AUTHOR'S NOTE:

This focuses a little bit on Sam and Lily and also a bit on some of the past you guys don't really know about between the girls and the boys.

WARNINGS: Language, Blood, Sex, Violence, Dark Themes

ENJOY!

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"Lana knows how to make really good coffee," Lily told Sam, giggling when he rested his hands on her hips from behind. "I guess that makes sense since it—"

"—runs through her veins," Sam finished for her.

She smiled and leaned back into Sam as he wrapped his arms around her, both of them trying to digest all of this information. They'd known Lana for years, gone on all sorts of hunts, seen her soft side and assumed that someday she'd be a mother…and now she was actually part from Purgatory? What was her mother then? Honestly just a soul? Or was she something else? It wouldn't be the first time that Florence wasn't being entirely truthful about her life or her daughter's. Plus…did that mean that Lana wasn't really human?

It was hard to believe because she acted the most human out of all of them, and she was as moral as could be. That meant that they could still trust her even though this new information had arisen—she had always been half demon and they knew that. In fact it had been hard to adjust to, but they knew that she was Lana Meckenzie and that she would die for any of them and hated everything that demons stood for. Just because her mother was from Purgatory, didn't make Lana evil.

"So, how long are we staying here do you think?" Lily asked slowly, turning around and looking up at Sam.

Sam looked down at Lily and shrugged. "I suppose that's partially up to Dean…and if he wants to stay this time."

"I'm all up for that," Lily said wrapping her arms around him. "I mean, we always end up at Lana's, she gives you and I the guest room, and then we're like four happy people under one roof getting to relax in Kansas and doing whatever we want until a hunt pops up and then the four of us run off onto the road and then we gank demons and make dirty jokes—it's a riot."

"Dean's just afraid of ending up with Lana again and then ending up being a father," Sam explained with a shrug. "He wants it, but he's afraid of the demons coming after them like they always do. He's afraid of becoming dad."

"He won't ever be John," Lily said shaking her head. "He'll be great at fatherhood."

Sam smiled at her and nodded, leaning down to kiss her, which to many was a strange sight. He was so tall and she was so short, but they were in love and that was all that really mattered to them. So, they kissed for a little while right there in the kitchen, Sam slipping his fingers into Lily's hair and pulling her close to him, Lana smiling at them as she entered the kitchen. Her presence was noticed by Sam, who gave Lily a quick kiss before he turned to Lana and smiled a little bit at her. She was his best friend and he wanted to know how she was almost as much as he wanted to kiss Lily.

"How are you doing?" Sam asked Lana slowly.

Lana shrugged and went for the coffee pot. "Better than Dean. He's acting cool about it, but you remember what happened when I told him about my father being a demon…"

"He took off and almost hooked up with a waitress?" Lily asked, nodding when Lana did. "Sorry, I know that's a poor subject for you."

"No, no, it's fine. I completely understood too, even though I was so hurt," Lana explained slowly. "But regardless of him telling me he's okay with this, I know the wheels in his head are turning."

"At least he hasn't taken off this time and I don't think that he will," Sam told Lana as he put a hand on her shoulder. "Just give him the benefit of the doubt."

"I'm trying, but hunting is making that a little hard," Lana admitted gently.

She wasn't completely forgiving right now about the hunting thing, but she knew that she was dragged into this for good now. Demons had always been after Lana, scoping her out, and now she knew why and it kind of hurt her—she was a monster. She was an asset and that meant that being around her was dangerous…so should she ditch them all? Go off by herself and save them? No. She couldn't just run and she also knew that she could take care of herself and protect her friends if they needed her to.

Lana had been practicing her powers ever since finding out that Azazel was her father and Florence had even taught her how to heal like Angels did, which always did make her wonder. She didn't know as much about Purgatory as she wanted to, and that meant calling Bobby and figuring something out. Later, though, because she was trying to understand what it meant to have blood in her from something out of Purgatory.

"Don't start something if you don't intend to finish it," Lana said suddenly, looking back and forth between Sam and Lily. "I mean it, Sam…treat her right."

Sam just nodded as Lana went out of the room, leaving him with Lily and it dawned on him that she might be taking her issues with Dean out on him. He had never thought about hurting Lily and should she ever want to leave hunting, he would leave it with her. Sam Winchester couldn't picture his life without Lily Harte and he wasn't about to push her out of it again…the whole demon blood fiasco was hard enough on her and he was still making up for it—he knew that. He also knew that Lana wasn't about to let this go because she was stubborn and that meant he and Lily were going to have to step this up.

"She and Dean need to make up and now," Lily said shaking her head. "She's not going to stop feeling on edge with us until she and Dean are happy again."

Sam nodded slowly. "When you meet your person, you should get to have a life with them."

