.

"No, no I don't own anyone anything, we can get ten thousand if I deliver these watches tomorrow night." He says hesitantly.

A small smile grows on my face but my concern shines through. "And you're sure it's safe? You won't get caught?"

"Should be." Neal says.

I nodded, silently approving him to go through with his plan. He didn't give me any details and I didn't need them. Instead he leaned in and kissed me on my lips. Nothing. No butterflies. I used to feel something when he did that. Nothing like that kiss I shared with Regina but I blamed those feelings on the alcohol of that evening.

"Here." My boyfriend says as he puts one of the watches around my wrist, "they won't mind it if there's one missing and it looks great on you."

I smiled. "Thank you."

I really hate weddings. I had never been to one before but as soon as I entered the park I realized I hated them. I had actually planned not to go but Neal said that I should, it would be good. So I did. It was Sophie's wedding actually, I feel like twenty-three is a bit young to get married but then again she always said she was going to marry when she was still young. I guess she kept that promise. I haven't talked to her in over two years, to be honest and I admit that I was surprised when I saw the invitation on my facebook. She must have made a mistake right? I would have still thought it was one if she hadn't personally send me a message last week asking if I was coming.

Reason two I hated this damn wedding was that it was in freaking Central Park in New York city for god's sake. I live in Boston.. That means I had to drive for six hours and leave a day early so I could actually get some rest, not so much fun. They had this huge field for themselves, with only a couple of trees and a hill on one side. I say this park has much more beautiful places then this boring field.

Then reason number three, Regina is probably going to be here and she's the last person I want to see. Not just because I don't want a fight or because I think it will be awkward with the whole we-shared-the-most-amazing-kiss-ever but basically because I know she's going to be disappointed in me. Even if she won't tell me I know I'll see it in her eyes. I can't exactly tell why that upsets me so much, it just does.

But okay, enough about me not wanting to be here. I just have to put a smile on my face and make the best of it. I have to admit that for a horrible field, they made it look pretty damn amazing. There were a lot of white flowers and all the tables and chairs were decorated and they had a lot of happy wedding pictures.

I spotted some of Sophie's old friends and avoided most of them. I only really talked to Madison, who was a bridesmaid, before I found my seat in the front row. I felt slightly honored that she had put me in the front. I was finally relaxing in my seat, enjoying not having to talk to someone when I heard a familiar voice behind me.

"Excuse me. Thanks." I heard Regina say and I turned around in my chair to look at her. The first thing I noticed was how amazing she looked, it still amazed me how this woman seemed to only look more beautiful the older she got. She was wearing a light pink dress that came till a length that was just appropriate. It came all the way to her neck and her shoulders and side were covert with beautiful slightly darker pink curls. I can't quite describe it but she looks amazing. Not something I think she would have picked out herself but we all had to wear light colors. I myself was wearing a light blue strapless dress. It was quite simple and loose but it looked good on me.

The second thing I noticed about Regina was that she was alone. Steve wasn't there and there also wasn't an empty chair next to the one she took, which was a couple of rows behind me so if I was lucky she couldn't recognize me, her parents arrived ten minutes later but they didn't even look at Regina as they took their seat on the other side of the path in the middle. Something was definitely going on in this family but I reminded myself that it was none of my business.

After the ceremony, which was pretty amazing I have to admit Sophie picked out a nice man, I tried to get away as quickly as possible I had no interest in staying for cake, dancing or toasts because I wasn't planning on Regina noticing me. Unfortunately Sophie found me before I could run.

"Emma!" She screamed as she hugged me. "I'm so glad that you could make it." She was now beaming at me, Sophie looked really happy and that did make me feel better.

"Wouldn't miss it." I lied.

She eyes me over and I was glad for her happy post-wedding state so she didn't really take me in. "You look good." She finally said as she hugged me again. She had never really been a hugger so it must have something to do with this whole wedding thing.

A cough pulled us apart and my former sister laughed awkwardly. "Oops. Sorry." She pulled on her husband's arm, forcing him to stand right in front of me. I smiled.

"Emma, this is Austin my husband." She smiled and let that sink in for a second before continuing. "Austin, this is Emma."

I looked at him as he outstrectched his arm. His hair was dark but he had the purest green eyes. He had some facial hair but not a lot, just the way Sophie liked it. He was pretty tall though, I had to really look up to him and that didn't happen that often. He seemed like a good man. Took his outstretched hand and shook it.

