Hi guys, just to clarify a few things.

To those who are wondering why Bella seems to have lost her inhibition and become senseless all of a sudden, I'm trying to show that around Edward, she becomes a total mess. She's normally this level headed brainy girl who knows exactly what she wants out of life, but in walks Edward. He's literally messed up everything and making her second guess herself. She's not used to hot guys 'chasing' after her and she doesn't exactly know how to react so its all pretty new to her. I'm sorry that I haven't portrayed that well already, hopefully this chapter will help with all of that. Hope you enjoy :)

Chapter Nine

I did the only thing I could think of and then ran.

I could hear him groaning but I didn't turn back around, I knew already he'd be bent over clutching his aching balls once again.

Luckily enough our dorm wasn't far from the party because I couldn't have ran for long, sport and me just didn't go hand in hand.

I slammed the door shut behind me, not caring that I probably woke up a few of my neighbours.

"Oh shit, what have I done?"

My hands flew to my head as I tried to sort through the mess that had occurred tonight. Firstly, I let Edward touch me inappropriately, secondly I beat up a girl, and thirdly... I let Edward touch me inappropriately.

Shit, shit shit shit shit shit shit shit. Fuck me. There was no going back.

Or maybe there was?

I could just ignore him, maybe pretend that I had been drunk.

Yes. That was it. I'd pretend I was drunk and make out that I didn't remember any of it, of course that would be the only logical reason as to why I'd let him go anywhere near me and the reason why I beat up a random chick.

I closed my eyes trying to forget the way he had looked at me, the way he had controlled my body with the simplest touch.

I was ashamed of myself for letting the situation get that far, I was never the kind of girl who let random guys all over her. Of course Edward wasn't exactly random, but he was pretty much a stranger, fuck we hadn't even had a proper conversation yet.

I'm such a slut.

I don't know why I had reacted in the way I did, I hoped it wasn't just because he was hot, I didn't consider myself that shallow.

How was I going to manage seeing him again? I felt myself turn red at the thought.

Would he tell people what happened? Would he say how easy I was? How I had practically begged for it.

Shit, what would Alice think of me? He was her brother and I was all over him.

Fuck him. Fuck him and his pretty eyes and his gorgeous body and his beautiful smile.

He's a manwhore. He's arrogant, cocky, vain, dumb, cruel, did I say cocky already?

I fell asleep telling myself Edward Cullen meant absolutely nothing to me. Now I just had to make that true.

"Bella, you have class in thirty minutes, get up."

I felt my blanket being pulled from my grasp as Alice tried to drag me out of bed.

"I'm up, I swear."

"Well its no use being awake if you're gonna stay in bed, OUT NOW."

I used all the energy I had to get up and into the shower, as I stripped out of lasts night clothes I wondered when Alice would bring it up? I knew it was more of a when rather than would she.

The cold water forced the last bits of drowsiness out of me and as soon as I stepped out of the shower I was ready for the day.

Who gives a shit what anyone thinks, fuck 'em all.

I pulled on my denim wash shorts and an oversized blue sweater. I traded my black converse for white and pushed my hair to one side.

My outfit screamed normal. Maybe I'd go by unnoticed today, just maybe.

My wish went ungranted as I walked into class, I could feel the stares and hear the whispers. To them I would always be the crazy bitch who went karate kid on some girl.

So much for going unnoticed.

I took a lonely seat near the back, not wanting to be near anyone right now. Class didn't officially start for another three minutes so people were still entering.

A blonde kid with blue eyes sat down a seat away from me. He looked like the poster boy for a country club, he oozed rich.

I opened up my notebook ready to take notes on the amazing subject also known as Chemistry. Oh how I love it.

"Hey any chance you gotta pen?"

I looked to my right to see poster boy staring back at me, waiting for my answer. I dug deep into my bag and pulled out my back up and handed it to him without saying a word.

He smiled and turned back to his notebook. A few seconds passed and I could feel his eyes on me again.

"I'm Mike."

