That's why I'm here Chapter 8, a nashville fanfic

NOT MINE... USES THE SONG NOTHIN' LIKE THE FIRST TIME BY LADY ANTEBELLUM

Sorry it took so long I had writers block and I was trying to find the perfect song that would fit for this chapter... I would like to thank those who gave me some song ideas and even though they weren't used it gave me ideas for new stories... I would like to thank Natbenson who without her I doubt this chapter would have ever been finished

When I saw the door begin to open my heart started to pound right out of my chest. So many scenarios of what could happen once Deacon sees that its me are going through my head and all of them did not end happily. When the door finally open and I saw Deacon for the first time in what felt like forever my heart began to swell. I could see the look of confusion on his face once it registered that it was me but i could also see happiness shining through.

Without saying anything he steps away from the door and lets me inside. Once we were on the couch and settled I tried to figure out what to say to him but I kept coming up blank. I never imagined he would allow me the chance to talk not to mention let me inside. So we both just sat there trying to figure out what to do or what to say.

Things with Deacon has never been this awkward even when he was in rehab or when I walked away from him. I guess this goes to show you what happens when you leave a lot of unsolved feelings behind and go without talking for a couple of years. I know I want to tell him I love him and how sorry I am for leaving but for some reason I can't put these thoughts into words and it looks like Deacon won't talk until I I was finally ready to open up my mouth and say whatever comes out a song comes flowing through the radio that stops me in my track.
Last time I saw you I was fueling up
At our old favorite coffee shop
Then you walked up
I tried to hide behind my cup
When you said, how you've been doing,
I gave you the typical line
I've been fine
But I was lying, and dying, yeah
I was a kid in love
You rocked me then and it still does cause

Hearing this song brings tears to my eyes because it's kind of our story of falling in love at a young age and believing you will be together forever. But things happen and you realize life isn't a fantasy so you break up but you still love each other very much.

Ain't nothin' like the first time
Nothin' like the first smile
Looking at you seeing forever
Keeps me going till the last mile
And I held on like crazy
Until our goodbye baby
And I still miss you lately
Ain't nothin' like the first time
Nothin' like the first time, yeah

I have missed Deacon everyday since I walked away and as much as I tried to put him behind me it never worked. He's the guy in my dreams the guy I wanted to marry some day. Deacon was the world to me and being away from him even though it was partially my fault hurts more than I thought it would.

I remember you stole my breath
Underneath the stadium steps
Now I'm walking 'round the block
Ten years later knock knock knock
Knocking on these memories
Flooding back of you and me
When love was free
We were shining, flying
Yeah, I didn't understand
I had you right there in my hand

I remember our first tour and how our tradition of going to the nose bleeds got started. We just wanted to escape everyone's watchful eyes so Deacon dragged me up there and for the twenty minutes we were up there all we did was make out. As we matured the nose bleeds turned into a place to make out to a place to appreciate all our fans out there even those who couldn't afford the best seats. How did something so magical turn so miserable?

First time
Never get it back again
But I still remember when
First time
First time
There's a magic in the way
You will always stay
Yeah

Oh oh oh
Ain't nothin' like the first time
Nothin' like the first smile
Looking at you seeing forever
Keeps me going till the last mile
And I held on like crazy
Until our goodbye baby
I still miss you lately
Ain't nothin' like the first time

There's a magic in the way
You will always stay
There's a magic in the way
You will always stay

When the song finished I looked up at Deacon and realized I wasn't the only one who was crying. When he looked in my eyes I could see the love he had for me and I knew he was thinking the same thing as I was. So after sitting there on his couch for thirty minutes without talking I opened my mouth and said hi.