Where The Violins Play chapter Two
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Susie Q and Mitsi during their English class (which is trés boring!), and they are listening to Mitsi's iPod.
Mitsi: Hey Susie Q, why are you looking so sad?
Susie Q: I'm feeling rather depressed…
Mitsi: Why is that? Because you agree with me and my crazy mind that we should own CSI:NY? We think we should…
Susie Q looks rather funny at Mitsi. Then laughs…
Susie Q: No, of course not! I'm sad because you are going to let Danny die…
Mitsi: Muahahaha! But there's no need to worry, little miss sunshine. That's if your nice…
Susie Q: Well in that case, I'll be very nice!
Mitsi: Good! Well we all know that I don't own anything. But uhm, Susie?
Susie Q: Si? This isn't about what we are listen to, is it?
Mitsi: Hum yes… Put Tiziano Ferro on, or Danny is going to die…
Susie Q; Please no…
Mitsi: Jawohl! The song is called 'Sere Nere' (Black Nights in Italian, hence the title), and really fits with this chappie! So, put it on. Oh yeah; I don't own Tiziano Ferro. Wish I did though… But more importantly Happy Birthday, love! XxX Min
Chapter Two – Those Black Nights
You know those nights were you just want to runaway into another world? Those black nights where there's absolutely no space, you're cornered with you fears? And time has run out on you? Lindsay was having one of those days…
Flashback:
The phone rang. It was a beautiful April day and her children were playing outside. She could her hear little girl laughing with joy. The sound of a small foot kicking a ball, the soft thud that it made, made her smile. According to him and his father, Alessandro Daniel Messer (Alex), would become a star player for an Italian soccer club like Juventus, AC Milan or AS Roma. Which one didn't matter, but he would become the next Van Basten or Cruijf. When her two shared this idea with Lindsay she looked confused, but then just laughed. The two were obvilously not amused and when outside to play and practice. That made Lindsay just laugh harder (even though she didn't know why).
She hadn't heard the back door squeak, through all of her laughter, so she was surprised when she felt two arms wrapped around her.
"Think that was funny, Montana?" A husky, soft voice asked. Lindsay just nodded… "Really now? Well, since you don't take our sons plans for his future serious I should punish you?" Lindsay shook her head.
"Danny," she turned around in his arms, "you wouldn't hurt a pregnant lady now, would you?! I don't think Mac, Stella, Flack, my father, brother, Alex or anyone else would like you very much if you did." Danny looked quite shocked at Lindsay, and was trying to form a word.
"Pregnant?" Lindsay nodded again. A huge smile graced Danny's face, and Lindsay could feel her feet being lift of the ground. She started giggling and he started kissing her face.
"Mama, what's wrong?!" Alex shouted. He came running into the house to find his mother being lift up by his father while they were both laughing like that hadn't laughed in years. Tears were rolling down there faces. "What's so funny?" Neither one of his parents could form a decent answer, so he shook his head and walked out again after muttering; "Crazy grownups… Never know when to stop…"
The phone rang again, and woke Lindsay up from her daydream. With a few big strides she reached the other side of the kitchen were the phone cradle stood. On the display Mac's number and name were flashing by. She couldn't help to shake the feeling that something was terribly wrong…
"Hey Mac! How are you?"
"Lindsay, I'm so sorry. Danny's in Hospital and I have no time to talk. I have send Stella over to pick you and the kids up. I'll be there as soon as I can!"
"But, uh, what happened? Mac, what's wrong?!"
"Sorry, I can't explain it yet. Stella can't either, but get to the Hospital as soon as you can okay?! Stella should be with you in a minute. Be strong Lindsay, just be strong!"
And with that he had hung up the phone…
End Flashback.
"A kidnapping…" She softly sighed. Her hands were resting upon the glass of the doors that led to the emergency room that Danny was lying in. She couldn't see his body, doctors were hovering around, above and next to him. The glass felt cold. God her whole body felt cold. She shook her head, trying to keep her tears from falling. A useless assignment; they came. Salty drops of liquid water fell down her cheeks like rain does from a window on a very stormy day. Her body started shaking, and cries of pain escaped from her mouth. A nurse clad in blue scrubs came rushing towards her, just like Stella did and they tried to take her away from the window.
"Lindsay, don't do this to yourself. Go sit and wait with the rest of us, don't look." Stella whispered in her ear. Lindsay shook her head.
"No I want to stay. I need to stay!" She pulled away from the nurse and Stella and ran back towards the doors. "Danny, please…" she pleaded so softly that no-one could hear. "Danny please I need you. The kids need you, don't go." She pounded on the doors with her fists. "Don't go…" She hung her head and her tears fell on the ground.
She felt a small set of arms wrapping themselves around her left leg and looked down. Rosa Alexandra Adine Messer, had her arms wrapped around her mothers leg and her head was lying, with closed eyes, against the thigh that belonged to that leg. Lindsay could feel the tears from her daughters eyes seeping trough the dark blue fabric of her jeans.
"Mummy?" Rosa cried. She cried and sobbed, but her mother just stood looking at her father. She could hear the sound the machine that stated the patient's heartbeat. A high peeping noise filled her ears. Doctors seemed to be yelling at each other, nurses following out orders, and a crash car wash rolled to the side of her husband. Instinctively Lindsay turned a bit and bowed. She picked her daughter up and made sure that her head was turned away from the sight of her father lying on a gurney.
She could see the paddles being brought to Danny's chest. She could see the mouth's of the doctor in charge making the word '360' and 'Clear!'. She could hear the sound of the electricity going through her husband's body. She could feel the thud when that body, which beheld the mind, soul and heart of the one person she loved the most, hit the gurney again. Time stopped. There was no space anymore. And Lindsay knew that no-one would ever understand. She buried her head in her daughter's curls and spoke comforting words to a small tear wrecked body.
"Baby girl, it's going to be alright…" "Don't cry love." She repeated over and over again. She could feel her son's head lying on her back. "My babies…" She whispered.
Another shock. Another thud. More pain. It felt like hours. But Lindsay had no indication of time anymore… She couldn't feel anything. Just pain. She didn't know what she was saying to her children. She just said some words. All she could feel was pain…
A doctor shook his head. A young woman, whom was dressed like a doctor, yelled at him. Lindsay didn't register it though. All she could hear was Danny's voice whispering soft comforting words. All she could hear were her own prayers. They mixed inside her head…
The doctors were still fighting. Lindsay didn't see it. She just say the images of Danny holding their children for the first time while she was lying, exhausted, in a Hospital bed. The images of Danny entering the courthouse in Montana. Danny waking her up on the pool table. Danny in the zoo the first time they met. Danny in the zoo with Rosa on his shoulders, pointing out the monkeys. Danny on their wedding day. Danny on the day she was lying in the Hospital waiting for the Alex to 'come'…
Di sere nere
Che non c'è tempo
Non c'è spazio
E mai nessuno capirà
Puoi rimanere
Perché fa male male
Male da morire
Senza te...
(About Black nights
Where there's no time
And there's no space
And no one will ever understand
Can you stay?
Cause it hurts me,
Hurts me to death
Without you...)