Hey guyss next chapter! sorry it took me slightly longer this time :)

btw i'm not really happy with this chapter but yeah... sorry for that.

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OH AND SORRY NOT SORRY FOR THE GREY'S ANATOMY REFERENCE IN HERE.

It was only a year later when I saw Regina again. I was twenty-two, Regina was twenty-six by this time and my little boy was already two, he was growing up fast. The year had gone by fast. I now had my own apartment in Boston, which was great and it was perfect for me and Henry.

It was definitely not my intention to see Regina, I hadn't heard from her all year and I hadn't wanted too. She had invited me to her wedding though, probably because she felt like she had too but I didn't go. It would have been too painful and I might have killed Daniel right there at that moment. I stayed home instead and ate Ben&Jerrys ice on the couch, with Henry next to me, watching my every move and trying to comfort me in his own way, which was smiling at me and not crying so much. I loved him.

I was really mad at Regina for a long time, which kept me from moving on but I finally found a way to sort of move past it. I still didn't feel ready for a new relationship, especially after Neal. I didn't feel like I could still trust people. First Neal set me up and then Regina just straight out lied to me. And of course there was Henry, which was enough for now.

So really, I wasn't happy to see Regina that unfaithful day.

I had found a job as a bounty hunter now, so I spend my time catching people like Neal, which satisfied me somehow. Luckily most of it was during daytime so I could drop Henry off at a center where they took care of him in the evening until I returned around midnight to take him home. I know it's not ideal but at least I get to spend the days with him, which is great.

At one of these night I was especially late and arrived at the center at around 2am. I knew they were okay with it but I didn't like arriving so late because I knew Henry would be up for a while before I would get him to sleep again. I sighed deeply as I pushed open the doors, trying to rub the stain off my dress that the red wine had made. Stupid guy. I walked in and approached a member of the staff.

"Good evening Miss. Swan." She said friendly and I smiled tiredly at her.

"Good evening Isobel. I know I'm a little later but you know.. rough night."

The woman smiled warmly at me. Isobel was an elderly woman who had worked in the center for thirty years and I got along with her pretty well. She was friendly and she took good care of Henry. She sometimes acted like she was my mother, which I secretly loved.

"Catching bad guys again, sweetheart? You are being careful right?" She said, a smile on her lips but I could see the real emotion in her eyes.

I laughed softly. "Of course."

She smiled at me again and I looked around for Henry. "Where's Henry?" I asked and she pointed a finger in the air and grabbed my arm to lead me to the large bedroom.

"He's in here. He was crying for hours today but your friend the Mayor visited and calmed him down. You never told me about her."

I frowned and it took me a couple of seconds before realization struck me. Regina. My eyes widened in shock and I burst through the doors.

"Give me my son back." I say loudly, waking up some other kids and startling Regina. Isobel placed a hand on my arm as to calm me down.

"I'm sorry Emma. I thought she was a friend."

I looked at her and managed to smile. "It's okay, Isobel. Can you give us a minute." The elderly woman nodded and walked away.

I looked at Regina who was holding my baby boy in her arms securely. Henry was still asleep but he was about to wake up. I rushed towards Regina and stood in front of her angrily.

"Give my back my child." I hissed.

Regina looked up to me and smiled. "Why did you name him after my dad?" She asked suddenly, all sweet and friendly. It was like she didn't even notice I was angry.

"I didn't." I said as I stepped up to her.

When I came closer I noticed the dark circles around Regina's eyes and the extremely formal way she was dressed. Definitely a mayor.

Regina crooked her head at my remark but decided not to argue against it.

"Now give me Henry back." I said once again but a bit harder as I outstretched my arms.

"shhh. Be quiet. You'll wake up the other kids." Regina said as she started to stand up with Henry and slowly hand him back to me.

I took Henry for her and it amazed me how good she was with him. But well.. maybe she had her own child, it could be.

"Thank you." I said, my voice still angry. I wasn't planning on letting Regina in again, knowing it would hurt me big time.