"The famous Emma huh? I've heard a lot about you?" He said.

I can't stop my eyebrows from shooting upwards. "You have?"

He laughed slightly at my stunned expression and nodded.

Luckily Sophie broke the silence that followed. "Have you talked to Regina yet?" She asked.

I shook my head no, tyring to seem upset that I hadn't. "No, not yet." I said to her.

I never told her about the Boston incident so she thought me and Regina were still on good terms. Like at the funeral. She had no idea what happened and I wasn't planning on telling her, it seemed like I just had to find a way to avoid her without Sophie noticing.

"But how's she doing? How's Steve?" I tried to sound normal, like I was just interested in anything about Regina, I wasn't looking for information or anything. Seemed like I was easier to read than expected though. Sophie smiled knowingly at me.

"Here." Austin suddenly said, forcing a drink in my hand and interrupting me and Sophie. I hadn't even noticed that he was getting drinks. I looked at the glass, champagne. Great..

"Thanks…" I said while I awkwardly stood there with my drink. I smiled slightly as the both of them looked at me.

"Well.." Sophie started "take a sip." She said while she used her hand to push the glass to my mouth.

Once again I was saved my someone else, Thank god! They chatted to Sophie and Austin for a while and I wasn't sure if I could just walk off. Just as I started to walk away Sophie turned and looked at me.

"Sorry Em, we have to talk with some other people too but I'll see you later okay?" I nodded and smiled at her, raising my glass as to say goodbye. I sighed out in relief and quickly placed the glass on the counter, not noticing the eyes set on my back watching my every move. Suddenly Austin was back to my side, he was slightly panting, clearly he had ran back to me. He leaned closer to my ear.

"Want to know about Steve? Go ask her yourself." He said as she smiled at me with a look that said some things I didn't quite understand and then pointed at the person standing in a group behind me not far away. When I looked towards them it was just in time to saw Regina turn her head quickly. I took one step towards the group but stopped. Why was I doing this again? I was angry at this woman, remember, very angry. She made me feel unwanted and rejected so much that after that I could no longer live with foster families, too scared that they would reject me which turned my behavior around. It was all her fault.

I turned around again and ordered a glass of water but asked the waiter to put it in a wine glass so it looked like I was drinking wine before I made my way over to the cake. I was hungry and this damn cake looked really good.

It was getting later but nobody had left yet and I didn't really want to be the first to leave, not after I had already spoken to Sophie, it would upset her. So I stayed, and I sat down at a table drinking my water and just thinking about how Neal was doing. He should be delivering the watches right about now. The thought made me nervous so I forced myself to think of something differently.

All of the sudden another person dropped in a seat on the other side of the table. I looked over and rolled my eyes when I saw that it was Regina. I quickly looked the other way, ignoring her.

"Nice wedding, huh?" She asked. I didn't answer, instead started drinking the water I still had. It would give me an excuse for not talking. Regina didn't seem to mind that I ignored her or she just wasn't showing it.

"Are you here on your own?" She asked and I could feel her eyes burning on me.

It took me a whole minute before I finally shook my head, mentally kicking myself for doing that. I promised myself to stay away from her or ignore her for the entire night.

"Me too." She said and I could hear a slight slip in her voice, like it made her upset but she caught herself quickly. I was sure that if I would have looked into her eyes at that moment, I could have read what was going on, but I forced myself not to. I was really curious actually to why she said she was here alone if I had seen her parents. I wanted to ask but I couldn't.

Luckily Regina kept talking. "My parents don't speak with me anymore. Steve proposed to me that night Emma, you know which one I'm talking about, he said he was sorry and that he would never do it again, that he loved me. So he proposed." Her voice was definitely unsteady now and I finally turned my head to look at her. My walls were still up high but I needed to look at her. I was right, I could read the pain straight from her eyes, that were now tearing up.

"But I couldn't." she finally said after taking a sip of her wine. "I broke up with him and told him that I never wanted to see him again."

My brow furrows, that seems good than why is she fighting with her parents.

Again, it was like she heard my silent question.

"Thing is, he had already asked my parents for their permission and they have always been a fan of Steve, he was a completely different guy around them. So when I refused they were furious. Said I didn't know what I was doing, that I was insane, that they wanted nothing to do with me anymore."

Regina was really struggling to fight back her tears and I handed her a napkin with my left hand, keeping my right in my lap. I still hadn't said a word but it wasn't like I could just walk away right now so I opened my mouth.

