Thank you for the reviews... and I'm happy that someone cried... as odd as that sounds...

And about the lack o' update, I haven't had computer access for a while so forgive me...?

Shinn's red eyes darted over to the gifts Athrun had given him. Some how he had managed to move anything that reminded him of Athrun into a corner of his bed room. Which he now tenderly renamed the 'no mans zone' and refused to go in there if he didn't have too.

He hated the feeling that he got every time that he thought about it. Everything Athrun said must've been a lie.

He gritted his teeth, he sat limply in the corner furthest from the 'no mans zone' in his living room. He completely blamed Kira. Had that ass hole shut his mouth and butt-out then none of this would've happened... would it?

Shinn sighed lightly, allowing the last thing Athrun said to fill his head.

'Impure.'

What the hell did that mean anyways?!

Athrun yawned, he hadn't been sleeping well do to his work and leaving things so unresolved with Shinn. He shook his head of any thoughts of his former lover.

He just needed to talk to someone.

A smile touched his features. It felt almost unknown to his tired face. Lunamaria was always willing to listen to people talk, seeing as Lacus wasn't really impressed with him, and band him from her house for a while. Who knew she would feel so strongly about something like this?

Athrun lightly scolded himself for thinking that, Lacus had a right to be mad at him, what he to Shinn did was unforgivable.

He was more than happy that he didn't have anything better to do then see an old friend...

Shinn wasn't too sure why he was thinking over this, why he had not banished Kira from his mind, why he couldn't let go. But Kira seemed so concerned for his friend.

Slowly Shinn looked over at the ringing phone. Piercing his perfect silence, why wouldn't people just let him wallow in his misery? Finally he got up; sure that it was Lunamaria on the other line.

"Hello?" Shinn asked in the most unhappy voice he could summon.

"Hey... ah Shinn...?" Came the voice of Kira, there was a pause. "I wanted to know how you were doing."

How could Kira just call him like that when he was thinking about him! Honestly, the man had no reason appearing (even if it was just his voice) when people were angry at him. Shinn waited to reply, he had to think of something other than what he really was feeling.

"... I'm... fine..." Shinn half lied, finding that the slight waver in his voice betrayed him.

There was silence on the other end; Shinn wanted so badly just to hang up, but for some reason, he just clutched the phone tighter.

"I see." Kira finally responded, his voice almost soothing. "I know you never gave me your number, but I got it from... someone... and I thought that since I had it... you know..." Shinn already knew who that 'someone' was.

"Hmm..."

"Umm... I-I... there was something else I forgot to mention... when I... Had you pinned... and I'm sorry about that but there was no other way I'd get you to listen to me..." Shinn smiled lightly, Kira sounded like and idiot trying to come up with reasons for his actions. But Kira was right. Had he not been so unreasonable, Shinn wouldn't have listened...

For the most part anyways.

Lunamaria glared, and oh was that one hell f a glare; the girl could put a hole through you in a matter of moments. Athrun slowly took a step back, not wanting to be in arms reach of the girl.

"You son-of-a-bitch!" She shouted at her door, all Athrun could think was how thankful he was they weren't anywhere that public. "I can't believe you!" She shrieked her voice going a little too high too show her anxiety. "And you have the nerve to just show up on my door step after what you did! I promised Shinn that everything would be okay, so you're going to help me fix this!" She almost took a good swing at him, yet the step Athrun took earlier saved him from any harm.

"I-I didn't do anything... wrong..." Athrun chanced; wincing once the girl just pulled him inside the house. What was he thinking?

"You're going to apologize, that's the only right thing to do, you're going to apologize and make things right, after that, you should piss off because I would never forgive you if I were Shinn!"

Yes indeed, what was he thinking?

Shinn was now sitting on the floor, holding onto the phone as if it could save him, Kira's voice tried it's best to stop his crying, but the voice seemed so detached. His lungs ached from the uneven takes of air, his heart hurt from the several wounds that had left, and throat sore from all this. How could Athrun be so cruel? How can one person make such an influence on his life for that reason? Why the hell did he care so much that this was all happening, why won't it all just...

