I hear car doors slam and voices. Everyone finally came back from Alaska (I'm back to my full strength, and speed, with all my senses back to normal).
"Momma!" I call.
I run downstairs and Emmett catches me in his arms.
"I missed you, too," he says and holds me tight against his chest.
"Let me go! I want momma!" I kick my legs and slap Emmett's arms.
"I see how it is."
He sets me down and I run to momma. She hugs me and spins me around.
"Did you get things sorted out with Tanya?" I ask.
"Kind of."
I smell a new scent, I've smelled it before, and it is much unwelcome.
"Tanya!" I snarl. I lower into crouch and snarl.
"I want nothing to do with you," she spats, "I'm here to make peace with the rest of you."
"Do that in Alaska."
"Well, you see, we tried that. I used knowing my surrounds to my advantage and Jasper is here with you."
"Speaking of Jasper, do something with Emma," Carlisle says.
Jasper walks up behind me and picks me up by my waist.
"Put me down! Put me down!" I scream.
He carries me to my room and sets me on my bed.
"Listen, I don't like her either. Let them make amends and then do whatever you want," he whispers.
"Why don't you like her?"
"Too emotional."
He runs back downstairs and I pick up Pneuma. It's getting harder to hold her. I sit on my bed and brush her fur.
I know she won't understand me, and I don't feel like phasing, but I say, "Benjamin is gonna make you a room with snow and ice and that'll be your room. I'll put some animals in there for you to hunt, too."
Pneuma looks up at me and yaps.
"I'm hungry, too," I say.
I get up, leaving Pneuma, and go downstairs, into Carlisle's office.
I get a bottle and a T-bone steak for Pneuma.
As I walk out, Tanya gives me a weird look.
"Don't look at me like that," I snap.
Jasper sighs and pushes me back into my room.
"Please stay here," he says and leaves.
"Looks like we're trapped," I say to Pneuma.
She whines for her food. I toss it to her and drink from the bottle.
Good, I got human, I think.
I finish the bottle and start pacing. I strip and phase into a polar bear.
"Emma, it's hot," Pneuma whimpers.
"It is. I know. Benjamin is gonna make your ice room as soon as Tanya leaves," I murmur.
Pneuma curls up in a ball and sleeps off her supper.
Stupid Canada, I think.
Canadian winters are amazing. There's snow and it gets really cold, but the stupid summers are so hot.
I walk into my closet and phase back into me. I walk to where my sleeveless silk dresses are. I have a whole rainbow of different colors and of different shades. I pick a light blue and pull it on. I run downstairs to the freezer and pick up a one pound bag of ice.
"Emma, may I talk to you?" Tanya asks.
I throw the bag over my shoulder and walk over to her.
"Yes?" I ask.
"I had no right to do what I did. I will forever regret killing your polar bears. Is there any way you can forgive me?"
"I wish I could forgive you, but I can't. Nanook was my best friend, as close as any mate could ever be, and you kill him. I can only forgive you when his death is avenged."
"Emma, please," Tanya begs, "I seek only forgiveness. You have every right to hate me. Please forgive me so I may make amends with your family."
"I am sorry, but I cannot forgive you for the pain you have caused me."
I run up to my room and set the bag of ice against Pneuma's back. She nuzzles up against it and continues sleeping. I sit on my bed and pull my legs up to my chest, resting my head on my knees, I lose myself to my emotions.
Someone taps on my door and let's their self in. They scoop me up into their arms and hold me close. I take in their scent. It's Jasper.
"What's wrong with me?" I ask.
"You're not sure how to handle yourself."
"Am I crazy?"
"Aren't we all?""
"Why does this keep happening?"
"You have 13 year old emotions, just amplified 100 times."
When I go to speak, Jasper silences me.
"Try and go into Sleep State," he says.
"I don't want to," I complain.
"Yes you do."
My hair had fallen in my face and Jasper tucks it back behind my ear.
After an hour, I start dry sobbing. Jasper runs his hand up and down back and tells me to calm down.
When I finally stop dry sobbing, Jasper holds me closer to his chest, tighter, as if someone was trying to take me and he was making sure they didn't.
He kisses my forehead and I finally go into Sleep State.