I sighed to myself, Ryuu. Why did this happen. I looked out at the surroundings of Shigure's house. I wanted that horrible person to know exactly how I feel yet I wanted to let go of him. who keeps a hold of these types of things for so long? And yet I did not want to let it go of them at all. I wanted to show that I am strong, I did not want to be someone who kept feeling like this for so long. And yet I wanted to tell him that I still loved him. I wanted him to know how I felt everyday of my life whenever he ever came up. The fact that my hear beats faster and my mind journeys to a place that only he brings me to, and yet I could not get myself to do either. I needed to do something about this, and soon.

"Alright just do it then, tell your feelings. You said you wanted to talk so talk. Tell me…" I felt a tear threaten in my eye. I was sitting across the table from Ryuu at the old cafe in town. Yes, I had told him that I wanted to talk, but I was not sure on where to begin, how to start. So I said what I had had on my mind the past few days.

"You lied to me." It only came out in a whisper, a mere whisper and yet I am sure he heard it. "you lied to me Ryuu. You said you were different. You said that you were not like anyone else, that you were different from all of those other guys and yet all I see is another stupid boy who gets himself into situations that he can not get himself out of." Then the tears started. I hated when this happened.

"But Tohru I-" I put my hand up to stop him.

"I told you I had never had real good luck with guys, and you told me that you weren't those guys. You said you were different from all of them. That you weren't like any of them. And I believed you. So we went on with our relationship. All along I was thinking we were something special." I whipped a tear off of my cheak. Both embaressed for crying in public and mad at him.

"But, I guess you aren't different? But whatever Ryuu. I can not handle this right now, so I am going to go and I will- no I wont see you anytime soon." I scowled at him. "Goodbye, and good riddance." I walked away, crying my eyes out. I could tell people were watching me. Why was it that I could not get over a stupid boy, that all along we were special and then he just ended it. It had hurt when I had found out he had never really liked me. That he had felt that way and had waited a few weeks to see if it had ever changed. All I needed was a warm cup of tea and a good friend.

"I swear to god he does anything and I am going to-" I walked into the room as Kyo and Shigure were having a diuscussiong-oops. I smiled.

"Something that I can help you two with?" They smiled at me, it felt a little akward.

"Um, no. Everything is okay." I smiled again as Yuki came into the room.

"Ah Yuki, how are you?" He smiled at me, I knew that something had to be wrong in some way or another with all of them, But I wasn't really sure. Plus I did not want to seem too forward and ask a ton of questions. Then Kyo caught on to my red eyes.

"Tohru? Tohru are you okay? You look like you have been crying." He had fallowed me into the kitchen, I could hear Yuki and Shigure discussing things in the other room.

"Um-I…I just. No, Nothing is…A lot is wrong actually…" I looked up at him. He knew I was lying. Somehow he knew I was lying.

"I…. I saw Ryuu at the Coffe shop.He and I,we-we talked but It. It really did not end very well." I felt the tear come into my eye. I frowned.. No- No crying.

"Tohru…" He looked down into my eyes. How can he always tell? What is it with this person? How is it he can tell when everything inside has crumbled down…how can he see me for who I am….?

"Tohru it is all alright." Then, he hugged me. And he is so warm, his hold so soft….so caring….

"Ryuu is not worth your tears. He is not even worth your time." I nodded.

"Oh Kyo, you are right. And yet why is it that I can not get over all this? Why can I not weld my broken heart shut?" He smiled down at me, I frowned.

"This is so not something to be happy about Kyo…" And yet, he still smiled.

"You are completely right, this is not a happy matter, but you just look so cute." I stuck my bottom lip out, not happy that even though I had just gone through a total mental breakdown, he was smiling.

I think, the more I try to get over Ryuu the more he keeps on coming to haunt me. And yet when I get farther from Ryuu, Kyo gets closer. I am not sure if this is something that I want to be happy and joyous about, or timid and afraid about.But in time that could be thought over.

I watched as he let go of me and got the carton of milk out of the fridge. I rolled my eyes. "Have you heard from Hana and Uo lately? I mean, they are your best friends." I smiled slightly. He laughed at my expression

"No, actually I have not heard from either of them, although since we have been out of High school the three of us have not seen each other in ages, I wonder if they have changed a lot? Or if they have not even changed at all." I pondered at the thought as Kyo drank his milk. He smiled.

"Well, maybe all of us can go out and do something sometime? You, me, Hana, Uo and even that damned Yuki could come too." I smiled, he and Yuki were at least trying to get along, even if the two used to fight constantly before.

So, maybe it isn't that bad Kyo and I are getting closer, but am I afraid of what could maybe happen?

"Miss Honda?" I looked up. Yuki stood in front of me. I smiled. "Do you have any idea what time it is?" I blushed slightly.

"11:03?" He looked at me, flabbergasted. "How on earth did you-"

"I can see the clock behind you Yuki." I smiled. "But I was merely up, just thinking but I am off to bed now." I smiled.

"Miss Honda? Have you been okay lately? I mean, you just went through that whole thing with Ryuu and you are always hideing emotions from everyone…I am blabbing aren't I?" He smiled, I laughed softly. "What I mean to say is if you ever need someone to talk to about something I am here." I smiled at him.

"I do know that, thank you Yuki." Then I walked up the stairs but turned to face him again. "Good night." He smiled

"Good night Miss Honda" And then I went to bed, today had been a long day, Kyo and I talked, I had been up a long time thinking. But what really makes me happy is I do have so many people to talk to if I truly need a friend to help me. And Yuki is no exception

WOW first authors not, right? Well I do not remember But I highly doubt I have put any disclaimers up. But I do not own Fruba and I own this fic…um that makes sense right?...no not really but oh well. Hopefully you all like this a lot and I hope this shows she is still recovering from the incident-well break up. And I say this for my one reviewer who really halped me with this chappie….. I do apologize though for this chapter being short-I hope that you like it either way

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