It had been two years since my life took a right turn into hell. The world I once knew was gone. The Akatsuki ruled every single Great Nation. I spent my days locked away in a room. Its been two years since I've seen the outside, and things with Pein just got worse each day. I had become his "personal slave", meaning I did whatever and anything he asked. I wish I could just sleep all day, but Pein made that impossible.
Everyday I was in pain. My whole body ached to the point where I almost couldn't move. I had bruises all over my body. I was Pein's little precious pet. And he was constantly putting me down, calling me "worthless", and "whore". Hearing it for two years, I got used to it. I had even started convincing myself it was true.
I was kept away in Pein's room as usual, just dreading for him to get back. And the sad thing is, the more I saw Pein, the more I fell for him. I questioned if what I felt for him was love. But then I thought, was I going crazy? How could I possibly love someone who only brings pain to me?
Suddenly, the door burst open, and I saw that familiar orange hair. I scooted back on the bed, hugging my knees. I stayed silent, not daring to make a sound. I tried stopping my body from trembling. Pein plopped down the bed, putting his head in his hands. I kept silent, but everything in me wanted to comfort him. He looked over at me, our eyes locking for a few seconds until I looked away, hiding my red cheeks. He scooted closer to me, putting his hand on my thigh, making my heart race. He placed his lips on my neck, biting down hard. I shut my eyes tight, holding in the pain. When Pein pulled away, I could feel the blood trickle down my neck. Pein slammed his lips on mine, grabbing onto my face. The kiss was wet and sloppy, and I was trying my best not to get lost in the moment. My hands fidgeted, wanting to grip his hair so bad.
Pein pushed me back hard on the bed, climbing on top of me. His hands explored all of my body, and then daring to go under my skirt. And suddenly, I pushed him away hard. I knew the consequences of what I had just done. I felt the sharp pain across my face.
"You worthless piece of shit." Pein muttered. The words hurt, but I held it in. Pein then gripped onto my wrist, dragging me out the door.
We had reached the prison of the hideout, and Pein tossed me into a cell. I fell to the ground, just laying there. My body hurt too much to move, and I let a few tears slip from my eyes.
"Get used to these bars, you'll be spending the rest of your life around them."
Pein said. The cold ground was uncomfortable, but I was in too much pain to care.
"You're a worthless whore," Pein uttered the words into my ear. "You're nothing to me but trash." He scoffed, looking at me one last time before he turned away.
My heart began to slow down it's pace when I saw him walk away from me and back into the Akatsuki meeting room. I sat there fidgeting with my skirt that was oh-so-torn and now completely uncomfortable.
Then, my heart stopped. That handsome man who treated me like dirt returned with an irritated look in his eye.
"You're worthless," He told me countless times.
"I know," I muttered in response, lowering my head to look at the cell's stone cold floor. He cocked his head to the left, slamming his fist against the impenetrable wall. His mood changed, and he sunk to the floor pathetically.
"I'm sorry," He'd grovel. It wasn't enough though to make up for all the abuse that sometimes I'd partially enjoy. When I wouldn't forgive him, the cycle would start all over again. 'The cycle of hatred.'
"It's okay." I whispered, not making eye contact with him. The stone cold bars separated us. I stared into Pein's cold eyes, but they were filled with sorrow. I wanted to reach out and touch him. Everything in me was screaming to do it, and I couldn't take it anymore. I stretched my arm out, beyond the bars, barely touching his face. His skin was soft, and I gently rubbed it with my thumb. Pein's eyes seemed to be filled with more sorrow. He put his hand over mine, shutting his eyes. I could have sworn I saw a tear slip from his eye.
Suddenly, Pein stood up quickly, rushing out of the room. I sat there, my arm still stretched out. I slowly brought it back, letting all of the tears slip from my eyes. I dropped my head, and I was once again staring at the cold, stone ground. I could see my tears hitting the ground, making small puddles. I spent the rest of the day and night crying.
I woke up the next morning, as usual, my whole body hurt. I opened my eyes to see two people standing by the doorway that led to the prison. It was Konan and Itachi.
"Ugh." I muttered, trying to move. My vision was blurry, and all my senses were off.
"Look, she's awake." Itachi said, looking over at Konan. Her face stayed straight, her eyes locked on me. I sat up, clutching my stomach. I leaned against the wall, laying my head back. I looked down at my legs, covered in bruises. My long pink hair caressed my face. It had grown down to my breast the past two years. I suddenly heard the door of the cell open, I looked up to see Itachi walking in. He sat down in front of me, placing his hand on my leg. I didn't look up at him, almost afraid to.
"What do you want…?" I muttered. Itachi caressed my cheek, making a rush go through my whole body.
"Are you okay?" Itachi whispered. He was the only other person I really got to talk to. It was like he was my only friend I had left now.
"You shouldn't be in here. Pein would be upset if he saw you in here." I muttered. Itachi chuckled, smiling.
"He won't know."
"He always finds out." I murmured, looking at Itachi now. A sly smile came across Itachi's face. Then, Itachi threw his arms around me, pulling me onto his lap. His embrace was tight and warm. I wrapped my arms around him, gently gripping onto his hair. It felt good to hug someone for once. I couldn't help but let the tears stream down my face.
"Shhh." Itachi whispered, petting my head, and running his fingers through my hair.
"Run away with me Sakura. Let me take you away from this place. Let me take you away from all this pain." Itachi whispered in my ear. Oh how I wish I could, but I knew if I did Pein would hunt us down and kill us both.
