Les Voeux Dans Le Claire de Lune
Vows In The Moonlight
Chapter 5: Jude's Fruition Part 1
Don't ask where I get some of these words. My vocabulary is crazy. Just go with it as usual. You can take the above mentioned word either way.
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Tommy.
That name has rarely left my mind over the past years. His perfection has taunted me from the beginning. It was like he was in reach but when you go to touch him, you realize you're blocked by a pane of glass. Its there to keep away the unworthy. And I was the most unworthy of them all.
I always thought he wanted to keep me at that distance for my own protection. But recently I think it was for himself.
I knew nothing about him other than his first name and that he was a former boy bander. Oh and which jeans he looked incredible in.
His cerulean eyes never cease to amaze me. I could be pulled into them and not care if I was ever released. There is no equal to the beauty of those azure pools.
The times we've been left alone together, our natural teasing and flirting was always there. But month after month, he became awkward in his stance towards me.
He would hurry out of a room if I was alone, when I was dating Spied, he and I had to be supervised by Mr. Q himself. Glaring became a pass time for the two of them.
Glaring, for Tommy, was the number one priority on his list. I mean I could hardly talk to Kwest some days. His rage was almost out of control.
I was ready to give up on the whole Tom Quincy thing and move on. I wouldn't be happy but I would learn to cope without him. He didn't want anything more from me than a platonic relationship.
But I need him. He is what makes this crappy world a little better. The music that he inspires in me, both good and bad: changes people, influences them, dare I say, moves them.
I was stressing so much over what I could do to be around Tommy and not fall for him all over again. Then he offers to take me out. He always makes things difficult.
I decided a drink would be the only way to remain calm around him, it can't hurt. Tommy won't let anything happen to me. The whole time he sat there looking at me. He didn't say anything to that ugly dude, he just started on his way out.
Does he think I drank so much I can't walk? I may not be able to think straight but I can walk straight. Why not mess with him? If I'm lucky he'll fall and it'd be all his fault.
He practically threw me in the car. Next thing I know we're in front of a pretty large building and I'm being picked up again. Then I'm on a couch with a bunch of fabric landing on me. How does this all happen so fast?
After a few minute I opened my eyes to see a blanket and a shirt. I changed and went to find a bathroom. How many bedrooms does he have? By the time I found one I heard water running but went in anyway.
Oh my..., why couldn't I have walked in on this man sooner? I obviously felt dizzy after my near swoon and went to lie down on the bed. I curled up and thats all I remember, then I hear mumbling about licorice then some singing.
Tommy knows Spanish? Now I really know nothing about him. I'm fading back into the darkness when I hear Tommy's voice near my head.
"I l-----," did he say larva? And I thought I was pretending to be drunk? Kinda. I'm not complaining. I'm feeling no pain and I saw the back of Tommy in the shower.
Now I really don't want to talk about the morning. It involved a lot of awkwardness, embarrassment, and heartache. I'm not sure the last is mutual for both parties. Heartache because I thought he was playing with my emotions again.
But I got to thinking after the kiss on the bed, larva doesn't make since, the only thing that does is... love. That can't be right, I gave him a kiss as a thank you for taking care of me, then the kiss happens. I felt so much and it scared me a bit. I'm not sure of his feeling, because he hasn't spoken them to me.
When he came to the door, I was thinking 'what now?' then after 'what the hell?'. It gets better, I'm alone for the rest of the weekend. Jamie wouldn't pick up, he was likely working. Spied: no idea but it would include Wally and Kyle. Alone and bored, plus confused, angered, hurt, and a little hung over.
Sadie showed up the next day with a smile that gave everything away. Kwest looked similar as he gave me a hug and settled on the couch.
"What did you do while I was gone?" Sadie asked after she sat next to Kwest. Should I ask her for her advice? I should, she's always helped me before.
"Okay, Tommy took me out and-" she cut me off with an extremely high-pitched squeal and she looked like she was having a seizure. She must really be over Tommy.
"Tommy took you out? Where? What happened?"
"Breathe Sadie. Well what happened was..." I quickly explained the disaster, that I remembered, and she took in every word as if it was a secret of the Volturi.
A evil grin spread across her expression as she looked at the man to her right. I don't think I want to be in the room right now. Kwest looked smug as he returned her gaze. Then they turned to me, I'm sure I looked scared.
