Authors Note:
Hey guys!
I feel like it's been so long, well I guess it has. I haven't updated this story in nearly five months and I'm so sorry, seriously. But don't worry guys, I haven't forgotten about it.
I've just been so busy with two of my other stories, 'Broken' and 'Deal with the Devil'. From now on, I promise to update this story at least once a month.
I really hope the wait has been worth it, and I hope you guys enjoy this chapter.
Chapter Eleven
"I'm not feeling it." I say, looking at myself in the body length mirror.
"Are you kidding me? Bella you look hot!"
We both jump as a loud bang threatens to break down our door. I look at the clock to see it's only six fourty-five, he's early.
"That must be him!"
Alice rushes to the door and flings it open, but it isn't Edward on the other side, it's an angry blonde.
"What's this I hear about my baby sister going out with the college manwhore? No offence Alice. Is it true Bella?"
"None taken." She says rolling on the balls of her feet.
Shit, I didn't think about Rosalie.
"It's true, me and Edward are together." I stumble over the last few words and Rosalie looks at me skeptically. It's harder to admit out loud than I thought it would be.
"You've chosen Edward as your first boyfriend? Seriously Bella?!" Her voice is full of skepticism.
"Wait, you've never had a boyfriend before?"
Great time to blurt out my lack of dating life Rose.
"It's no biggy, we're taking it slow for now, and no Alice, I've never had a boyfriend."
"Oh fuck me, you're done for." Rose and I both turn to Alice in shock. Did she really just swear?
"Bella, this is my brother we're talking about here, if I knew he'd be your first boyfriend, I wouldn't have welcomed the idea so much! He's a vulture when it comes to girls."
"He's not that bad guys, seriously, just trust me on this." The door knocks on queue, I pick at my leather shorts and smooth out my peplum top before opening it.
His eyes rake me from head to toe and I can't help but feel like the sexiest girl alive. He laughs when he sees my keds but extends his hand for me to take.
I put my hand in his and he pulls me towards him whispering in my ear.
"You look good enough to eat."
He nips at my ear and I melt into him. Alice was right, I'm done for.
"Right, listen here Cullen, just because me and your brother have a mutual understanding, does not mean I'm happy about you and Bella here, you fuck with her feelings and I swear to God, I'll rip your balls off and feed you them."
He nods once before smirking at me.
"Edward can I speak with you before you go." I almost forget about Alice, who looks extremely worried right now. I wonder if she'll give him a pep talk of her own?
"Sure sis."
She walks him out of the dorm room and down the hall, far enough so that I can't hear. I turn back to Rosalie who immediately grabs me by the shoulders.
"You're okay right? This isn't some weird rebellious thing you're doing because you're away from home right? Dad will kill me if he finds out I let you date the manwhore who gets you heartbroken."
If only she knew. "I'm fine, honestly. Plus we all know I'm the one looking after you." I'm joking with her but she turns serious all of a sudden.
"I'm not kidding Bella, Dad told me before we left that if I don't look out for you he'd be mega upset... and take my car off me. So I'm obliged to make sure you're okay."
Didn't Dad know I was the mature one? That I could handle myself? Why was he worried?
"Thanks but everything's good. You never know, I might end up being the one breaking hearts."
This time she laughs at my joke before giving me a quick hug. All of this is starting to feel like prom, with Rose and Alice acting like my overbearing parents, it'd almost be sweet if this night wasn't only for show.
"You ready Bella?" I turn to see Edward standing in the doorway with Alice walking in close behind him. I nod before grabbing my phone and follow him outside.
We walk towards his car, the make is one I don't even recognise so I know its expensive. Way too expensive for a college student to be driving.
"How did you manage to afford this?"
"Graduation present."
"Wow, all I got was a $50 gift card for Barnes & Noble, which I have to say I enjoyed thoroughly."
"You read?"
"All the time, I go through a book like that." I snap my fingers to show him just how fast I read a book.
"Impressive."
I shrug my shoulders suddenly feeling very shy, no-ones ever complimented me before, even if it is about my reading skills.
