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IAmTheEnglishAmerican- Thanks, I was kinda worried about making it darker but I'm glad to see that I am not hated for it! I also wanted to try to (finally) get some Spamano feels going (I mean I am 15 chapters in already when will I get there . ).
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On another note…. You literally left me speechless, I had no idea how to react to this . I mean just… I have no words to explain how happy your comment made me. It's just wow… I am sorry if it made you cry… that was not my intention… but thank you for your kind words! Yeah fanfiction won't let anyone vote more than once but if there is more that you want to see you can either vote here or PM me or if you have any requests! I have to admit I might end up doing two, because I really want to do Beaten (the mafia one and my personal favourite but warning if the last chapter made you cry… beware) so if it doesn't win I am definitely doing it along with the winner. The question with it though is 1st person Lovi or 3rd person Lovi? But… yeah… just thank you again! Another long reply YUSH!
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Anyway sorry this is a little late… I procrastinated on this chapter… Sorry.
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Lovino's POV
Lovino awoke to the same ear splitting noise that woke him every morning and reached over to pound the alarm clock to his side. Wait a second… Why was Feli over there?
"Chigi!?" Lovino screamed scrambling in his bed at feeling the other's presence which (shockingly) startled the younger awake.
"Wha-? Oh! Ve~ Fratello you are awake!" Feliciano spoke too excitedly for such an early time in the morning as he pulled his fratello into a hug.
"Feli get the fuck off me," Lovino grunted pushing the younger male away, who proceeded to pout momentarily before a smile again adorning his face and reminding Lovino, "Why the fuck are you in my bed!?" he half yelled half asked the question making the younger person beside him jump slightly.
"Ve~, Fratello did you forget what happened yesterday?" Feliciano asked cocking his head to the side and rubbing the sleep out of one of his eyes.
"Wha-" Lovino started but was silenced as memories of the following day flooded his mind, "Oh… shit…" he muttered at the realisation suddenly feeling more uncomfortable at his brother's close proximity.
"Ve! Fratello are you okay?" Feliciano panicked at his brother's sudden resignation and clung to him again much to Lovino's disapproval.
"Of course I am fine you idiot! Calm down!" Lovino said calming his brother before remembering "And I already told you to get the fuck off me!" He tried to remove his brother again at the last statement but his brother clung tighter than before and he was unsuccessful. Lovino let out a sigh and sat there enduring the hug for a while before he spoke, "Hey, idiota, how the hell did I get home?" he asked looking at his brother.
"Oh yeah, well after you fell asleep again the doctor said that we had to take you home because the park was closing and we couldn't stay there so that was what we did," Feliciano explained speaking nearly to quickly for his brother to understand.
"Oh, Oka- Wait a second, who the hell is 'we'" he started normally then was curious as to who exactly was involved in this. For some reason he was afraid the answer might entail a certain Spanish bastard, and of course his fears were realised.
"Ve~ that's easy! It was me, Luddy, Gilbert, Francis, and big brother Toni!" Lovino inwardly groaned at all the list, so they all were fucking involved… At least the tomato bastard hadn't abandoned him… wait where was he now?
Feliciano kept rambling about how they had all ridden in the car together with Lovino laying in his and Antonio's laps until they got him home. Apparently they had all left after that. But this was no comfort to Lovino and his mind started to panic. 'What if he left? What if he isn't coming back? What if he thinks you are weak, pathetic, disgusting and wants nothing to do with you anymore?' His mind kept swirling with the 'what if' thoughts that threatened to drive him mad. He couldn't take it anymore he had to know what had happened, how Antonio had reacted to what he heard. "Feli, what about Antonio? Not that I care but you know the bastard wouldn't stop bothering me…"
Feliciano grinned at the name of their friend, some sort of weird knowing hint in his eyes at his mentioning but that was a flash and gone as quickly as it appeared before he replied. "Ve… I don't know… I offered to let him stay until you woke up because I thought he would be worried but he said something about having something important to do today so he left…" Feliciano kept talking but Lovino had stopped listening.
It was true. It was true. Every fucking thing he had thought and hoped wouldn't be true was true. Antonio left. He had known he would, no one ever stayed. No one wanted to be near the broken. Not even his brother. Lovino knew he was only there because of the fact that they were brothers. Lovino liked to pretend his brother loved and needed him but it was the other way around. He knew that. He knew it all. He just couldn't bring himself to face it, so he let himself drift back into another state of unconsciousness.
