My cell was ringing, I scrambled out of bed to hunt it down in my purse.

4 missed calls from carlos! shit shit!

It was almost 5:30am!

As last nights antics came flooding back to my weary memory, I saw James on my bed. Belly down and starfish !

"James!" I said.

shit!

"James. Wake up, James, cmon now! The bus will be here in ten minutes!"

James turned and grunted out an "oh fuck."

There was a loud knock on the door.

"shit!" Now carlos is gonna think the worst of me.

I opened up the door. It was Carlos!

He had a bag in one hand and some flowers in the other.

"that is James' bag, kendall chucked his stuff in it as he didn't get back to his room last night! and these are from Antonio to say sorry for bailing on us yesterday" he hissed then strode away.

"shit, carlos wait! I'm sorry!" I called with his back still facing me Carlos simply raised a hand.

"forget it sheriden!" He replied sounding pissed off.

Fuck!

I handed James his bag and we both dressed in silence, somehow we managed to get down to the lobby before our bus had arrived.

It appeared that Carlos and kendall hadnt spilled the beans on mine and james' night together, for that I was thankful for, but Carlos made sure he didnt have to sit next to me on the mini bus.

I was sandwiched between James and kendall.

Once I could explain to carlos that it was all fairly innocent I'm sure we would laugh about it. On the other hand I didn't understand why he was so pissed, I am a grown woman after all.

I guessed it was the brotherly instinct he had for me.

What annoyed me was that he seemed fine with james. They sat opposite each other playing against one another on mario kart, exchanging the odd friendly insult to which ever one had won the race.

The drive to Miami dragged. I looked at the flowers that lay by my feet that were from Antonio. I noticed a card embedded within them. I opened it.

"Sheriden, i'm so sorry for not turning up this evening. The guilt I feel when I see your face overwhelms me. I will call you soon. Love always. Antonio x "

Geez! I felt like a loser. Poor Antonio so racked with guilt that he can't even bear to look at me, and here I am spending the night kissing teenage boys.

James must of read my card from Antonio or read my mind, but he nudged me and gave me the look as if to say am I okay?

I smiled back.

All I really wanted to do was surrender myself to him. Let him hold me, let me breathe his scent in.

I didnt want to annoy Carlos anymore so i shyed away from talking to James, instead I turned to my other neighbour kendall.

Kendall was laid back.

I don't think anything could make him angry. He told me about his home town, his girlfriend, how Logan had helped get him the part in the show.

"I've never been to Miami" he confessed. "Never thought I would be travelling up here sat next to you either" his face flushed.

I smiled "that's sweet kendall" I replied, he looked at his feet.

"so I hear your gonna set up your own modelling agency?" He asked.

Wow was there anything Carlos didn't say about me to these boys. I glared at Carlos.

"Yeah probably not untill after Christmas though. Even then I dont know if I'll be any good on the wrong side of the camera" I explained with a heavy heart.

the bus fell silent. I felt James touch my hand and gave a gentle squeeze to say hey dont cry. I squeezed his back in reassurance then let go before Carlos could realise I was communicating with James through touch.

Finally the bus stopped and stage two of their shoot was underway.

I wasn't needed for any introductions today so I made my self scarce to the hotel.

I was booked in to a different one this time to the rest of our group. Miami held something special for me, and I wanted to soak it all in.

I was in a condo overlooking the ocean. It was beautiful. I rummaged in my bag for my tooth brush but instead found a folded piece of paper with james' cell number.

I so needed to talk to him But bed was calling me, I decided to text instead, least then he would have my number and could call when he had finished the shoot.

I debated to text carlos too, but felt angry that I had to explain my actions to him. He can stew for a bit longer.

The condo bed looked good. Four poster, all in white, I felt like a princess in it, and drifted off with images of piercing eyes and American smiles.

For the second time that day I was awoken to the shrill sound of my cell ringing. I quickly clocked the time, 6:30pm! Wow I needed that sleep!

I grabbed my cell.

"Hello?" I answered.

"Hi sheriden its James, what room number are you in?" He asked sounding upset.