A felt a nervous smile as I tried to remain calm, they never looked at me like this before. If it didn't stop soon I was going to faint. Fear works in strange ways for me.
"So, what are you going to do about it?" Sadie's face no longer held the sadistic grin. I wonder if that why they named her Sadie because of sadistic.
"I know what you do best." Kwest broke into my thoughts about 'sadistic Sadie'. "You've done it before and quite a few times." Why did he have to bring that up?
"You want me to write a song? About what?" Can't they let this drop? I'll deal the way I always do, ignore him until I can feel comfortable around him again. They looked at me as if I were daft, damn Tommy and his word of the day.
I learned a few good words from him even though he didn't use them right. It pretty funny sometimes.
"I don't know, something that will get his attention," Sadie put in her two cents. "Well more than you already have." I wanted my eyes to shoot daggers at her but I think I just looked constipated. I know she's right but I don't want to hear it. "Tommy wanted something from you so write about that." Her insinuation was poorly hidden.
"Thanks Sadie, that was advice I could really use." She shot me a death glare, it's much more effective than mine, and I hurried upstairs. "Kwest could you come in early tomorrow?" I called downstairs. He nodded with a look of confusion, "I want to get the music done first so Tommy can get the whole effect. Then I retreated to my room as inspiration took over.
I got up super early and Kwest picked me up and we met SME at the studio. I didn't ever know that this time existed. But as soon as we were done Spied took me home so I could sleep a little longer.
"Jude! What's going on in here?" Could she be anymore shrill? I groggily open my eyes to see Sadie with almost disgust written on her face.
"What's wrong?" I don't understand what's got her panties in a twist. She points behind me and I slowly turn to see what all the fuss is about.
"Yeah, its Spied." We've slept in the same bed before, she knows he's like my brother.
"You should be glad its me waking you and not Tommy. Do you remember when he saw you two like this before?" I winced, I don't want to think about that time ever again.
That's when I look at my clock, "Sadie. Why am I up a whole hour early?" If I had the energy I'd kill her.
"You need to shower and get ready. Don't pick out anything to wear, I already did," her smile is too sweet. Great I'm going to end up in a mini skirt.
I come back into my room and Spied is still passed out on my bed. I only know one way to wake him and I can't do that anymore, for that fact I won't do that anymore. So I'll improvise.
I sit down and then my eyes start to close. A few minutes longer won't hurt, will it?
I'm woken again but this time by my phone. It's Tommy, he's going to severely pay for this. I know I need to get up but that doesn't mean I'm happy about it.
After yelling for about seven minutes he hangs up on me. He won't get off that easy, oops shouldn't have worded it like that. I think he rubbing off on me too much, as you can tell. I call back but he refused to answer, I wonder how long it will take him to turn off his phone?
Wow, twenty six times, I didn't think I'd make it passed five. At least the yelling got Vin here to get up.
I pulled him downstairs to the kitchen and handed him a piece of fruit, just to see his reaction. I've never seen anyone get that offended over a banana before. He could have poked my eye out when he threw it at me.
A quick chocolate Quaker bar, what can I say, the boy needs his sugar, I got him in the car.
It was creepy he kept staring at my legs. Yeah, I know there pale, you can stop looking. But the look on his face said different. What happened to our Bart/Lisa relationship? I was ready to start yelling when I saw Sadie and Kwest outside waiting for us.
I'm grabbed by the arm and pulled inside as Kwest and The Pervert look on. She's got quite a grip, I can't even struggle out of it.
"Remember, Johnny's is going to pick you up at ten. Okay?" She says the last part slowly like I don't speak English. I know I haven't had my coffee yet but I'm not that slow, well not today. I nod and walk into my usual studio to wait for Tommy.
Sadie follows close behind telling me what I should do, then Kwest and The Pervert add in what they think I should do. Vin is really earning his new nickname. But his suggestion will mess with Tommy's head.
How is it possible that I got here before him? He was calling me to tell me I was going to be late and he shows up after me. I'm sitting in his chair because there's no where else for me to. But I know they wanted me as close to the door as possible.Give Tommy a better view.
The door opens and he steps in, I look up and smile as I greet him. He got this weird look, answers me, then practically runs out of the room. I look back at Kwest to see if he knows what that was all about. He just shrugs and turns back to the soundboard.