Antonio's POV
It was a week since he had seen the Italy brothers, a whole week and he did not like it. Antonio just wanted to hold Lovino and be near him like he had that night at the infirmary. 'It was nice…' Antonio thought as he remembered the Italian huddled up to him letting him know things few others were aware of, 'It was so different from the typical Lovino… Not something everyone gets to see…' His thoughts were captivated by the moody Italian. He liked the new side of Lovino he had seen (of course he liked the normal side too but this was just… new and different to him).
He sighed unable to push the Italian out of his mind the first night as he held him on the way home. But it was starting to scare the Spaniard, the Italian finally let him in behind his walls and now he didn't know what to do. He wanted to do something that would show the Italian he cared but didn't know how. He wanted to find a way to show how that he cared about Lovino and would be there for him no matter what but he didn't have any idea as to what that would be.
He just had to find some way of getting his Lovi to trust him with stuff like this more, he wanted to know everything about the Italian, he wanted to be someone he could trust and depend on. Then his brain froze as he looked at the man in his lap …. 'My Lovi… When did he become my Lovi?' This idea both thrilled and terrified the Spaniard. He loved the Idea of Lovi being his, he really did, but the idea also scared him.
He just got the Italian to be his friend, something he was reluctant to do, even such an innocent role. So he felt guilty of maybe doing anything to offend or upset the little Italian. He didn't want to do anything that could jeopardize the friendship he worked so hard for and he knew becoming overprotective like he was thinking wouldn't help. It would push Lovi farther away, not into his arms or into trusting him like he wanted.
He groaned inwardly at his confusion. Antonio just wanted what was best for his friend right? He couldn't repress the shake of his head or his confusion when they finally arrived at the Vargas house. It seemed like far too short of a car ride again. When Feli got out to open the door to the house Antonio picked up the other, unconscious, Italian and carried him into the house placing him on his bed. Antonio could not help but stare at the peaceful figure lying on the bed, it was different, yet another side to the complicated person that is Lovino.
He sighed and shook his head, unsure what to think. He needed to clear his head and figure out what exactly to do. It did not take long standing there to figure out the perfect way to do that and soon fell back into one of his past times.
Lovino's POV
Lovino groaned as he mulled around the empty apartment. One week one fucking week. Not only did he have too much free time at home (I mean after the first day off of work he ran out of things to do!) but even on days where the nights would normally be happy and fun the group didn't get together and do anything. Antonio was one who planned most of the outings after all so when he went MIA basically the group half shut down for the time being.
No Lovino did not miss that dickhead tomato bastard. He was just bored, yeah that was it. He did not miss him and it did not hurt when he left him nearly a week ago. He expected it. No matter how hard he tried he couldn't be mad or even disappointed in the Spaniard. He had come to expect it. Everyone left eventually if not for their own free will when he was a jerk then when they find out about his past. He couldn't blame any of them. He wanted to leave too.
He just wish it hadn't happened more or less…
His biggest shock came when he opened the door that someone had been persistently knocking on for the next several minutes. No matter how long he ignored them or how many curses he yelled through the door for them to go away it did not deter the persistent bastard. ''Fuck it I will just have to tell them to leave to their face won't I?' Lovino thought opening the door with malice that melted away when he saw the figure standing there.
"What the fuck are you doing here." Lovino glared at Antonio who was standing there looking slightly hurt at the words but cheering up instantly.
"I have a surprise!" He said and looked over to the spot he had talked about with Feli the night before seeing and grabbing a bag.
"What the fuck is that and what the hell are you doing here after avoiding me and leaving me bored here all week?"
"Lo siento Lovi. I thought you would want some alone time…" Lovino looked down 'Damn it, it really is impossible to hate this bastard. He was just trying to keep me happy. What the hell was that no one else gave a damn so why should he and why did he have to come back?' Lovino's mind whirred with such thoughts as Antonio dragged him out the door to the car explaining further on the way. "I picked up one of my old hobbies again and though you might like it, and this bag goes into that." Antonio said with a grin on his face and the Italian sat there staring out the window drowning in his thoughts. 'Why did he come back?'
Antonio POV
Antonio sighed at the despondent Lovi sitting next to him but didn't want to offend his friend so he kept from bothering him and focused on the road. Until the memory of the conversation he had the previous night with Francis.