"All of that because you said no?" I asked surprised, and a bit angry though it wasn't directed towards Regina, which I think she understood.

She was silent before she made eye contact with me for the first time. "Well, that wasn't all of it. They heard about our …" she was trying to pick the best word, " interaction.. and my mother wasn't really fond of it..."

"Interaction." I huffed, causing Regina to frown. "We kissed Regina."

I could see the blush creep up her cheeks as she turned her head down.

"You told your mother that it was just a onetime thing right? It happens to everyone, just a little bit of testing the waters." I said as I drank some more of my water. It was something like a phase where you would have feelings for people of the same sex, it usually passed soon. Though I still wondered when mine would pass.

Regina opened her mouth but she didn't want to look at me. "I'm not sure if it's just a phase, Emma. I think I might be gay."

My mouth dropped open and I was glad that she couldn't see me. I had never expected her to be gay, people asked me all the time but Regina? She didn't seem like the person that you would say is gay. But then again, never judge a book by its cover.

"And you told them." I asked to which she quickly nodded.

"They asked me why I had kissed some slut in the club instead of being with Steve. They said why in the hell would you do that? That's not something you do for fun." Regina said, her voice shaking as she was still looking down. I didn't want her too, I wanted to look into her eyes. Without thinking I took my chair and dragged it around the table, the music started playing in the background and people had started dancing but I was lost in our moment. My fingers carefully lifted her chin and she seemed startled by the sudden contact but she did let me go through with it.

"There you are." I said more sweetly than I had intended and it caught us both of guard for a moment before I frowned and asked my next question.

"You did tell them that it was a mistake right? Or that I forced myself onto you or something." I said, trying to think of how Regina got herself into this situation, whatever she had said it must have really upset her parents.

Regina shook her head no. She took another shuddering breath and allowed my eyes to read hers again.

"I told them that it wasn't a mistake and that you weren't just a slut, I told them the truth." Regina paused again and I almost rolled my eyes. Did I really have to keep pushing her to tell me? It was kind of adorable though.

"And what exactly is the truth?"

"That I like you. I enjoyed kissing you. That I wished I could have kissed you forever that night." Regina said, keeping her voice steady with newfound confidence.

My jaw dropped down again. I hadn't expected something like that. Not at all. I mean I liked her too, I think I do. It would explain a whole lot of things including me checking her out all the time and wow, that kiss.

Regina must have taken my pause the wrong was because suddenly she was standing and moving away from me. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that."

I took me a second before I was up on my feet and pulling her towards the dance floor. She squirmed in my arms, clearly startled by whatever was happening. "Dance with me." I said as I put one hand on her waist. She quickly put hers on my shoulder and our other hands intertwined. I felt the energy coursing through them and I was sure Regina felt it too but we didn't say anything. In fact was didn't say anything for a really long time but it was comfortable. We were both glad that Regina's parents had left already because they wouldn't have been pleased with this sight.

A slow song started and I tentatively pulled her closer with the arm around her waist. She only barely held herself back before moving into my arms. Her face rested on my shoulder and we continued on dancing like that.

Suddenly she chuckled. "I feel like a teenager at prom again."

My tone was more serious than I intended. "Me too."

I took a deep breath and one of my thumbs started tracing a pattern on her back. "Did you really mean what you said earlier?"

"mmm?" came the mutter from Regina.

"That you wanted to keep kissing me that night." I said, glad that she couldn't see me because this time I was the one to blush.

I could feel her smile against my shoulder. "I still want to."

I pulled back a little so that I could look into her eyes. It was something I hadn't seen before. The other time when we kissed I had seem lust and excitement in them but this went further. It seemed like her eyes said things our mouths didn't dare to say.

I tightened my grip around her waist and she moved her arms around my neck. Slowly I leaned in and brushed my lips against hers. She immediately moaned and it send a wave of heat through my body. I pressed our lips together again, this time a bit harder and started to move mine over hers. She immediately responded and we stood there making out like teenagers for two whole minutes. But I needed more. My body was craving for more. So I broke the kiss and led us to the other side of dance floor that was more secure and people couldn't really see us.

I quickly pressed my body to hers again and was pleased with another pleasurable moan. "Are you okay?" I asked, just to make sure. I didn't want her regretting this.

She nodded. "Perfect."