"James! Hi.. Er I'm not in the same hotel as you" I replied as my head tried to wake up

"Yeah i know, im in your reception now, they won't give me your room number" he replied.

Ah that explains why he sounds miffed, I can just imagine him down there with the stuck up guy from reception trying to explain that he knows me.

"Im in 29 James, feel free to come up" I said.

"Kay, see you in a minute" he said then the line went dead.

I ruffled my hair infront of the mirror. Apparently sleep was not a friend of mine.

I quickly changed in to a red shoe string top dress. It was too hot to dress to impress. The gentle rap on the door made my head spin.

I opened up.

"Hey" he chirped, and embraced me round the waist, pushing me in to the room backwards, kicking the door shut with his foot as he came in, he kissed me, today it was urgent and fast.

I almost fell as he was pushing me back, but his grip around my waist pulled me in closer to him.

My legs now wrapped around his waist. His kisses sometimes leaving my lips to travel down my neck. It was electric. He led us to the bed where I released my leg hold on him and pulled him down towards me.

He climbed on top of me, his legs straddled either side of my hips. He pinned my hands down with his against the bed. I wanted him so bad. I ached for his kisses to go lower than my neck.

His erection was playfully digging in to me through my dress. If I had a free hand I would try to release it for him. His kisses stopped and he stared at me. Nose to nose. He gave the tip of mine a kiss then rested his forehead against mine.

All I could hear was our erratic breathing. He still had my hands pinned either side of my head. I kissed him on the lips, he slipped his tongue in again. This time it was soft and gentle.

He was trying to calm him self down. His erection felt so hard digging in to my pelvis it almost hurt. Just as I thought to my self I'm ready, he released me and rolled over to my side.

We both lay silent staring at the drapes that hung over the four poster. He took my hand and pulled it to his face, He kissed it.

"How come you stopped?" I asked as I half sat up to face him. "I'm not sure I wanted you to stop" I added bluntly.

"Your not ready sheriden, we have an amazing chemistry but you made it clear yesterday that your not ready, and I don't wanna mess with that"

I could have scorned my self for what I said yesterday now, but he was right! as the real life of jay and Antonio came back to me.

I kissed James on the head and stood up. James sat up on the edge of the bed.

"the shoot went well... and the interview" he said as he looked at his hands.

They were trembling. It must of taken a shed load of willpower for him to not be fucking my brains out right now.

"That's good. How was Carlos? Did he say anything to you?" I asked.

"yeah he pretty much told me to back off, I told him what happened, but he is really pissed with you. He kept saying your too good for me. I agree. You are" he explained

"Oh for christs sake James. No I'm not. Look at you, your like ... photo shopped or something. I'm still a human in here you know". pointing to my heart. "I'm still just a girl" I added feeling emotional.

"I'm sorry" he said as he stood up, he came up behind me and wrapped his arms in mine around my stomach, resting his head on my shoulder.

He kissed my cheek.

"Carlos didn't go to the hotel, he went straight to Miami Dade airport for a flight back to Cali" he said.

"Shit really?" I groaned.

"Ya and I kind of promised him I would steer clear of you, I told him I needed to sort some stuff out with you first. I think you know its probably right if I stay away? He's just worried I'm gonna fuck a thousand girls and break your heart" he explained.

Silence succumbed the condo.

"So we have untill you leave the room?" I asked.

"Yeah" he whispered.

"Will you stay with me tonight? You know just to be with me?" I felt my cheeks redden at my odd request.

He kissed my hot cheek, released his hold on me and casually layed on my bed, with his arm out stretched to welcome me in to his embrace. I took a deep breath and crawled in to his arms. We lay in silence, I drank his scent in. Which filled my mind with urges to please him.

I circled a button from the green top he wore with my finger.

James fell asleep pretty quick. He must of been shattered. I spent what seemed hours staring at his perfectness. Resenting Carlos for making this amazing weekend to be filled with regrets and promises. He did have a point though. James was going to go so far now he had been discovered. And he was far too young to get tied down to me when the female population of the USA was about to discover him too.

I kissed his cheek good night for the last time.