Antonio sipped nonchalantly at his wine not really wanting to get drunk. His friend had a similar attitude as they sat on the couch in said friend's apartment.
"So, mon cher, just what have you been up to this week? None of us have seen or hear from you since the amusement park incident.
Antonio winced at the comment but it went unnoticed and he looked back out the window of his friends' dress shop. It was definitely a nice area of time and was maintained beyond normal. Antonio suddenly felt uneasy, wrong about coming to his friend for advice. That more often or not was a bad idea, at least he hadn't gone to Gilbert this time choosing the more sane of his two best friends. He sighed and finally answered the question keeping his eyes glued out the window. "I have picked up an old past time…" Antonio smiles at the thought as did his friend.
"That explains why you are looking cheerier, you always did enjoy doing that," Francis said knowing exactly to what the Spaniard was referring. He smiled and asked, "So what brings you here?"
"I need advice about Lovi… I want to do something to show him I care about him and won't betray him…" He continued looking sadly out the window, "I just want him to trust me and open up more…"
"Ah, Oui, I know how to help," the blonde smiled "I will have the little Italian in your arms before tomorrow is done."
"No, no it isn't like that" 'Couldn't be like that it…' he was trying to convince himself as much as Francis of this fact. The room seemed to fall silent and everyone felt the need to look right at him… So he kept talking. "We are just friends, I just want him to trust me and open up more. I needed your help but not with anything like that."
Francis smirked knowingly at his friend "Oh no, of course, I wouldn't do anything to jeopardize your relationship with the little Italian." But the Frenchman thought, 'I will help you but I might help you in a different direction than you were expecting…'
AN This chapter sucks I know and it is unedited *dies from tiredness* okay done for today night. Let me know what you think.
Please Vote! Don't choose more than 3
Separated -Lovino had known his parents three years before their passing, Feliciano had only a few months. Once their grandfather died the pair were left to the system, causing their separation and them leading very different lives. How do children handle their loss and what happens when they find each other, fifteen years later. Does this separation cause a permanent rift? Spamano Gerita and more TN. Italy / S. Italy/Romano
2 Responsibility- HS AU, Lovino is a normal guy (okay not really) with an annoying brother and screwed up group of friends that has too much intergroup dating and some annoying love triangles. Lovino is not exempt from the tornado of love that ravages his friends, since he has unreciprocated feelings towards his best friend… or so he thought… but disaster strikes right when he finds out the truth. T/M /Romano / Spain
3 The Lost, The Confused, and The Insane- AU Each floor of the mental hospital is home to people with varying levels of mental illness, from the OCD and Narcissists to the Murderers, Schizophrenics and the even more extreme cases. Who were these unlucky people subject to their mental tortures, and how did they get here. And most importantly, will they get out? (many characters and pairings) T/M
4 I Won't Say I'm In Love- Romano has been denying it to himself and everyone for who knows how long. When a band of annoying do-gooders decide to try to help him realize his emotions will he keep denying them? Multi-chapter song fic. (sort of) where each chapter is inspired by a few lines of I Won't Say I'm In Love from Hercules, it has a complete plot, and it is not your normal song fic.. T S. Italy/Romano / Spain
5 Destruction- One stupid comment at an otherwise normal meeting was all that it took to plunge the world into chaos and madness. Will the world be destroyed? Who will be the victor of this ultimate world war? Description sucks. T/M
6 ESL- Romano sighed, why did he have to go to this class when he could speak English perfectly fine? It seems like they stuck all the exchange students in there… Now he had to put up with annoying bastards and take a pointless class, high school was going to suck. Multiple pairings High school AU! Description sucks. T
7 Beaten- Between bullies, the mafia, and an abusive home life Lovino was living hell. He didn't have a prayer much less chance at getting out alive. Not until his friends catch on to his situation that is, now it is a race against the clock to save his life before he's pushed too far. AU T/M S. Italy/Romano / Spain
8 Bad Apple- Romano's life is hell and he feels that he is trapped within his never-ending circle of pain and hatred. Will a well-meaning Spaniard be able to break his walls or will he drive Romano deeper into madness? Multi-chapter song fic. (sort of) where each chapter was inspired by a few lines of Bad Apple, has a complete plot, and it is not your normal song fic.. T S. Italy/Romano / Spain
9 No new story: Focus on Altering Destiny