I turned around and grabbed the maxi-cosi that I had left on the ground. I placed Henry in it, who was still asleep somehow, and made sure he was secure. I stood and started to walk away. I wasn't surprised when I heard Regina call back for me.

"Emma." She said softly and I rolled my eyes before turning around.

She opened her mouth to say something but I cut her off.

"Thanks for watching Henry. Enjoy your evening." I said and then I left, leaving her shocked and alone. I sure as hell wasn't going to make the same mistake.

"Goodnight Henry." I say as I kiss my son's forehead and put the blanket on top of him. I find myself going back to the living room, even though it's so late. I just don't feel like going to my empty bed, not tonight. As I sit down I feel myself easily drifting off and I let myself.

I wake up for what feels like hours later but is actually only 15 minutes. I look around startled, searching for the thing that caused me to wake up. On instinct I pick up my gun from the table and hold it up. Only then I notice the flashing light coming from my phone and the familiar sound of my ringtone. I let out a breath and pick up the damn thing.

"Swan." I say, a bit pissed at whoever is waking me up at like.. 3:30 in the morning.

"Emma Swan?" a woman on the other end of the line asks me.

I frown. I haven't heard this voice before, and something just feels off. I stand up and walk to Henry's room, just to check on him. Luckily he is okay and I focus my attention back on the conversation I was having.

"Yes. Who is this?" I ask cautiously.

"Miss Swan this is doctor Robbins from the Massachusetts General Hospital. Can you maybe sit down?"

I feel my stomach drop and I clutch my forehead. Who is this about? I don't like where this is going. I nod even though the woman can't see me and sit down on the couch again.

"Ye.. Yes.." I stammer.

The woman continues, "I'm sorry to inform you but your wife had a car accident and we had to do an emergency surgery on her. Can you be here as quick as possible?"

I frown, is this woman sure she has the right Emma Swan. I have no idea who she's talking about.

"I'm not married." I say, a bit annoyed.

"Oh.. I'm sorry, it's just that, she kept saying your name and the ring and then the emergency number in her wallet and-" The woman kept on rambling so I had to cut her off, I couldn't even understand what she was saying.

"Who are we talking about?" I say a little louder.

"Regina, Regina Mills."

It's like my body freezes right at that spot and all the anger I have towards her just fades away for a minute. I can't even move of the freaking couch as my hand drops down in my lap, holding the phone. I can hear the doctor talk but I don't register any of the words she's saying. I need to get to the hospital, that's all I know.

Finally I move myself of the couch, my eyes filling with tears, I don't really know why but it just happens. I quickly take a bag from the closet and throw some clean clothes in it. I have no idea how long I'll stay there, but I might need them in the morning. I take Henry out of his bed once again and apologize to him, he only murmurs back some sleepy words, for which I'm grateful. I really can't have him crying now. It's like he senses my tension and fear because when I pick him up, he hugs me tighter than normal. I walk out of my apartment and knock on my neighbor's door. Megan is a friendly slightly older woman who loves Henry but she usually refuses to watch him in the evening, which is totally understandable, I can't come by every evening at 2 to pick him up again.

She opens the door, annoyed and yawning.

"What is it?" She says with a slightly angry tone.

Only then does she notice my flustered look and my wet cheeks and red eyes.

"Emma? What happened?" She quickly takes Henry from my arms.

"My uhm.. friend she had a car accident. Need to get to the hospital." I say, still quite in shock.

"How bad is it?" Megan asks me.

"I don't know. Pretty bad I think." I see as another tear escapes my eye. I never thought that I would care so much if this ever happened, I thought I was over Regina, I thought my feeling weren't this strong anymore. It seems like I was wrong, I couldn't even be angry with her right now, I first had to make sure she was okay, I could be angry again later.

"Well then go sweetheart, go to your friend." I nod and smile weakly at her before running off towards the elevator.

I arrive at the hospital 30 minutes after my call, which is fast since the hospital is far from my place. Panting, I run towards the front desk and yell at the first nurse I see.

"Where's Regina?"

The woman startles and looks at me, not pleased with my behavior.

"Can I help you?" She asks me and I get even more frustrated.