His smile was pretty in an Abercrombie & Fitch kinda way.

"Bella."

"Ooh the infamous Bella. You're the one who took out Sophie right?"

I didn't know whether to respond or to just ignore him. I did not want to be having this conversation right now.

"Blonde bimbo, about yey high?"

He lifted his arm as high as it could go and I couldn't help but laugh.

"She is pretty tall right?"

"Hell yeah, she intimidates the shit out of me, good on ya for what you did, she had it coming."

I decided I liked this Mike guy, he was probably the most genuine guy I'd met at college yet.

Before I could reply, our professor walked in and motioned for us all to be quiet.

Class dragged on, but I knew it was probably because chemistry wasn't exactly a favourite of mine.

Once it finished I got up to leave and was out the door before I heard Mike calling me. I stopped and turned and saw him waving my pen in his hand.

"Hey you almost forgot this. Thanks for letting me borrow it by the way."

"Oh, don't worry about it, any time."

I popped the pen back into my bag and headed to the cafeteria, I was in need of some late breakfast. Mike fell in to step beside me and I found myself thankful for the company. It was definitely easier to handle the stares when someone was with me.

"So are you from around here or?"

"Phoenix, what about you?"

"About 15 minutes away."

"Wow you sure took a risk coming this far away from home."

His smile turned into a laugh as he nervously scratched at his blonde hair.

"Most of the people from my highschool came here, I guess I just wasn't ready for a change. You, on the other hand."

"Oh I was definitely ready for a change, I wanted a new scenery, new people, new everything."

"Well how are you finding it so far? We don't have weather like Phoenix but there are some perks here."

"Its great, I haven't had a chance to explore the city as much as I wanted to, but from what I've seen its pretty awesome."

"Maybe I could show you around sometime, I know this place that does the best cheeseburgers ever."

"Hmm, I don't know."

"Oh shit, I'm sorry. Do you have a boyfriend?"

As we walked into the cafeteria I could hear the hushed tones, all eyes were on us and I was getting sick of it. I headed for the counter and picked up a cream cheese bagel and a bag of green grapes. Food for the brain.

Once we sat down I ignored the funny looks and focused on Mike.

"No, I'm a vegetarian."

I kept my expression dead straight, trying my best not to laugh as Mikes face dropped.

"I'm just kidding. I'd love to check out the city with you one day."

He began to laugh once again and I felt my earlier tension leave. Mike was a nice guy, he was safe, he was a distraction. He was exactly what I needed right now.

I began to chow down my cream cheese bagel, my stomach had become ravenous in the past few minutes and I hadn't realised just how hungry I was.

"You got a little cheese." Mike pointed to the corner of my mouth.

I lifted my hand to wipe around my mouth but Mike was in there before me, brushing the cheese off with his thumb.

"Thanks." I mumbled with my mouth half full.

Alice and Jessica decided that was the time to join us as I watched them plonk down across us, sighing.

"Hey Mike."

"Alice, nice to see you."

"Wait you guys know eachother?"

"We went to the same highschool."

It made sense now, Alice had said she grew up around 15 minutes away from here too, I don't know why it hadn't clicked before.

"Oh well Mike that's Jessica, Jessica, this is Mike."

"I know. I-i mean, erm you're in my American Lit class."

Was Jessica blushing? It seems someone had a crush on Mike.

"Yeah I remember you, you sit at the front right?"

Jessicas face flushed a deeper pink as she fought out her words.

"Y-yep, that's me."

He nodded in response and then fell into a conversation with Alice about something to do with highschool.

"Hey sis."

Fuck. This was just what I needed. Act normal Bella, you were drunk and you don't remember.

I watched Alice look back and forth between us, obviously waiting for either one of us to do something.

"Edward, hi."

I carried on eating the rest of my bagel, ignoring his presence.

"Bella."

Go away.

"Edward, nice to see you."

There, I could be pleasant. Maybe now he'd fuck off.

"I was wondering if I could speak to you, alone."

No you can't.

"I'm kinda busy right now, how about later?"