I fiddle with my seatbelt, trying to think of something to say to break the silence that's fallen between us.
"You know-" "So I wa-"
We both look at eachother, stopping our sentences, waiting for the other to speak first. The atmosphere is tense, our nerves visible in every way.
"You go fi-" "Sorry, wh-"
It's weird seeing Edward just as nervous as me, when he's normally so cocky and confident. It's almost, dare I say, cute?
"Ok, stop. Whatever this is, just stop it. This is all for show right, we can't spend the rest of the night like this. People will figure out that something is dodgy." I state, trying to make myself sound as logical as I can.
"It's you! I've never been on a date before, you're making me feel nervous."
His words shock me. I didn't expect him to be this nervous, but as I study him I realise he's off his game. This isn't hot-shot Edward who girls fawn over. This is something else altogether.
"Wow, and there's me thinking you weren't human. Why do I make you nervous?"
He shrugs his shoulders, blushing. "I don't know."
"Oh my God, are you blushing!?"
"No!" He says, way too quickly for me to believe him.
We pull up outside another frat house, I open my door and get out quickly before Edward considered opening my door for me. We may be keeping up a facade now, but some things were way too romantic.
"So how are we going to do this?" I ask him, genuinely intrigued as to how a girl went about being the girlfriend of Edward Cullen.
"Erm, we mingle, drink, till we're drunk dance, kiss, pass out?"
I push him lightly on his shoulder. Our nerves passing as the minutess went by. "I meant me pretending to be your girlfriend. What am I supposed to do?"
"I'm sure you've had experience on being someones girlfriend? Just do your thing."
Oh if only he knew. I look over at the house we're approaching, trying to stay clear of the drunk bodies while going through a plan in my head.
I could pretend to be a girlfriend right? It can't be that hard.
"Wait, what's that look? You have had a boyfriend before right?"
"Yeah! Of course I have. What do you take me for?" But I realise my mistake in replying too quickly. Plus I'm being way too defensive, I've just blown my cover.
"Wow. So I'm your first boyfriend? Wait a second!" His eyes bulge as realisation hits him. Already, I know what's coming next. "Does that mean you're a virgin?" He whispers to me.
I ignore him and try to find someone I know in the masses of people. I'm pretty sure Mike was here tonight and frankly a familiar face was what I needed right now.
I spot him by the keg stand, cheering on another guy who looked close to passing out. I head over to him but I don't get far as I'm pulled back by someone.
I look down at my hand and see that it's connected to Edwards. "Is that really necessary?" I say sighing.
The last thing I wanted was for our 'relationship' to be so open for others to see. But then wasn't that the whole point of this fake relationship?
"It most certainly is. Come on." He pulls me in the opposite direction of Mike and towards the back doors. We head towards a group of people, all smoking and drinking.
I see Jasper talking to a red head, and make sure to keep an eye on him for Alices sake. Edward follows my gaze and laughs quietly before lighting up a fag. He offers me one but I decline with a sneer.
"What's up with that?" I ask, tilting my head towards Jasper and the red head.
He shrugs before blowing smoke right into my face. I wave it away and turn so that I'm not on the receiving end of his fag.
"Jasper does what he wants. He doesn't have to answer to me. Boys aren't like girls when it comes to that shit."
I groan in frustration, how fucking stereotypical. "Girls aren't like that either. We just tend to care about our friends and like for them to be on the straight and narrow. Anyhow, I didn't mean that, I mean Alice and Jasper."
"Since when was there an Alice and Jasper?" His eyebrows furrow and I realise he probably didn't know about his baby sister and his bestfriend.
"Oh, I think I'm confusing myself. Forget I said anything." I say quickly, hoping he'll forget everything and drop it.
"No, wait. What do you mean? Is there something I should know?" His voice becomes harder, full of worry and maybe even anger.
Fuck Bella, you need to learn when to shut your mouth, seriously.
I try to think fast, searching for something that will take Edwards mind off what I just said. There's no way I can fuck things up with Alice already. She was the only proper friend I had and dammit, I was enjoying her company.