"Please, I need to see Regina."

The nurse rolls her eyes and slowly walks towards her computer, I feel like I could kill her right now. Luckily for that nurse, a woman taps on my shoulder right that moment.

"Miss Swan?" The familiar voice says and I turn around to see a doctor. She doesn't look like a doctor though, her blonde curly hair and big blue eyes make her seem more like a… teacher or something but she seems very trust worthy and friendly. I nod at her.

"Doctor Robbins?" I ask in return to which she nods too.

"How is Regina?" I ask her and she places a hand on my arm to guide me to the waiting room. I try reading her face as we walk but I can't get anything from it.

"How is she?" I push once again, when we're seated.

The woman sighs deeply and looks into my eyes. "Like I told you she had a car accident and we had to do an emergency surgery. You see, her organs inside were bleeding and we had to go in and stop it. But once we got in, there was a lot more bleeding and her heart couldn't take it."

I gasp and doctor Robbins places a hand over mine. "We had to restart her heart again doing surgery. It worked but we are still uncertain how many damage is caused. We have her in a recovery room but her situation is critical. You should be prepared, she might not make it through the night."

I couldn't cope with this, first she died, but then they brought her back to life for which I felt utterly relieved but now they're saying she might not make it through the night, how the hell was I going to do this. I had to call Daniel, probably, tell him what happened.

But first I had to see Regina.

"You want me to take you to her?" Doctor Robbins said as she looked at my face.

"Yes." I muttered and we started walking.

Regina's room was a pretty far walk since it was all the way in the back. When we finally arrived Doctor Robbins stepped up to me and placed a hand on my shoulder.

"I'll give you two a moment alone, if you need me, just ask for Arizona Robbins, okay? And I'm sorry for thinking she was your wife, she just seemed so… I don't know.. she talked about you as if you were her wife, you understand?"

I smiled and nodded.

"Yeah, I get it."

Arizona smiled back at me before she turned around and left me. I slowly pushed open the doors and walked inside. Regina's room was completely dark and quiet except for the beeping of the machines. I was actually glad that it was darker because I could already see, even with the lack of light, that her injuries were pretty bad and I think that if I would see them in the light it would make things even more real. I didn't want that right now. Instead I moved a chair closer to the bed and grabbed Regina's hand, kissing it.

"What did you get yourself into this time?" I asked her, even though I knew she wasn't going to answer.

"You better not die, Regina. Lots of people need you. You have a town to run, your parents need you. Daniel, he needs you." I wanted to say 'I need you' but I couldn't do that to myself, and to Regina.

I grabbed her phone from her pursue and searched for Daniel's number, I then called him and informed him of the situation. I was glad he didn't ask why I was there but he just said he was coming right away and he would be here the next day, around the afternoon.

Doctor Robbins came in again after 30 minutes, to check some of the beeping machines from Regina before she turned to me.

"Hey Emma, do you want some pillows and a blanket maybe, since you're staying here?"

I wanted to say no but then, what the hell, I was indeed staying and I needed some sleep.

"Yes, thank you, that would be great." I said instead and Arizona seemed pleased with my answer.

Merely 3 minutes later doctor Robbins returned with my blankets and pillow and I moved myself to the couch, which I also pushed closer to Regina. Luckily for me, Arizona had lowered Regina's bed so even though she was still a bit higher, I could lay my arm on her bed and hold her hand, without it being uncomfortable.

I woke up the next morning from the sound of a monitor beeping faster than it had done the evening before. I freaked out immediately and called out for a nurse.

"What's wrong?" the nurse asked me as she scanned the room for any signs of a dying patient.

"Doctor Arizona Robbins. Now." I said and the nurse quickly ran off again.

Finally I laid my eyes on Regina and saw that they were still closed. What was happening? Was she dying? My heart was racing so fast, that I didn't even feel the squeeze in my hand for the first five seconds.

Only then did I look down and saw that Regina was indeed squeezing my hand. "Regina?" I yelled and she frowned slightly.

"Regina? Please wake up!" I screamed again and I heard the quick footsteps entering the room.

