That's why I'm here Chapter 4, a nashville fanfic

No place that far Sara Evans and Between the raindrops Lifehouse = NOT MINE... I finally figured out how to write this chapter thank you Natbenson for being there to help me find one of these songs...

I can't listen to country radio anymore because every time I turn it on one of Rayna's songs are on or some host is talking about her. I figured I see her every time I try to go to sleep I don't need to hear songs that I use to sing or play with her during the day. I didn't believe it was possible to miss her more than I did when she walked away but that was until I walked away myself. I keep thinking that if I hadn't had been a coward we could have gotten back together and thinking things like that breaks my heart even more. When the pain in my heart gets to bad I think about going and getting a drink to drown my sorrows but then I realize that drinking was the reason we are even in this mess.

Driving around Nashville because sitting in the house that Rayna use to share with me wasn't doing my broken heart any good, I saw a sign advertising the CMA with you guessed it Rayna Jaymes on it. Seeing that billboard reminded me of the first time Rayna had been nominated for a CMA, she couldn't believe it because the only person who didn't know how amazing she is was Rayna herself. She kept telling me up until the CMA night that she was happy just to be nominated because she didn't believe she had the chances to win. No matter how many times I told her she was amazing and that she deserved to win she never believed me. I guess the good thing about that was she wasn't like most celebrities who thought they were better than everybody, no Rayna was humble.

The day of the CMAs you couldn't get her to sit still for the make up and hair people which was driving them crazy and I was trying not to laugh at her excitement which reminded be of the expression like a kid in a candy store. After walking the red carpet, giving a few interviews and, getting our picture taken like a million times we made our way back stage. Because no only was she nominated for an award she was also asked to sing tonight. When they announced that she had five minutes before she was suppose to go on you could see the fear creep into her. Rayna finally let it sink in that she was going to be playing in front of people that she admires and those she yearns to be accepted by. When I saw this I walked over to her and told her no matter what I think shes amazing and if she needs to just look at me and pretend that I'm the only one there, that seemed to calm her down enough so she didn't look like she was about to pass out anymore. Right before we went on she gave me a quick kiss and then left to go get on stage to perform.

"I can't imagine, any greater fear
Then waking up, without you here,
And though the sun, would still shine on,
My whole world, would all be gone,
But not for long,

If I had to run, if I had to crawl
If I had to swim a hundred rivers, just to climb a thousand walls,
Always know that I would find a way, to get to where you are,
There's no place that far

It wouldn't matter why we're apart,
Lonely minds or two

stubborn hearts
Nothing short of God above
Could turn me away from your love
I need you that much

If I had to run, if I had to crawl
If I had to swim a hundred rivers, just to climb a thousand walls,
Always know that I would find a way, to get to where you are,
There's no place that far

Baby there's no place that far"

Everyone could tell how much we loved each other during that performance even if we didn't know ourselves at that time. After we got done singing we went back stage to change and then go to our assigned seats to wait and see if she would win the CMA for new female vocalist. What felt like years they finally announced her category and as soon as they did I felt Rayna start to squeeze my arm real tight but I didn't complain I knew she was nervous. When they got through all the nominees and made the mandatory pause they announce Miss Rayna Jaymes as the winner, I knew she had it in her. I looked over at Rayna as she got up to go accept the award I could see the shock written all over her face but I could also see the absolute joy there too.

When she got to the stage and accepted the award she stepped up to the mic and thanked the record label and producer like everybody does when they win because they wouldn't have been there without them. What shocked me the most was the fact that after she thanked them she looked me straight in the eyes and told everyone that without me she wouldn't be here today. After her thank you speech she walked off stage and straight into my arms and gave me a big kiss and told me she truly couldn't have done this with me .

I snapped out of my memory when I had to slam on the breaks because I had almost ran through a red light. Thinking about that memory brings a smile to my face while at the same time breaks my heart. There's never been an award that she was nominated for that I wasn't there with her to accept or on rare occasions not accept and now it looks like that I'll be missing this awards show.

Realizing that I shouldn't be thinking about Rayna when I'm behind the wheel of a car I turn on a non country radio station and turn up the volume in hopes of drowning out the thoughts of Rayna. Of course that back fired when I truly listened to the lyrics of the song.

"
Look around
There's no one but you and me
Right here and now
The way it was meant to be
There's a smile on my face
Knowing that together everything that's in our way
We're better than alright

Walking between the raindrops
Riding the aftershock beside you
Off into the sunset
Living like there's nothing left to lose
Chasing after gold mines
Crossing the fine lines we knew
Hold on and take a breath
I'll be here every step
Walking between the raindrops with you

Take me now
The world's such a crazy place
When the walls come down
You'll know I'm here to stay
There's nothing I would change
Knowing that together everything that's in our way
We're better than alright

There's a smile on my face
Knowing that together everything that's in our way
We're better than alright

step
Walking between the raindrops with you
Between the raindrops with you
Between the raindrops with you

Between the raindrops with you"

By the end of the song I knew I had to at least try to get Rayna back,I know I am way better with her than I am without her. She's my everything and these last few years without her and just having to live of memories of us wasn't going to work anymore. like the song said knowing that together everything that's in our way we're better than alright.