"Exactly," Lily said as she smiled up at Sam. "Like when I met you. There's nothing I wouldn't do for you…even though I admit that I had to leave when the demon blood feeding was happening. I just couldn't handle that."

"You shouldn't have had to," Sam told her cupping her face. "No one should have had to. I never should have gotten that far off of the reserve and then Lana went and killed Lilith and I just—you helped me detox. You were there for me, and I will never not be there for you."

"I love you too," Lily told him before kissing him gently.

Sam smiled at her, tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear before she scrunched up her nose playfully at him and then moved to leave the room. She had a couple of things that she wanted to get taken care of and Sam didn't blame her—he had some things to research, which was definitely what he and Lily were best at. In fact they did their best researching together, Lily and Sam. They were a great team and Sam knew that this new information about Lana was definitely something they all needed to get into.

Lana, on the other hand, headed straight up to her room and when she opened up her door, she sighed because Dean was lounging on her bed. He was clothed, at least, Lana half expecting him to be naked, but he just seemed to want to talk to her and her bed was where they had been physically intimate the first time. They had left Bobby's to come here and Dean wanted to be as close to Lana as possible…that meant her room.

"Way to be creepy," Lana said giving him a thumbs up as she moved to her dresser, "I assume you'll watch me dress too?"

Dean laughed a little. "No, you're far too angry for that—you'll take your clothes into the bathroom and change where I can't see you."

"Or I'll be the biggest tease and I'll dress right here and not let you touch anything," Lana retorted, smiling when Dean smirked. "I meant it before when I said you were in the clear, Dean. You don't owe me anything."

"I owe you everything," Dean responded gently.

"Everything?" Lana asked him skeptically as she took off her shirt and tossed it into the hamper. "I actually highly doubt it."

Dean chuckled and let his eyes wander over her chest. "You've saved Sam and I more than I can count, defied your father, gone up against the angels for me—you're amazing, Lanni. You're beautiful and strong and I know I ran when I found out you were part demon, but you just…you gotta have more faith in me now, okay?"

"I know I need to have more faith in you," Lana replied as she pulled on a tank top, "but that doesn't mean that I just do. I'm trying here, but we lost the baby and then I lost you. I lost you and I didn't think that you were coming back to me. Then this happened and it's just one more reason for you to think that I'm a freak."

"A freak I would still marry," Dean told her shrugging.

Lana gave him a look. "We haven't been engaged since we lost the baby. I took that ring off when I walked out the door. You can't just say things like that!"

"Even when they're true?" Dean asked her, sitting up. "Look, that hunt? Everything changed…everything. I felt like shit this entire six months, Lanni! Do you think that I like being away from you?! That losing the baby didn't hurt?!"

"Dean, guess what happened on that hunt?" Lana asked him angrily, shimmying off her pants and grabbing pajama pants. "I got a fucking rod run through me and I lost our baby!"

Dean sighed and ran his hand down his face. "And I was there! The entire time! I helped you through it! Snuggled you! Held your hand! I mourned with you! Demons will always be after us! I freaked okay?! I thought that it was because of me and I had to have you away from me!"

"I get that, okay?! I get that!" Lana exclaimed shaking her head. "You were just as heartbroken as me, but how could you?! How could you think that we were better off apart?! How could you say all of those hurtful things to me?! I mean we were going to get married and have a baby and then I lost the baby and then you hurt me and I had to be away. I thought I could get through it, away…"

"But then Lily, the giant and I brought you back into the fold and you found out your mother was from Purgatory?" Dean asked her.

Lana nodded, looking like she was going to cry, Dean moving from the bed to her and she let him wrap his arms around her. He held her close and stroked her hair, knowing that Lana was stubborn and also knowing that no matter what happened, she would be there for him. Sure, he would have to repent a lot, but he was willing to grovel if that meant that he could have Lana back. She was the only steady part of his life, and had been for years…he had said all of those awful things because he thought he was protecting her, but he had just caused himself a lot of pain and her a lot of pain.

"If I could do it all over again, I would," Dean admitted to her.

She nodded, looking at him. "I would too."

"I would have kept you close," Dean told her, shaking his head.

"I wouldn't have just walked out," Lana explained to him.

"Remember when we actually trusted each other?"

"Remember when we actually stood by each other?"

"How do we get this back?" Dean asked her.

Lana shrugged a little bit. "Time…I need it to trust you again, but before then, I think that it's okay if you sleep in my bed as long as you don't grope me."

"How do I not grope you?" Dean teased, chuckling when she pushed on him and laughed. "Sorry, I just can't resist you."

"Lucky you, I can't resist you either, but I mean it," Lana said shrugging. "This is a baby step."

Note: Next chapter has a little bit of past in it and some Lily and Lana fun times as well as some Lily and Sam cuteness and Lana and Dean chatting. Feedback is always appreciated!