Okay so since y'all gave such nice reviews and I was told I was gonna be hunted by the Chinese mafia I thought I would update okay so here is the real chapter five and the conversation between Clary and Jace that I didn't let you see cause I'm a horrible person.

OH WAIT – Ok so some may be confused about why I put disabled toilets – okay well they are always empty, its just one big toilet and you can lock to door so no one else can get in. make sense now, yes good.

ALSO IM GONNA TRY A DIFFERENT STYLE HERE OKAY BUT LET ME KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT IT CAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHETHER TO CARRY ON WRITING LIKE IT OR NOT

Chapter 5

The dreaded conversation and crushes.

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Cpov

Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit. Jace stared at me for a while, it was as if he was trying to work out how I was feeling, well I will tell you how I was bloody feeling. I was a nervous wreck. I didn't even know why, to be completely honest there was nothing to be worried about. So I may have a little bit of a high school crush on Jace, but all we did was kiss, so I'm just had to pass it of as a mistake. Yeah that's it, a mistake. Ugh you have no idea how much I wish it wasn't though. I wish he would want me, maybe, I mean yeah sure I know that he tends to date girls for a week and then toss them aside. Yet right now I didn't care, I wouldn't mind if we dated for a short while because then at least I could get over it and know that it didn't work out for a reason. I knew that he was going to ask why I kissed him, and if I'm totally honest, I don't know. I mean it drove me crazy every time we brushed lips. To anyone else it would have been seen as an accidental lip brush whilst dancing, but to me it felt like he was doing it on purpose. Well of course he was. He wanted to beat me. He wanted to show me that he could get me, even if all we did was kiss, GODDAMMIT! How could I have been so stupid! He was here to rub it in my face that he won. Bam and suddenly all the thoughts of him being sweet and waiting for me and Isabelle to fix things again disappeared and were replaced but embarrassment and slight anger, not at Jace though. No I was angry at myself. Because I was the idiot that initiated the kiss and created all of this mess.

"Soooo" I had to say something I mean really this whole, him staring at me and us in complete silences whilst I was freaking out on the inside, was all becoming to much "what did you want to talk about?" Jace gave me a look that pretty much told me not to be stupid so I just sighed. "Ok Jace shoot, ask me the questions, I will tell you whatever you want to know the answer too" Jace looked mildly surprised, I guess he was expecting me to demand to know what he wanted with me, or to not corporate, but I just didn't see the point anymore. There really was no escaping this.

Jace took a deep breath. "Why did you kiss me at the pandemonium?" I let out a breath. Yep there it was. That question. I did say that's what he would ask didn't I? Goddamnit ok you can do this clary. "Right well if I am perfectly honest with you Jace, I don't know. I wish I did because I have honestly been asking myself the same question ever since it happened. But I guess I have come to the conclusion that I felt the need too. So go on then Jace, rub it in. you won, yep you could totally get me if you wanted too. Anything else to say?" I reached for the lock and turned it "no? Good." With one last look at a stunned Jace I walked out the door and began walking to my next class, which I oh so conveniently shared with Jace. Well at least I didn't sit anywhere near him.

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Jpov

Nice going Jace, wow. I really am an idiot. But I can't believe that Clary would think that. Ok yes, in normal circumstances I may have rubbed it in. but that conversation wasn't meant to be normal circumstances. That conversation was supposed to be me trying to find out if Clary had any feelings at all towards me. But she left before I even got the chance to ask her another question. Really I shouldn't have let her get away, but I was just too stunned after what she had said. I guess maybe she may have liked me a little. I mean she did say that she 'felt the need too' after all, maybe that could mean something. Probably not. I was probably just going to read into and assume that she had some kind of fucked up feelings for me. If I'm perfectly honest, I wouldn't want to treat her the way that I treat other girls. I just want to try and date her. To see how it goes. Maybe if I dated her, even if it was just for a little while, then I could get these crazy feelings for her out of my head and fill the gaps with the thought that it didn't work out, it just wasn't meant to be and I gave it a try. But I highly doubt she would want to go out with me.

Especially if I decide to tell her my story. The reason that I was adopted by the lightwoods. No one would want me then. At least not on a personal level. Most girls just want me the status and the physical relationship. Not that I mind, because I won't give them what they want. I won't have sex with them. I only want to have sex with someone I really like. Now some people think that that's stupid but I don't. Teenagers these days.

Sighing, I walked out of the toilets and too my next lesson, which I also shared with Clary. It was a shame I couldn't talk to her though. I just really wanted to know how she felt. Izzy would rip my balls off if I tried anything though. That was a downside to having Izzy as a sister – well that and the fact that she can't cook- her friends always dated me and then as soon as I broke their hearts they didn't want to be Izzy's friend anymore. Of course I felt bad, but it just couldn't be helped.

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(DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW AND TELL ME IF I SHOULD CARRY ON WRITING THIS WAY – OR GO BACK TO THE WAY IT WAS)

Cpov

Lunch time eventually rolled around and I made my way to the canteen to wait for Simon. Thankfully he was already there, so I showed him to the usual table where he looked a little awkward – I smiled apologetically at him but he just shrugged. Simon was of course a nerd, he didn't fit in on this table, but then, if you really got to know me, neither did I. I was just as big of a nerd as Simon is. He took a seat next to me and opposite Izzy. On the other side of me was Jace and then some cheerleader, Hanna I think her name was, shamelessly vying for his attention. The funny part was, he completely ignored her. "So Clary, do you like comics?" Simon asked me, he was obviously just trying to start a conversation, but everyone else on the table just laughed at him, as if it was the most ridiculous thing ever. He started to turn red so I answered him honestly.

"Yeah I do Simon. I am a marvel girl myself. Favourite female character is She-hulk and my favourite Male character is Tommy Shepherd" Everyone else's jaws hit the ground except for Simons, he immediately brightened, which I thought was kinda cute, and then started asking me questions and we began talking about animes and mangas and comic books. Eventually everyone got over the fact that I was indeed a nerdy girl at heart and carried on with their own conversations. Jace didn't though. Which I found rather odd. When I looked at him he had a strange look in his eyes. He looked a little angry actually. I had no clue what about though. Oh well. I'm sure he will get over it.

On the Brightside; I had finally made a friend that didn't wanna take me shopping and talk about fit boys

By the end of the day my little conversation with Jace was completely out of my mind as I invited Simon over to watch marvel movies with me. .

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Wow okay I'm sorry it's so short but at least I updated! I also wanna thank everyone for their reviews and wow Jesus 85 follows. I didn't think this story was that good! Anyway I'm sorry if the toilet scene wasn't what you were expecting – but I'm gonna update next week – its hopefully going to be quite a long chapter, with a little bit of Clace! PLEAE REVIEW! Also look Jace has a soft side and we get the hint he has had a bad past – and Simon and clary's inner nerd is revealed!

- Georgie xx