"You know I can't do that." I muttered. I brought my arms back, laying my head on his chest, and placing my hands in my lap.
Suddenly I heard someone burst through the door, and my heart started to race. I saw that familiar orange hair rushing in. Pein stood there, infuriated.
"Itachi, what the hell do you think you're doing?" Pein muttered, clenching his teeth. I scooted off of Itachi's lap and back against the wall, hugging my knees. Itachi stood up and walked out, brushing past Pein.
"Something you'll never be capable of doing." Itachi whispered, and then walked out the door.
"Sakura.." Pein murmured, his gaze suddenly directed at me. I lowered my eyes so they met the floor, and I was silent.
"You disappoint me Sakura." Pein said sternly. Pein walked into the cell, and punched me hard across the face. He pushed me down on the ground, climbing on top of me. My heart began racing, fear going through my whole body. Pein ripped off my shirt, feeling my whole upper body. I felt uncomfortable, and wincing every time he'd grope me. Pein gripped onto my chin hard, forcing me to look at him. His lips met mine, hard, and he kept biting my lip hard. His midsection would grind against mine, and I held in the moans the best I could.
Suddenly Pein pulled away, looking me up and down. I could have sworn I saw tears welling in his eyes. He stood up quickly, and rushed out the door. I laid there, confused. I grabbed my shirt, pulling it on.
Several minutes had gone by, and Pein hadn't come back. I didn't even hear anything from outside the door. I noticed he had left the cell door open. I stood up, walking slowly over to the door. Cautiously, I walked out of the prison and into the main hallway of the hideout. I hadn't been out here in months.
I had looked everywhere for Pein, but couldn't find him. And everyone else were on missions. I went to Pein's room and my heart literally stopped. In the middle of the room was a chair, and a rope hanging above it. Pein was standing on the chair, holding the rope.
"PEIN DON'T!" I shrieked. He looked over, tears spilling down his face. I rushed over to him, tackling him to the ground. I laid there on top of him, breathing heavy. I stared into his hypnotizing eyes. Sweat ran down my face. I sighed, laying my head down on his chest. I gripped onto to Pein's shirt, tears streaming down my face.
"Pein, don't you dare leave me." I whispered. Then, he did something I had longed for him to do to. He wrapped his arms around me, hugging me tight.
Pein sat up, cradling me in his lap. I wrapped my arms around him, gripping his hair gently. I pulled away, looking into Pein's eyes, and they were staring back at me. I looked away from his gaze, hiding my pink cheeks. Pein gripped my chin gently, making me look at him. He pulled me in for a kiss, and it wasn't like any kiss before. It was passionate, and with meaning. For once I didn't have to just endure, I let my hands explore his back, sometimes lifting up his shirt to feel his muscles. And for once, I heard a small moan come from Pein. I smirked, moving my hands up to his hair and gripping hard. I pulled away, Pein picked me up carrying me to the bed. He laid me down gently, climbing on top of me. He looked down at me, and looked away suddenly. I put my hand on his cheek.
"I know I can't make up for the times I've hurt you Sakura, and to be honest, I'll probably hurt you again. I can't continue to do this. I'm sorry Sakura. But I can't get attached to someone, and then end up hurting them in the end. Because that's all I've ever done. Hurt people." Pein said, his eyes filling with hurt and sorrow. Tears fell from my eyes. I sat up, almost pushing Pein off of me. He stood up, heading for the door.
"Pein, wait!" I yelled, getting up. He stopped, cocking his head back to me.
"Please, just don't say anything." He muttered. "I can't expect someone like you to understand anything about me." He added. I felt a sharp pain in my chest, I clutched it, feeling like my heart would burst out.
"Pein, I'm sorry I'm in love with you. I can't help but fall in love with you. No matter how many times you hurt me, I'll always love you." I blurted out. Pein turned around, surprised.
"No…" He muttered. I gave him a confused look. "DON'T SAY YOU LOVE ME! YOU CAN'T POSSIBLY LOVE ME!" Pein yelled loudly.
"I DO! I DON'T KNOW WHY, BUT I JUST DO! WHY CAN'T YOU EXCEPT THAT?!" I yelled back. Pein walked up to me, grabbing me by the throat. I coughed, gasping for air.
"YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'VE DONE FOR YOU!" He yelled, he threw me against the wall. He walked up to me, striking me across the face.
"How can you say something like that?" I muttered. Pein frowned at me.
"What do you mean?" He asked.
"HOW CAN YOU SAY YOU'VE DONE THINGS FOR ME?! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE FOR ME?! ALL YOU'VE DONE IS BRING PAIN AND HEARTBREAK TO ME! SO DON'T YOU DARE SAY YOU'VE 'DONE THINGS FOR ME'!" I yelled, standing up. Pein lowered his head, clenching his fist.
"SHUT UP!" He yelled. Suddenly, a blast of wind came from him. It pushed me back, sending me flying. I hit the wall with my back, almost feeling like it broke. I coughed hard, blood coming up. I laid on the ground, motionless. I puked up blood, clutching my stomach.
I could feel my body shutting down. My vision was starting to get blurry. I coughed and more blood came up. I tried moving, but it was useless. Besides, what was the point? If I were to live, what good would come of that? More pain brought down on me. A smile stretched across my face, the thought of finally being free from this hell. I would finally get to see Naruto, Ino, and Hinata again. I could feel everything starting to go black. For some reason, I managed these last words:
"I love you Pein." I whispered to myself. Then, everything went black.