Before I can think of anything Edward is stepping on his cigarette and walking towards Jasper. I pull him back and do the first thing I can think of.
I can sense the shock in him as my lips descend on him but it doesn't last long. It's fast, hard and I definitely look as I'm enjoying myself, but I blame it on saving my friendship with Alice and our need to keep up this facade.
It has nothing to do with me actually enjoying his soft lips against mine, or the slight nips he's giving me, taunting, teasing.
We pull apart but stay close, our foreheads against one anothers, our breaths mingling.
"I know what you're trying to do." He says at last.
His words don't shock me though. Of course he knows what I was doing. "Is it working?" I ask, hopeful that his answer is yes.
"I don't know, let's try it one more time." I feel myself get giddy at the idea of his lips on mine again but a voice cuts through my bubble.
"Edward, honey. Is that you?"
We both turn, him groaning, to see Tanya walking upto us. Bottle in one hand, cup in the other. Although I don't know why she has a cup when she's drinking straight from the bottle.
She stumbles on the one step as she makes her way towards us. She's far from sober, and by the looks of her mascara, she's an emotional drunk.
"Baby, been looking everywhere for you."
"Tanya, I'm busy." His voice is stern, almost like he's scolding her, but she's none the wiser.
"Come on, free room upstairs, let's go." She pulls at his hand, but he doesn't move.
"No, now go home." I can tell he's starting to get annoyed.
Welcome to my world.
"I can't, came alone. Can't drive. I'm drunk." She whispers the last bit as if it's some sort of secret, even though it's pretty obvious to everyone she's drunk.
Edward sighs, clearly frustrated with her.
"I'm sorry, I'm going to have to take her home, if I don't, she'll try and drive herself home." He says, looking at me.
I can't help the disappointment that hits me. This was my first official 'date' with him, and he was leaving without me. Leaving instead with the girl everyone knew wanted him.
I ignore the voice that tries to remind me this is all fake anyway. Just because it's fake, it doesn't mean it hurts any less.
Part of me wants to shout at Edward and ask why he can't get someone else to drop her off home, but he's obviously doing it himself for a reason. I have no right to question what he does.
Afterall we're not really a couple.
"Wait here a second." He says after I nod at him, confirming that it's fine for him to take her home.
He heads in Jaspers direction and I stand there waiting, with Tanya.
"It won't last long you know."
I look up from the floor and towards Tanya, who seems way too sober right now.
"Excuse me?"
"You and Edward. He'll get bored, I'm assuming you haven't fucked yet. Once you do, he'll be done with you. Ask anyone around here. No-ones managed to keep a hold of Edward, you're nothing special. Don't think you're capable of it."
I'm too stunned to respond to her. Her words had a sense of meaning to them. Guys liked the chase, they liked the game, and Edward was the biggest player of them all.
But this was all fake, so why should I worry about him dropping me? We had a deal, I was the one doing the dumping and we weren't ever going to have sex.
I had nothing to worry about.
"He'll come back to me. He always does." And then all of a sudden she becomes the drunk, soppy girl she was minutes ago.
I don't have to wonder why she's back to being drunk as I hear Edwards voice behind me.
"Jasper will drop you back to your dorm Bella. Bye." He kisses me on the cheek and then walks off, pulling Tanya by the hand.
I stare at their backs.
Not even a 'seeyou later', or a 'I had a nice time' or a 'I'll call you'. Just a simple bye.
I repeat Tanyas words in my head. Was all of this a joke to him? Was there some kind of big master plan I didn't know of? Was it all a ploy for him to get me into bed?
"She's right you know."
"What? Who?" I say loud, looking at Jasper who's following my gaze.
"Tanya." No explanation, just her name.
"How do you know what she said?" He wasn't anywhere near us, there's no way he could have heard.
"i've known Tanya and Edward a long time. Just be careful."
Tanya and Edward. Tanya and Edward.
I ignore the pangs I start to feel in my chest and head out of the party, hoping Jasper is following me.
If his bestfriend was warning me against him then facade or no facade, I was staying the hell away from Edward Cullen.
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