Sadie walks up to him and says something, it looked like she asked if something was wrong. She then looks at the floor, starts laughing, then moves away quickly. I couldn't see anything Tommy did during the conversation, his back was to me.
I look back to where Tommy was and he was gone. So I switch back to Sadie and she just gave me a smug smile. I just sit back, sigh, and wait for Tommy to reappear.
Around four minutes later he shows up, I smile and go into the booth and I bring The Pervert with me. There he goes with the dreamy gaze again, I lean in to hiss at him.
"Quit staring at my legs, damn it!" The Pervert gives me an innocent face and he seems to revert back to the normal Spiederman.
"Just do what I told you and watch his face." He is so frustrating sometimes, but I do as I'm told for once. But not before I growl at him.
I do the whole jumping thing and use an implication to Tommy. I earn a strange look from not only him but Wally and Kyle.
A quick exchange happens between Tommy and Kwest, then I know I need to put on my show for him.
"Tommy, baby, this one goes out to you," I don't believe I'm doing this, I flash the smile, point at him, and I think it's working. I watch him squirm as I sing, I think Vin knows what he's talking about... sometimes.
I went up to Tommy to ask about the song, then tell him what inspired it. He looks pretty damn happy about it, even though he's trying to hide it. I guess he doesn't understand, I've been wanting to say this to him for so long its not even funny.
I move in real close and finally say it. "You know exactly why," I don't know how I managed a straight face but I did it. He left and I see him going to hospitality. No amount of money would be enough to buy that image from me.
I crashed next to Spied on the couch and cuddled up to him. He's acting normal again so it won't bother me as much. Tommy 's back and ready to kill Spied, I knew he was good for something other than guitar.
Tommy has his headphones on but he's watching, time for him to feel a little more jealousy. I like him this way.
"Spied, why don't you go home? You've been here longer that I have," he really looks like he could sleep for three days and still not be fully rested.
"Dude, I'm fine. Remember, I'm going out with you dudes tonight?" He is? I gaze up at him. "Johnny wants to us all to hang tonight." Oh yeah, I forgot Johnny was coming. He use to spend a lot of time with SME before he moved to Pickle Lake.
I see Johnny walk in and can't believe that's him. I wouldn't have recognized him if he didn't hug Sadie. She pointed me out and he made a beeline to me. I give him a kiss on the cheek and hugged him so hard he couldn't breathe. I want to be known for those.
After our greeting I look at Tommy and he's ready for blood, again. When will he trust me with other guys? Come on after that song he still want to kill my cousin. I said it was for him and he seems like he doesn't remember that.
Now he thinks he can tell me what to do? I only let Sadie do that, and that's when I'm not in the mood to argue.
"Don't worry I'll be in bed soon enough," let him think about that one. Brush me off like that. I walk out with Johnny, Spied tailing not too far behind. Now its time for Kwest to work at getting Tommy to crack.
As I looked back to see his face one final time for the day his eyes burned with his unspoken turmoil. I was lucky my hair covered my reaction. The pure shock rose even more when Johnny asked about Tommy and me as he ushered me out the door.
He thought we were dating because of Tommy's protectiveness and how intent his gaze was on me. He saw what Tommy had been trying to tell me that day at his house.
Yeah, I guess I actually knew. But if he could just come out and say it. I need to hear the words straight from the source. Not from everyone who thinks they know.
I nearly ran back to him, hoping to get a verbal conformation. But Johnny, who I haven't seen since I was seven, held me tight by the hand as we got to the car.
The whole way I thought about that song, I know shocking I was thinking about a song. It seemed to be very fitting for Tommy now. And what doesn't work now, it will very soon.
I can hardly wait to hold you,
feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you,
now that I have found you
You've got the look of love,
It's on your face,
A look that time can't erase
Be mine tonight,
let this be just the start
of so many nights like this
Let's take a lover's vow
and then seal it with a kiss
I can hardly wait to hold you,
feel my arms around you
How long I have waited
Waited just to love you,
now that I have found you
Don't ever go
Don't ever go
I love you so
Song: The Look of Love by Dusty Springfield
Yeah part one, I just felt like splitting them up and too give myself more time to work on the end.
I need to be put away. With all the Twilight references and Tommy torture (even though you all love it).
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