I beamed at her and she returned my smile before I finally pressed our lips together again. Somehow she lead me take the lead as I moved mine over hers again, never letting my tongue out. I was teasing her and from the groaning it seemed to work. She pulled apart only enough to be able to speak. "Stop teasing me, Emma."

I smiled, this was the response I had been waiting for. This time when our lips were moving again I let out my tongue and traced her bottom lip with it. She opened her mouth immediately and I started to explore her mouth. Fireworks exploded in my mouth, she tasted so good and this time it was me who moaned.

Suddenly Regina took the dominance and pushed me on one of the couches. She straddled my lap and I really didn't care if anybody was looking or not. Her hand moved over my belly and I tensed but she didn't stop kissing me so I relaxed again. Her tongue was wild against mine and I felt it right in my core. I didn't want to stop but was also sure that if I didn't, this would go too far.

We were both panting when we pulled apart and Regina said beside me. I didn't hesitate to put my arm around her.

One of her hands took mine and she squeezed it. "Emma, I'm really sorry." She said and I looked at her, one eyebrow raised. What was she talking about?

"About what?"

"About being so mean to you, all the time, and i'm sorry about rejecting you. I shouldn't have said what I said in Boston. It was so stupid." Her eyes watered again and I quickly placed a hand on her cheek. I didn't even know she could be this vulnerable.

"It's okay." I said. "You didn't mean it, you were just very confused."

She nodded and we enjoined a bit of silence and some light kisses before Regina broke the silence once again.

"Now what?" She asked and suddenly it all hit me. I had a boyfriend. I had Neal, who was delivering watches and earning ten thousand dollars right now. It all hit me and I tensed up completely. And then there was this even bigger problem as I unconsciously moved my hand over my belly.

Regina noticed it and she looked at me.

"How long have you been pregnant?" She asks me and I tense up even more. How did she know that. I realize my mouth is open once again and quickly close it and look at my lap. I try to remove the hand from around her body but she forces it to stay there.

"About 19 weeks." I say as I move my hand over my belly. You can actually see something already. Regina moves her hand but then looks at me. I nod, giving her permission. She places her hand over it and surprisingly smiles, only for a second.

"I'm guessing you have a boyfriend too." Her voice sounds more sad now.

"Yeah but I don't think I love him, Regina." I say.

She squeezes my hand once again. "You're only saying that because of what you're feeling right now, because of this," she points between the two of us, "but you can't just go and leave your boyfriend and leave your child fatherless only because we have some insane connection that seems to be like a magnet."

I want to argue but realize that she's right. "So how are we going to do this? I don't want to part ways and not see you again for another three years."

We stay silent for another minute or two before the moment gets interrupted by loud sirens. We both sit up straight and look towards the rest of the people. I stand up and take Regina's hand, leading her back towards the rest of the people.

"What's happening?" I ask one the first person I see. As soon as the man sees me he starts screaming. "She's here!" He jumps up and down and points at me. I feel Regina's hand leave mine but I don't have time to look around before an officer is by my side and is putting handcuffs on.

"Emma Swan you are under arrested for stealing watches worth an amount of ten thousand dollars. You know your rights?" I nod before I turn to the man in utter panic.

"Wait you must be wrong! I didn't steal any watches!" I say as I squirm trying to turn so I can see Regina.

"Regina!" I then scream but I still can't see her.

"Oh, so then what's this?" The officer says when he points to one of the watches on my wrists.

Suddenly it all hits me. Neal. I was set up. This was his plan all along, or at least his backup plan, having me arrested for stealing those watches. I admit it was clever to put one on my wrist.

I stayed quiet and the officer laughs. "Not so much to say right now, huh?"

He starts pushing me forward and then suddenly I see Regina again. "Wait stop!" I yell to the man and surprisingly he does when he sees Regina coming towards us.

"Regina, I promise you I have nothing to do with this, my boyfriend set me up. I didn't steal those watches, please you know me you have to believe me." I felt the tears run down my cheeks as I looked hopeful at Regina. For once I couldn't read her eyes.

Slowly she nodded. "I believe you."

I sighed out in relief. "Promise me you will wait." I say and she looks surprised.

I know that I'm not going to prison in here, I'll be going back to Boston or maybe even my hometown which is way too far from Regina and I can't just ask her to change her entire life for me right now, for someone in jail. She just has to wait for me.

She looks at me and smiles through her own tears.

"I will."

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