"What's wrong with her?" I yelled towards doctor Robbins who quickly moved herself around me to go to the machines and then look down at Regina who was frowning again and trying to open her eyes.

"It seems like she's waking up." Arizona said.

My face still looked extremely worried and in panic. Arizona smiled and me and turned my head so I looked at Regina.

"She's waking up. It's a good thing."

Arizona moved towards the other side of the bed while I focused my attention back on Regina.

"You are?" I asked her and finally her eyes opened.

She slowly opened her mouth. "I am. Now would you stop screaming, dear?" Her voice said, sounding weird from the dryness.

A big weight dropped of my shoulder and I beamed at her. I noticed Arizona staring at us.

"I'm so glad that you're okay." I said and I squeezed her hand even harder.

"Me too." She said.

Her eyes started to drop shut again and I stroked her hand. "It's okay, you can sleep some more. I called Daniel, he's on his way."

She smiled weakly. "Thank you for staying with me."

When Regina was asleep again I checked the clock. 12. It was time for me to leave since Daniel could be here any second. I quickly gathered by stuff and changed myself in the bathroom.

When I walked out of Regina's room, I found doctor Robbins standing by the nurse station. I walked up to her.

"Are you leaving?" She asked me surprised.

I nodded. "Yeah, her husband is coming soon so it's time for me to leave." I shrug as if I don't mind but Arizona seems like she isn't buying it.

"When are you coming back?" She asks me.

I quickly move my gaze towards my feet, I can't look at her right now. She won't understand.

"I am not." I say.

When Arizona stays quiet for a long time I gather enough courage to look up at her again.

"I understand Emma, I mean I don't know every detail of your relationship but it seems a lot like the thing me and my wife Callie once had. But you'll see, in the end, faith always wins."

I look surprised at her, I never would have guessed she would have been married to a woman, but then again, I only knew her for a night or so. Arizona just smiled back at me and I said goodbye to her.

"Will you make sure Regina reads this message, it's important." Doctor Robbins nodded and I left the hospital, making the wise decision, not only for me but also for Regina.

Arizona walks into Regina's room an hour or two later, when her husband has finally left her side. Arizona couldn't help but be ignored by the man. When Emma was worried about Regina it was adorable and it seemed so true and so full of love, with this man it was just annoying and fake.

"Hey how are you?" Arizona asks and Regina shrugs.

"I was told to give you this." She said as she outstretched her hand. Regina looked at it and it seemed like she was having an inner struggle. Should she take it or not.

Finally she took the piece of paper and Arizona smiled, leaving the woman alone again.

Dear Regina,

I was so scared last night, scared that I would lose you forever but also scared of how much I was scared. Does that make sense? Anyway, it's not cool to say this right now, and certainly not in a letter but I love you Regina. I didn't realize I did before last night but now I know I do and I also know that I can't let myself. Not for you and not for me. It wouldn't be good. So I'm sorry if I'm already breaking things by even writing this but I had to tell you, before walking away. I don't want you to think that I was only there because someone needed to be. I was there because I love you and I couldn't bear the thought of you dying. But it also made me realize that maybe you weren't so wrong with leaving me all those times. Maybe you did it for the same reasons I'm doing it this time but you just didn't know you were. I can't say that I'm not still angry with you because of what you did the previous time but now I can also see where you're coming from. We can't just sit around and wait, I don't want to wait the rest of my life. Besides, a friend once told me that in the end faith always wins. If faith truly wanted us together it wouldn't give us such a hard time. Right?

I couldn't stay this morning and shake things up between us. I know you're married and I know that I have to move on. I have Henry now, I need to be responsible, hell I need to be a parent, a good example. So this is me saying goodbye again, but this time without the fight, without anger. I wish you and Daniel the very best.

Please don't come looking for me.

Emma

p.s I do hope you read all the letters I gave you

Hope you guys enjoyed it. Btw what did you think of Arizona in this chapter? I mean, if I'm writing about a hospital I just can't help myself, Arizona has to be in here, even though she normally does peds.