I motioned towards my food and Mike, maybe he could take a hint.

"Its pretty important, that is unless you want me to just say it here infront of everyone?"

My hand froze mid air as I watched his eyes narrow in on me.

That little bastard.

I dropped the rest of my bagel and got up out of my seat.

"I'll be right back."

I walked out of the cafeteria not looking to see if he was following or not. When I got to a fairly deserted area I turned round ready to see what he had to say.

"What did you want to talk about?"

"Oh you know what I wanna talk about Bella."

"Hmm, I don't think I do. Maybe we co-"

"Last night."

"What happened last night? You know I don't remember anything! I guess it was all that alcohol."

"Bella you-"

"Wait, don't tell me. Did I show off my amazing dance skills? Is that what this is about? Shit, that's emba-"

Before I could finish off my sentence, Edward had me backed up against a wall, his head mere inches from mine.

"Don't try and tell me you don't remember what happened last night, I'm not dumb. I would have known if you was drunk."

My mind scrambled as I tried to find words to say. I couldn't focus with him this close to me.

Come on Bella, get it together. Think of safe, nice Mike.

"If you don't mind I don't have time for this, I'm busy."

"Ah busy with Mike eyh?"

How did he know Mike? Oh, same highschool.

"That's none of your business."

"Oh I think it is when less than 24 hours ago you were begging me to make you come and now I see you in there all over Mike."

"I was not all over Mike!"

"Really?! Well he was all over you."

"What the fuck is it to you?! I can do whatever the fuck I want."

"Stop swearing!"

God, he made me so fucking mad.

"I can fucking swear, if I fucking want to you jerk."

His golden eyes looked like they were on fire, I wished he'd just look away from me, but he didn't seem to want to take his eyes off me.

I pushed his chest back, ready to leave but I was stopped as his lips landed on mine.

Oh God, not again.

His hands cupped my cheeks, bringing my face closer to his. I wanted to rip myself away but his lips felt too good against mine.

I opened my lips, inviting his tongue into my mouth. I sucked at it, lost in the moment. I felt him groan against me, pushing his body onto mine.

"You taste so good."

I didn't really believe him considering I'd just been eating a cream cheese bagel but I let it slide.

"Mine, Bella. This is mine."

Wait, what? Woah, slow down there.

I pulled my lips from his, puzzled at his words.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"I don't like sharing Bella."

"This needs to stop. You need to stop touching me, kissing me, whatever, it all needs to stop."

I moved from him, needing space. He was too much for me right now.

"I don't want you going near Mike."

Was he serious?

"What the fuck are you even talking about? I can go near whoever I want to. I don't know what you think 'this' is but its finished. I don't want you coming anywhere near me."

You can do it, Bella.

"We all know that's not true."

His arms reached out for me but I took a step backwards so that I was out of reach.

"Just leave me alone Edward, I don't know what it is you think you're doing but it finishes today."

"Will you fuck him?"

"WHAT? Fuckyou Edward, you're such a fucking ass!"

"Will you let him touch you like I did? He won't be able to make you come like I can Bella, remember that."

"Well if my memory preserves me, you didn't do a great job when it came to that anyway! So anyone would be a step up compared to you, even fucking Mike!"

"Ahh so you do remember? One night Bella, one night and I'll guarantee you, you won't get better than me."

"You cocky bastard, you're so full of yourself. I don't plan on being another notch on your bedpost so you better quit it right now. I fucking mean it. Don't come anywhere near me."

I walked off, not waiting for his reply. No doubt it'd just anger me a whole lot more than I already was.

I watched the questioning stares as I walked back to the table.

"Hey, what was that about?"

Poor Jessica had no idea. She hadn't been at the party and probably hadn't heard about anything that happened.

"Oh he just wanted to see if I was okay after last night."

"What happened last night?"

I ignored Alices stare and delved into the story about me and 'Sophie'.

In a couple months I'd look back at all of this and laugh at how crazy it was. It would be a distant memory. I just knew it.

A/N - make my day and review please :)