Go away...?

Kira sighed; one could almost hear the frown that was on his face. "Tell you what Shinn, I'll come over and keep you company for a whi-"

"This is... entirely your fault then..." Shinn said softly, cutting him off

"... Yes..." Kira finally said was Shinn was waiting to hear, it only made him feel worse.

"The-then... I never... want to even... hear your n-name..." Shinn managed between gasps for air, he slowly leaned his head against the wall "All you seem to be able... to do, is poison everything... and kill what your hands touch..." Shinn almost whispered placing the phone on the receiver.

Kira stood there, eyes wide and mind trying to process what had been said. Did he really kill everything?

The dial tone soon sounded on his end.

Athrun found that Shinn had locked his door, but somehow that didn't seem unusual, although some part of him seemed a little disappointed. He took a breath and calmly knocked on the door. He waited for a while but no one answered.

His lips formed a thin line; he missed the way the door would swing open and Shinn would great him. Seeing as Shinn was on the second floor, getting to his window to see what was up would be a little harder.

Athrun tossed a rock at the sliding glass door that belonged to Shinn. This caught the red eyed boys' attention; He pushed himself away from the wall and walked over to the glass door. He opened it and stepped out onto the balcony to see who tossed the rock, or what he presumed to be one anyways. Shinn scanned the area for the culprit, once he found none he was about to go back in when Athrun chirped up.

"Shinn, hey..." He said awkwardly, the said boy gritted his teeth, what was Athrun doing hear, and was the one that tossed that bloody rock?

"... A-Athrun..." Shinn mimicked almost coldly, intent on going back inside.

"I'm sorry... ok?" The blue haired male said a desperate tone to his voice. Shinn sighed and turned around, Athrun stood there, looking truly sorry... but that... that just... did he mean it...? "I don't know what I was thinking... I love you Shinn..." Athrun bit his lip. Sure he had been thinking of Shinn a lot more often, but did that actually mean love? Did the pain in his chest contribute to the idea of his mind?

God he hoped so.

Shinn stood their; Athrun looked so... well... Athrun, just perfect for who he was...

"... You know... a few days ago... I can remember... telling myself: that I wished so badly that you'd come back, wanting to know what the hell it is that I did wrong... I wanted... I wanted you so badly... oh god I would've given up the world just to kiss you..." he paused "Tell me Athrun... so it doesn't eat away at me... any longer..."

"I'll tell you anything you want to hear..." Athrun tried; taking a step forward.

"Was I just a toy...?" Shinn started tiredly, a small smile traced his face despite himself.

"... What?" Athrun asked, not too sure of what her just heard.

"You know... A toy, a replacement for something that you wanted but couldn't have..." Shinn leaned against the wall. Waiting for Athrun to come up with what he wanted to hear. Yet he himself was torn between which on he wanted.

"... Shinn... I won't lie to you... so... yes... at first, but then I couldn't do it anymore, I couldn't let this impure me touch you when you wanted only me. I couldn't let you become so consumed with something that wasn't real, it hurt. I can recall going home and wanting nothing to do with myself because of this. Shinn, I want so badly for you to be happy... but I can promise you that... I won't ever do that again..." Shinn could see the tears, Athrun was getting all chocked up about this and it hurt more than anything to see tears on the face of the one person he loved more than life itself. "S-Shinn... I really love you..."

"... You're right... about one thing..." Shinn had too look away from Athrun, or risk his own tears again. He ignored the last thing said "It won't happen again... for one simple reason... I don't want to see you again." Shinn said softly "Nothing you could possibly do could make up for what you did. And I know it sounds cruel Athrun, but I'll see you in hell." With that Shinn opened the glass door and left Athrun alone in the cold.

Why did tonight, of all nights, have to be so fucking cold? Why did tonight of all nights, did his heart seem to break?

"S-Shinn..." Athrun called after him, even though he couldn't hear. "I don't love him anymore..."

Ahh... the end...

I might make another ending, depends on how many people want me too.

Much love:

Chikara